What is the reason?
The huge sun disk has already sunk far away in the west, and the remaining rays of sunset are shining through the open French window, falling silently on the clean floor.
The curtains beside them were swaying slightly, looking listless in the evening breeze. Occasionally, pink petals were blown into the balcony by the wind, and were rolled up and landed on the increasingly cold floor, but no one paid attention to them. Occasionally cars passed by on the road downstairs. The roar of engines and the sound of rubber tires grinding against the concrete floor were particularly clear in the deepening dusk. It was as if the crunching of dust and gravel could be heard.
Mai Shiraishi stepped on the floor that was still slightly warm, facing the twilight outside the floor-to-ceiling window in a daze. The room behind her was dark, and even though it was already dark, the lights were still not turned on.
The slender shadow was slightly blurred on the wall, and as the night gradually enveloped the air, the air became cooler. But she didn't care at all, she just looked at the scenery silently, with only one doubt echoing in her mind.
What is the reason?
From the time she parted with Sayuri Matsumura to the time she silently walked back to the apartment where she now lived alone, she had been asking herself this question in her heart.
why? Why do I feel irritable, restless, or even...sad? Why is this so?
Thoughts rise and fall like a raging wave.
Just like Sayuri said, I should have no regrets. Even if there was a second chance, I would still make the same choice. First update @ Because the confession is because of love, but it is only a confession, and it is also because of love. This is a result that has been expected and silently accepted, but why would I still be like this when it really happens?
Have you really let go?
Such a voice suddenly sounded in her heart, Shiraishi Mai was startled, she quickly shook her head and did not continue to think about it, not because she didn't want to, but because she didn't dare.
Once the answer to this question is no, then there is no doubt that it will be completely contrary to everything he is doing now.
She couldn't accept it.
However, escaping does not solve the problem. The suppressed irritability is not interrupted by stopping thinking. On the contrary, it is like scratching an itch that is far away and does not solve the itch, but intensifies.
The remaining brilliance of the west finally withered completely, and the night shrouded the entire sky. Facing this night, Shiraishi Mai only felt the loneliness in her heart getting thicker, and the sadness grew like weeds.
A gust of wind blew, and a layer of fine particles formed on the skin exposed to the air. She could not help but tremble slightly, not sure whether it was because of the cold or her inner emotions.
It was at this moment that she suddenly realized that she had been in a daze for so long.
In the room shrouded in night, the wardrobe, tables and chairs vaguely outline arcs in the darkness, like monsters lurking in the darkness.
Looking at such a scene, a hint of enlightenment arose in her heart, and her irritable and lonely mood silently reminded her that it was not suitable to continue to stay in this cramped and suffocating room.
It's time to go out for a walk.
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Baiyunshan didn't know why he did this.
For him, the most rational judgment and the best solution at the moment is undoubtedly to downplay and ignore it.
Anyway, the other party has already said it, and that’s it. Judging from the subsequent performance, this sentence does not seem to be a lie. In this case, simply pretending not to know anything and having nothing to do with it is undoubtedly the simplest and easiest answer.
But he can't.
I don’t know if it’s because of what a certain Osaka pigeon said, or because of the girl’s words when she confessed during the day. I just felt emotional when I heard those words at first, but now when I think about it carefully, I feel inexplicably distressed, as if there is a knife in my heart. Cutting slowly.
'I am telling you this not in the hope that you will pity me, or promise me anything, give me any answer, or give me any answer. "
'I just wanted to tell you that I like you. "
'That's all. "
The girl's calm tone, which she tried hard to control, still seemed to be echoing in her ears.
In fact, there is no such thing as a love that is just that, but she just said that. (This chapter is not finished yet!)
Chapter 35: Standing straight
Proud and humble.
Because she is Shiraishi Mai. She is usually so timid that she is laughed at by everyone, but she is always willing to stand up at critical moments. Her courage seems to be only for others, and this time is no exception.
'... Even if she seems really generous and doesn't care at all, judging from myself, as long as she is a girl, she will definitely be sad, but it's just not visible on the surface - "
Yes, how could you really not care?
For a girl, it is impossible to completely ignore even the trivial things in daily life, let alone something as important as confession?
It can even be said that those restraints, those plainness, and those words that were just there, all reflected the girl's concern, but he didn't notice it.
Baiyunshan felt a little guilty. He always thought he knew enough about the little idols, but he didn't notice such an extremely important thing at all...but he was also faintly thankful. Fortunately, there were people. I reminded myself of this, otherwise I might not have thought of this for a long time.
The neon lights in the surrounding streets lit up one after another. He was walking on the way to the apartment, feeling an indescribable feeling in his heart and walking in a hurry.
Suddenly, his footsteps stopped.
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Crossing the road from Eifukucho Station, walking onto the path next to Daishoken, and then turning downhill at the next intersection, Mai Shiraishi's footsteps did not stop. _o_m
She was walking on the street, but she was just walking, without any purpose.
She didn't know where to go.
She just instinctively felt that the room was cramped and crowded, and the air seemed to have become thick and sticky, making it difficult to breathe.
So she chose to go out for a walk and get some fresh air.
However, the girl really lacked the experience of walking alone, so she became confused while walking.
What was the name of the road we just walked on? Does the convenience store on the roadside look familiar? Will you see the same sign again at the next corner?
The street scenes in front of me seemed to have turned into a repetitive video, and they all looked the same. After walking for a while, Shiraishi Mai simply gave up the route, and just chose the direction of travel based on instinct. She glanced lonely at the passing street scene, watching the neon lights light up, and watching the cherry blossoms covered with snow on the carpet.
The cool night breeze was slightly chilly, but the girl seemed not to feel it and walked aimlessly.
The cafe she passed by was open for business, and the lights inside the glass windows were dim. Mai Shiraishi subconsciously paused, but she couldn't help but think of the time someone brought her here after helping her teach a lesson to someone who had bullied her before. Go to a similar coffee shop.
Now that I think about it, that must have been the first time we were alone together...
This thought came to my mind, and I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart.
The transparent glass door opened and closed, and the wind chimes tinkled behind the curtain, but she did not walk in. Instead, she stared at it for a long time, and finally turned around and left silently.
The shadows on the ground move from far to near, and fragments of petals fall from the concrete steps, one step after another. With the light of the towering street lamps, it seems that you can reach out and touch the trembling flower buds with your fingers.
Kick-kick-kick.
The footsteps were quiet for a moment.
Mai Shiraishi walked onto an overpass, and the disappointment in her heart did not disappear because of the walk. On the contrary, it seemed that because of the thought that suddenly appeared just now, she couldn't help but think about it.
Memory is like a photo album with wrong pages. Once recalled, there is no pattern and no choice.
She sometimes recalled the memories of shouting and screaming during the daring test at the camp, and sometimes recalled the scene of everyone going to the river to take a boat and looking up at the sky during the fireworks festival. But most of all, it was the daily moments with someone.
When thinking of some interesting things that happened in the past, Mai Shiraishi couldn't help but smile at the corner of her mouth. She looked at the buds trembling slightly in the night wind and was lost in thought. However, she suddenly realized something and her smile suddenly froze. His face gradually became dull.
The sadness in her heart gradually spread like melting snow. She suddenly realized what she was feeling, and couldn't help but shake her head in self-mockery.藲忿尛螞网
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Chapter 35: Standing straight
That is, looking at the familiar street scene and nameplates in front of her, Mai Shiraishi was startled, and then realized where she had walked aimlessly.
Wutongzaka......
With the name silently reciting in her heart, Shiraishi Mai's hand gently pressed her chest through her clothes. She could feel an impulse rising there, coercing her to go to that destination. It was precisely because of this impulse that, That made her come here unconsciously.
But no.
The girl thought.
She chose to stand on the overpass and look around.
The street lights were dim, but they were not at a busy intersection. There were not many vehicles and pedestrians. Looking around, she was the only one on the entire overpass, which was not spacious.
She looked at the scenery on the bridge.
A familiar figure walked slowly from under the bridge at this time, not only passing by, but also looking for it until he looked up and stopped.
People watching the scenery looked at her under the bridge. Update without error@
Shiraishi Mai lowered her head and looked at him without saying a word.
The figure looked up and suddenly smiled.
"Long time no see."
Chapter 35: Standing straight
