The leisurely cherry blossom viewing finally ended with laughter.
Although some unexpected things happened along the way, and some big news came out that was enough to cause violent reactions, but fortunately everything ended uneventfully.
- At least that's how it seems on the surface.
The next step was to naturally leave each other. It was getting late. For today's little idols, work is no longer as leisurely as it was this time a year ago. Especially for the members who are permanently selected, as the name Nogizaka46 gradually appears in the public eye and rises, all kinds of work have also increased a lot, and they are really overwhelmed when they are busy.
Those who were still living in the dormitory walked together towards the nearby station. Others who had work or wanted to go shopping also made an appointment to go together and waved goodbye to Baiyun Mountain.
This is true even for a certain Hokkaido girl. Speaking of which, the girls can be said to be the busiest among the members recently, working on dramas and movies. Although the latter is still in the preparatory stage, the various tasks put together are enough to keep people busy. If someone hadn't specially helped with the treatment before, given the girl's physical condition, I would have been worried that problems would arise if she couldn't resist it for a long time——
The clear blue sky was reflected on the glass windows of nearby tall buildings. A row of birds passed by on the roof of the building, fluttering their wings and landing on the high place.
The sun was shining brightly, and thousands of rays of twilight light penetrated the clouds one after another, making all the edges where the light came from appear blurry.
Watching the retreating figures of the girls, Baiyunshan retracted his thoughts and faced the increasingly golden sunshine as the afternoon approached evening, but his mood was not as dull as he had just shown.
Who would have thought that what I thought was just a simple cherry blossom viewing experience would actually happen. Not only did he feel complicated about the girl's words at that time, but also the various possibilities and consequences in the future also made him quite distressed.
Is Shiraishi really letting it go?
Do you just want to say those words to yourself, but after you say them, you don't care at all?
At present, it seems that this is correct on the surface, but what about the others? Regarding the news that he may leave soon, will the other party continue to keep it a secret? I was just shocked, but if I think about it carefully, this matter seems to be still unknown...
Frowning and thinking about it, Baiyunshan couldn't think of anything useful for a while. Baiyunshan sighed softly and shook his head.
Forget it, let’s go home and think about it slowly——
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the other side.
Sayuri Matsumura and Mai Shiraishi were walking on the road. They lived close to each other, so even though they had moved out of the dormitory, they still often went home together.
Today is no exception.
It's just that compared to usual, Matsumura Sayuri could faintly notice that his Mai's mood today seemed a little weird.
I can't tell exactly what kind of weirdness it is, but what is clear and certain is that although he has been acting a little weird recently, it is not as obvious as today. It can be seen that he is relieved, as if he has finally let go of something, but instead of being happy about it, he seems vaguely depressed, which is very unreasonable.
His eyes were always looking forward. On the surface, he was looking at the road. In fact, if you look closely, you can see that his eyes were slightly hollow, and he was obviously thinking about something.
After much hesitation, Sayuri Matsumura still couldn't suppress the worry and curiosity in his heart. He turned to look at the almost perfect profile of the girl next to him under the golden sunlight, and whispered: "Mai-like..."
"Um?"
Shiraishi Mai came back to her senses and looked at her.
"Are you... hiding something from me? Or is there something that has been kept in your heart that is inconvenient to say?"
"..."
Looking at the other party's concerned eyes, Shiraishi Mai opened her mouth for a moment, but no words came out.
She didn't ask why the other person felt that way, nor did she pretend to be dumbfounded or make a joke to fool him like she usually did. Not only because the silly Apple in front of her asked such a question, it meant that she must have noticed something. Doing so was really against her own will.
What's more important is that the girl herself also has confusions, problems, and things that she can't let go of.
So after a moment of silence, she slowly spoke.
Instead of answering the other party directly, he turned a corner and asked the other party a question.
"Sayuri, if you stand on the edge of the cliff, you know that if you jump there will be no chance of turning back, and you also know that there is a high probability of death below, but you still choose to jump, just to gamble on the illusory chance, and ultimately fail. Now. If I give you another chance, will you regret it?"
"regret?"
Sayuri Matsumura was a little troubled when he heard this question. He scratched the back of his hand and thought hard for a while before slowly saying: "Regret... you should regret it, right? After all, you know there is no chance, and you have tried it yourself. If If we do it again, there is no reason to make the same mistake——"
"yes."
Shiraishi Mai listened, nodded slightly, pursed her lips and walked silently.
"but--"
However, the girl hadn't finished her words yet. At this point, she paused and said thoughtfully: "Since you know that there is a high probability that this will be the result, but you still do it, it seems that you can also think about it the other way around. Then A glimmer of illusory possibility should be more important to you, right?"
"At least, to a certain extent, the importance must exceed the known result. Otherwise, you wouldn't do it even though you knew it would be like this. After all, wouldn't it be like a moth rushing into a flame? ? Thinking about it this way, since you have done this for the first time, even if you have a chance to do it again, there is a high probability that you will make the same mistake again——"
"A moth...flies into the flame..."
The girl's voice echoed in Mai Shiraishi's ears, but her thoughts gradually drifted away, and her expression became more complicated.
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...
Returning to the apartment in Wudongzaka, he opened the curtains and sat on the soft sofa.
A man in Baiyun Mountain looked out the window at the empty and lonely scenery, his mood still unable to calm down.
The road was busy with traffic, neon lights were beginning to light up, children returning from school were talking downstairs, laughing and laughing, the wind blew through the tinkling of wind chimes, and the sound of tinkling bells was clear and sweet. Occasionally, a few noises broke the air that was getting darker as dusk fell.
He listened carefully to these movements, and it seemed that he could picture corresponding pictures in front of his eyes. Usually, he would be able to calm down quickly in this kind of environment, but today he felt a little irritable.
Fortunately, he knew very well what the real cause of the irritability was.
He took a deep breath and then slowly exhaled it. Sometimes he was in a daze, sometimes he frowned and thought. He wanted to bury his head in the sand and pretend that nothing happened, but found that he couldn't do it at all.
Some words, once spoken, are impossible to look back on.
Just like a broken mirror, even if it is glued back together with clever methods, there will still be cracks left. No matter how you ignore it deliberately, you will still notice it as long as you look in the mirror.
Just staring at the wall in a daze for a while, suddenly, Baiyunshan suddenly remembered something. After hesitating for a while, he stood up, walked to the side of the sofa, and opened a certain game that he had not opened for a long time. .
Naturally, the game will not be another game, but the "Monster Hunter".
After knowing that a certain Osaka pigeon was the boss he added in the game, Baiyunshan forced himself to give up the game, and it has not been online since. Counting today, it has been almost four months.
As far as he knew, the girl had been insisting on playing this game, and occasionally heard a little bit of news about herself... or about the brain-sang from her relatives and friends. It seems that she has not been able to go online in the past few months. The girl seems very disappointed, as if she has lost a friend she can be close to. Every time she goes online, she pays special attention to it, but every time she ends up disappointed——
Baiyunshan could only secretly apologize for this. He had no choice but to know that the big boss was actually his idol and a certain Osaka pigeon. He really couldn't continue playing.
In the final analysis, I still don’t know how to face it. After all, it’s okay if I don’t know that the other person likes me. Surprise is nothing but surprise. Maybe I can take the opportunity to find out the dark history with a bad taste... But once I think of the other person, I still don’t know how to face it. Baiyunshan immediately felt mixed emotions in his heart when he liked himself, so as not to fall deeper into the trap and have no choice but to leave early.
But today, he chose to go online again.
Because he has some questions, and he really can't find anyone who can help him to answer them. After thinking about it, it seems that this is the only one who can help him at the moment.
After all, no matter in terms of identity, time spent together, or even degree of understanding, the other party should have some aspects that can help you.
