The air became silent again.
After the wind swept away, Baiyunshan sat up from the snow and remained silent without speaking.
He didn't ask why, because he knew very well that the reason why the girl chose to graduate was because of the conflict between her relationship with him and her identity as an idol.
As an idol, Nana Hashimoto cannot allow herself to associate with him, and once she confesses her feelings, it means that she is no longer an idol——
As it is now.
This is an unavoidable question.
——And he had no intention of avoiding it.
In other words, he has already thought of an answer that both parties can reluctantly accept.
Baiyunshan said calmly: "It doesn't matter, I can wait."
After a few years, when the girl feels that the job of idol is not suitable for her anymore, or she is simply tired of being an idol, and she no longer has anything to worry about, she can do what she wants to do with confidence and boldness. When, start this relationship again——
Even so, it doesn't matter.
That's what he meant.
He didn't mind waiting like this, because for two people who already knew each other's feelings, waiting was not an unacceptable thing. The last thing he wanted to see was for the girl to wrong him and end in such a sad and hasty manner——
This is also the main reason why he comes here.
On the other side, after hearing this answer, Hashimoto Nanami also silently sat up from the snow, looked at the cold snow at the foot of the mountain, and remained silent for a long time.
She didn't know what to say, or rather, how to speak.
She knew that the man in front of her liked him very much, and she was also moved by this feeling and liked him.
Just time and time again, this heart can give her different throbbing and warmth each time. Each time it can bypass the hard and cold shell and gently touch the softest part of her heart, making her deeply moved. Speechless, even ashamed of himself.
Do you want to wait...?
Hashimoto Nana is very clear about the weight of this sentence, and also understands that since the other party can say this, he will not just think of a delaying strategy. Because she knows very well that the other party also understands her character. If she really has such an intention, a girl with a strong and stubborn character will only choose to leave resolutely without any room for relaxation——
So, this is sincere.
Are you willing to wait, even for several years at a time——
Such a commitment, not to mention people of their current status, can be said to be extremely rare even among ordinary teenagers, girls and students.
The road ahead is extremely long, and who can predict what will happen in the future? Just waiting like this is undoubtedly a kind of gamble, and it is a big gamble, and the price paid is unimaginable.
After all, after spending more than a year together day and night, the girl is very clear about the shining points of the man in front of her, and also knows that with his ability, it can be said that he will definitely have a place in the entertainment industry in the future. However, because of herself, she is willing to wait silently like this, just because she hopes that she will stay and continue to work as an idol until she takes the initiative to graduate in the future——
Such a deep feeling made her unable to avoid it, but she could not face it either.
"Why didn't I meet you earlier..."
Hashimoto Nana's voice was so low that even from the nearby Baiyun Mountains, she couldn't really hear it. All she could hear was the north wind blowing like frost, whistling in her ears.
But the girl did not feel cold. A warm current seemed to surge deep in her heart, flowing to her limbs and bones, making her both physically and mentally at ease.
If we could have met him earlier, if we could have met him before he became an idol, the result would have been different, right?
Without the constraints of identity and other troubles to consider, there is no need to be as complicated as now. The result will definitely be better than imagined. However, if we really met her a long time ago, no one can say whether we would be able to have the feelings we have now——
Destiny is so wonderful.
At this moment, some pictures suddenly flashed through Hashimoto Nana's mind, and her expression suddenly became complicated again.
So after the silence, the girl spoke in a low voice.
"It's just that there are some things that I still can't understand -"
"What don't you understand?"
Baiyunshan looked at her.
"What on earth do I have that deserves you to do this? Baiyun-sang."
The girl said softly.
Baiyunshan was slightly startled.
Yes, this is what girls never understand.
In terms of appearance, although she didn't have such low self-esteem that she thought she was ugly, she didn't feel that she was good enough to see how stunning she was. Even in Nogizaka, the first thing people look at, and the one who will naturally be attracted to her in the end, is usually a certain mayonnaise star, not her.
On the inside, Nana Min, who likes to take pleasure in others' misfortunes, is a consensus among everyone around her. Not to mention Mai Fukawa, who is privately known as the Holy Mother, even a certain Akimoto Manatsu, who is always bullied and joked about having her head smashed, seems to be definitely more popular than her at first glance.
And when it comes to such illusory things as talent, in the junior year there is Miss Erihana who is recognized as versatile, in the senior year there is the senior Mica Eto who is known as an all-rounder, Yumi Wakazuki is a top-notch painter, and the well-known scholar Yamamoto Kana Nakata , Matsumura Sayuri, etc. No matter whether these people are external or internal, they are not too far from her, especially those with a subjective perspective. In the eyes of those who like them, they are even worse than her——
so--
Nana Hashimoto can't understand this no matter what, and what is it about herself that makes it worth him to pay for herself like this?
Perhaps due to the lack of security brought about by her father's early death, or because of the rational thinking she has developed over a long period of time, the girl cannot give herself a satisfactory answer every time she thinks about this question.
Even if it’s because you like yourself, things like feelings also have a reason, right? Any emotion must exist attached to something, maybe a memory or an experience, or a momentary impulse? And these should all be able to be explained——
There is not a single dark cloud in the winter night sky, and the bright moon coexists with the stars all over the sky, making it dazzling to see.
The wind on the snow suddenly stopped. After the wind stopped, the only sound beating in my ears was the increasingly accelerated heartbeat.
The soft voice broke the tranquility at the moment. Baiyunshan slowly looked at Hashimoto Nanami and sighed softly.
"It's because only you would ask this, Nanamin..."
"Um?"
Hashimoto Nana met his gaze with confusion.
Baiyunshan did not directly answer her doubts, but said softly with nostalgia on his face: "I remember that in the letter you wrote to me, you asked me what the so-called gentleness is, right?"
"..."
Hashimoto Nana was stunned.
"The so-called gentleness is you, Nanamin."
Baiyunshan said calmly.
The white breath coming out of the corner of your mouth, the little yellow flowers swaying at the hem of your skirt, the taste of fireworks and plum wine, the endless carpet of maple leaves, everything has meaning because of you.
The so-called loneliness, the so-called sky with mixed sunshine and rain, life is moving forward in such confusion, but I turned around and saw you.
——As if everything exists just for this one glance.
The afternoon was sunny, and the girl, wearing a green dress, stood under the shade of the trees at the intersection and waved gently, with a cold smile on her face.
...
...
This is the answer to Baiyun Mountain.
Hashimoto Nana stared at him quietly, with complicated expressions in her eyes. She felt her heart suddenly beating extremely hard, as if it was about to burst out of her throat, causing her to cover her chest subconsciously, because there was so much emotion there that she couldn't get rid of it.
But after a long time, the girl slowly lowered her head and suddenly whispered: "Where is Na-chan?"
