The prepared soba noodles are steaming hot, the dark noodles are dipped in the fragrant soup, and are paired with some seasoned vegetables and tempura. It is simple but delicious, and just looking at it will make you want to eat.
Next to it is the miso soup that the girl helped cook. It is rich in color and delicious. It blends well with the lighter taste of the former, making it more enjoyable to eat.
The two of them ate dinner in silence across a low table. The taste on their taste buds was pleasant, and the feeling of fullness in their stomachs was as relaxed as if a heavy burden had been lifted.
Although they were just quietly eating ordinary soba noodles and drinking freshly made miso soup, the atmosphere was obviously not as tense as before.
Different from the embarrassment of silence before, today's silence is more like a daily routine.
You don’t need to ask, and I don’t need to tell you, my thoughts and intentions have long been hidden in the air, hidden in the eyes that occasionally meet, hidden in the refreshing soba noodles and the rich and delicious miso soup.
Take a bite, drink it, and know it.
It's that simple——
Baiyunshan slowly chewed the elastic noodles in his mouth, feeling something in his heart. He lowered his head to mix the buckwheat noodles in the mixing bowl, and suddenly said: "I'm sorry for what happened just now."
"Um?"
Hashimoto Nana slightly raised her eyebrows and looked at him.
"My tone was a little stronger, I spoke a little too much, and I was a little apologetic... Actually, I didn't have that much to say. I just suddenly found out about it and felt uncomfortable, so I kept talking. I couldn't stop it. I vented it out in one breath, not caring much about your feelings -" Baiyunshan said with lowered eyes.
Hashimoto Nana shook her head calmly and said, "No, since it's because I feel uncomfortable, just make it clear. It's no big deal."
"And there's something wrong with me, too."
The girl paused as she spoke, put down her chopsticks, pursed her lips and said, "I know clearly that Baiyun-sang you are thinking about us, but I still continue to argue with you. In fact, it is meaningless at all, isn't it? We all know each other. Whatever I was thinking, I also knew that this matter could not be changed. I was just venting my unhappy emotions and refusing to face the reality."
Baiyunshan nodded sympathetically: "What you said makes sense. People are always like this. It is often more difficult to accept that what you have said before is wrong than to say a new one. Yes ...It seems that I can record your words in the "Hashimoto Collection"."
"Really? But I think Bai Yunsang's passage is also very good, and it can be recorded in "The Collection of White Clouds"——"
Hashimoto Nana tilted her head and thought for a while, then suddenly said with a playful smile on her lips.
Baiyunshan huffed when he heard this, then blinked and said with a strange expression: "Then you'll remember the appointment?"
"OK."
"But will there be a sense of business blowback?"
"How could it be? To use your words, Baiyun-sang, it's like...how can we call it a commercial affair when it comes to scholars?"
"Tsk, you learn this sentence quickly."
"Have it?"
"Just don't accidentally teach that little guy Asuka."
"I know."
"Don't tell her what I once said, 'Akimoto Manatsu is the person closest to Newton, because her head can feel the strong gravity at any time.'"
"of course--"
The two couldn't help but laugh at each other at the same time.
The ice and snow melted invisibly in the atmosphere, as all the awkwardness brought about by the fireworks display seemed to disintegrate, and everything returned to the ease and ease it once had.
But within this relaxation, there seems to be something more nostalgic and reassuring.
It is a daily routine accumulated day after day, and the delicate emotions accumulated bit by bit are like the slowly flowing water under an ice-covered river in the cold winter. The sky and the earth are frosty and cold, and everything is silent. However, the river still contains abundant vitality. It will thaw and rush out when the spring comes and the flowers bloom.
Because day after day routine is actually life.
What is the meaning of life itself? The two of them didn't know, but they were extremely clear at this time. As long as they could continue to live such a dull life with the person in front of them, then there would be no meaning, no relationship, no worries, and everything was enough.
...
"But I still don't understand, Baiyun-sang, why are you so angry today?"
After finishing the food, the two of them cleaned up the mess at the sink and cleaned the dishes one by one. While they were busy simply, the girl chatted curiously.
"Do I look angry?"
Baiyunshan was stunned for a moment.
"Um."
Hashimoto Nana lowered her eyes and thought for a moment, and said with some uncertainty: "I don't know if it's because I seldom see you angry, Baiyun-san. Anyway, you did look angry just now, and your face was a little bit... cold--"
Baiyunshan was silent for a moment: "I'm sorry."
"Won't."
The girl quickly smiled and shook her head. Looking at his thoughtful look, a flash of worry appeared in her eyes. She thought about it and said softly, "Can you tell me the reason?"
"The reason...Actually, that's pretty much what I just said -"
Baiyunshan hesitated for a moment, then sighed silently, and said seriously: "I can only say that this sixteen-person performance is really a great challenge for you. The sense of pressure and tension are both It’s the most direct and cruel competition that you can’t imagine before.”
"If the previous selection failed, it would still be a little comfort to be able to stay in the under. Then in this sixteen-person performance, failure will mean a complete fall into the abyss, without any chance of remaining compensation, only Only the sixteen who truly win are qualified to continue to stand on that stage——"
“I don’t know how many more people will be crying in tears by then.”
Baiyunshan sighed.
Nana Hashimoto turned her head and stared at his worried expression without saying anything. Naturally, like all the other members, she understood that the man in front of her was usually off-line at will, always loved to tease and bully others, and even seemed a bit hateful. What kind of gentle heart is behind her appearance.
Not to mention the 16-member performance, even the single selection that starts every few months will make him feel bad, because in fact, the last thing Baiyun-sang wants to see is someone sad——
Especially this kind of ending that cannot be avoided at all, and someone will definitely be disappointed and painful.
But what can she say? Do you think you will work hard? So what if she tried her best to stand in the position of sixteen people? It is naturally a good thing for herself, but it may not be the case for those little idols who are not included in the sixteen people, not to mention that those people are likely to have friends who have a good relationship with her and have always admired them. My little bird will probably be able to say a few words of comfort by then.
What's more, she is actually not completely sure that she can become one of the final sixteen people in the sixteen-person performance.
After all, imposing institutional factors on personal conflicts is undoubtedly shifting the focus, but is this system of sixteen-person performances really wrong? But not necessarily. After all, although it is hard and cruel, it can indeed allow girls to gain and grow, even if the current results are not satisfactory——
So no one is wrong, everything is just an inevitable part.
The only thing to blame is this world——
But looking at the lingering worry on the face of the man in front of her, Hashimoto Nana's eyes gradually showed some waves. In her heart, she was grateful for the other man's gentle care for her and others, but also couldn't bear it. I can't help but show a little bit of pity. This person was always trying to help them protect them from the menacing wind and rain, but he never considered any return.
But is it great? But it's not. The man in front of him is obviously not a great person. He is lazy and casual, loves to complain, sometimes makes some bad jokes, is unforgiving, etc., etc., which proves that he is not actually as great as a saint. people.
He was just an ordinary person who selflessly dedicated all his tenderness to himself.
That's why it's so contradictory and true.
The girl thought warmly in her heart.
So... as a way to repay this kindness, Hashimoto Nana silently cleaned the dishes she was responsible for, wiped off the water stains on her hands with a dry towel one by one, and looked at Baiyunshan, who was making another pot of hot tea and drinking it, suddenly said: "Baiyunsang, we seemed to have said we were going to study today, right?"
Baiyunshan raised his head and glanced at her in surprise, and said with a blank expression, "But didn't you just say you were going back?"
"Go back... Actually, I'm not that anxious. After all, dinner has already been eaten -"
Nana Hashimoto bit her lower lip, hesitating for only a moment, then found a seat next to her and sat down, and then took out the "Collection of Works of Modern European Poets, Volume 2" just now from her bag. , twirling the pages of the book lightly with his fingertips, hesitated and said, "Do you want to hear it?"
The latter was stunned, but before he could answer, the girl immediately pulled the corner of her clothes and patted her thighs that looked round when she was sitting on her knees. She looked a little shy and glanced to the side and whispered. : "I'm lying on it -"
Baiyunshan swallowed his saliva immediately, then put his right hand into a fist in front of his mouth, coughed lightly with a righteous face, nodded at lightning speed and said:
"think!"
