Fourteen-year-old Asuka Saito was unsure about this selection.
It can be seen from the situation in the lounge that a group of people have stiff expressions and the atmosphere is depressed, anxious, stagnant, and unnerving.
Even an adult who has been tempered in society will be affected and uneasy, let alone a group of underage little girls. Moreover, Xiao Feiniao is only in junior high school and is a bit introverted and doesn't like talking to others. On weekdays, it's okay. There are a group of kind-hearted members around. Even if the little girl is not very keen on actively looking for others to play, everyone will come over to chat with her, so as not to neglect and isolate her.
She is like an isolated island, separated from everyone by a sea. In the past, there would be a bridge between it - the bridge named Hashimoto Nanami, so that it would not drift away, but it is different now.
Now everyone is an island.
They sat on the seats in the lounge one after another, seemingly very close to each other, but the invisible ocean separated them.
They are now competitors. The continent with magnificent scenery is ahead, but only sixteen isolated islands can approach and land on this continent.
Xiao Feiniao didn't think he could do it.
She didn't think she could do even the last order, which is why Baiyunshan said she didn't have confidence, because it was too obvious. Sure enough, she is still just a fourteen-year-old child who cannot hide herself at all. Worry and fear are all written on her face. She is afraid of contact with others and afraid that others will touch her complex heart and changeable emotions. These are all What she hates about herself is also what she wants to change in Nogizaka.
The air in the silent lounge seemed to be sticky and sticky. Everyone had to exert their utmost effort to even breathe, so their faces became slightly pale, and their heartbeats became faster and louder with the gradually heavier breathing. Sweat oozed from the pressure.
There were also tears shed more directly.
Xiao Feiniao was one of them. She didn't know why she was crying. The emotions welling up in her heart were too complicated for a while, including panic, worry, uneasiness, fear, regret, anxiety, and nervousness. These emotions suddenly surged into her heart like a tidal wave, reaching her throat and rushing straight to her brain, causing an indescribable chemical reaction. Her tears just fell down under the chemical reaction.
Sobbing softly, she seemed to feel better.
Fortunately, Saito Yuri next to her noticed this in time, smiled softly and patted her little head to comfort her, which made her laugh from tears and her mood became slightly calmer.
The smile that broke through tears was not only a coquettish smile when comforting Saito Yuri, but also a smile that was ashamed of his own performance. Children often do this. They are crying and suddenly start laughing. This does not mean that the sadness before was false, but that they are amused by their embarrassed appearance.
Under the shadow of the chair, Nanase Nishino, who was next to her on the other side, carefully reached out and grabbed her finger. The slender fingertips were trembling slightly, and she could feel the fragile heart of the owner.
Just like what they did at AKB48 live when everyone performed the debut single in front of all the AKB48 fans, sharp voices sounded, and uneasiness and fear filled the stage.
Xiao Feiniao turned her head and looked. The owner of the hand did not look at her, but the touch between the fingers was slightly harder.
She pursed her lips, feeling a little calmer again, gently squeezed her hand in response, and then continued to wait quietly for the results to be announced.
One by one, the gods of good fortune were selected, and there were bursts of applause in the lounge, but with each round of applause, people's eyes dimmed a little.
Finally, Nana Hashimoto was chosen as the God of Fortune as she deserved.
Looking at the stern back of Nanamin, whom he admired and relied on, walking out, Xiao Feiniao felt empty inside, as if something was missing. Her reliance has disappeared, and the isolated island is still an isolated island. Carrier pigeons can occasionally fly here, but it is still different from the long-lasting and stable bridge. Nothing can replace that kind of peace of mind and calmness.
When the last lucky god Mai Shiraishi was selected, it was the normal selection position.
Erika Ikuta and Minami Hoshino, who used to be gods of luck, looked sad because they were gods of luck before, but now they were dropped from the selection. This was a setback. When faced with failure and troughs, no one can smile and shake their heads as if it never happened, or even if it did, that person would definitely feel lost at the moment.
But some people are even more disappointed.
The two of them fell to the selection position, which means that someone who was originally in the selection position will also fall.
Xiao Feiniao has already vaguely felt it.
The atmosphere became heavier and heavier. Even Saito Yuri, who was able to comfort Xiao Asuka at the beginning, became darker and darker. Everyone was waiting with bated breath for the result.
Not long after, another name was read out in Sayuri Inoue's choked voice.
It’s exactly—— Saito Yuri!
The person who could have comforted her just now left with tears in her eyes. She looked even more embarrassed than Nana Hashimoto's back. She didn't have that calm and calm temperament, but the feeling in Xiao Asuka's heart was similar, that The feeling of becoming more and more distant and empty became stronger.
She stared blankly at the air in front of her, her mind going blank.
The clock was ticking, and the sound was extremely harsh in the quiet lounge where only breathing could be heard, as if the heartbeat was disrupted by this sound. Even those who could no longer hold back their tears were just sobbing silently, not even daring to make any unnecessary movements or sounds.
Another selection member has been selected, Kiyora Hatanaka. This is an under member who was not selected in the previous list. Together with the previous selections, three under members have already come to the selection group.
Hatanaka Kiyoshira has always been calm, but this calmness is different from Hashimoto Nanami's calmness. This is a slow calmness. You can understand this slowness as similar to Maya. In other words, he is a fool. of calmness.
She was able to calmly walk into the haunted house, ignore the scary props inside and the intimidation of the staff, and accept the interview calmly, because she didn't know what to say at all. She is as calm as a bad girl, even in appearance, not because she is not afraid of these things, but because she does not care and does not understand these things.
But even she who was so calm cried.
Hatanaka Kiyora came to the studio crying, cried and expressed her feelings and talked to her mother. Fortunately, her mother was a humorous person, and she returned to her previous state in a few moments.
She read the next person's name.
"I just came to Beijing recently, and I feel a lot of uneasiness in my heart, but I still work very hard - Nishino Nanase!"
Due to the number of people, the applause was slightly quieter than before. Nishino Nanase, who was sitting on the other side of Xiao Asuka, closed his eyes deeply and felt the worry and pressure passing away. When he opened it again, he had tears in his eyes. Shiny, sobbing, bowed to the people in the lounge and headed to the studio.
Xiao Feiniao looked at her back quietly. Now there was no one on her left and right sides, and the place was very empty for a while.
She looked at the snow-white wall with an expressionless face. The wall was horribly white, dazzlingly white, and lonely. There was nothing there, just like her heart at the moment.
The people who comforted her, the bridges on the isolated island, and the carrier pigeons that secretly reached out to encourage her in difficult times were all gone. She was as clean and lonely as this wall.
Time is passing relentlessly.
When the name of the last selection member was read out, she clapped mechanically, and the second single selection ended.
Xiao Feiniao, who was still in the lounge, understood that she had lost the selection and came to the under group.
Although there were friends and gentle and kind people here, she knew that the distance between her and the people who wanted to get close and feel their warmth was even further away.
She couldn't help but feel jealous, jealous of the other people who entered the selection team and could continue to stand with Nanamin. But she felt ashamed as usual, disgusted with this negative and dark emotion and herself who had this emotion. She hated herself like this, even if the emotion was beating so real in her heart.
Ever since, under the torment in her heart and the disappointment of falling into the under group, she slurred her lips several times, and finally gritted her teeth with trembling.
The warm tears turned extremely cold the moment they came into contact with the air, and fell down on the round face that had not yet grown, making countless people jealous.
The little flying bird cried again.
