Gu Chenyang insisted: "I have already asked for leave, no delay."
He was so insistent that I couldn't say anything.
It would be silly for the two of us to discuss this issue again.
In one day, I met Gu Chenyang twice in such an embarrassing situation.
It was as if God was deliberately trying to make things difficult for me. I'm so unlucky.
I wanted to stay with Gu Chenyang for a while, but I felt embarrassed inside.
"Oh. Then you should go back and rest early. I'm going back too." I said anxiously.
Gu Chenyang immediately said: "I'll give it to you."
I couldn't help but smile, quickly lowered my head, and nodded gently. I can't lie to myself, I still like Gu Chenyang. After he showed that he still liked me, my heart became determined.
There are people coming and going around. Everyone is immersed in their own world and busy.
No one would pay attention to either of us. But I still feel a little guilty, afraid that others will see what I'm thinking.
"How have you been in the past two years?" Gu Chenyang was the first to speak to break the awkwardness.
I smiled slightly and said casually: "It's pretty good."
The job is okay. Although the salary is not high, I don't work much overtime. We have no pressure and usually have enough time to enjoy life.
Occasionally I feel lonely, but with Sun Meng's company, my loneliness can be eliminated.
Our pressure may come from others.
Compared with others, our wages were low, and we often attracted resentment from relatives at home who liked to compare.
Without these people who put pressure on us. Our lives are better.
I have no pursuit of money, and I usually spend very little.
I have no ambitions and just want to live an ordinary and comfortable life. My current salary is enough to support myself, and the company also pays me social security. After a few decades, I will not only have savings, but also social security, and my life will be more comfortable.
Gu Chenyang hesitated for a while and asked cautiously: "Tao Ye, can I ask you a question?"
His sudden seriousness gave me an ominous premonition.
"Okay. Just ask." I said thoughtfully.
At this moment, I was frightened and worried that Gu Chenyang would ask questions that were difficult for me to answer.
If he wants to confess to me, I really don’t know how to answer.
Now I haven't figured out how to respond to his feelings.
But in my heart I hope he will confess to me. Because of these conjectures, I felt nervous and uneasy. I told myself that if he confessed to me, I would just accept it.
He likes me and I like him. Let's stop fighting like this. It's easy to get along with her once you talk about it. We don’t have to guess each other’s thoughts anymore. I don’t have to be so embarrassed anymore.
There is no need for Gu Chenyang to persuade me, I will persuade myself.
But the development of things deviated too much from my expectations.
Gu Chenyang asked seriously: "Why did you break up with me two years ago? We are fine, there is no problem. What I did wrong is what I did wrong. Can you tell me? This problem has troubled me for a long time."
My heart instantly went cold. The remaining half also went cold within a few seconds. I no longer fantasize about Gu Chenyang confessing to me.
I sighed softly and fell into silence.
Two years ago, when Gu Chenyang took me to meet his parents, I kept this etiquette. In Gu Chenyang's eyes, it was a banquet with great conversation.
But that's not the case at all from my perspective. I've been holding back.
After eating, I went back and thought about it, and finally decided to break up with Gu Chenyang.
He didn't discover it then, and he hasn't discovered it in the past two years either.
Now I say that because I feel his mother’s contempt, will he think that I am too inferior and sensitive?
Gu Chenyang saw my embarrassment and said considerately: "If you don't want to say it, forget it."
"Yeah." I responded softly.
What do I say? I can't say. I wish he could see it for himself. I said it like I was complaining, trying to drive a wedge between him and his mother.
The newly warm relationship between us cooled down because of Gu Chenyang's question.
In order to lighten the atmosphere, Gu Chenyang took the initiative and said: "Tao Ye, I have been practicing badminton for the past two years. Now my skills are very proficient. When we have time, we can play badminton together."
Two years ago, when we were in love, we often went to the university campus to play badminton on weekends. Because I had just graduated and missed the campus life of the university. Looking at those college students, I feel like I haven't graduated yet.
At that time, Gu Chenyang was not very good at playing badminton. He likes to play basketball. But he plays badminton with me every time.
It’s just that I don’t like playing badminton much anymore.
These two years of working life have made me lazy. I think playing badminton is too troublesome. When I rest, I just want to have a good rest, or have fun, and relax. I don’t want to exercise and put myself through physical exertion.
"Okay." I agreed.
I know that Gu Chenyang's hard work in practicing badminton must be for me. I don't want to make him sad.
It's better for me to agree now than to tell him the real situation.
Besides, working people like us don’t have much time.
The two of us chatted awkwardly all the way.
Gu Chenyang introduced me to his life in the past two years. He seemed eager to tell me that he had no feelings for the past two years and had been looking for me.
I have always known about him, but I have always turned a blind eye.
How determined I was before, how regretful I am now.
"I'm home. You go back." I stopped and turned to Gu Chenyang and said.
Gu Chenyang stood beside me and said with a silly smile: "Yeah. Goodbye."
"Goodbye. You go to bed early."
I walked upstairs.
When I reached the corner of the stairs, I saw Gu Chenyang still standing there, looking at me stupidly.
Seeing me looking at him, he waved to me happily.
I nodded and continued climbing the stairs.
He used to do this when he sent me home, standing downstairs and watching me go upstairs, and then went back.
Nothing seems to have changed.
When I got home, I thought about the past and was hesitant.
I don't want to let Gu Chenyang down, I want to cherish this relationship, but I'm afraid that everything will be another hurt. I asked myself whether I could accept the complicated relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, and whether I could endure the slights.
The answer is obviously no.
If this relationship doesn't end well, do you still need to persist?
I sat on the chair blankly like a piece of wood and thought for more than an hour, still not knowing what to do. Rationality and sensibility are engaged in a fierce game, and the outcome is hard to determine.
When it was almost eight o'clock, my phone suddenly stopped ringing.
My heart immediately rose, worried about what trouble it was. When I saw Sun Meng's name, I felt relieved.
"Hey, what do you want from me?" I asked casually, knowing roughly what Sun Meng wanted to do.
Sun Meng asked carefully: "Where are you now? Is it convenient to talk?"
I said helplessly: "What's the inconvenience? Just ask whatever you want? I'm at home alone now."
As expected, Sun Meng asked directly. She also relaxed a lot, and her voice was not so tight when she spoke.
"How are you doing now?" Sun Meng asked gossiping.
I said distressedly: "Nothing."
Sun Meng was immediately startled and asked eagerly: "Why is nothing better? Didn't Gu Chenyang make it obvious when we were eating just now? You don't need to make any effort, you can be together. I ran so fast just now just to create opportunities for you. Why did it become nothing?"
Her disappointment was palpable.
Sun Meng simply cares more about my feelings than my mother.
I was very upset myself at the moment and didn’t want to tell Sun Meng this.
So I said confusedly: "There are some things you don't understand. Even if I tell you, you don't understand. It's getting late, so you should go to bed early and stop worrying about me."
Sun Meng said categorically: "No."
"I'll go find you and talk to you face to face." Sun Meng said anxiously.
After she finished speaking, she hung up the phone without giving me a chance to refuse.
I turned around, and sure enough I saw Sun Meng opening the door and going out in a hurry.
I sighed helplessly. I still have to explain my own affairs to others. This is similar to reporting work.
Sun Meng cares about me too much.
A few minutes later, there was a knock on the door and Sun Meng's urging.
"Tao Ye, I'm here, open the door quickly."
I walked over and opened the door.
Sun Meng came in forcefully like a gust of wind.
She sat down on the chair and said seriously: "Tell me about the situation after I left, and I will analyze it for you. Over the years, although I have never been in love, I have read countless books and watched others fall in love. I have a lot of experience. Don’t worry, I will definitely be able to help you figure out the problem.”
I poured a glass of water for Sun Meng and handed it over, and said sincerely: "It's really nothing, it's my own fault. I'm a little hesitant."
Sun Meng patted her thigh in disbelief and said incomprehensibly: "What do you have to hesitate about? What can make you hesitate about someone as affectionate, handsome, outstanding, and easy to coax as Gu Chenyang? Others want to find someone like this I can't find anything. You're still hesitating."
She couldn't wait to agree for me.
"He is too good and I am not worthy of him." I followed Sun Meng's words and said half-truthfully.
My words can't stop Sun Meng.
She was stunned for a moment and comforted: "You are also very good. Besides, emotional matters have nothing to do with being good or not. You want to go on a blind date, find those who have a little bit of achievements and talk about it, are self-righteous, and are extremely confident even without achievements, and are casual Do you demean people who look down on others, or do you want to find someone as outstanding, humble, and affectionate as Gu Chenyang? It is really not easy to meet someone like Gu Chenyang. If you miss it this time, you may not be able to meet him in the future. "
