Su Rong slept for half a day and a whole night without even using her dinner, and only woke up the next day.
The eldest lady heard that she was awake and came to her room early in the morning. She saw her lazily sitting at the table drinking porridge. Her whole body showed a sense of laziness from the inside out. She looked at her carefully and asked: "Are you okay?"
Ever since she was a child, whenever she felt depressed, she would shut herself in the room and sleep in darkness. Every time I wake up, I turn back into the annoying person who is running around and jumping around. Looking at it now, it seems that I haven't recovered much energy after a good sleep.
Su Rong shook his head, "It's okay."
The eldest lady sat across from her and snorted, "It's bullshit. Tell me the truth. You and Ye Guixue went out to enjoy plum blossoms last night. Why did you come back so tired that you slept for so long? Are you making trouble? Are you unhappy? Or something happened?"
She understands her, she says it's okay, but it's not really okay. This little thing has had big ideas since she was a child, so even if something happens, she won't say anything.
Su Rong looked at her speechlessly, "You asked me if I was okay? Then of course I said it was okay. No bumps or injuries. I went smoothly and came back safely. Isn't it okay?"
The eldest lady laughed angrily, "Who asked you this? Did you get bumped or hurt? I have eyes to see. I'm asking you something else."
Su Rong nodded, "If you want to ask anything else, of course there is something wrong. I returned him the amulet of one hundred thousand soldiers and horses yesterday."
"What?" The eldest lady was shocked and stood up.
Su Rong put down the spoon and looked up at the eldest lady helplessly, "Why are you so excited?"
The eldest lady looked at her in disbelief, "Of course I'm excited. It's such a big thing, why did you..." She wanted to say why you made your own decision without even saying a word, but suddenly she thought of when she agreed The engagement with Ye Guixue seemed to be decided by one person, and she suddenly choked.
Su Rong looked at her, "Don't you think Ye Guixue is too good and I am not good enough for him, and are you worried that we will not be happy in the future? You don't have to worry now."
The eldest lady glared, "Is this the same thing? I'm not worried. What's important? The key is you. Why did you return the Tiger Talisman of 100,000 soldiers to him? Did you break off the engagement with him? You don't want to go back to Nanchu Inherited the throne?"
"Think about it." Su Rong said: "How can I give my things to others? What's more, I want to avenge my mother and Wei."
"Then without the support of him and Ye Xiangfu, what will you do to seize the throne?" asked the eldest lady.
Su Ronxiao, "Rely on myself, rely on Dong Palace, rely on Zhou Gu?"
The eldest lady understood immediately and was dumbfounded, "Are you because of Zhou Gu? Because of what I said to you that day when I came back from the Protector's Mansion?"
"That's right." Su Rong now has nothing to admit, "Zhou Gu can't let me go. I asked him personally and he admitted it. He made up his mind to follow me to Nanchu to help me. Give up the East Palace and Lao The green cloud road paved for him by the Protector..."
"This..." Madam Na Na, "But he is him, and you are you. If you don't want to be affected by him, you can stop him. That kid Zhou Gu has a kind heart, and he shouldn't be so shameless as to pester you. You. If you are extremely unfeeling to him, he probably won't let you go."
"He is kind-hearted and can control himself. Maybe he can really do it just to help me and be good to me without asking me to have the hope of marrying him in the future. He can even endure the suffering for my benefit and not destroy my relationship with him. Ye Gui Will I let him go when the time comes?"
The eldest lady was stunned.
Su Rong shook his head and said with certainty: "No, it's impossible for me to trample my sincerity under my feet when I clearly understand this sincerity. What's more, I'm not ruthless towards him, am I? ?”
She mocked herself, "You will reap what you sow. When I was in Jiangning County, I planted the cause with my own hands and plotted against him to make him fall in love with me. But at the same time, I also fell into it unknowingly. I was moved by him. When I suddenly found out about my life experience, I went through hell and back again and was seriously injured and was bedridden for several days. I thought that I would take my life to avenge my mother for being harmed by Wei, and to avenge me for being assassinated over the years. , it was more important to go to Nanchu and sit in that position, so I came to Beijing without hesitation to visit the gate of the Protector's Mansion, and forced the old Protector to call off his marriage when he was unwilling. I thought, it was just a matter of time. Love is not worth mentioning. This thing is dispensable. In the face of many big things, just feed it to the dog. Maybe the dog won't eat it, but I was wrong. This thing is like poison. Once it is stained, there is no cure. "
She said softly: "Not only for Zhou Gu, but also for me."
"With Zhou Gu in front of me, I was attracted to him first. No matter how good it is to return to the snow tonight, although I am moved, I can't be more moved." She sighed helplessly, "Mother, do you think that I am in such a state of mind? , is it no longer suitable to conclude an alliance with Ye Guixue through a marriage contract? Zhou Gu would rather not abandon the Qingyun Road paved for him by the Protector's Palace and the East Palace, but also follow me to Nanchu. How dangerous is Nanchu? It's a dragon's pool and a tiger's den. Not only do I know it, but he also knows it after reading all the records of Southern Chu with the prince. Therefore, even though he knows that the road ahead is full of thorns and dangers, he can do this for me, and even do more in the future. There may be the risk of losing his life. If I didn't know, that would be fine, but now that I know, how could I remain indifferent? Even if I don't know now, I will still know that he went to Nanchu in the future. Will it be that then, Do you regret it again?”
The eldest lady slowly sat down and nodded gently, "That's right. But..."
She hesitated, "But what should you do? Everyone can see that although Zhou Gu is good, he has not been tempered and needs to grow up. As long as you leave the capital, you will be in danger everywhere. You can't keep delaying Why don't you go to Nanchu and wait for him to grow up? Besides, if you delay for a long time, you may have long nights and dreams, especially now that you have withdrawn from Ye Guixue's marriage, won't Ye Xiangfu not support you? "
Su Rong nodded, "Maybe."
The eldest lady said: "Hey, I think you shouldn't break off the engagement so quickly. You should make a decision after going to Nanchu."
Su Rong smiled, "What do you mean, I will use Ye Guixue to achieve my own goals first, and then break off the engagement with him? Mother, didn't you teach me to be honest with others since I was a child and not to always do bad things and not be a good person? ?"
The eldest lady coughed lightly and gave her a sharp look, "One moment and another. This is a life-threatening matter for you, how can you be careless? Whose child is loved by others? The Duke and Madam feel sorry for Zhou Gu, don't I feel sorry for you? ? If I had known this, I might as well not have told you. Without the support of Ye Xiangfu, wouldn’t you have tied your life to someone’s sword? "
"That's not the case." Su Rong was very single, "The decision has been made anyway, let's take it one step at a time!"
The eldest lady sighed, "You have done everything, and this is all you can do."
She asked Su Rong, "Ye Guixue simply agreed to break off the engagement? I think he didn't treat you carelessly. He was always considerate and considerate. He only followed your orders. Although he was not as lively as Zhou Gu, he was very lovable." Hi. With someone like him as your royal husband, you will feel relaxed and not too tired. But Zhou Gu is different."
Su Rong shook his head, "He doesn't agree, but he is not Zhou Gu. We started with a marriage contract, which is not pure in nature. He will understand how to adjust himself."
The eldest lady sighed, "Zhou Gu is too young. He may have an unstable temperament and too many variables. Secondly, he has not been tempered and is not stable enough. I don't know whether he will be able to take on big things in the future. You put your treasure on him. , it’s really a gamble.”
Su Rong said: "There's nothing we can do about it, mother. If I don't do something now, I will definitely not do it in the future. I don't dare to bet on that eventuality."
"What if?"
"What if, after I secure my position in the future, I ignore Ye Guixue and instead want to look around. That would be too inhuman, isn't it?"
The eldest lady was speechless.
If that's the case, then Tai is not a human being? I am afraid that I will be criticized and reviled by others, and I will be looked down upon by others no matter when I put it aside. Even if he is a king or an emperor.
(End of chapter)
