It was probably Xu Youyi's words that amplified the uncontrollable feeling in his heart, and Pei Yanzhou hesitated for the first time.
He could only tell himself again and again that Song Jinyin had no choice, she could only stay by his side.
The heat in the bathroom gradually dissipated.
Pei Yanzhou left, hesitated for only a moment, and finally opened the door that he hadn't touched for a long time.
The hair was a little wet, and the black brocade clothes were a little darker due to the falling water drops.
The people in the room had fallen into a deep sleep. Pei Yanzhou stopped beside the bed. Seeing her peaceful sleeping face, the turbulence in his heart showed signs of calming down.
But as soon as he touched the bed, the person nestled in the mattress suddenly opened his eyes and retreated inside.
Song Jinyin couldn't tell whether this was a dream or not.
But where Pei Yanzhou couldn't see her, she put her hand on her belly to protect her, as if it was an instinct after knowing that she was pregnant.
"Having a nightmare?"
Song Jinyin's movements were so fast that Pei Yanzhou couldn't react. Only his hoarse voice revealed his slight stupor.
He is the only one in this room who would just come in.
Song Jinyin's resistance will not be to others.
The anger was suppressed as soon as it surfaced, and Pei Yanzhou suddenly seemed to notice the growing gap between the two.
What separates her from the desk of that day is more than just the distance that he and she can see.
"I won't touch you today, don't be afraid."
The man's cold bamboo fragrance instantly reached the tip of Song Jinyin's nose.
The quilt moved, and she saw the person coming on the bed, her deep brows and eyes seemed to be showing a tired look, Song Jinyin pursed her lips for a long time, but she only replied with one good word.
His hand was placed on her waist, as natural and domineering as before.
After waking up from her dream, Song Jinyin tried her best to suppress the resistance in her heart and forced herself to close her eyes.
Just the familiar smell on the tip of my nose made the scene in the dream seem more real and clear.
In the dream, Pei Yanzhou did not kill her, but he took her child away and handed it over to the Crown Princess who could not see clearly.
He said that this was her life, Song Jinyin.
Song Jinyin did not dare to refute, fearing that she would be resented and people would blame her child. She also knew that as long as she stayed in this house for one more day, she would never be able to raise her child by her side.
She didn't even dare to dream of perfection.
"I will not give you away into anyone else's hands."
After a long time, Pei Yanzhou spoke, his voice low and hesitant.
"I want people to know... some of my dealings with other people, so I can't be disrespectful to her in front of outsiders."
He couldn't show off Xu Youyi's face, so he could only let her let her hatred fall on him.
Song Jinyin understood.
And these seemingly insignificant things in the eyes of others may fill her every day in the future.
As long as she is in Zhuyayuan, she will become a stepping stone for those so-called important people to gain face.
This is the situation, this is the fate that she seems not to be in, but she can't escape.
But why her?
Song Jinyin thought of the moment she knew she was pregnant, and the overwhelming joy in her heart was far greater than the fear in her heart.
But only for that moment.
She clearly understood that she was the only one in the world who longed for this child.
"This slave knows what the prince means."
Song Jinyin subconsciously wanted to rub her belly again, but because of others, she had to endure it, "It is my blessing to be able to work for the prince and Miss Youyi."
"Song Jinyin."
Although he knew there was resentment in her words, Pei Yanzhou couldn't bear to hear her sarcastic remarks, and his tone unconsciously added a bit of anger.
"I won't let her use old things to vent her anger on you again, and you don't need to take this to heart anymore."
"What if there is a next time?"
Song Jinyin recalled his indifference today and asked for some reason. Her hands under the quilt curled up slightly, "If there is a next time, will the prince protect the slaves in front of outsiders?"
"I never let people interfere in things around me, but do you really value some superficial promises so much? If you..."
"Okay, I will listen to the prince, I will forget what happened today."
The sudden response made Pei Yanzhou stunned again.
He began to wonder what Song Jinyin was thinking. He wanted to hear her say more, but he was afraid that if she really said it, the two of them would fall into an irreversible situation.
The room fell back to tranquility in an instant. Pei Yanzhou lost the strategizing skills of the past, and the irritability in his heart made his reason loosen at the edge.
The night was as cold as water, but he couldn't calm down for a long time, so he had to find some words to break the silence.
"Why did you avoid my people today and go to the west of the city?"
"That was my slave's errand, but it got sidetracked for a while and I couldn't find the way. This delayed me for a while and also delayed the prince's people from coming to find my slave."
"You should know that I won't really let you do things for her."
Pei Yanzhou took her into his arms and rested his chin on her black hair.
It was clear that after today there was still tomorrow, and her words clearly showed sleepiness, but Pei Yanzhou still stubbornly refused to let her sleep.
Song Jinyin noticed something strange about the person holding her.
She wasn't sure, she just felt that every word he said seemed to be trying to prove something, but at this moment, she no longer cared.
She didn't want to suffer the embarrassment and helplessness she felt when she was abandoned again.
"Is there anything else you want to tell me about today?"
Pei Yanzhou's voice brought her back to her senses. Thinking of the fetus in her belly, Song Jinyin finally put away her coldness.
"When I was in the west of the city today, I saw a very small private school. The child in it was only five or six years old. He read like an old master. It was very interesting. I couldn't help but take a look outside. "
"Just by looking at it, I saw a 15-year-old boy being taken away by the servants at home. Later I found out that the boy was the eldest son of the concubine in the family and was not valued by his mistress. He also sneaked into the school without leaving the school. "
"This servant was confused for a moment. He happened to meet the prince there, and he stole half a day's leisure."
"You've been talking about private schools for girls lately."
Pei Yanzhou remembered the words from Butler Wang and learned that she and Pei Musheng had rescued a little girl a few days ago, and therefore inquired a lot about girls' studies.
"However, since the eldest son of the concubine has a long name, he should have lost his aunt and was raised by his mistress early in the morning. Especially at the age of only five years old, it is not unusual to receive some training. He is lucky to be able to live safely. He was born into an ordinary family."
"My slave thinks so too."
Song Jinyin leaned obediently in his arms, her tone was clear and calm, as if she was chatting with him.
Only her lowered brows and eyes concealed her thoughts that she couldn't hide, and her slightly bright eyes dimmed little by little as Pei Yanzhou's words followed.
"What the Crown Prince is saying is that the eldest son of a concubine is the eldest son. I look at it. It seems that there are very few nobles in aristocratic families who have a concubine as their eldest son."
"Well, it won't matter after the wedding. But if the concubine and the elders end up in the same place before the wedding, the future mistress will be slapped in the face. Naturally, she can't be exposed to the public."
"What if there is one?"
Seeing that she seemed to be really curious, Pei Yanzhou subconsciously lowered his head and looked at her, but the person in his arms had already half-closed his eyes, full of sleepiness.
"But you heard other people's stories from Pei Musheng?"
Song Jinyin yawned slightly, followed his words, and nodded in his arms.
Seeing the laziness in her words and the lack of indifference just now, Pei Yanzhou's uneasiness finally began to dissipate.
But he didn't hold her hand, so he didn't know how wet her hand was.
"If you have one, you will probably not stay. Those who are important will be sent to other courtyards. Those who are not important, or those who want mother to be more valuable than son, will naturally be in danger of losing their lives. There is never a shortage of women in the backyard of children of aristocratic families. Compared with their future, These are just trivial matters, not enough to stand up for it.”
As soon as he finished speaking, Pei Yanzhou paused slightly as if something suddenly occurred to him.
"Don't listen too much to what happens in other people's backyards from now on. If the mistress has nothing to do after the wedding, the eldest son of the concubine will not be completely out of the spotlight."
Song Jinyin understood the meaning of his words.
The eldest son of a concubine can stay, but only after the mistress has nothing to do. This is a rule that no one can break.
Song Jinyin did not dare to think that she would be different from others. She was not even sure if Pei Yanzhou knew about it, whether he would think that she wanted the mother to be more valuable than the child, and would become even more angry at the fetus in her belly.
The hand on her waist moved, and the heat from the man's body finally spread to her body, as if shouting at his restraint these days.
Song Jinyin suddenly felt a little scared, but just as she was about to retreat, she saw Pei Yanzhou closing his eyes.
"I told you I won't touch you today, so don't think too much about it and go to bed early."
The dim candlelight swayed in the corner, and Song Jinyin relaxed her body, but her palms were still moist.
What Shicai said was actually not a test.
In other words, she could clearly understand what attitude Pei Yanzhou would have towards him without having to think about it.
But at the moment when the man seemed to care, she suddenly remembered that this was his and her child, and she couldn't help but feel dazed for a moment.
But the words "Don't stay" still woke her up in the end.
Pei Yanzhou has always been cold and decisive in major matters. He will have many heirs in the future and will never make an exception for her and the fetus in her belly.
