Shen Yuhe watched her expression change from worry to relief, and for a moment he couldn't figure out where the bright stars in her eyes came from.
But somewhere deep down, I felt that she should have been so bright.
Withdrawing his hand, Shen Yuhe poured a glass of water for her, with a few soaked medicinal herbs still visible in it.
"I told you before that if you don't take good care of your health in the future, it will be extremely difficult to get pregnant. Today I will put it another way. You can only choose one of the two things, take good care of your health and get pregnant."
Song Jinyin's hand that took the cup stopped in mid-air. The smile on her face didn't even have time to break away, but her heartbeat was beating very fast.
She obviously drank the Bizi Soup, but why did she still...
Song Jinyin remembered the sourness of the last bowl of medicine. In fact, the medicine delivered earlier had become less bitter, and the difference was even more obvious in the last bowl.
But she didn't dare to think about it, let alone guess what Pei Yanzhou was thinking.
With the matter between the Duke of Guo and the Liu family, Pei Yanzhou would never let her have the possibility of having a child. He would only take concubines after the wedding, and he would not do anything that would harm his mistress's face.
But this happened, and it caught people off guard.
Song Jinyin's heart cracked open, and a dark color grew inside.
She thought, unless Pei Yanzhou would let her die.
The fear that arose in her heart immediately enveloped her whole body. Even if she was punished by the old lady that day and was dying after the board fell, she had never been as scared as she was now.
"I......"
But as soon as he spoke a word, the final sound was already dry and unable to be pronounced.
She had a vague expectation, but she could only watch helplessly as that expectation was swallowed up by worry.
It took her a long time to find her voice among the noise inside her.
"What Doctor Shen meant, I now have..."
"Yes, you are pregnant."
Seeing that she didn't dare to say those two words, Shen Yuhe simply spoke for her.
Just seeing those shining eyes instantly filled with moisture, his next words were stuck in his throat and he couldn't say them out.
If it were for her body, this child could not be kept.
But although the little girl in front of her had shock and worry in her eyes, it was obvious that she was more happy.
After thinking for a moment, Shen Yuhe finally met those watery eyes.
"The girl is weak. If she insists on staying, her body will be completely wasted just once, which will affect... her longevity. Now the time is extremely short. If..."
"But Doctor Shen, I will only have this child, right?"
Song Jinyin unconsciously raised her hand and put it on her belly, asking each word with difficulty, "I can vaguely feel that if I don't keep him this time, he won't come back to me again, right, Doctor Shen?"
Since Shen Yuhe took over the mantle of his master, he has seen countless life and death.
He would feel pity for those people, but more importantly, he would feel calm and self-possessed after seeing the diagnosis. Like an outsider looking down at all sentient beings, he would know the grief, but he could not feel the pain along with it.
But now he looked at Song Jinyin's eyes that seemed to be filled with stars, and saw that the hope inside them was mixed with caution, and he was looking at her helplessly. Shen Yuhe was about to nod, but he couldn't continue no matter what.
In the end, Song Jinyin shook her head to herself, curled her lips, and smiled weakly.
"I know I'm selfish, but if I can live a few more years, even if my body can only hold on, I still want to keep him, whether it's a son or a daughter, I just want..."
She wanted to love him well, and all the love that she had longed for when she was young but had never favored her again would fall on the child in her belly.
But as soon as Song Jinyin said that, tears fell from her eyes.
A sense of despair arose spontaneously, she actually knew everything.
"Did you know that it will probably be difficult for him to recognize you as his mother in the future?"
After a long time, Shen Yuhe finally became cruel.
Instead of protecting the child in her belly who might never see the light of day or be brought up in someone else's lap, it was better to protect the tough girl in front of her.
"If you were just an ordinary citizen, even a hard-working village woman struggling to make a living, I wouldn't have much advice, but you are in the Pei family."
"If they kill you and your unborn son for the sake of the face of the mistress in the future, it will be difficult for them to keep even the title of commoner. And if the Pei family wants to keep this bloodline, they will leave the mother and keep the son. Give the future mistress an explanation, and you will die regardless."
"Or do you think that the eldest son of the Pei family will protect you? Even if he protects you, it is impossible...and extremely difficult for this child to stay by your side."
"It seems like you are still willing to risk everything to give birth to him?"
Song Jinyin had already thought through these words before Shen Yuhe spoke.
She knows better than anyone the consequences of being known about her pregnancy.
Her child wouldn't call her mother, and she might not even get a chance to look at him.
Pei Yanzhou will not stand in front of her, just like Shicai, she will always be the one abandoned by him.
Song Jinyin's lips moved and her vision became blurry.
Her hand stayed on her belly and remained unmoved. Tears fell one after another. For the first time, she lost her sense of proportion in front of outsiders.
There was some movement at the door outside the hall, and someone came in with tea. The man in the moon-white robe was cool and handsome.
"Since it's still too early, it's better to let her think about it."
The man placed the things in front of her. Various pastries were in bright colors, some with hibiscus engraved on them.
Liuxiangzhai's pastries are often carved with hibiscus, which are grand, beautiful, expensive and exquisite.
Xu Youyi used to love eating pastries from this store, but later she would always bring some with her when she secretly visited Song Jinyin.
The little girl knows that this thing is expensive, so she doesn't dare to be greedy if she likes it. She can eat a piece of pastry for a long time, and she is careful in everything.
He has not been able to see his old friends for a long time now. He only knows that the people he once made friends with are living a stable and comfortable life.
Only Song Jinyin, walking on thin ice in that high wall from which she could not escape, never dared to relax.
...
When Pei Yanzhou returned home, there was only one dim candle left in Song Jinyin's room.
Hearing Cang Lin's words during the day, he immediately became angry. Fortunately, not long after, the attendant sent a letter and saw her at the street corner in the west of the city.
Hearing that she was walking slowly, her dark eyes seemed to be out of focus, and her face looked slightly sick.
Pei Yanzhou's heart was not calmed by the news about her, but instead he was filled with anxiety.
But in the end he went to the appointment with the third prince.
We had already made an appointment to meet today. He was about to leave the capital, and half of the forbidden troops were handed over, so there was no chance of any mistakes.
"Can Shen Yuhe prescribe medicine for her today?"
"Hui Shizi, there is indeed medicine sent."
Butler Wang came over and asked someone to bring hot water, "I also asked someone to take a look at it. It's just some medicine to replenish the body. There is nothing wrong with it."
Pei Yanzhou took off his outer shirt, and the bathroom was filled with heat. Except for his robe on the shelf in the distance, the entire bathroom was empty.
The person who took care of this place in the past was also Song Jinyin.
She always liked to fold his coat neatly and put it somewhere else, keeping a certain distance away from the incense at the door to prevent the smell from being too strong.
But now, she hadn't stepped into this place for a long time, and even the smell of white smoke was no longer what he was used to.
"Take away the incense."
"Yes, Your Majesty."
Butler Wang raised his hand, and Zhu Sheng led the people forward.
Suddenly there were several people in this place, which seemed to break the emptiness in his thoughts just now.
But Pei Yanzhou always felt vain.
"Does Shen Yuhe have any other explanations?"
"There aren't too many. Most of them are Miss Jinyin's body and need more rest."
"Then I'll do less work for her. I need to leave the capital in a while. Let Biyu finish the errands at hand and wait until next spring before deciding to leave."
"The prince is leaving Beijing this time, but he has to wait until spring to return home? The old lady has already sent someone to deliver a letter to the second young master. If he is not here, the old lady is afraid that the second young master will be involved in the New Year matter. ."
Butler Wang was shocked. He was not in the mansion at this time of the year. His Majesty sent this errand, fearing it would be a big deal.
But now that the world is at peace, the corruption in the court is just an undercurrent for the time being, and no one is going to tear through that layer of obstruction, so there shouldn't be any turmoil.
"There is no need to wait for the New Year's Day. Yuxi Mountain will suppress the bandits and you can return to Beijing within a month. It's just that I'm not here in the courtyard. You should know how to act."
"Yes, I understand."
"Let people have a good time to repair the Yanliu Pavilion. It must be spring in the coming year so that people can live in it. Don't make too much noise."
Butler Wang didn't react for a moment, and the words of consent were stuck in his throat.
Yanliu Pavilion is very close to the main house. It is quiet and quiet. It is a rare and good place. And besides Song Jinyin, he can't think of anyone else who will live in it.
But if it is really Song Jinyin, it shouldn't be next spring. This is too hasty.
"I think if Miss Jinyin knew about it, she would be extremely happy."
Butler Wang tried to probe, and saw Pei Yanzhou's thin lips pursed tightly, and uncertainty flashed in his dark eyes for a moment, and then returned to darkness.
"She has no choice whether she is happy or not."
