Pei Yanzhou did not go to the study in the end.
When he entered the room, he raised his eyes and glanced at Cang Lin. Seeing his expression that had not yet fully recovered, he suddenly remembered that Song Jinyin had brought money for him.
"After you're done with it, you'll be on duty again."
Cang Lin didn't dare to say anything. His intuition told him what was wrong. It wasn't too serious, but it was enough to make him uneasy these days.
After saying a word to Butler Wang, Cang Lin turned around and disappeared into the night, disappearing into the courtyard.
It was very warm inside the room. Pei Yanzhou only stood there for a moment, and the chill on his body was completely gone.
The food box that was brought back was placed on the table, and the contents were laid out. Each item contained not much, but there were many varieties.
"The food doesn't taste good?"
Pei Yanzhou glanced at the things on the table. They had been moved, but not much.
He frowned, picked up the bowl, scooped out some soup that was simmering on the side over low heat, and picked up a few completely untouched Longjing shrimps for her.
"My slave has eaten. Thank you, Your Majesty."
Seeing him coming, Song Jinyin felt a little uncomfortable and wanted to get up, but then she remembered her current situation and laughed at herself.
How can she mess around now?
But now she didn't intend to conflict with Pei Yanzhou anymore, so she just lowered her eyes and pursed her lips. After the emotion subsided, she looked at him again.
What I looked at were the plump and tender shrimps in the bowl, curled up together, and you could tell they were tender and smooth just by looking at them.
A memory flashed through her mind, showing her cooking for Pei Yanzhou's birthday.
At that time, she had just entered Zhuyayuan for the second year, and she was only nine years old. She didn't understand why Pei Yanzhou hated her so much, but she still remembered his kindness, so she stepped on the wooden blocks and carefully replaced him in the small kitchen. He made a shrimp dish.
But the shrimp failed to reach him in the end.
Pei Yanzhou no longer celebrates her birthday, and when he saw her, he only had eyes that were cold to the bone.
Later, the plate of food was taken away by someone from the kitchen, and she was eventually charged with gluttony and stealing. She was punished and laughed at.
But in fact, no one knew that she couldn't eat the shrimp, but even if she defended herself, no one was willing to listen to her.
Song Jinyin gradually closed her mouth.
She couldn't really stuff a few shrimps into her mouth and tell others with her life.
You see, it’s really not for me to eat. If I eat a few more pills, I’ll die.
The person in front of me was sitting on the wooden chair next to her, using a spoon to ladle the milky white soup in the bowl. Seeing that her eyes were empty and she seemed to be distracted again, although she felt uncomfortable in her heart, her tone was still calmer. .
"Drink some more soup. The doctor said you are too weak. If you don't take good care of yourself, in the future..."
Speaking of this, Pei Yanzhou was stunned for a moment, and then stopped talking.
It will be difficult to get pregnant in the future.
The medical woman beside Shen Yuhe mentioned something yesterday.
But although he had some softness towards Song Jinyin, it was only towards her.
The word "pregnant" should not have appeared on Song Jinyin.
"But this slave really can't drink anymore."
Song Jinyin came back to her senses and looked at the person in front of her in a daze. It took her a long time to regain some clarity.
She heard what he just said, although she didn't finish it, she didn't care.
Thinking of her rejection just now, Song Jinyin thought about it for a moment and added: "I'm sorry, Your Majesty, I just woke up not long ago. Why don't you eat it later?"
There seemed to be something different, and Pei Yanzhou couldn't tell.
He looked at her face, which was still pale after all day, and picked out a shrimp with a spoon, "I'll eat the rest later, but this thing is hard to eat when it's cold, so try it while it's hot."
Looking at the shrimp that was almost brought to her mouth, Song Jinyin blinked and tried her best to suppress the heat inside.
"Your Majesty, this servant cannot eat anything."
Seeing that the atmosphere had cooled down, she raised her eyes to look at him and smiled, as if she was talking about something that had nothing to do with her. "You will get a rash if you eat it. The doctor said that if you insist on eating it, you may get a rash." will die."
Not wanting her words to sound too deliberate, the more Song Jinyin spoke, the bigger the smile on her lips became.
But Pei Yanzhou's hand trembled slightly because of these words, and the fingertips holding the spoon turned white. After a long while, he stiffly retracted his hand.
He seemed to have asked her to eat shrimp. I don't remember clearly, but I vaguely heard her refusing. In the end, she seemed to have taken leave because she was feeling unwell.
He didn't take it to heart, but now that he thought about it, he didn't dare to look into those eyes.
"I'll have the shrimps removed and I'll eat the rest later."
His voice was dry and hoarse. Pei Yanzhou stood up, put the things back, and used a handkerchief to clean his hands. When he turned around, he saw Song Jinyin looking to the side, as if looking for someone.
"What's wrong?"
"Your Majesty, can you call someone over and help this slave back to your house?"
Song Jinyin hesitated before speaking, but if she kept silent, it would be inconvenient for her to do anything here.
"You can't stay in this place?"
"No, it's a slave..."
Sensing his dissatisfaction, Song Jinyin pursed her lips, her face a little uncomfortable: "This slave is feeling unwell and wants Xueyu to help."
The room was silent for a moment, and Pei Yanzhou looked at her gradually blushing face and approached the bed again.
"But... need to go to the bathroom?"
"no!"
Song Jinyin quickly replied and hid her face in the mattress. However, this move inexplicably made Pei Yanzhou lose his anger just now, and he raised his lips and smiled.
He didn't expect that her blushing look was so interesting, and it even made him feel more at ease than her meekness just now.
"Really?"
"..."
"I'll let people in."
Without teasing her any more, Pei Yanzhou swept away the complicated emotions and called back Xue Yu and the familiar maid who had appeared during the day.
This round trip took less than half an hour.
Song Jinyin hesitated, first because she didn't want to injure the wound anymore, and secondly because she wanted to wait for Pei Yanzhou to go to the study.
Every day before nightfall, if he was in the house, he would go to the study to handle some official duties. Sometimes he would be busy until midnight. Song Jinyin would be waiting for him, so she would grind ink and light a lamp for him next to him, and would stay until midnight.
Today, he returned home early and had new contact with the Xu family. He must have gone to the study to stay for a few hours.
But Song Jinyin didn't expect that she just changed her clothes and that person appeared outside, with a patience that she couldn't understand.
Listening to the gentle instructions, Song Jinyin was in a daze.
But she knew that she could no longer fall into the invisible illusion.
No one knows better than her that behind Pei Yanzhou's occasional tenderness towards her is a sharp blade that will never let go.
After coming out, his body was picked up by him, saving him the trouble of walking.
Song Jinyin didn't struggle or avoid him, she just lay quietly in his arms. She no longer cared about other people's faces as before, and was so honest that Pei Yanzhou lowered her head and looked at him several times.
"After suffering this loss, you know it's time to give in?"
His teasing words were in her ears, his lazy joking words, but they spoke accurately to her heart.
Song Jinyin smiled, with sadness and mockery in her eyes.
Her body is her own, and her life is also her own. She will no longer be the same stupid and stubborn person as before.
"It's windy here. I don't want the wind to blow, and I don't dare to displease the prince."
"If you don't want to offend me, just eat something later."
"Yes, my servant, thank you for your concern, Your Majesty."
Song Jinyin lowered her eyelashes and buried her face in Pei Yanzhou's arms, "Will the prince have to go to the study today? I am afraid that I will delay the prince's affairs, and I have been worried in my heart."
Pei Yanzhou's steps slowed down a little, and he frowned because of her words of thanks and fear.
Ever since she was rescued yesterday, her face had become more affectionate, but when she was awake, her words were very clear and distinct.
For some reason, the person who was supposed to go to the study to do something suddenly changed his mind.
"I'm not going today. I'll just stay with you in the house. Are you willing?"
The hand on his arm curled up slightly, and the person in his arms seemed to be stunned, his long eyelashes not moving for a long time.
After a long while, he responded in a low voice, "Your Majesty remembers me, and I am willing to do so."
