[Chapter 212] Hatred and Forgiveness For regular infantry, guns are the second weapon of a soldier.
"Life", what is the relationship between life and life? The gun is the second life of the soldier. What does this second life mean to the soldier?
Life and life are interdependent and are a link in the biological chain. This is a natural law. After all, the gun is also interdependent for the warrior, in terms of the second life and the natural life of the warrior.
Guns are the weapons of warriors, and using them well to exert their lethality is an important way and means to destroy the enemy and protect yourself. For Zheng Feng, this is especially true for the exoskeleton armor on his body. It is not even said that it has become one with him. , has become a part of his life. If there is a problem or malfunction in this armor during battle, even if Zheng Feng can quickly detach from the back of the armor through the exoskeleton emergency release system, but in today's era when exoskeletons have become standard equipment for soldiers, Even though his own muscles and strength are several levels ahead of ordinary people and have almost reached the limit of human muscle and core strength training, the physical body still seems too small and fragile under the powerful power of the exoskeleton. This is It is an unavoidable problem unless Zheng Feng undergoes various prosthetics and biochemical modifications to get rid of the shackles of the human body, but Zheng Feng does not want to become that kind of person.
"Artificial object"... But after carefully searching the armor's system, Zheng Feng did not find any traces of malfunctions or virus intrusions. It seemed as if what Du Jin saw just now was all an illusion. The same, but his instinct told that it was not an illusion. Even so, Zheng Feng checked again and again that there was no problem and was not wasting time: "No! I can't waste time anymore. If the Unity Church finds a problem and returns here, or loses It would be bad if I had the patience to directly attack the hover car. I had to take action immediately. The problem just now may be the circuit interruption caused by signal interference, but no problems were found in the key systems and modules, which was enough to meet my combat needs. "It's not that Du Jin's hover car should be parked in place intentionally, but that the hover car cannot be started until the external risks are determined, such as whether there are hidden dangers in this weapon, because the particles can only be started when the hover car is in a stationary state. The energy-gathering stance improves the defense of the car body by one level. If the body moves, due to the spillover effect of particles, the particle stance cannot operate during the movement. At that time, the entire hover vehicle can only rely on the outer layer of armor for defense. If you encounter an electromagnetic weapon or an armor-piercing weapon of more than medium caliber, it will definitely be a nightmare... Coupled with the sudden attack of the electronic checkpoint just now, the front end of the vehicle body disappeared directly. This caused a certain degree of damage and loss to the energy supply system of the hover vehicle. Although the hover vehicle would not be completely thrown away, the speed would naturally have a considerable impact. In this case Breaking away from the particle energy gathering position is tantamount to digging one's own grave. This is why Zheng Feng came to remove the source of interference. Only with the support of the garrison can security be ensured in the true sense. Otherwise, the enemy does not have heavy weapons and The desire to attack is too costly. If it succeeds, everyone will be happy, but if it fails, there is a high probability that the people in the car will not survive. Even if they survive, they will become prisoners of the Unity Sect. I am afraid the ending will not be much better than death.
Next, Zheng Feng involuntarily walked towards a road. He did not touch any danger along the way, and even gave people the illusion that all detection and defense had avoided him, but Zheng Feng did not. He was alert to this as usual, but instinctively thought that this was the path and approach he should take.
Soon, Zheng Feng crossed over without any psychological barriers. The detection area that had worried him before about whether he would be discovered arrived at the isolated outpost outside the post. This area was designed to allow combatants to enter and leave the post's blast-proof door. There can be a buffer zone, otherwise if the door hides an ambush, wouldn't everyone who comes out of it suffer?
The outpost is equipped with a rapid-fire plasma howitzer, which can cause a sharp and suppressive covering attack on lightly armored units and personnel within a 270-degree range. This alone is enough to put Zheng Feng at an absolute disadvantage. .
It was still there. Judging from its orientation, Zheng Feng confirmed that he was not being manually controlled. When he came to the entrance of the outpost, he found that the alloy isolation door that was supposed to be closed had not been closed, exposing the explosion-proof door that led directly to the outpost. door passage.
"The isolation door is not closed? Are those from the Unity Church confident that no one will touch this place? But there are no risk factors found nearby. Maybe some soldiers who have not yet been fully controlled opened it for me in advance... ..." Zheng Feng was nervous for a moment after seeing it, but his caution was shattered by the inexplicable peace of mind in his heart. If it were normal, Zheng Feng would never dare to enter this kind of harmony.
In the trap of "inducing surrender", he naturally ignored the factors involved and held on to the best hope.
The "smooth" perspective convinced myself. When he came to the heavy explosion-proof door, Zheng Feng was ready to try to use his special permission code to see if he could open the door control system. But just as he was about to try, the heavy explosion-proof door opened up and down. Zheng Feng was surprised. , and finally walked in with a little hesitation, because a voice in his mind kept telling him that everything that appeared in front of him was what he deserved, and he did not need to hesitate or refuse. Just like that, Zheng Feng entered the buffer room. , the alloy isolation curtain in the control room was raised immediately, but it was immediately empty. No one asked Zheng Feng, and Zheng Feng could not get help. The buffer room, which was not too small, seemed to have become a closed cage. , compressing the space around Zheng Feng bit by bit.
For a moment Zheng Feng felt that this room seemed
He is "alive" and wants to be integrated with himself, so that he can truly control this post. Whether it is turning off the source of signal interference or using various automatic weapons that the post can directly control, it can satisfy him. The desires and goals in his heart, these thoughts made Zheng Feng's thinking become chaotic. He wanted to refuse, but found that he could not think of a reason and way to refuse, but if he wanted to accept, his reason did not allow it.
He stayed like this in a state of confusion for a few minutes. Just as Zheng Feng's consciousness was about to enter a state of deep sleep, the words that one of his comrades said in his ear before he died suddenly flashed through his mind: "If you see my I have returned to my hometown. Remember to find a place in Blue Star with the most beautiful and quiet night sky, and let me take a good look at it, just fine..." The grief and the faces of my comrades at that time The helplessness, expectation and longing at the post made Zheng Feng wake up suddenly. He clearly realized: "There is something wrong here! I seem to have been led here by something all the way, and this post is completely unattended." status, but if so, the core communication unit located inside the outpost, which is the source of interference itself, cannot operate. As an integrated interlocking system, it is impossible to open a similar communication system without activating security facilities. Why is it here? It's so abnormal, like...it's like it's waiting for me to enter the cage..." At this moment, Zheng Feng suddenly realized the various guidance in his mind before. It may have been forcibly imposed by other forces. Although it did not change his own cognition, because it would make him immediately realize that he had a problem, the other party indirectly exerted various mental hints and disguised these hints as his own subconscious. to control his behavior.
Our actions are not aimless. We often choose to act because we want to accomplish a certain goal or satisfy our personal needs.
This type of behavior is called goal-directed behavior, and it is based on an evaluation of expected rewards or value and the recognition of a cause-and-effect relationship between actions and rewards.
Accordingly, decisions made prior to this based on an evaluation of expected rewards are called goal-directed decisions.
For example, before a certain review, we decide to turn on the computer and decide to review the courseware instead of playing games, which is a decision aimed at getting good grades.
In contrast, a habit is defined as a behavior that is no longer controlled by reward but is driven by stimulation; therefore, we can consider it to be automatic.
For example, people who often play computer games will involuntarily play games when they turn on the computer even during exams. For goal-oriented decision-making, the economic model of decision-making believes that before we make a decision, we first calculate the reward for each option. value and then compare the different values in some way.
Decision making within this framework is about making choices that maximize reward value. The spiritual hint that Zheng Feng noticed at this time was to take advantage of this. Zheng Feng's purpose this time was very clear, that is, to ensure the safety of important personnel who Du Jin, Commander You Chengwang, personally told him to protect, especially He learned from his captain that Du Jin was most likely the key to determining whether Ganymede could get rid of the Unity Sect's operation. On this point, Zheng Feng would rather give his own life to save Du Jin. Survival, because he has already regarded Ganymede as his second home and the most important home.
Zheng Feng was not born in Ganymede, but his parents were once people of the Xia Kingdom. In the first half of his childhood, he often heard his parents talk about the beauty of the Xia Kingdom. At that time, the whole world was peaceful and peaceful, and everyone could rely on him. After receiving sufficient reward for a certain ability, happiness, relaxation, and prosperity were the norm at that time. Even if you encountered setbacks, under the influence of the social atmosphere and social beliefs at the time, you could always find a way out and a solution, even if you encountered personal difficulties. If you are really unable to cope with the situation, the country will lend a helping hand instead of leaving you to fend for yourself.
The description from his parents was in stark contrast to his environment at the time. At that time, the colony where Zheng Feng was located had been taken over by the Interstellar Federation, but there was only chaotic isolation, interstellar pirates, rebels, fleets, and various folk evils. The group shrouded the space like a dark night, covering up all the sunshine and warmth that limited hope. Therefore, Zheng Feng's heart was full of longing, expectations and doubts about the former Xia Kingdom, because he really could not imagine that outside the darkness where he was There really is this piece of paradise.
Although life at that time was extremely difficult, with the company and care of his parents, Zheng Feng was not in danger of his life.
During the "Guiyi" pilgrimage, Zheng Feng's parents were judged as heretics, and then they
The "Holy Seal" disappeared forever in Zheng Feng's world in the name of offering sacrifices to atone for his sins. When Zheng Feng saw them for the last time, his parents only said one thing to him: "Don't take revenge! Don't be with the Heyi Cult." Make any contact and get out of here!" This was a devastating blow to Zheng Feng, who was less than fifteen years old at the time. Not only was the source of anxiety interrupted, but more importantly, his home was gone, and his spiritual support and With no destination left, he once wanted to commit suicide and follow his parents, but before that moment, Zheng Feng backed down, not because of fear, but because he knew that his life was no longer for him alone. , he wants to avenge his parents. Even though Zheng Feng's parents clearly told him during the last meeting not to have any contact with the Heyi Cult, he will never forgive the cultists who took away his family and parents.
At least in Zheng Feng's mind, forgiving this kind of crime is not only cowardice in nature, but also connivance and cover-up. People are animals with emotions. It is impossible to be hurt and treat it as if nothing happened. Some injuries are unforgivable. ; Some pains can never be erased; some debts can never be made up for.
Some people say that forgetting the hurt is betraying yourself. Personally, I think it makes sense. The most undesirable amnesia in the world is to heal the scar and forget the pain.
In this world, some injuries can be forgotten, but some injuries should be remembered forever, especially those who hurt us intentionally, which cannot be forgiven. If you forgive, you will only be hurt again and again.
You know, the human heart is like the sun. You really dare not look directly at it, and you cannot see through it, because it will hurt your internal organs and make people miserable.
There is no need to embarrass yourself. People who have hurt you intentionally do not need to forgive you. Maybe we can learn to let go of some injuries and learn not to think about them, but it is very difficult for us to learn not to hold grudges, or even to forgive those who hurt us in the first place.
When it comes to people who hurt us, we often choose not to forgive or retaliate, but there is some pain, which is a pain that a person can never erase in his life, so we cannot say forgiveness.
Even now, Zheng Feng's temperament and depth of thinking have improved countless times compared to the ignorant he was when he was a child. He has understood that when faced with people who have hurt him in daily life, he must not get entangled with them, as it will be very difficult. It is easy to fall into a meaningless cycle and damage your own energy even more. The first thing to do is to make a clean break and cut off all ties with the person who hurt you. Turn this hurt into a kind of motivation to continuously improve your own strength and make yourself stronger. , to make yourself live a better life, this is a powerful response.
But for the Unity Church, and for those cultists who led their parents into the abyss, he always remembered that he should never forgive. Forgiving the person who hurt him was equivalent to insulting [the person who had always been kind to him], or Betrayal, that's why Zheng Feng chose to join the army, because he wanted to turn himself into a person who would not dare to do harm. People should not know that you have forgiven the perpetrator... ....Because of all the above, when Zheng Feng heard the words "Heyi Cult", he only had one thought in his heart, which was to make them pay the price with blood. But as a soldier, in addition to obeying orders, In addition to his vocation, he also knows very well that he cannot involve his comrades or even Ganymede because of his revenge. In his principles, revenge is revenge, that is his own business, even if he has to pay a price, It can only be his own life. If other people are implicated because of himself, then he will live as the person he hates the most.
Unfortunately, the members of Ganymede's unified sect showed great restraint. Therefore, Zheng Feng believed that if Du Jin could be saved to ensure that he could fulfill his duties alive, then this man, who had high hopes from the Governor and Commander You Chengwang,
"Experts" will definitely make a difference. Even if Zheng Feng is killed as a result, as long as Du Jin does not sanction a remnant of the Heyi Sect, it means that part of it is Zheng Feng's credit. Therefore, Zheng Feng's actions this time There are almost no plans to return alive or intact in the mission. Even if you die in order to achieve the goal, no one else will be implicated. The pension can also give some financial help to the children in the orphanage, at least to make them lose their parents. A little less grief, Zheng Feng knows this feeling all too well... It is precisely because of this that Zheng Feng's actions, thinking and judgment are different from Whether the source of interference can be successfully closed is directly related to calling for reinforcements, and the angle of intervention of the unknown force is also precise in this aspect, allowing the spiritual influence disguised as Zheng Feng's subconscious to be exerted on his thinking and behavior, allowing him to Little by little, the conflicts and obstacles in his heart were broken down, and Zheng Feng was finally led to his destination.
Unfortunately, when Zheng Feng's mind was about to be completely invaded at the end, Zheng Feng's strong willpower made him noticeably alert. But even so, Zheng Feng only found that he was affected by some kind of power and did not break away. It's like my body is shrinking before my eyes.
"Creep" room,
"Fortunately
The owner of the "room" did not let Zheng Feng wait long. After Zheng Feng searched for a while without any results, a man with a gloomy face slowly appeared on the wall like a shadow, as if he suddenly changed from a two-dimensional creature to a three-dimensional creature. Likewise, Zheng Feng saw this scene and instinctively raised his arms to start attacking.
But the other party just waved his hands easily, and Du Jin suddenly felt light. When he looked down, he realized that all the weapons in his hands, including the entire set of exoskeleton armor, had disappeared like air, leaving only the clothes on his body. A set of dark green military-style lining. The other party's ability made Zheng Feng realize in an instant: "This is the culprit who affects and controls me! This ability... He belongs to the Heyi Cult." people?!"
"You guessed it right! But I don't like the name you call me. For a mortal like you who has not been enlightened by the gods, it is your gift to get my permission to spread my name.
"The culprit"? I think you must be punished for such a vulgar name! "After saying that, the man with a gloomy face showed a playful smile, stretched out his palm and pointed downwards. Zheng Feng seemed to have forgotten all about walking and standing for a moment. He fell straight to the ground and could only use He barely supported his body with both hands, raised his head stubbornly and looked at the man in front of him with a look that could kill people. The man continued to say condescendingly: "If it were normal, I would think of someone like you who refuses to admit defeat. It is suitable to be my plaything, allowing people to experience the process of your dignity gradually disintegrating and disappearing under my teachings, ah! Just thinking about it makes people feel happy. Of course, I don’t know how much longer you will last than the last waste? The toy before was said to be a certain ascetic, but that's all..." At this point, the man seemed to hear something wonderful, and his long and narrow face revealed a smile. People felt uncomfortable smiling, and for a moment they thought he was a clown killer. Of course, with the crimes he had committed, when a clown came, he would kneel down in admiration and call him a name of respect.
"Big Brother". But when the man from the Heyi Cult fell into intoxication, Zheng Feng did not stay there stupidly. Although he could not stand up anymore, he still dragged his body with his hands and crawled towards the man in front of him little by little, thinking To attack the opponent as much as possible, what is tenacity?
Faith is the direction and will is the engine. Of course, you must have your own beliefs, a belief based on your own independent thoughts based on sufficient objective knowledge, rather than being indoctrinated and self-righteous by others.
Of course, you can be more utilitarian. For example, using firm beliefs to push yourself to learn more skills and improve your material living standards is also a relatively firm belief for most people.
Generally speaking, your beliefs are what give you peace of mind. Some beliefs have practical meaning, and some do not. If you believe it, you have it, and if you don't believe it, you have nothing.
For individuals, it depends on your understanding and interpretation of the meaning. Zheng Feng's best explanation of his belief at this time is that he rushes forward and strangles, bites or crushes the opponent to death. As long as there is any possible opportunity or method, he will try with all his strength to make the opponent in front of him The cultists of one religion perished together with themselves.
