As a mixed-blood Saphos, Catherine T. Dora can only be considered to have just entered her youth.
But she is already a success.
Born as a commoner, she easily survived the blood test with a very high mortality rate. Every year other Holy Fire Knights went through various sufferings, but she easily seemed not to feel threatened.
"Maybe I'm a little different."
Catherine was a little proud, a little proud, but she didn't take it for granted.
The teachings of the Sun God, the temple, and the influence of knightly virtues have allowed him to always adhere to the bottom line of morality and responsibility, and sympathize with the poor people who came from the same background as himself, but now it seems...
".Is even my origin a lie?"
Walking down the passage, Catherine looked calm, but her heart was full of frustrations.
As she goes deeper step by step, she can feel her past memories being awakened. She has been here more than once.
"A dead end?"
Going down the passage, we walked into a small room with only a statue of a nun praying with her eyes closed.
".He will return eventually."
Catherine touched the nun's praying hands and whispered the secret words in her memory. The next moment, the clicking sound of the mechanism sounded again, and the downward wall opened.
And the companions and knights around her were even more wary of her.
Suspect? disturbed? alert? Just as the knights used to deal with cultists and heretics, now it is normal for them to suddenly become violent and chop off their own heads.
Even Catherine herself was full of doubts and puzzled as to why her memory was so clear. Why she had no impression of such a clear memory before!
This is not normal, this is not normal!
The knights stood vaguely to her left, right and behind her. The arms holding the swords were unabashedly defensive. I was afraid that if she made any move, they would attack immediately.
She smiled bitterly, even she herself might not dare to trust herself or her own memory.
Such precautions are natural, but as a devout knight who has devoted most of his life to the Knights, it is inevitable to feel sad and even heartbroken.
"Why are you so serious? Even if this girl is a cultist, it doesn't matter. At this point, what is the difference between true believers and cultists?"
The blasphemous words came from behind.
The young man from the outside world smiled and spoke extremely blasphemous words about the evil god. Even Catherine, who was protected by him, as a devout believer in the Sun God, was subconsciously angry.
How is it possible that there is no difference between a cultist and a devotee of the sun god? ! That difference.
But the next moment, some believers were still furious. As long as the leader gave an order, they wanted to tear the blasphemer into pieces.
But some insiders, if you think about it carefully, it seems that there is really not much difference.
Not all are poor people struggling to survive in the last days. Now that the Sun God has run away, if the stories related to the Beast God are true, maybe the believers of the Beast God will be more trustworthy. At least, their god is the same master. War faction.
"No matter what, we are collaborators now. Knights, trust your compatriots." Knight Benn spoke, and the other knights must give him face no matter what.
The eyes behind her were safer, and Catherine breathed a sigh of relief. She turned more attention to the dark passage below.
".An outsider actually trusts me more than my companions? What an irony."
The woman's smile was full of bitterness, but at the same time, a voice suddenly sounded in her mind.
[Hehe, maybe that man is attracted to you. Haven't you been packaged and given to him by the lord? Isn’t it natural for him to protect his property? 】
"who!!"
Catherine roared violently, looking around.
But the strange thing is that everyone else around her looked at her in surprise, as if she suddenly went crazy.
[Hey, stop looking, they can’t hear you.]
Catherine's face was expressionless, but she was breaking out in cold sweat. She wanted to shout and take action, but she couldn't do anything.
The feet were still moving downward, but the mouth grew again.
"Maybe I'm nervous, I always feel like someone is watching us."
This was true, but it was not said by "Catherine".
She was very anxious, very anxious. She felt that everything was wrong, but she couldn't say anything.
She was like an outsider, watching her actions while describing how she was brought here by her parents when she was a child, but her parents suffered bad luck and unfortunately died of infectious diseases.
"No, no, my parents are not dead, they are still living well in the country!" Catherine tried to open her mouth, but nothing came out.
[Idiot, if you don’t say this, how can you reduce your suspicion. 】
The laughter was still in my ears, as if it was inside my head.
[Don’t be anxious, don’t be anxious, I won’t harm you, how could I harm you]
"Who are you?!"
As if her soul had been pulled out of her body, Catherine was filled with fear and hesitation, but she was unable to resist at all.
【I? She is 23 years old and lives on the second floor of No. 23 Winter Street. She is an ordinary knight who loves dolls and cooking. Catherine T. Dora. 】
The smiling voice in her mind shocked and frightened Catherine, and the more the voice described "Catherine's" hobbies, interests, and first love that ended before it even started, the more frightened she became. ,disturbed.
"Ridiculous! You, you are Catherine?! Then who am I? I am I am"
The original anger gradually turned into confusion as the anger was vented.
At that moment, she hesitated. She suddenly remembered something. It was a past memory.
At that time, I was still young, and my personality was far more lively and active than when I received knight training. Yes, just like that voice, I was happily looking forward to the future and happily enjoying the care of my parents.
"Catherine, next, you are going to infiltrate the Knights, so we will seal your memory."
The honest and generous father had a frivolous smile at this time, and the magic mark on his hand was complicated and difficult to understand.
What's even more incredible is my own smile. That's not me at all. That indifferent and happy smile is not me at all!
"But don't worry, as long as you arrive at the start of the mission and come into contact with my Lord's information again, this seal will be broken naturally."
The loving and peaceful mother of the past spoke of her devotion to the gods, and used a knife to carve talismans on her forehead.
"Catherine, our daughter, when you touch this holy seal again, the seal will naturally be lifted. At that time, you will naturally remember who you are and your mission in this life."
[Yes, mother. 】
"Yes, High Priest."
Finally, the two voices reached agreement again.
When she opened her eyes again, the female knight was no longer confused.
This is not some kind of evil magic such as resurrection or possession, nor is there any so-called second personality. Just as the voice in the head said, she is Catherine, and the female knight is also Catherine. There is no difference.
What determines an individual's self-perception? There may be many answers, but memory is definitely the core component of personality. What we have experienced in the past determines what will happen to us in the future.
When little Catherine was still young, she used "Sealing Technique" to seal almost all of her memories, and with a blank enough identity, she became a devout Sun Cultist.
Her belief in the Sun God is absolutely true, so she can withstand the constant test of the Holy Fire.
And her belief in the beast god is also real. It is the cornerstone of her personality that she has cultivated since childhood. It is the only pursuit of life determined by the entire cultist family who prays and studies day and night.
"A bit of a headache."
At this time, in the mind of the female knight, the two memories before and after the age of twelve have been integrated. It is nothing more than one person who has experienced two completely different lives.
She was a little hesitant and hesitant about what she should do now. The situation was already far different from the moment she lurked.
Beast God believers sent her to infiltrate the local Knights and Sunfire Church to prepare for the resurrection of the Beast God one day. But now, as the prophecy has become reality, is the "resurrection" in the prophecy really a resurrection? .Is the one who came back to life really the original beast god?
Her past piety and belief did not interfere with her judgment. The experience of becoming a knight of the Holy Fire, as well as the knowledge acquired along the way, let her know that the delusions of her parents and the entire family had become a joke, and the dead beast god was just a dangerous fragment. Just meat!
Just like the dangerous bone wolf king, the beast god who climbed up is definitely not the little god of war in the past. It will become a big trouble for the whole world. Releasing it early is definitely not a good thing.
"At this point in time, what is the difference between true believers and cultists?"
At this time, Lu Pingan's words flashed through her mind.
".Live for yourself."
(End of chapter)
