My name is Chen Chichi, that's probably the right name. This is the thirty-ninth time I woke up from this bed, maybe the two hundred and fifty-seventh time, I can't remember clearly.
According to what is recorded in my memory, this should be my home, but I am tired of this familiar place. As long as I open the door, I will definitely forget many things.
As for forgetting something, I naturally can’t remember it.
There seems to be someone very important to me. What's his name?
I also tried not to open the door, but there were always some voices coming from behind the door. Sometimes it was my mother calling me, and sometimes it was Li Huixi who needed me to help her.
Oh yes, I remembered, her name is Li Huixi.
I don’t know why, but I know that the voices outside the door do not belong to them, they are just tempting me to go out, but I fall for it every time.
If a person likes to eat food with strong taste, then the food he likes in his later years will only be more heavy-flavored. After all, the threshold will be infinitely raised, but my resistance to the sounds outside the door will never become stronger. As long as I hear those few Whenever there is a familiar voice, my feet will move over involuntarily and my palms will feel itchy.
I wanted to end it all, but I couldn't control my body, and unfortunately, all actions were made by my subjective consciousness.
Whose voice is waiting for me today?
I've been waiting for half a day, but why hasn't there been a sound of anyone outside the door?
Three days later, there was still no sound outside the door.
My heart felt like it was being roasted on a stove, and my curiosity to know why the sound didn't appear had far outweighed my fear of this door.
I forget about it when I push the door open, but I really want to push it... My palms are itching, why is there no sound? why……
squeak……
My name is Chen Chichi, and I am an ordinary student in No. 5 Middle School.
Have breakfast, go to class, do exercises...
Everything seemed to be no different from usual, but something felt wrong.
When I was having breakfast, the set menus for the customers in the store were the same as mine. There were obviously many other foods in the store. When I first entered the campus, why were everyone looking at me, upstairs, in the cafeteria...
It feels uncomfortable to be stared at by everyone. Are my clothes on inside out? Don't look at me anymore...
Fortunately, my mother is a teacher in the school. Finding her will definitely put an end to this silent bullying. Yes, this is bullying.
When I knocked on the door of the office, as expected, the teachers in the office all turned their attention to me.
"Excuse me...Is Teacher Lu Yilu here?"
"Teacher Lu Yi... passed away in a car accident this morning."
The teacher who said this was unfazed, his face was calm, but the corners of his mouth were curled up.
"Death? How is that possible!"
Seeing that I didn't believe it, she took out her phone again and played a video for me.
In the video, Lu Yi was covered in scars, with a bloody mark on his face, and marks of fire on his clothes and skin. He was narrating his last words to me with a very unwilling expression:
"Daughter... I'm afraid mom can't go back and cook dinner for you... Remember, you must not forget mom, okay?"
I don’t know when all the memories about Lu Yi came out. Obviously I couldn’t remember so many things just now...
"Hahahahahaha..."
The teachers in the office laughed together, the sound was harsh.
"What are you laughing at?"
I have not yet recovered from my grief, and I feel very puzzled when I see their behavior. But not only did they not answer my question, they even imitated their mother’s tone:
"Don't forget me, okay?"
"Ha ha ha ha."
"You don't know how to learn. Look at me... I'm afraid you won't be able to go back."
Several people actually began to imitate Lu Yi's last words. Although they were angry, this scene was too absurd. The teachers in my memory were all knowledgeable and insightful. How could they do such a devastating thing? matter.
"That's enough! Stop talking!"
But no one paid attention to me. Instead, they vilified Lu Yi's words and continued to imitate them.
I ran out of the office and returned to the corridor. All classes were reading a passage in unison:
"Daughter...Mom, I'm afraid..."
Countless goosebumps suddenly appeared on my body. What is wrong with these people today...
"Stop learning! Don't imitate my mother anymore!"
But no one could hear me, or no one thought they heard me, because their mouths were still making sounds, but their eyes were staring at me. Everyone was...
My best friend, my favorite teacher, my crush... everyone is the same, why? Why is everyone like this?
The pressure was so great that I suddenly felt dizzy, fell to the side, and closed my eyelids lightly.
When I opened my eyes again, I was lying on my mother's lap in the school infirmary.
"What's wrong, Chi Chi? Why did you have low blood sugar when you first arrived at school?"
Looking at the familiar face, I have never felt that everything was so real. What just happened was just a dream.
I couldn't speak. There was something stuck in my throat. Maybe I was frightened by the dream just now, or maybe it was stimulated by my mother's departure in the dream.
After giving me a bottle of glucose, my mother specially adjusted the course with other teachers and stayed with me in the infirmary for a long time.
"Chi Chi, I told you to eat more in the morning, but you are always so disobedient and make your mother worried."
"You're going to be late."
"If I had known better, I wouldn't have given you this name. Chichi...Chichi, always late."
"Hahaha, it's too late for you to change it for me now, I'm afraid you won't be able to let it go."
"What's the point of reluctance? It's just a name change, it's not like replacing my dear daughter."
"Mother……"
"What's wrong?"
"I'm glad you're okay."
"Silly boy, you have something to do now. Are you still talking nonsense here before you wake up?"
"I don't have that kind of dream, I don't want to have it again."
"What did you dream about? You reacted so violently."
"In the dream... you had an accident, and my colleagues and classmates kept laughing at me."
Lu Yi patted my head gently and kept combing my hair, which made me feel much more relaxed. It would be great if I could keep doing this.
The glucose was gone, and it was time for Lu Yi and I to return to our positions.
The nurse came over to help me pull out the needle and gave me a piece of cotton to press on the eye of the needle. However, I couldn't use my other hand hard enough and accidentally dropped it.
The door to the infirmary was thicker than the doors elsewhere, and I was too weak to push it open.
On the way back, I suddenly wanted to go to the toilet, but the window in the toilet was always open and it was very cold.
After coming out of the infirmary, my mother never said a word to me again or helped me in any way. Maybe she was rushing to attend the last class and the time was a little tight.
Walking to the door of the classroom, I asked Lu Yi:
"Mom, why don't you say goodbye to me?"
As if something had been triggered, my mother's face, which was originally facing forward, turned around instantly, staring at me with her dull eyes.
But the next second, she laughed, and I finally felt relieved.
"Bye, see you after school."
As if nothing happened just now, she returned to her usual gentleness, said hello to me and left.
Classes, meals, self-study... everything is no different from usual.
After school, I came to see her.
"I'm sorry...Isn't Teacher Lu Yi here?"
The same teachers were still sitting in the office. I didn't want to open the door, but I was here after class and my mother didn't even come out.
"Didn't I tell you this morning? Why are you asking again?"
"Said? What did you say..."
My breathing became rapid, and the details of the nightmare in the morning came to mind again.
"Hahahaha, it's nothing, just kidding, isn't she right behind you?"
I turned my head, and sure enough, Lu Yi was standing behind me holding a freshly washed apple, and handed one to me.
This joke is not funny at all. Fortunately...she just went out to wash apples.
No...when did she go out?
