Bae Zhuhyun has been in a really bad mood recently.
red velvet is really going from bad to worse these days.
Due to the timing of their debut, they have been in the spotlight since their debut. They have been frantically attacked and smeared by countless fans of other senior groups in the company, and the entire Internet has been criticized. Because of the style and makeup of their debut song, the four of them were collectively called the Parrot Group and the Quadruplets. Various mocking and ridiculing titles were slapped on Bae Zhuhyun and the others as if they were free of charge. There was not even a single person on the Internet to help them speak for them. Can't find a few.
But the failure of their debut did not knock them down, because Lai Debeibei and the others who had struggled as trainees for so long would not be discouraged so easily, and the company did not give up on them, and soon arranged for them to be the first return.
The four of them worked hard for this comeback. In order to dance neatly, they stayed up late every day as trainees. August and September are hot days. Even if the air conditioner is turned on, they still can't resist the heat. Breathing, just practicing for a while makes me feel like I'm sweating profusely after taking a shower.
Chair dance is not that easy to dance. When you are not yet proficient, you will often bump until it hurts. If you stand on it wearing high heels and don’t pay attention, you can easily fall off the chair. Whether it is Bae Joo Hyun or Kang Seulgi and Sun Seung. Everyone was injured, but no one complained. Everyone gritted their teeth and held in their breath.
Anyone who has ever filmed a MV from one scene to the next knows how difficult it is. If you make a mistake, you have to do it all over again. You don’t know how long you have to practice overtime.
They worked really hard and hard for this comeback.
At that time, there was a siege on the Internet, and all the anti-fans wished they could disband. It was the most difficult time for the group, but they were still very energetic and motivated every day. When the four of them were in the dormitory at night, they would often cheer each other up due to the attacks from the outside world. , for example, the maknae and Kang Seulgi sometimes cried very sadly because of the huge pressure and being scolded too harshly, but it still did not dissipate their energy and determination to return to reverse the current situation.
Everyone has put all their seriousness and energy into this time, placing their hopes on this return, hoping that it can change the countless scoldings and extremely bad impressions of them on the Internet today.
Unfortunately, these expectations and hopes came to an abrupt end a few days ago.
It has been more than half a month since red velvet's comeback "be natural" was released on October 13, and the final conclusion can basically be made.
This song has no success in terms of performance, and the sound source was released at the speed of light.
The response was full of curses and all kinds of obscenities, which made Bae Zhuhyun and the others afraid to read comments about themselves online during the short time they had to use their mobile phones after going back every night.
I won't be able to sleep after watching it.
They have also been concentrating on preparing and performing on the singing stage that started on the 9th, but it can be said that so far they have all been ineffective. Except for the few fans who really like them, no one pays attention to them at all. Their singing skills or stage.
Not to mention one candidate and one alternate, he has never even made it into the top ten of the singing competition show. Every time a winner is presented with an award, he stands in the last row and looks at the crowd of idol groups in front of him. to a few shots.
The company also arranged for them to participate in several variety shows for publicity, but most of them were just the background of vases. There were only a few shots in the whole process, and there was no room for any expression other than clapping and smiling to Rea. Even if Those with more scenes, such as "Idol of the Week" which was recorded and broadcast not long ago, also gained a lot after it was broadcast...
Besides scolding, still scolding.
"Ugly girl!"
"Disband!"
"Death to the Parrots!"
"You seduced my oppa. Do you really think that our oppa likes you? You made me laugh to death."
"It makes me sick to see a girl group that relies on being Kim Young-min's mistress to steal other people's resources."
"We want Girls' Generation! We want FX!"
As long as you read the comments about Red Velvet, there must be all kinds of dirty words like this. Even if Bae Zhuxuan, who rarely speaks dirty words, was insulted like this, she would be very angry: "Who seduced him? Why have I never been in a relationship before?" Chasing and scolding me every day? And don’t you think it’s worth it to me?”
"If you want Girls' Generation, go see them. Didn't TTS just come back? They are a variety show and a singer. Why are you coming here to scold us? You must be sick!"
"If you want FX, Sulli Choi's movie was released, and Jessica Jung's TV series was released last month. Go watch it, why are you chasing after us?"
When she saw these comments, she really wanted to reply directly to them, express what was in her heart, and fight back fiercely.
But the idol profession does not allow her to do this.
After the anger, one is filled with desolation and sadness, as well as grievance and confusion that fills the whole body.
After so much sweat and hard work for so many years, I finally got my debut, but now I am in this situation. And not only did I try my best to come back, but there was no reward, the only gain was more scolding.
All the expectations and beautiful visions before debut have now turned into nothing, leaving only a gray sky with no way forward.
She thought that by officially becoming an idol, she would be closer to the same level as Chi Jingyuan. However, after she really debuted, she suddenly discovered that she was further away than before. Only by truly becoming an insider can she I feel that the popularity is as different as a dimensional wall.
Just like some anti-fans said on the Internet, 'It's not the same world at all'.
Originally, she and Chi Jingyuan would often send text messages to chat and joke with each other, but later because their mobile phones were controlled during their debut, they lost a lot of contact.
But now, even if Bae Zhuhyun can get her mobile phone at night, her strong sense of gap and her only remaining self-esteem make her unwilling to take the initiative to contact the other party.
Especially when thinking about how high-spirited she was in front of him before her debut, and the confidence she showed before returning this time because she thought she could turn around, and then looking at their current miserable situation, Bae Zhuhyun felt that she was extremely embarrassed, as if she was a clown.
There has been no activity from the afternoon till now. Red Velvet and others have been staying in the practice room. Pei Zhuhyun was angry because she saw some negative fans saying ugly things about her in the evening, so she did not join the others in advance. When he went back, he practiced dancing by himself in the practice room as if to let off steam. He stayed on the floor for a long time until he was exhausted and then packed up his things and prepared to go back.
As the captain and eldest sister, she doesn't like to cry or show vulnerability in front of the members. Even when others often wiped their tears when complaining to each other in the dormitory recently, she was really sad and wanted to cry. But they all endured it.
Practicing crazy dance alone has now become a way for her to vent her emotions.
Just standing in front of the elevator, as soon as the door opened, her calm mood suddenly became chaotic.
Chi Jingyeyuan didn't expect to see Pei Zhuxuan at this time, and she was alone at this time.
It's already early in the morning, so Red Velvet doesn't need to prepare for her return. I heard there haven't been many activities recently. Does she need to be busy to go back so late?
A man and a woman outside the elevator door looked at each other, and they were both stunned at the same time, obviously a little surprised.
Neither of them spoke. Pei Zhuxuan walked in silently after looking at each other for two seconds. He also took two more steps into the elevator and stood diagonally behind Chi Jingyuan, preventing him from seeing her from behind.
The elevator door closed slowly and began to fall.
"What a coincidence?"
Chi Jingyuan turned sideways slightly, glanced at Pei Zhuxuan behind him, and said hello calmly.
Bae Zhuhyun was wearing a slightly longer gray hooded sweatshirt with a cute bear logo on the chest. The slightly childlike style did not seem to match her age.
Below are black casual sports pants that are slightly closer to outline the lines of the legs. On the feet are a pair of white sneakers that look quite small.
Her hair was combed back and tied into a bun, completely exposing her entire face. Scattered air bangs were scattered on the sides of her forehead and cheeks. At this moment, she could still see some water stains remaining on her forehead. I don't know if it's sweat or leftover from washing my face.
Maybe it was because he had washed his face, and the make-up on his face was extremely dull. The dark circles under his eyes and a somewhat dull complexion were all exposed. One look at him showed that he had been in a bad mood recently and had not had a good rest.
"..." Hearing Chi Jingyuan's voice, Pei Zhuxuan seemed a little panicked. He raised his head and looked at him with a forced smile and nodded but said nothing. Then he seemed to realize something and quickly lowered his head and stepped back inadvertently. One step forward.
Because there are no high-heeled shoes and inner heightening blessings, Bae Zhuhyun, who is only wearing sneakers, shows her truest height. At this time, she looks a little delicate and mini when standing in front of Ji Jingyuan. This action of taking a step back is like Ji Jingyuan fucking Like something bad happened.
Seeing her like this, and thinking about the changes in Pei Zhuhyun's recent encounter and the current situation of red velvet, Chi Jingyuan sighed secretly in his heart, and roughly understood.
If it were him, he probably wouldn't talk to the other party with a smile on his face. On the contrary, if his self-esteem and ambition were higher, he would actively stay away.
Because Pei Zhuhyun didn't speak, the elevator fell into silence, and only the roaring sound of falling could be heard.
"one person?"
After a few seconds, Chi Jingyuan asked again, but this time he did not look back, but looked at the reflective staircase door in front.
"... Inside." Pei Zhuxuan buried her head and glanced up. Seeing that he didn't look back, she calmed down and responded softly.
After that, the entire elevator fell into silence. Chi Jingyuan stood in front without saying anything, and Pei Zhuxuan stood in silence looking at her toes.
There was a "ding" on the first floor, and Chi Jingyuan walked out first. Pei Zhuxuan followed after a moment of silence. The two of them walked towards the side door one after another as if they were in an elevator.
At this time, most of the employees of SM Company have already got off work. Even though the incandescent lights are very bright, they still can't cover up the silent atmosphere in the corridor. You can only hear two different but regular footsteps, one heavy and one light, gradually fading away. .
When he was about to reach the side door, Chi Jingyuan suddenly stopped, turned around, looked at Pei Zhuxuan and tapped his chin: "Would you like to go out for a walk?"
The sudden braking in front startled Bae Zhuhyun, and he almost hit him without stopping.
She stopped moving and stood there. After hearing Chi Jingyuan's invitation, she was a little surprised at first. She raised her head and glanced at him, pursed her lips and said nothing.
After hesitating for a few seconds, she seemed to remember something. She looked at a poster of Girls' Generation's Kim Taeyeon hanging on the wall next to her and nodded lightly.
Chi Jingyuan walked to the door and put on his hat and mask. He saw Pei Zhuxuan take out a baseball cap from the bag he was carrying and put it on his head. He glanced at the duck on it and then turned his attention to her. On the face: "Don't you wear a mask?"
Pei Zhuxuan shook her head, not sure whether she meant she didn't bring it or if it wasn't necessary.
After making a good disguise, Chi Jingyuan sent a message to Park Jae-hyun and took the lead in opening the door and walking out, while Pei Zhuhyun followed gently.
In fact, Chi Jingyuan only got the idea temporarily when he saw Bae Zhuhyun and Red Velvet looking like this. He was in a hurry to go back to sleep before.
I didn't have any specific plans about where I wanted to go. After walking out of the SM building, I thought quickly and walked unsteadily in the direction of the Han River.
As for Pei Zhuxuan, just like before in the company, she didn't raise her head very much and followed him silently without making a sound, staring at the ground as if she was afraid that she would trip over something.
When she walked to the Yanjiang Avenue and saw a familiar place, and the memories of the past suddenly came back to her mind, she glanced at Chi Jingyuan in surprise.
It was already past early morning, and the temperature was a bit cold in the middle of the night. Looking around, there were only one or two figures scattered along the river walkway.
Chi Jingyuan looked back and saw Park Jae-hyun driving a car not far away and parked nearby.
Park Jae-hyun came here to send him back later, and at the same time, he followed behind to see if any reporters were taking secret photos.
However, even if it was photographed, it would not have any impact on Chi Jingyuan. Even if he didn't say anything, the company would take the initiative to suppress it.
And it was so late, the surrounding area was very empty and there were not two people in sight.
After walking a few steps, Chi Jingyuan found a wooden chair and sat down on it. Pei Zhuxuan hesitated for a moment and then sat down, but not very close. There was almost a gap between him and Chi Jingyuan. Half a meter distance.
The two of them just sat in silence on their chairs, looking at the colorful bridges on the Han River in the distance. Listening to the constant gurgling sound of the river in front of them, the atmosphere suddenly became quiet. .
The slightly cold evening breeze gently blew the tips of their hair. It was obviously cold, but neither of them seemed to feel it. They just sat there quietly, either in a daze or looking ahead.
Chi Jingyuan said nothing since the two sat down. He pursed his lips and kept looking at the moonlight and reflection on the water of the Han River in front of him.
Tao's resignation from the group just happened today. After seeing so many negative comments about EXO on the Internet, he was actually not in a good mood. He suddenly invited Bae Zhuhyun out for a walk. In addition to comforting her, he also wanted to relax by himself. mean.
However, he felt a little depressed after sitting here and being blown away by the wind. After looking at the brightly lit night view of Seoul in the distance, he suddenly felt a lot more relaxed.
With a soft breath, Chi Jingyuan turned his head and looked at Pei Zhuxuan.
After sitting down, she briefly glanced at Jiang Jing and then quickly lowered her head. Her eyes were blank and empty. It was obvious that she was preoccupied and her attention was not here. Her whole body showed a tightened posture, even though she was older than Chi Jingyuan. , but the little one sitting there looked a little pitiful.
Chi Jingyuan, who was sitting next to her, could clearly see the low pressure lingering around her.
Chi Jingyuan didn't take the initiative to say anything. Although he had a similar experience of being hacked during his debut, he could barely relate to it, but some simple comfort didn't mean much, and Pei Zhuhyun probably didn't need it very much.
Looking at Pei Zhuhyun who was sitting silently in a daze like a puppet, Chi Jingyuan blinked, took the shoulder bag behind him in front of him, opened the zipper and started rummaging around.
He quickly dug out a package of peanut-flavored chocolate bars in a light yellow package and held it in his hand. It was the one exo-k used in their last commercial shoot. He thought it was delicious and bought a lot of it. He would often take it with him and take a few bites, which was considered as fulfilling his duty as a spokesperson.
He opened the package directly, squeezed out a chocolate bar, and then handed the package to Pei Zhuhyun.
The sound of turning the package or opening the package just now was actually quite loud, but Pei Zhuxuan was in a daze as if she hadn't heard it. It wasn't until a pack of chocolate bars suddenly appeared in front of her that she suddenly woke up.
Then, she just came back to her senses and was a little stunned when she saw the familiar chocolate in front of her. The scene from the previous commercial shooting reappeared in front of her eyes.
Although they had not returned this time, the group's situation was not fundamentally different from now.
At that time, she was also in a low and sad mood, and did not really want to communicate with others.
What also appeared in front of him was the exact same chocolate bar.
Chi Jingyuan's hand kept holding the package without feeling tired, and Pei Zhuxuan looked at it for a long time, then turned his head and looked at Chi Jingyuan for the first time since she sat down, who raised his eyebrows slightly at him, his eyes There is a touch of crystal clarity and complexity.
After a few seconds, she stretched out her hand to snatch the package away from Chi Jingyuan's hand. She picked up a chocolate bar that popped out and stuffed it into her mouth, chewing hard. Biting seems to be venting something.
However, as she chewed it, she cried.
The tears fell quickly, just like the unpredictable rainstorms in summer. Just a moment ago, his face was indifferent and dull. In an instant, the tears came up like a bursting bank, and his face with a bad expression immediately became full of pear blossoms.
Her emotions were obviously out of control. She stuffed something in her mouth and bit it while she couldn't help cursing: "I...I saw a lot of people scolding me on the Internet tonight...I thought I was scolded so much." You'll get used to it over time... I didn't expect it to be unbearable."
She was crying, still eating in her mouth, and her words were garbled with sobs and choked sounds.
"You must be sick. I didn't offend them. Why do I have to be like this? I've never felt so uncomfortable with colds, colds and fevers before..."
"Woo..."
"Obviously I have worked so hard, but it is of no use at all... I also comforted the members by saying that this is a test for us, and it will pass as long as we persist and be patient... But I have no confidence anymore, as long as I go online Wherever there are people, people criticize us. The debut that I have been looking forward to for so many years turns out to be like this. It feels like the surroundings in front of me are just like the sky, everything is gray..."
Chi Jingyuan, who was listening, couldn't help but look up at the sky. The dark night sky seemed to be dyed with a gray screen, blocking all the starlight that should have been seen, leaving only the lonely moon. People hang there and grieve.
Then he turned back to look at Bae Zhuhyun. Tears were puddled on her face, her eyes and nose were a little red, and the corners of her mouth were stained with crumbs from the chocolate bar. She looked pitiful and funny at the same time.
"Isn't it ugly?" Pei Zhuxuan, whose emotions were a bit difficult to control, was not as focused on his image in front of Chi Jingyuan as before. Feeling the eyes looking at him, he asked angrily.
"A little bit." Chi Jingyuan nodded honestly and told the truth.
He actually restrained himself a little, because he actually felt it was more than 'a little'.
'ah. "Pei Zhuxuan cried out, angrily clenched his fist and punched Chi Jingyuan hard. Looking at his face, he felt a little angry in his heart: "Your fans say that I seduce you every day. Have I seduced you? Why do they keep chasing me and scolding me for something that obviously didn't happen at all? exo is amazing? "
"A little bit." He smacked his lips and looked at the crying Pei Zhuxuan who was staring at him with watery eyes. He hesitated and replied.
"Woo..."
Pei Zhuxuan seemed to be so angry at Chi Jingyuan's answer that she cried even harder. She held a chocolate bar that had just been fed in her mouth, half of it exposed like she was holding a pipe, and then she hit him hard again. She moved her butt directly back, raised her legs and put her feet together on the chair. She covered her face with her hands and hugged her legs and curled up. Her body was shaking and she kept crying.
Seeing her like this, a slight smile suddenly appeared on Chi Jingyuan's face for some reason. He shook his head, reached out and flipped up the hat that came with Pei Zhuhyun's sweatshirt and covered her head with the pigtails on her head. The bulging back of the hat looks a bit cute.
He himself sat quietly next to her, listening to her joyful cries that had accumulated for a long time, while looking at the incomplete moon in the sky without saying anything.
With similar scenes and exactly the same people, Chi Jingyuan couldn't help but think of the same chance encounter that happened here when he and Pei Zhuhyun didn't know each other. At that time, the other party couldn't help crying after seeing him like this.
He remembered hearing Jiang Seulgi or Son Seungwan say that Joohyun Unnie would be a little more reserved when it came to her emotions, and she especially didn't like to cry in front of them, and would try to hold back tears even if they did occur.
It's a coincidence that Chi Jingyuan happened to be beside Bae Zhuhyun twice when he broke down and cried.
fate? It doesn’t feel like it.
But in fact, he thinks it's good to do this once in a while, at least he doesn't have to keep a lot of unspeakable worries and grievances in his heart. If it goes on for a long time, it will not only be bad for the body and mind, but it may even affect a person's character to a certain extent over time.
Chi Jingyuan can understand Bae Zhuhyun's current mood. In 2012, although EXO was not scolded as badly as Red Velvet, it was still ridiculed by the crazy crowd.
At that time, xo was still semi-refrigerated by the company, and all the members were in a very bad mood. In addition to being nervous and worried about the future, many people were very angry. During the fight, Baekhyun and Park Chanyeol got red and fought several times.
If the first regular album "Wolf" and "Baoxiao" are released like "Be Natural", I don't know what the EXO team will be like.
Ji Jingyuan doesn't know how Red Velvet is doing in the dormitory in private, but even if she is a member of the same group, Bae Zhuhyun must be a little reluctant to vent like this in front of them.
As it is now, it's pretty good.
A gust of cool breeze blew by, making Chi Jingyuan feel a little cold. He tightened the collar of his coat and stretched his neck.
At the same time, the crying next to him began to gradually become smaller, from crying loudly to sobbing quietly. Bae Zhuhyun was still curled up and hugging her legs. What was funny was that she was still holding the pack of chocolate bars tightly in her right hand. , I don’t know if the snacks inside were crushed by her exertion.
"Luhan left some time ago, Tao left again today, and Lay is expected to leave in two days. Exo has gone from 12 members in its debut to 9 members in a blink of an eye. The remaining Peninsula members may not leave, but no one will." Know what they are thinking now."
Chi Jingyuan felt that most of her suppressed emotions had been vented. After slowly calming down, he put his hands on both sides to support his body. He looked at the Han River in the distance and suddenly spoke, with a natural tone as if he was chatting casually.
Pei Zhuxuan's crying suddenly became much quieter. He probably heard Chi Jingyuan's voice and knew that he was talking to him.
Although her movements did not change, she was obviously listening attentively.
"I saw that many old fans in our fan club who were familiar faces in the past have turned away because of these things. They acted even more excited and crazy than the anti-fans. Some fans just quit angrily and went to chase other boy groups. , the Internet is also full of negative opinions...Although it doesn't have a great impact on me, sometimes I really feel uncomfortable."
"I can also understand those members who left. Things that I care about may not be what they like, but things that I don't care about may be their pursuits."
Pouting his lips, Chi Jingyuan looked around, and then said: "To put it in a more romantic way, everything now is a test. As you just said, no matter what, it will pass."
"In other words, it has passed."
As he said that, Chi Jingyuan looked away and saw Pei Zhuhyun, who had stopped crying, gently rubbing her face on her pants. She probably knew that the crying she had just made was really ugly.
He was speechless. He took his shoulder bag in front of him and took out a pack of wet wipes. He directly opened the fingers of Pei Zhuxuan's left hand and put the wet wipes into her hand. He pressed her hand to let her hold it tight, and then shouted with some disgust. road:
"Use this to wipe it. Don't rub it there. Is it dirty?"
"You cry like this every time, Zhuhyunxi, are you really a female idol?"
