This diary begins on the 12th birthday of its owner, Xue Zhao.
He was the child who loved reading the most in the entire orphanage. He was born with a sensitivity to words and became familiar with them quickly. He didn’t even need teachers to teach him. The dean taught him some words when he was a child. Later, he held a worn-out Xinhua book by himself. Chew on the dictionary, gnaw on it, and you will be able to pronounce most of the words.
At that time, there was only one school in the town, and studying was very expensive.
It was already very difficult for the orphanage to be able to barely feed these children. Of course, there was no extra money to send Xue Zhao to study.
Xue Zhao knew this. Although he also longed for campus, he had never told the dean about such unrealistic things.
However, when he was 12 years old, the dean gave him a brand new notebook with a leather cover.
The director of the orphanage encouraged him to create and keep a diary.
This is not a particularly expensive birthday gift, but it is Xue Zhao's favorite.
He regarded the diary as a treasure, and recorded some trivial matters of growing up in it, recording the growth journey with other friends in the orphanage.
Until the day of the winter solstice, his diary style changed.
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【2051, 12.17, heavy rain】
[It has been raining heavily these days. Some children in the orphanage are sick. The director went to the town center to find medicine.]
[It’s very cold. Winters in previous years have always been dry, with occasional snowfall and never rain.]
[I heard from Aunt Cui that the welfare home does not have enough firewood, so it has to be reserved for everyone to cook vegetables and porridge, and there is no way to burn firewood for heating]
[It’s raining too much outside, so I can’t chop wood]
【Hope the rain will stop soon】
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【2051, 12.19, heavy rain】
[The rain shows no sign of stopping, and the clouds in the sky are getting heavier and heavier]
[Little Taozi went to the kitchen to steal steamed buns last night because she was hungry. She fell on the steps outside and fell into a coma in the rain. When we found her in the morning, she had frozen to death.]
[I feel very guilty. I'm sorry for Xiao Taozi. Although she always likes to tease me, she always shares delicious food with me. But last night when she asked me if I had anything to eat, I lied.]
[I hid half a piece of steamed bun under the pillow. If I had given it to her last night, she might not have died]
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【2051, 12.23, heavy rain】
【The rain is still falling】
[Everyone is in a bad mood, and everyone’s communication has become less and less. I haven’t seen the director recently. The children who had a fever before have subsided. I don’t know if they took medicine]
[It has been raining for too long. I know what everyone is worried about. You can’t pick wild vegetables, leaves, or hunt. There are less and less edible things in the orphanage...]
[The pen is also running out of ink. It’s so annoying. I have to go to the kitchen to get some charcoal tomorrow and mix it with water myself...]
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【2051, 12.25, heavy rain】
[In order to cope with the non-stop heavy rain these days, the dean went to the town in the rain to see if he could get some food back. Our food intake was cut in half, and there was almost no rice in the rice soup]
[I didn’t want to go hungry, so I drank several bowls of rice soup. I woke up from peeing in the middle of the night. I wanted to go to the toilet, but I heard that the toilet was blocked due to heavy rain and the smell was terrible. I thought about it. , I decided to go downstairs]
[Downstairs, I saw the dormitory manager Bai’s mother. She was standing alone in the rain without an umbrella. She didn’t know what she was doing. I said hello to Bai’s mother, but she didn’t seem to hear.]
[I felt uneasy and called a few times. She finally turned around and showed me a smile]
[I don’t know why, but when I saw that smile, I felt an indescribable fear, as if... standing in the rain was a stranger I had never known]
[I ran back to the third floor in one breath, solved my needs in the smelly toilet, and then got back into bed]
【I didn't sleep that night】
[When I close my eyes, it’s Mother Bo’s terrifying smile]
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【2051, 12.26, heavy rain】
[The rice soup is even thinner, and I can’t feel full no matter how much I drink, but after last night’s experience, I don’t dare to drink more]
[After tonight, I tossed and turned in bed unable to sleep...]
【I'm scared, but I don't know what I'm afraid of】
[In my mind, mother Bai’s smile last night is always lingering]
[My roommate’s snoring is also very noisy]
[The rain seems to be getting heavier, and thunder continues]
[I looked at the window and suddenly remembered that this window faced the yard downstairs. I couldn’t sleep anyway, so by some strange coincidence I got out of bed and came to the window to carefully look into the yard]
[In the wind and rain, Mother Bai was still standing in that position, with her head lowered, not knowing what she was looking at...]
[Mother Bai used to be very kind and kind to us. From time to time she would sit on the bedside and teach us songs and tell us stories, but in recent days I seem to rarely see her during the day]
[Out of curiosity, I kept staring at Mother Bai in the heavy rain, trying to see what she was doing]
[But she suddenly turned to look at me]
[She smiled at me]
[That smile again]
[My whole body was cold and I was so scared that I sat on the spot and covered my mouth with both hands to prevent myself from screaming]
[Mother Bai used to tell us ghost stories, saying that some ghosts could move their necks without moving.]
【She is like this now】
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【2051, 12.27, heavy rain】
[I don’t know how I lasted until dawn last night]
[After much thought, I decided to tell Uncle Cai Quan about this matter. He is a security guard at the orphanage. I heard that he was a very powerful hunter in the town when he was young. He once hunted tigers in the mountains.]
[Originally, I thought the uncle would not believe what I said, but when I told him about this, the expression on his face changed a lot]
[He suddenly became very serious and asked me if I had told anyone else about this incident and if any other children had seen it]
[I said no, it’s just me]
[Uncle Cai told me not to have contact with Mother Bai these days, never leave the room at night, and never tell anyone about this matter. He will take care of it]
[I believe Uncle Cai, but I am no longer a child. His expression is very strange. He is obviously hiding something from me, but no matter how I ask, he says it is okay and tells me not to worry.]
[Mama Bai is very good to me. She raised me since I was a child and taught me how to read. Although I am very scared, I don’t want Mama Bai to be hurt.]
[I must find out what happened to Bo’s mother]
【Tonight, I will follow him...】
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pS: Good night!
