"I said that the child should be with me, and he agreed. I said that I would tell his parents about him, so that his parents would know what kind of person he is. Don't let his mother come to my house to plead for mercy after we divorce, and he also agreed. "
"No matter what request I made, he agreed and said that he deserved it. The more he behaved like this, the more I felt that my breath was blocked from my chest to my throat. I couldn't come up or go down. I was so angry. Didn't sleep a wink all night."
"The next day, we went to his parents' house together. At that time, his father was still alive, and his mother and sister had not yet lived with us."
"As I get closer and closer to his home, the pain in my heart becomes more and more painful. It's as if there is someone in my body holding a hammer that is constantly hammering your heart, hammering until you are out of breath and weak, making you feel It was clear that I was on the verge of a death struggle, but the pain did not decrease at all, but became more and more clear."
"When I saw his parents' old house from a distance, I asked him to stop the car and said that I was not feeling well and felt very stuffy. I wanted to get out of the car to rest. Then I asked him to drive to his parents by himself. It was for the sake of my children and my parents-in-law. Go ahead and save face for him in the end. After he left, I stayed where he was and waited for him."
"I admit that I was cowardly. I didn't have the courage to tell his parents all this at the time, and I didn't know what I was afraid of. He was the one who cheated, not me."
"I still don't know if he has told the truth to his parents. He said that his parents are very grateful to me for being tolerant and understanding the general situation. Hey, the devil wants his parents to think that I understand the general situation."
"Finally, he said that his father beat him, and he lifted up his trousers to show me the marks on his legs where he had been beaten with a stick. He also said that his parents hoped that we would not divorce."
"After we went back that day, we talked for a whole night, and we talked about all the thoughts, knots, conflicts, and struggles we had had since we were married for seven or eight years. In the end...it was still for the sake of the children. I also admitted that I felt sorry for him. I still had some feelings for him, so I decided to give him another chance, and he promised to live well."
"But after that, my mentality completely changed."
"As I said just now, I have been holding my breath in my heart. I can't get up or get down. Why can he play around with others outside? After playing one after another, I can only guard this piece of shit. Meat?"
"Before this, I never thought...that I would cheat."
At this time, two lines of tears quietly slipped from Tan Mimi's eyes, and her speech and demeanor finally ceased to be a bland statement.
Obviously, this is a married woman who chooses to "retaliate for cheating with cheating," but this "retaliation" does not seem to make her feel happy or satisfied.
Tan Mimi choked and continued:
"I never thought that cheating would be so easy... I now understand that the difference between men and women is that men always have the door open to the opposite sex. Whether they are married or not, they can cheat at any time... And Once women get married and are satisfied with their lives, their door is closed and they often don’t think about it.”
"But once this door is opened... it's like Pandora's box. It's too easy to cheat."
"In the next two years, I cheated on four people, both mentally and physically. Some of them were single and some were married. I was totally out of revenge, but I wouldn't just cheat on them for this reason. I can be friendly with anyone, but at least I won’t be friendly with someone I hate. I can’t force myself to be friendly with someone I hate.”
"Among these four people, one is the parent of his child's classmate. We met during a parent-teacher meeting. Because we wanted to exchange parenting experiences, we added each other on WeChat, and the conversation ended up in bed."
"I got along with this parent about half a year ago, and then I took the initiative to break up with him. There was no particular reason. I just felt that it was done, and there was nothing new or interesting about it."
"There are two other netizens who met through dating platforms. One of the two netizens actually has business contacts with Shang Biao. When this netizen was chatting with me, he said that he was going to an advertising design company. When we were discussing business, he even took a picture of the door of that company to show me, but when I saw it, I found out that he was actually going to Shang Biao’s company if he wanted to die.”
"I don't know if he and Shang Biao know each other or are familiar with each other, but I still cut off contact with him very quickly. I can't let the cuckold get under Shang Biao's nose, right?"
"Another netizen was having too much fun, and the scale was too big, and I couldn't hold it any longer. One time after he had sex with me, he actually asked me if I wanted to play a 'swapping game' and a threesome. I thought he was a bit perverted, so Broke up with him."
"The latest one has been with me for almost a year, and we broke up not long ago..."
Tan Mimi's mood stabilized, and there were no more tears falling from her eyes. But when she said this, the conversation suddenly changed, as if she was deliberately avoiding this "latest" lover:
"Shang Biao probably doesn't know what's going on with me right now. In his mind, I might still be that good and obedient person. He probably didn't expect me to have such a good time. As I said just now, I'm not afraid of him knowing. Once a person doesn't If you are afraid of the consequences, you will move forward without hesitation."
"I can't be said to be happy now. I don't have the joy of victory, nor the pleasure of revenge. Although I have cheated on my wife, I still feel overwhelmed when I think of the past. I even feel that the reason why I became the person I am is... This is all his fault, and sometimes he would find trouble with him, but he would try his best to comfort me and talk to me cautiously, saying he was afraid that I would be angry."
"I don't check him out now, and I don't really care if he cheats again, but I think it will be difficult to stop..."
Then, Tan Mimi lowered her head and said something meaningful, which seemed to be talking about Shang Biao and herself:
"Cheating is like taking drugs. Once you get into it, it's hard to quit."
"Some people say that cheating can be divided into two types. One is extramarital cheating, which is cheating with feelings and having feelings for the cheating partner; the other is playful cheating, which is hooking up or indulgent cheating, that is, cheating without any sexual involvement. Emotions, cheating to please each other.”
"This theory holds that cheating on a hookup can be forgiven, but cheating on an extramarital affair cannot be forgiven. I thought so at first, so I chose to forgive Shang Biao again and again."
"Now that I have entered this circle myself, I realize that this view is wrong. Hookup-style cheating will also seriously change the psychological state of the cheater. No matter whether the cheater is a man or a woman, a husband or a wife, it will make people feel uncomfortable. It is difficult for him or her to face the ordinary family life, and hookup-style cheating brings more excitement and freshness, so it is easy to become a habit of hooking up, and it is difficult to quit completely. "
"A person who cheats really can't turn back. His or her heart is already outside."
"I often think that after Shang Biao was caught cheating, he should have really thought about changing his ways and living a good life with me. But he couldn't control himself. His mind was always thinking about the excitement of cheating. And the feeling of being in love, you will eventually be unable to help but cheat again.”
"Just like many young people who want to work hard, they end up lying on the sofa playing with their mobile phones. Many cheaters delete their lover's contact information and are determined to return, but within a few days, they have sex again. Lovers lie together."
"Because cheating has become a hobby, even a part of life. Can you control yourself to change your hobby? Can you control yourself to change the habit of eating on time and sleeping on time?"
"Besides, hookup-style cheating and extramarital cheating can actually be transformed into each other. ****, it is natural to have love based on sex."
After a moment of pause, Tan Mimi seemed to have something to say:
"With some people, you obviously get together with them just for the purpose and mentality of having fun. You also know that his kindness to you is all pretense, and you even know all the sweet words and surprises he brings. He All the attacks I launch against you are just to sleep with you, but if you can control this thing of feelings, they are not called feelings."
"The scary thing is that when you are having an affair, you may meet someone who suddenly makes you feel passionate."
"The feeling that such a person brings to you is happiness and excitement, making you full of vitality and passion, and you may even feel that you are much younger."
"But what is the fact? The fact is that we both know that we are a pair of bad guys and girls, making bad shoes. This kind of happiness and joy is short-lived and cannot last long. Once we break through all taboos and cages, we unite in Together, such happiness and joy will surely disappear without a trace immediately."
"This will make people feel very confused, as if they are living between dreams and reality, and their minds will constantly ask themselves, between facts and feelings, whether feelings are more important or facts are more important."
"For such a person, he only attacked your feelings before, but set up a tailor-made cage based on your humanity. Even if the hunter walks away and the cage is opened, the prey will still miss being in the cage. The taste inside."
From these words, it is not difficult to tell that Tan Mimi most likely met the person who "made her heart beat" among the lovers she dated.
Considering that she suddenly deliberately bypassed her last lover, this lover should be the one who "set up a tailor-made cage" for her.
Soon, Tan Mimi raised her head again and changed the subject:
"This is the relationship between Shang Biao and I. In the eyes of our parents, we are not like an old couple who have been married for nearly ten years, but more like a young couple in love; in the eyes of our neighbors, we are a 'model couple' , the love between us is so sweet that it makes people jealous, and even through the screen, people can smell the sour smell of love between us; in the eyes of children, we are loving fathers and mothers, and we are a happy family of three."
