"No." Zuo Jin also gave her a very definite answer, and he repeated it forcefully, "No."
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Why did he give this answer so firmly? Do you think that at that time, they only had that kind of measure and structure? Or is it like those words that are popular on the Internet now - every regret and regret in the past is a denial of the past self?
There seems to be nothing wrong with these words. If you listen to it from a certain angle, it makes sense.
The existence of time is to let people know what it means to miss something and what it means to regret not being able to catch it.
People cannot race against time. The only thing you can do is to cherish all the people or things that should be cherished now.
"You underestimated the harm that people caused you back then, and you also overestimated your psychological endurance." Zuo Jinye gave the answer at this time. An answer that Ji Shiyuan couldn't even think of.
Her heart was deeply touched by these words.
Zuo Jin also rubbed her palm lightly. She felt a little itchy, but she couldn't bear to leave the place with his warmth and the unique tickling and numbing touch he gave her. She lowered her head and looked at their entangled hands quietly.
Listen to him: "Don't rush to deny your past self, or regret anything. Those things back then, your reaction, your pride, your self-esteem. My calmness, my efforts, and my stubbornness are all The source of what happened.
But, I don't think we have any problem. Yuan'er, back then, I tried very hard to catch you and get close to you, but I didn't outrun Zuo's family, nor did I outrun time.
the same as you.
If you answer that call, I will not stop you from going abroad. I will support you in leaving. "
He said that he went to the airport not to stop her, but...to support her going abroad.
"Why?"
"Because we all need to grow." He pulled out his hand, clasped the back of her head, closed the distance between them, and touched her forehead, and said slowly: "You need a better environment, a more refined learning atmosphere and a team.
I actually wanted to give you two choices back then. If you wanted to stay, I would help you find a good college so that you could stop working and continue studying.
If you want to go abroad and continue your studies, I will fly over to accompany you. When I have time, I will come find you.
In fact, you are not the only one thinking this. Zuo Jin also chuckled, whether it was relief or self-mockery. He touched her face, kissed her lips, and continued: "For a long time in the past, especially in the second half of the year after you left, I Only then did I finally realize what the slowness of time is.
I was thinking very well about you going abroad. I thought that even if you saw me, I would be ready for you to go out. I didn't think it was a big deal, and I didn't seem that sad.
They all seem to be acceptable.
But as time went by, I realized that you were really gone, without looking back, answering my calls, or reading the messages I sent you. You even changed your contact information, and you left everything in the country behind.
I asked all employees in the company, people who have worked with you before, who have a good relationship with you and have contact information, to search for it both overtly and covertly. None of them can contact you and have no news from you.
It became clear to me... that I have truly become your past tense.
At that time, I didn’t know they had asked you to meet, nor did I know what they said to you. I just feel that in your heart, your future is more important than mine.
Later, I thought, instead of falling into despair, it would be better to end the mess in my hands as soon as possible and go to you as soon as possible.
Perhaps your coming back this time can dispel some of my previous thoughts that your future is more important than mine.
Yuan'er, I never thought that one day, when you return to China, you would become a kind of self-comfort in my heart. "
Zuo Jin also spoke, his eyes flushed, and he silently and passionately kissed her lips hard.
