"You've been living... well these past few years, okay?"
Zuo Jin couldn't say the word "good" himself, but now he felt that it was not important compared to hearing her response.
"Do you want to hear the truth?"
Ji Shiyuan asked.
He rubbed the palm of her hand, and Ji Shiyuan felt a numbness instantly rush into her body from there, causing her heart to tremble.
Zuo Jin also had a serious expression on his face, and his beautiful eyebrows were furrowed like a majestic mountain peak.
"I want to hear it all." Zuo Jin also held her hand tightly and placed it on his heart. He clasped the back of her head with his other hand and said firmly, "Tell me everything, okay?"
"not good."
Ji Shiyuan avoided his burning eyes and leaned on his chest again, saying.
Zuo Jin thought she was rejecting him, but then he heard her lying on top of him and whispering: "No, life is not good at all."
Ji Shiyuan was not being pretentious, nor was she adding a belated "complaint" after the two discussed these topics again.
This is just the true feeling in her heart.
As expected, Zuo Jin froze, his hand sliding on the back of her head in confusion. Ji Shiyuan raised her eyes to look at him, only to see his dull gaze.
"But I can't say, I'm just summarizing those five years. I can't say that I lived a good life without conscience.
But, thank you for the five million. I received it after I went abroad, and I didn't leave it in the bank. With this money, at least I think it's right to stay with Yingying.
If we didn't have that money, maybe Yingying and I wouldn't be living a very good life. I'm talking about life. "
Zuo Jin didn't feel any relieved after hearing what she said. His heart was always filled with a lingering pain. The pads of his fingers brushed across her face, smoothing her broken hair, and looked into her eyes.
"I'm sorry for making you suffer. Yuan'er, you..." His fingers suddenly trembled when he was about to touch her lips, and he asked with a trembling voice, not daring to lean in, "What should I do? , can we make up for it and make you feel better?
Tell me, will it work? "
After those years of self-righteousness, the ruins left behind after many of his words were choked in his throat before he could say them, and the indelible pain between the two of them, he no longer wanted to make a decision on his own.
He had to ask her opinion.
You should also decide what to do based on her wishes.
"Yuan'er, I don't want to be like before, because some of my...subjective behaviors have caused bad results. So, you come and teach me how to make up for you.
Yuan'er, teach me. Okay? "
He begged her earnestly and devoutly in front of her word by word clearly, saying: "Yuan'er, I can change anything.
All can be done for you and your child.
Please consider coming back to me again and let me make up for it, okay? "
Ji Shiyuan was nothing short of moved. At least she should feel relieved after hearing what happened five years ago. She was able to completely let go of the large piece of trouble in her heart that couldn't be erased.
But she didn't know how to respond to his request at this moment. This was too sudden for her.
She also tightened his hand.
Zuo Jin also immediately stared at her more focused.
"Zuo Jinye, I may not be able to forget the past so quickly. It takes more than a few words to heal the trauma in my heart. However, we all slowly let go and move forward.
You don’t have to say whether to make up for it or not. In the future, I can’t promise you right now. After all, we haven’t seen each other for five years. You and I have changed a lot. It's always bad to make a decision too quickly.
We let nature take its course. Do you think it will work? "
