Gu Nian looked at the empty house, feeling a little surprised and then a little lonely.
so.
Just the car came back, and his people didn't actually come back, right?
Thinking of this, the tears that Gu Nian had finally wiped away suddenly burst out again.
She bit her lips hard, trying to force herself to hold back her tears, but really, she couldn't hold on any longer.
Gu Nian stood there without turning on a single light. She just wanted to let the darkness in the room swallow her up, so that she would probably never yearn for any light again.
If there is no light when a person needs it most, is it necessary to have it later?
Maybe, I don't deserve light at all.
Gu Nian's heart and body sank little by little along with his eyes.
Really... so tired!
Sudden!
"You came back late today."
Behind him, the voice that Gu Nian wanted to hear the most came.
Although there was still no light in the dark house, when he heard these words, a beam of light still seemed to hit Gu Nian's heart.
Gu Nian turned around, her suppressed emotions could no longer be restrained, and her tightly held tears could no longer be stopped.
"Are you okay?"
Unexpectedly, Shi Ye was standing behind Gu Nian at this moment.
"you......"
Shi Ye still wanted to open his mouth and ask, "Are you okay?"
However, the words were not finished yet.
Time froze depending on Gu Nian's next action.
Gu Nian saw that Shi Ye, whom she had longed for, was standing behind her, so she rushed towards Shi Ye as if she was hugging a piece of driftwood at the moment when she was about to drown in the flood.
At this moment, Shi Ye's expression was frozen in the air just like his outstretched arms.
Gu Nian hugged Shi Ye tightly, as if she had lost her mind.
If she doesn't lose her mind, she feels that she may have no reason to live anymore.
Tears unknowingly soaked Shi Ye's shirt, and Shi Ye seemed to only be able to feel a little bit of moisture on his chest.
He could also feel that the girl in front of him was really emotionally broken at the moment.
Gu Nian's hair was tangled around Shi Ye's chest, and Shi Ye wanted to put down his hand and touch Gu Nian. Maybe this would comfort her better.
However, in the end, Shi Ye moved his hand away.
The reason is nothing more than...
He committed to another person.
However, Shi Ye could feel Gu Nian's vulnerability at this moment, so he didn't push her away.
Maybe she realized that she was a little out of line, so Gu Nian slowly stopped crying.
After his mood returned to calm, Gu Nian quickly took a big step back from Shi Ye's chest.
Then she wiped the remaining tears on her face in a panic. Her cheeks were flushed. She lowered her eyes, not daring to look directly at Shi Ye.
He just quickly bowed to him and said:
"I'm sorry! Mr. Shi!"
"I...I lost my temper. I'm really sorry!"
Then after saying that, he took his backpack and rushed towards the room like lightning.
After returning to the room, Gu Nian quickly closed the door, then leaned against the door, breathing heavily.
"Oh my god! Gu Nian! Are you crazy?"
Gu Nian kept asking herself this sentence in her mind.
Breathe deeply, breathe deeply.
But it seemed that no matter how deeply he took a deep breath, Gu Nian could not regain his rationality quickly.
Just how out of control did I have to make such an outrageous move?
What... would he think of himself?
Countless thoughts were getting more and more tangled in Gu Nian's heart like a ball of yarn, making her more and more uneasy.
"He went home, went home...what did he go home for?"
Gu Nian's mind was so confused that she didn't even know what she was mumbling at the moment.
Suddenly, there was something she said that was right.
"Come back for dinner!"
correct! Shi Ye hasn't eaten yet!
This sentence was like a slap on Gu Nian's face.
Let yourself who was still in a state of chaos suddenly regain your composure.
Yes.
I had an agreement with Shi Ye that I would cook for him these days, but just because of these messy things at night, I completely forgot about it.
When Gu Nian thought of this, she was about to open the door and go downstairs to quickly prepare dinner for Shi Ye.
But when his fingers first touched the door handle, it felt like he was electrocuted, and he flinched a little.
The scene just now was enough to make Gu Nian feel a little embarrassed.
Although, no one understands him better than Gu Nian, and how Shi Ye felt when he rushed out to hug her just now.
For so long, when she struggled in the darkness countless times, Shi Ye was the only one who really helped and cared about herself.
regardless......
Whether he was just out of sympathy, he was like a beam of light, illuminating and warming himself.
And he could no longer restrain himself and regarded Shi Ye as the only reason to persist in facing every second of life.
this......
Is it just the feeling of liking it?
Growing up, Gu Nian has been struggling to survive.
When she was young, she only wanted to study hard. Only by passing the exam in a small county could she find a way out of the deadlock. Otherwise, she would just drown in the deep sea of shackles for women in a backward place.
For example, finding someone you don't love at all to get married, have children, and spend your whole life working...
Later, she finally passed the Yuncheng examination and even graduated from graduate school.
But what fate dealt to Gu Nian was a deck of cards that couldn't get any worse.
She still couldn't get a foothold in this era just by studying, so she could only work hard to earn money, racking her brains every day to support herself and her brother's living expenses.
If you are like this, how can you find the time and energy to think about liking someone?
Therefore, she has never experienced what it feels like to love someone.
Therefore, when she asked herself whether this was love, Gu Nian could not give herself a clear answer.
But one thing was clear to her: Shi Ye's weight in her heart seemed to have undergone earth-shaking changes, and every time she thought of him, her heart would unconsciously feel like it was bubbling.
However, Gu Nian is a calm person after all.
She glanced at the door handle, which was of a design she had never seen before, then turned back and looked at every corner of the room, all showing traces of money.
Even Gu Nian had to work hard for many years to get it.
This objective reality conveys a meaning all the time.
That is the long-lasting relationship between her and Shi Ye——
"Class Gap".
Gu Nian, who is twenty-five years old, is naturally a child who grew up reading "Cinderella".
Of course, we know that in fairy tales, the kind and sincere Cinderella can also win the love of the prince, and the two eventually get married.
only.
Unfortunately, her life was anything but a fairy tale.
She would never have such a wild dream.
Gu Nian could not suppress her feelings for Shi Ye, but no matter how fermented her feelings were, she would not get carried away and not know who she was.
She still has a lot of debts that she has to pay off on her own. This is something that no one has the obligation to help her solve for free.
She will never transfer her crisis to others.
even......
Even if he really likes Shi Ye, it's just like him, nothing more.
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"Snapped!"
Gu Nian opened the door and walked out.
Reason urged her to regain all her composure, and told her that next, she should hurry up and finish preparing dinner.
After all, she was the one who took the initiative to take care of Shi Ye's daily life on Zhang's behalf these days.
She is a person who walks the talk.
However, when Gu Nian arrived at the kitchen, he was stunned.
I saw Shi Ye wearing an apron and busy in the kitchen.
His back was to Gu Nian, so he didn't notice that Gu Nian had come downstairs. Gu Nian just stood there, looking at Shi Ye quietly.
People!
After all, he is a creature with complex rationality and sensibility.
Especially in the face of emotions, it is even more difficult to distinguish which one is better, rationality or sensibility.
If possible, Gu Nian really wanted her time to stop at this moment. Even if she couldn't get close to Shi Ye at all, just being able to look at him quietly like this seemed to be enough.
However, such thoughts were broken the moment Shi Ye turned around.
"Mr. Shi."
Gu Nian hurriedly put away his eyes, and then said hello to Shi Ye. Although his voice fell, his heart was still beating abruptly.
Shi Ye was as usual, but there wasn't much emotion on his face. He just nodded politely, as distant as usual.
Somehow, Gu Nian breathed a sigh of relief.
It seemed that his deviant behavior did not have much impact on Shi Ye.
My own emotional guilt can also be reduced a lot.
Shi Ye walked out of the kitchen with a bowl of noodles, then walked to the dining room table and stood face to face with Gu Nian.
"I'm sorry, I was late and couldn't make dinner on time. I really..."
Gu Nian looked at the noodles in Shi Ye's hand, feeling guilty about his credit, and even more ashamed.
Mingming had volunteered to repay Shi Ye's favor by cooking before, but now he was forced to cook for himself.
Gu Nian still wanted to open her mouth and say a few more words of apology.
However, Shi Ye pushed the bowl in his hand towards Gu Nian, blocking Gu Nian from further thoughts.
Gu Nian looked at the bowl of noodles in front of him, a little surprised, then raised his head again and looked at Shi Ye.
I saw Shi Ye saying very calmly:
"It's eight o'clock. If you don't have dinner, it will be time for midnight snacks. This is not good for your health."
“So sit down and eat!”
After saying that, Shi Ye turned around and walked back to the kitchen, brought out another bowl of noodles and placed it in front of him. Then he pulled out the chair, sat down, picked up the chopsticks, and started eating.
When Gu Nian saw the bowl of noodles in front of him, his heart suddenly felt as full as balls of cotton.
She understood that if she continued to say it, she would feel a little pretentious.
So, Gu Nian silently pulled out the chair and slowly sat at the table.
She held the bowl of hot noodles in front of her with both hands, and the warmth instantly spread from her palms to her heart.
"the fourth time."
Gu Nian said softly unconsciously.
Shi Ye, who was concentrating on eating noodles, heard Gu Nian suddenly say these three words. He raised his head and asked with some doubts:
"What the fourth time?"
Gu Nian quickly shook his head and explained, "Oh! It's okay."
But, how could it be okay?
This is the fourth time Shi Ye has brought her the warmth of the human world.
Just when her father took away all her hard-earned money, he never even cared about whether she had enough to eat.
But Shi Ye brought her a bowl of hot noodles, which made up for all her emptiness and loss today.
From Gu Nian's perspective, she felt the right urgency with Shi Ye.
Gu Nian picked up a handful of noodles and was about to bring it to his mouth, but stopped.
She raised her head and said:
"Thanks."
