Jiang Bai looked at the huge heart in front of him. Could it be that the dead Du Lin had changed something?
Abedo didn't answer his question, and there was a deathly indifference hidden in his slightly lowered eyes.
"Tell me, what is the meaning of human existence?"
Jiang Bai's eyes opened slightly, completely unexpected that his life-loving friend would suddenly become confused about the meaning of human existence.
For Abedo, there is only one reason for suddenly raising this issue.
His existence is denied.
"Did something happen to you? Did you meet your mother?" He asked worriedly.
"Mother. No." Upon hearing this title, Abedo's eyes fluctuated slightly, but they quickly calmed down.
"Then why did you suddenly ask this question?" Jiang Bai was puzzled.
"It's nothing, I just suddenly thought of this." Abedo's expression was calm, as if he had restrained his usual gentleness and elegance.
"Are you really okay? Why do I feel you are weird?" Jiang Bai was even more worried.
Abedo has always been a very emotionally controlled person, and he is the one who takes care of others.
Emotional anomalies like this are so rare.
"Weird? Is that so? I'm just not in a good mood."
With that said, he turned around and walked out, not intending to say more to Jiang Bai.
The boots made a crisp sound on the bluestone ground that was not covered by snow, and the crimson chalcedony growing in the cave was as red as blood.
The ribbon-like red air lingered in Du Lin's heart, as if he were alive.
Jiang Bai frowned, glanced at the heart, looked at him deeply, and followed.
When we walked out of the cave, the world around us was completely white.
Jiang Bai quickened his pace and walked alongside him, chatting with him in a relaxed tone.
"Speaking of which, you come here regularly for check-ups. That heart is still alive. Will it come back to life?"
"have no idea."
Abedo didn’t say much about the heart matter, but just asked:
"Why did you come to me this time?"
"Let's take it easy on me. Let's go find a place to have a drink!"
Jiang Bai is very worried about Abedo's current situation.
Abedo has mentioned before that he may lose control and want to destroy everything.
But now the situation doesn't seem like it's out of control, but rather like it's being affected by something.
Jiang Bai suspected that he might be a little affected by the dark energy carried by Du Lin.
"Drink? Okay."
Abedo thought for a moment and agreed.
Finding a nearby cave to shelter from the wind, Jiang Bai lit up a fire and handed him a bottle of dandelion wine.
"Speaking of which, it was the last time we did it."
Jiang Bai said nonsense.
In the past, Abedo would definitely reply to him with something like, "Then let's drink again this time."
But this time Abedo said nothing.
He took the bottle, took a look at it, pulled out the oak stopper, and took a big sip under Jiang Bai's eyes.
"Ahem..." He accidentally drank too much and choked on the wine.
Jiang Bai quickly patted his back to help him calm down.
"Drink slowly, you will definitely choke if you drink like this."
Abedo wiped the wine from the corner of his mouth with his arm and turned a blind eye to what fell on his clothes.
"Sorry, I lost my temper."
The wine was spicy in the mouth, and he was not used to it. He drank it in small sips and then let it go.
Jiang Bai looked at him seriously, "Abedo, do you still think of me as your friend?"
Abedo's eyes flashed, "Of course."
"Then tell me what happened."
Abedo had too many abnormalities today, and he would not believe anything if nothing happened.
Light snow started to fall in the air at some point, and the fire in the cave made a crackling sound.
Abedo was silent for a while and then spoke slowly.
"I... have a friend who can't find the meaning of existence."
Jiang Bai held his cheek and spoke in a gentle tone:
"Can you tell me about your friend?"
Abedo nodded and continued:
"My friend was born to be considered unlucky. He was ignorant and thought everyone would like him, but he unknowingly brought disaster. Everyone regarded it as a scourge and avoided it, even wanting to get rid of it. Soon after that...
"He didn't understand at the time and thought people were playing with him, so he started playing with those people. But his behavior made people more fearful, hated, and disgusted... Later, he was imprisoned in a dark prison. cage.
"He has a brother who is completely different from him. That brother has been loved and taught by his mother since he was a child. He lives in the sun and everyone likes him.
"He's envious, he's jealous. He doesn't know what the meaning of his existence is? Is it just that he is hated by everyone? If that's the case, why does he exist?"
Jiang Bai listened quietly to him telling the whole story without showing anything strange.
"What do you think the meaning of human existence should be?"
Abedo held the wine bottle and lowered his head, "I don't know. My existence seems to be to fulfill my mother's expectations."
"Have you ever thought about it? People live for themselves."
Jiang Bai took a sip of wine and looked at the snowy sky.
"The meaning of existence itself is illusory. If you are too attached to it, you will get lost in it."
Abedo raised his head and looked at him quietly without speaking.
"Everything exists for a reason. Instead of exploring those illusory meanings, it is better to take a good look at yourself.
"Ask yourself, are you happy? Are you happy?"
"Are you happy..." Abedo was silent.
Jiang Bai looked into his eyes and said seriously:
"You can respond to the expectations of your relatives and friends, but you have to remember that people live for themselves. Don't regard those expectations as the meaning of your existence.
"People should put themselves first and then others."
"But what if it's not a human being..."
Abedo's voice was very soft, but Jiang Bai still heard it.
Jiang Bai smiled, "That's myself first, and then others."
Abedo took a sip of wine and became a little tipsy.
Jiang Bai continued to ramble, "I have a friend who is somewhat similar to you."
"In what way are they similar?"
"He is a puppet and not a real human being."
Jiang Bai glanced at Abedo, who had no reaction when he heard this.
Jiang Bai paused and continued:
"Abandoned by the [mother] who created him, he has spent countless years searching for the meaning of his existence."
"Did he find it?"
Jiang Bai shook his head, "No."
“He wants to prove his worth too much and wants to be useful, but in fact he doesn’t need to prove anything, and people are not judged based on their worth.
"I'm very ordinary, but I can also make myself happy."
"Are you happy..."
Abedo's eyes flashed with confusion.
He hasn't felt this way for a long, long time.
Jiang Bai patted him on the shoulder, "If I were your friend, I would run out of the prison, go to a place where no one knows me, turn myself into an ordinary person, and start my life again."
"Okay, I'm leaving. See you soon."
(End of chapter)
