I did not suppress my inner emotions, and allowed my emotions to drown me like a flood.
I cried like a wronged child, seeking the comfort of maternal love in her arms regardless of image.
At this time, she seemed to be overflowing with maternal love, holding my head and stroking my back.
Give me comfort.
I know that she has seen the most vulnerable and unknown side of me, and in her heart, she will definitely think that I am weak.
But, that's what I needed her to see.
However, I didn't indulge in her arms any longer. When her hands patted my back three times, I immediately suppressed the outburst of emotions and left her arms.
I turned around quickly and said apologetically: "I'm sorry, Doctor Xu, I... I'm so rude, I'm really sorry..."
Regarding my apology, Xu Ying said seriously: "Compared to the child's psychological problems, I think your psychological problems are also very big..."
I immediately turned around and said, "I have no problem in my heart, Doctor Xu, don't misunderstand me, and don't tell anyone else, I'm begging you, okay?"
Seeing my emotional state, Xu Ying hurriedly comforted me and said, "Don't worry, I will keep your privacy confidential."
After hearing this, I nodded and said helplessly: "People say I am a gangster, I can't cry, otherwise, people will look down on me.
You don’t know how bad people in the underworld are. They will really kill your whole family. I have to let everyone see my cruelty, my coldness, and my vicious side.
In this way, I can survive in the cracks. Doctor Xu, please keep it secret for me. "
Seeing my pleading look, Xu Ying's face was full of sympathy.
She sighed and said: "You... are actually not bad, and your disguise is not very good either. If you were really so vicious, you wouldn't be so gentle to the child.
I know that you have severe obsessive-compulsive disorder. People like you have an absolute repulsion towards excrement. People with ordinary obsessive-compulsive disorder and mysophobia are absolutely unacceptable.
However, not only did you accept it, but you also put down everything and dealt with it. Although you were clumsy, this shows that you are absolutely kind in your heart. "
After hearing this, I said hurriedly and uneasily: "No, no, no, Dr. Xu, I am not kind, I am a bad person, I am a gangster, I am not a good person, you must not think so, I beg you."
Seeing my pleading eyes, Xu Ying sympathized with me even more.
He sighed and said: "Well, don't worry, Mr. Wan, I won't talk nonsense. You don't have to worry about me here. I am a doctor. You can open your heart to me as much as you want, so that for your treatment, There are benefits too.”
I quickly stood up and said nervously: "I told you, I'm not sick. I'm treating children. Doctor Xu, you're off topic..."
Xu Ying hummed and said helplessly: "You are very defensive. You are afraid that others will walk into your heart and discover your softness. I know that this is caused by the environment.
I'm the same as you. I'm actually very defensive. My living environment is not very safe. My dad works in finance, so he's not a clean person either.
There are a lot of black money looking for him, and he is always entangled with the underworld. If those black money make money, they will be friendly. If they lose money, they will often threaten to kill his whole family.
In fact, I have grown up under the threat of others. I can understand the feeling of being shrouded in darkness since childhood. Mr. Wan, if you think you can believe me.
We can actually start with friends. "
After hearing this, I did it and looked at Xu Ying with pretense of suspicion.
She smiled slightly, showing a sincere expression.
I then reached out my hand and she immediately took it in mine and we held it together.
I said: "I haven't had many friends since I was a child. I have been living in the underworld since I was a child. In order to survive, I must learn to be a bad person.
I often fight and steal other people's things. I have to be cruel enough to prevent others from bullying me. However, I really don't want to do this. If possible, I would rather not be the prince of a horse dealer.
I'm really fed up with this hateful world. I really want to escape. Really, I went abroad to study when I was eighteen years old. I would rather live alone in a foreign country.
I don’t want to come back again. When I go abroad, I feel like a fish returning to the sea. I am really full of energy.
I got a lot of scholarships, I got a lot of degrees, I worked with a lot of great people, and I felt very happy.
There is no need to fight and kill, and there is no need to disguise myself. I hope so much that I will never come back again in my life.
But... he was killed and left me such a big mess. I really hated him, but I couldn't help it. He was my father after all, and I had to come back. "
After I finished speaking, I let out a heavy breath, as if I had relaxed a lot.
Then, I looked at Xu Ying gratefully and said thank you: "Thank you, Dr. Xu, for saying it...it actually makes me feel better. You don't know how depressed I am. For so many days, I feel like a balloon." .
Someone kept cheering me up, and I was about to explode. I really didn’t know that I would explode that day. Thank you so much, if it weren’t for you.
I really don’t know what the horrific scene will be like the day I explode. "
Xu Ying smiled and said: "I am a doctor and also your friend. This is my responsibility and obligation."
I quickly said: "Then...I won't be polite to you anymore. I...and Duoduo's inner problems will all be left to you. I really don't have a single friend in China."
Even my former good brothers fought against me in order to climb up. Really, I don’t have anyone I can tell the truth to.
Doctor Xu, I hope you don't find me annoying. "
Xu Ying said solemnly: "Don't worry, Mr. Wan, I'm just afraid that you are too closed-minded and I'm not afraid of you saying too much. Well...have you ever thought about how to deal with your problem next?"
In fact, your inner pressure comes from the outside. Solving external things is actually the right medicine for your problems. "
After I heard this, I smiled coldly in my heart. I knew she was trying to find out what I was saying.
This woman is indeed extraordinary.
I thought for a while and then said seriously: "I have been thinking about whether to hand over the company to my brother. I don't care about money, I just want a quiet life.
I have taken my mother abroad. I plan to take Duoduo back to the United States after she is cured of her condition. I will never come back. I will let him go with the wind. Who wants to snatch it away... "
After saying that, I sighed heavily.
Xu Ying raised her brows and said encouragingly: "This is a very good idea. For your health, I think it would be better for you to leave as soon as possible. After all, money is an external possession."
I immediately asked in surprise: "You think so too? That's great. I'll leave as soon as I cure Duoduo's disease. Doctor Xu, please."
After I finished speaking, I saw Uncle Wu walking over.
He whispered in my ear: "Master, Xu Kaitai's wife Yan Fengjun is waiting for you downstairs. She wants to see you and talk to you alone."
After hearing this, I gritted my teeth and said in an extremely irritable manner: "I'm treating my child, why are they pestering me? Why? Can't they give me a chance to breathe?"
Uncle Wu looked at me in surprise, not knowing what to say.
I looked at Xu Ying with hatred, gritted my teeth and said, "They are all forcing me. I really don't understand, why are they doing this?"
Xu Ying hurriedly comforted him: "Calm down, otherwise, you should deal with your personal matters first."
After hearing this, I said nervously: "Dr. Xu, I am afraid that I will explode. Can I make an excessive request? I hope that you can treat me personally. I am not doing it for myself, I am doing it for the children."
Really, I knew that those people would definitely beat me to a bloody head, and I really didn’t want Duoduo to see those cruel scenes again.
I don't trust her to anyone. I only trust you now. Can you help me? "
After I finished speaking, I looked at Xu Ying precariously.
As long as she agrees to my request.
From now on, she will be tied up by me.
It can no longer escape my grasp.
