In the dark night, I stood alone on the roof of the building.
Feeling the endless night wind and listening to the sound of firecrackers all around me, on this New Year's Eve night when thousands of families are happy, I feel nothing but bitterness and pain in my heart.
I have had this feeling a long time ago. I don’t know exactly when it started, but overall it can be described in one sentence, that is, endless despair for the future of life!
It's so painful, so uncomfortable, and I really want to escape from this hell called the world right away...
Yes, in my eyes, the human world is the real eighteen-level Avici Hell, the most painful torture trial in the world. The reason for this realization comes from a dream last night, a serious... The strangeness that breaks my understanding.
In the early morning, when my personal consciousness fell into sleep as usual, not long after, I heard laughter.
"hahahahahahahahahahaha!"
The almost distorted laughter echoed up and down in my ears. In the darkness, my consciousness was awakened. Since I was only conscious, I couldn't see anything. The only thing that caught my eyes was darkness, but even so, The laughter still echoes in my ears as clearly as a tarsal maggot. The sound keeps laughing, keeps rising and falling, and there is nothing but laughter.
"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!"
until……
Until I gradually became anxious and agitated under the stimulation of laughter and even tended to collapse, I covered my ears, gritted my teeth and yelled: "That's enough! Stop laughing, don't laugh anymore!"
The laughter disappeared, and the moment I let out a ferocious roar, it suddenly disappeared. As the laughter receded and disappeared quietly, the world returned to the darkness where it first began. Dead silence.
Plop.
"Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!"
In the darkness, my body went limp and I knelt on the ground, panting violently, but I didn't show any trace of fear or panic.
reason?
The reason comes from the absolute anomaly here. It's too dark, so dark that you can barely even perceive yourself. Therefore, this place is definitely not reality, or...
This is the real reality!
Exposed to a certain sense of reality, I gradually calmed down. After the initial excitement, I gradually calmed down. Then, I said something into the darkness:
"Where is this?"
Silence, silence, silence.
No one answered me in the darkness, only dead silence, never-ending darkness and silence.
Faced with this outcome that was both expected and unexpected, my response was silence, a silence that was exactly the same as darkness.
The time of nothingness passed slowly, and a century passed quietly in the blink of an eye.
Yes, you heard it right, it is a century. From the time I came to the dark space to this moment, I have been in this black world without any existence at all for a whole century.
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After reading this, some people may want to ask, wouldn't you be lonely if you stayed alone in a dark and empty world for hundreds of years? Won't you be lonely? Aren't you going crazy?
Faced with this kind of question, my answer is no. I am no longer too lazy to be lonely, too lazy to go crazy with despair, because my life has long been at a level that is ten thousand times more miserable than being collapsed and going crazy! ! !
This is like asking a person who is being licked if he will feel uncomfortable due to mosquito bites. It is a complete joke.
What is loneliness? What is loneliness? What is the passage of time that is enough to torture an ordinary person until he collapses and goes crazy? Compared with the miserable life I have experienced so far, these are nothing to mention. My pain far exceeds the limit that humans can imagine! ! !
Under the torture that is comparable to Lingchi every day, what does a mere century of loneliness mean? Yes, the long period of torture did not make me feel lonely, nor did it make me collapse and go crazy. On the contrary, I gradually adapted to and even fell in love with this place.
reason?
There is only one reason, and that is, this is not the human world! This is a place where you can truly escape from the eighteen levels of Avici Hell.
The world is too tiring, too painful, too hopeless and too painful. As long as you are still in the world, you are destined to be controlled by fate and teased like a monkey. But you have no idea about this. You are busy and struggling under the teasing of fate, until you reach the end of your life, you will suddenly realize and realize for the first time that you are just a joke. In fact, except for a few enlightened masters and philosophers in the world who can see through the true meaning, Most people cannot see through the truth. As for what is the truth? The truth is that the human world is hell, the Abi Infinite Karma Fire Hell that is billions of times more terrifying than any known torture!
What's even more terrifying is that here...
There is no escape! ! !
So, as a century passed by quietly, I spoke again in silence, and said a word towards the darkness with no direction: "Can I stay here forever?"
This time, I heard a response, and the one who answered me was the unknown being who released the laughter in the first place.
"No, you can't stay here forever." Different from the distorted laughter at the beginning, this time, the voice was very calm, and he decisively rejected me in a tone that was so calm that there was no emotion.
When I heard the reply, fear appeared on my face, and then I bit the bullet and shouted sternly: "Then I will commit suicide when I go back! No matter what, I don't want to stay in the world anymore!"
"Suicide? You said you want to commit suicide? Hehe, hehe, hehehe..."
There was no reason, no reason. When I heard my rather exciting statement of suicide, my voice laughed. I chuckled leisurely and in a mocking tone. I thought the laughter would last for a long time, but after just a moment, the laughter suddenly stopped. Instead, there was a string of cold responses: "Do you think you can escape from the human world by committing suicide? Do you think you can escape from this hell of karma? Your idea is too naive."
"You, what do you mean?" After hearing this, my face changed again, and I asked nervously with doubts on my face, but the unknown existence hidden in the darkness seemed to have expected that I would ask this question, and did not ask. Hesitation said again: "Through a century of observation, I have now seen your pain. Your hatred of the human world even outweighs the torture of time. At the same time, you are also one of the few rare beings who can find that the human world is the real hell. There is nothing wrong with it. , the human world is indeed hell, the most painful, desperate, darkest and even the most unsolvable karma-fire purgatory in the three thousand worlds. Only the most sinful people will fall into the human world. As long as there is less karma in the body, the ending will not be a fall. Enter the human world, the Abi Hell that even animals don’t want to go to, so you should understand that the human world is a place where you can wash away the fire of karma. Wash it away, and no one can escape from the world. Even if you commit suicide, your soul after death will still reincarnate into the world and continue to endure the unending pain and torture of the previous life. You cannot escape, and you will never escape! "
The voice was so cold and ruthless, and the words were so despairing. When I heard this, my body began to tremble, and tears filled my eyes involuntarily. It was painful! pain! pain! Unimaginable despair and pain seemed to wrap around me deeply, leaving me with no chance to struggle. However, I was unwilling to give in. I still refused to give in. With tears streaming down my face, I asked tremblingly: "In that case, Then, let me disappear, completely destroy my soul, and let my soul fly away! As long as I can escape from the world, I would rather die and disappear forever! Please, please!"
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..."
Silence, a long time of silent silence. Ever since I cried and sobbed, the unknown existence hidden in the darkness chose to be silent and not speak out. It just let me cry and plead, and I myself was driven by increasingly intense emotions. From crying to laughing, from laughing to crying, in the end, he suddenly stood up and cursed: "But even so, why does fate have to torture me alone? Why does it have to deliberately target me? We are all in hell, but the suffering I have suffered is... Far beyond others! Why? Why are some people born with abundant food and clothing, why are some people born with great intelligence and sociability, and why are some people born with excellent luck and everything goes smoothly? Why am I the only one who lacks food and clothing and is poor at speaking? What’s even more unexplainable is that I have a bumpy fate and everything I do is not going well! Even my manuscripts are frequently sealed over and over again, and those who are frequently sealed are The end result is that there are fewer and fewer readers. Although I didn’t read this book again this time, no one subscribed this time. The number of subscribers is far less than when I first wrote the book. As a result, I can’t even afford to eat now! Why? Fate? Why do you do this to me, why? Why..."
"This! What! What! Why! What! Ah!!!"
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!"
In the darkness, I raised my head and roared with my flaws broken, my eyes were blood red and I went crazy in the collapse. At this moment, I turned into a ghost. I roared like an evil Shura ghost who hates all human beings in the world. Because of my hatred, It’s too deep! Ripples appeared in my body, and there were spatial fluctuations that only earthbound spirits could have. In this horrifying fluctuation that was completely composed of overwhelming anger and hatred, my eyes began to bleed! A large amount of bright red blood seeped out from my red to black eyes!
"Ah! Uaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
Boom! Boom! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Thunder appeared in the originally dead and dark space, and a hurricane emerged, sweeping and tumbling amidst the extreme roars and shocking laughter I released, and then...
Cluck, cluck.
Cracks appeared in the black space, and cracks appeared out of thin air like a mirror that couldn't bear the huge pressure. As for me...
"Fate has tortured me for too long. From birth to now, I have never been lucky even once. Even the ordinary life of most people is a luxury hope for me. I have had enough. I want revenge! Revenge. The whole world, die, you are all going to die, everyone is going to die!"
Wow! ! !
The black space was shattered, and was forcibly shaken into crumbs by my excessive hatred. As the black space turned into crumbs, my body, which was immersed in sleep in reality, suddenly trembled and my breath wandered away.
Yes, I am dying. My body is about to gradually disintegrate and collapse because it cannot withstand the mutation and violence of my soul. Soon, my body will be squeezed to death by the violent soul, but this is exactly what I need most. I hope that although I will die, the overwhelming hatred built from anger will ensure that I will not go to the underworld or enter reincarnation after death. In this way, I can completely get rid of my fate and escape from the human world in disguise. From now on, I will never have to endure pain again. Not only that, but only in this way can I take revenge and repay fate by killing all living beings!
You are all going to die, no one can live! ! !
Boom!
The thunder sounded again, and the hurricane swept across again. The only difference was that if the initial thunderous hurricane only existed in the black space, then as the black space turned into powder, this time, the thunder appeared in the real space! Lightning and thunder suddenly appeared in the night sky that was originally windless and rainless. For a moment, thousands of terrifying and violent lightnings intertwined and shuttled through the clouds, and their area was so wide that it even enveloped the entire city! At this moment, people were awakened by the thunder, and everyone who was immersed in sleep was frightened by the dense lightning that appeared out of thin air at midnight. Faced with this completely illogical change in the sky, people looked up at the sky and shivered, feeling There was a collective panic as if the end of the world was approaching. This is how it is described, and it is also true!
"Hey hey, hey hey hey, eh hey hey hey hey!"???????????????
At this moment, looking at my body that is bleeding from seven holes and about to die, I have already lost my human shape in anger and have a vicious and fierce smile on my face. It’s coming soon, it’s coming soon, as long as the only body that can bind my soul is completely dead, then I can get rid of the restraint and regain my freedom, and then I will kill, kill all the creatures I see. Since I am in pain, then I will let the whole world suffer with me! But now I have the ability to destroy everything, because now I am only a soul in the literal sense. In reality, I have far exceeded the category of spirit body, and my actual strength is even more than ten thousand times that of the earth-bound spirit! ! !
Break free from the shackles, you must break free from the shackles. As long as you break free from the shackles of the physical body, everyone will die by then, and no one in the entire world can survive! ! !
"Die! Die quickly, die quickly!!!"
Just when I was staring at the distorted body and laughing wildly, in the thunder, I heard the voice again, the mysterious voice that had been hiding its figure. The voice was currently muttering in a low voice:
"Has the soul turned into a ghost while still alive? It's rare. It's really rare. Not only does the soul transform into a ghost while alive, but the soul even reaches the level of destroying the world. This is infinitely close to the rules. This level is also It is true that you can easily exterminate the human race. You are very special, very, very special."
"Unfortunately……"
"No matter how much hate you have, no matter how angry you are, you still can't change anything."
After muttering something slightly surprised, the voice disappeared again, and then something unexpected happened.
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"
It was like being drained of all physical energy in an instant. As the owner of the voice stopped talking to himself, the next moment, I felt restrained. I was so powerful that I was invincible due to hatred. I was suddenly forcibly suppressed by an unknown force. With the suppression, The power grew stronger and stronger, and my wild laughter disappeared and was replaced by sobs. At the same time, the black space that I had just shattered was restored. As the black space was perfectly restored, I myself returned to normal, and now I have returned to the world. I still look like the same person I was when I first came to the dark space, still the same miserable existence that was struggling in the world and being toyed with by fate.
Next…
"Huh? I, I, this is what I am?"
Just when I was dumbfounded and muttering to myself, the voice came out again in the darkness:
"Go back, go back to the place that belongs to you, and then live your life in pain and torture. Although your fate is bumpy, I believe that one day your karma will be completely cleansed. At that time, you will be free from This is a hell on earth.”
This was the last sound I heard. As the sound ended and became silent, I woke up.
Until now I don't know if last night was a dream? Although I was doubtful, I knew that I was still being played by fate and was still trapped in the torment of years of painful collapse. However, just because I thought of the absurd dream last night, I finally stopped at the edge of the roof. He stopped his movements and stopped at the last moment when he was about to jump.
You are right, maybe I will spend my whole life in pain and despair, but as long as there is hope, I believe that one day I will wash away my karma and finally escape from this painful hell called the human world.
hope so……
