I stood at the door of my house and hesitated for a long time, not even thinking about what to say first.
At this moment, the phone in my pocket vibrated. I took it out and saw that Xiao Sun had sent a WeChat message.
"Sister, are you here?"
Seeing this sentence, I feel a little relieved.
Yes, I haven't reported that Xiaosun is safe yet.
"I have arrived."
I wanted to put the phone back into my pocket, but I saw that he was "tying in", so I held the phone and waited for a while.
"Sister, my eyelids keep twitching. Can you send me your location? I'll pick you up after the wedding tomorrow."
I find it a little funny. Is Xiao Sun also a superstitious person?
"What are you worried about? I'm going home, not going to the battlefield."
"No, sister." Xiao Sun quickly sent a reply, "I keep seeing news about bus accidents recently. I'm really worried. I'll be fine tomorrow, so I'll drive to pick you up."
"No, it's too far."
"It's not far, send it to me."
Seeing how persistent he was, I sent the location. Xiao Sun replied "received" and then nothing happened.
I put the phone away and slowly breathed a sigh of relief.
Yes, I have my own life.
This time I went home just to put an end to this village.
End it early, end it early.
I opened the door and found them happily preparing to eat.
My mom, my dad, my brother, and a fat girl I’ve never seen before.
That should... be my future siblings, right?
When these four people saw me entering the room, two of them rolled their eyes, but my younger brother and sister didn't even raise their heads and kept eating.
Only my old man just stared at me blankly.
It's really nice, this kind of unexpected welcome ceremony, this kind of happy family atmosphere.
"Laidi is back?" The old man stood up and said to me expressionlessly, "Have you eaten yet?"
"Dad, I ate." I nodded, "Chengcai is getting married, I must come back."
"I came back just in time to do the dishes." The woman said, "You haven't worked at home for so many years? I gave birth to you just to make you happy, right?"
"I won't wash the dishes, Mom." I smiled and shook my head, "I gave you the money for eating these things. I don't have to help you wash the dishes anymore. It's not fair."
There was clearly a hint of ferocity in that woman's eyes. In a lawsuit, she would only show this expression when she wanted to ruin the other party's reputation.
But I saw this look in my biological mother's eyes.
"Hey...baby..." The man waved to me, "Come sit down and have something to eat together."
"I won't eat, Dad." I said as I took out a thick red envelope from my backpack and placed it in front of Chengcai, "Chengcai, I wish you a happy wedding and be responsible when you start a family in the future."
My younger brother picked his teeth with his hand, wiped it on his pants and opened the red envelope in front of me, without even looking at me the whole time.
He counted them roughly, rolled his eyes quickly, and threw the red envelope in front of my mother.
"It's just fucking ten thousand yuan," Chengcai said.
"What?!" The woman suddenly became furious, "Zhang Laidi!!"
"Mom, my name is Zhang Chenze now." I said.
"Zhang Laidi, how shameless are you?!" She pointed at my nose and cursed fiercely, "There are so many sisters in the village, but you are the only one who is so stupid that you don't give your brother money to get married! You are already thirty-five years old ! You have been working for more than ten years and no one wants you. How can your brother not be wanted?!"
"Mom, I'm thirty-three years old." I said again, "The 10,000-yuan red envelope is my utmost kindness. Now that my brother has a family, it means that he has the ability to start a family. Starting from this month, I will not be able to pay for the living expenses at home." I’ll give it to you again, and this time I’m here to make it clear to you.”
"What?!"
She instantly picked up an empty bowl on the table and looked like she wanted to throw the bowl at my face.
"Hey!" My old man stopped him instantly, "Forget it! Forget it! Laidi is finally back! Don't hit anyone!"
The atmosphere was extremely depressing.
I sighed and turned around: "I originally wanted to show up at Chengjae's wedding, but now it seems there's no need. Now that I've made it clear, I'll leave now."
"Laidi!" the old man stopped me, "It's too late now! Do you want to stay for one night?"
I looked at the sky outside and felt a little embarrassed.
The village is different from the city. After five o'clock in the evening, it is already dark outside.
Now not only can’t I call a car when I go out, but my cell phone is almost out of battery.
I turned around and nodded. Although I hate this place very much, these people are my relatives after all.
They just make me feel sick, not putting me in danger.
"Then I'll stay one night and leave early tomorrow morning."
"Laidi... won't you stay at home for two more days?" the old man asked again.
"Well, I'm quite busy. I'll come and see you and then go back."
After saying that, I walked into the inner room, where my former room was. It had not been cleaned for many years. It was full of clutter and I could barely find a dusty bed.
This environment is not bad for me. After all, I even slept on the sofa for three years. There is no hardship that I cannot bear.
I climbed onto the bed, brushed aside the cobwebs on the bedside, and found a wall plug that had been dusty for a long time. Then I took out the charger from my backpack and charged my phone.
Fortunately, I was wearing casual clothes. If I got dirty, I could just go back and wash it.
This time I am here to cut off this difficult family relationship, so I will suffer a little, which is fair.
From now on, I will slowly get better and "test happiness" as much as possible.
I didn't turn on the light, just looked out the dark window in the dark room.
The village is quieter than the city. There are no cars passing through at midnight honking their horns, and there are no drunken madmen shouting in the streets.
I was just a little hot, and the weather in June brought a lot of flying insects in the room, but that didn’t matter, they were just some mosquitoes and moths, and I often lived closely with them when I was in Chengdu.
As long as I can survive tonight, I can start my new life. This will be a long dark night of my own.
"Laidi...sleep?"
The old man's voice sounded at the door.
He stood outside the door holding a stainless steel cup.
I frowned slowly: "No, what's wrong?"
"Milk for you." He whispered, "I haven't reminded you to drink more milk for so many years."
He placed the cup on the table, sighed, and walked out of the room.
I looked at the still sloshing glass of milk and felt nauseated.
When I was nine years old, the old man heard that drinking milk could make a woman's breasts bigger and help her find a better family. From then on, he brought me a glass of milk every night.
He doesn't care whether I've eaten or not today, whether I'm happy or not, whether the milk has expired or whether it's too cold to swallow, he only cares whether I drink milk or not.
This made me want to vomit when I saw milk for a long time. It was not until my insomnia became severe that I began to drink milk gradually under the doctor's advice.
