Xiao Langyan will not be discouraged.
He was very patient with Shen Dingzhu.
Occasionally, he would show her the letters she had left in the box.
"You left the Xuanjia Army to me and called me your husband, do you remember?"
Shen Dingzhu's slender fingers held the letter and read it carefully.
This letter has been curled up by Xiao Langyan. It can be seen that he often takes it out to recall.
And between the lines, her hope and longing for the future are revealed.
Some sweet feelings came to her heart, and she seemed to be able to remember how happy she felt when she wrote this letter.
She must have liked Xiao Langyan at that time.
Shen Dingzhu's beautiful eyes were a little confused. She could remember the feeling at that time, but why couldn't she remember the rest?
In order to help her remember, Xiao Langyan would take time out to accompany her around the palace every day.
After passing a place where the two of them had been together, he would repeat the past events to help her remember.
The effect is not very good.
Until one day, Xiao Langyan took Shen Dingzhu to the high platform to reach the Star Tower.
The beauty in a bright purple dress was suddenly stunned as soon as she went up to the balcony and looked at the dazzling starry sky and the palace in front of her eyes.
Xiao Langyan hadn't said anything yet, but she seemed to remember something, and a hot tear fell down her eyes.
"Did you remember something?" Xiao Langyan was a little happy, and the thin eyes under his sword-shaped eyebrows were like scalding fire.
Shen Dingzhu's long eyelashes trembled: "I don't know why, standing here, I suddenly remembered that the emperor seems to love me very much."
Xiao Langyan kept nodding and guiding her: "Think again, one Mid-Autumn Festival, we stood side by side here, do you still remember what you said to me?"
Shen Dingzhu closed her eyes gently, her eyelashes were as black as fluttering butterfly wings, and she tried to think carefully.
But for some reason, many uncomfortable images suddenly came to her mind.
As soon as the sweetness in my heart rose, it was shattered by the gloomy emotion.
"Fu Yunqiu..." Shen Dingzhu suddenly murmured and said this name. She opened her eyes, somewhat absent-mindedly, and pointed to the lake not far away.
"One Mid-Autumn Festival, I put out river lanterns there to pay homage to my family. Fu Yunqiu deliberately made things difficult for me and extinguished my river lanterns. The emperor happened to be passing by, but he did not make a decision for me. Probably because he was afraid that she would be embarrassed by me, he called Fu Yunqiu away. He left me alone by the lake and cried for a long time."
Xiao Langyan's thin eyes were frightened and angry, and he wished he could kill himself in the dream.
Was it really him who Shen Dingzhu dreamed about? How could he turn a blind eye to her tears for Fu Yunqiu's sake?
When they were in the palace and walked through some past places, Shen Dingzhu could always remember these unpleasant things.
In her description, Xiao Langyan was like always standing on the other side watching the fire, watching her in pain and sorrow, but he did not reach out to hold her hand, he just asked her to be good and stay by his side.
He dotes on her, but doesn't seem to love her.
But Shen Dingzhu was very conflicted.
Because she always remembers something different.
When she was sick, Xiao Langyan stayed by the bedside; when she woke up in the middle of the night when she was pregnant, he always seemed to be the first to wake up and hug her tightly; when she was in the water prison, the moment Xiao Langyan jumped out of the water... …
Chaos and reality intertwined, and she could hardly tell which was a dream and which was what she had really experienced.
While Xiao Langyan was busy with government affairs, Shen Bi and Xiucui also told Shen Dingzhu many details that she didn't know.
She was embarrassed by Concubine Du Shu. For her sake, the emperor chopped Concubine Du Shu into pieces.
Xiucui heard from Chen Heng that before Shen Dingzhu gave birth to Xiao Xingche, Xiao Langyan seemed to be neglecting Shen Dingzhu, but in fact, he often went to Yaoguang Palace where she lived and sat there all night.
Not being able to see her made him even more miserable. So the moment he got the Xuanjia Army, he arranged for them to protect her, and he had to listen to the Xuanjia Army reporting her news every day.
If she couldn't eat, he wouldn't eat either; when she woke up from the pregnancy, he asked Xuan Jiajun to put soothing herbs in the incense she used in her room.
During the time when Shen Dingzhu was living in Beiliang, Xiao Langyan thought she was dead.
The emperor dealt with a mountain of government affairs during the day, and at night he sat in the Buddhist hall, copying scriptures and praying for her.
Xu Shou also came to Fengyi Palace several times. When chatting with Shen Dingzhu, he mentioned the first time Shen Dingzhu ran into Xiao Langyan's carriage. In fact, Xiao Langyan was going to the military camp to rescue her.
Shen Dingzhu's parents often went to the palace to accompany her and talk to her.
Both of them felt that Xiao Langyan was having a hard time.
Father Shen sighed: "You were still a noble concubine at that time. Whenever there was a suggestion in the court to impeach you as a favorite, the emperor would try his best to suppress it. For this reason, he did not hesitate to win over the power of the poor people and personally summoned those officials who were not popular to serve you. Little by little, the sand is gathered into a tower. Considering the situation of our Shen family at that time, it is very difficult for the emperor to meet your request. It is not an exaggeration to say that it is like filling the sea with a stone in your hand. My daughter, in fact, we are the ones who owe the emperor."
Later, Princess Kang entered the palace and talked with Shen Dingzhu.
Her temperament is a bit timid and dull, but she also told Shen Dingzhu: "I heard from my prince that a long time ago, King Xuan wanted to be frivolous towards his wife. Later, when he was walking on the street, he was hooded with a sack and beaten five or six times. King Xuan They don’t even dare to go out anymore. When King Ming was fighting for power with the emperor, he seemed to have impeached the late emperor. This matter was done by the emperor..."
The enthusiasm hidden under Xiao Langyan's cold temperament was pieced together bit by bit by relatives and friends as details.
Shen Dingzhu not only recalled many memories, but was also shocked to realize that Xiao Langyan's deep feelings were almost never expressed in words.
Only on rare occasions when he was extremely emotional did he whisper his love into her ears over and over again.
Shen Dingzhu wondered if there were misunderstandings and difficulties behind some of the things she remembered about him hurting her?
Xiao Langyan's method of loving her at first was simple and crude, but later he seemed to gradually observe her desire for delicate emotional needs, so he changed little by little.
It turns out that he has been paying for her.
Soon, three months passed. Although Shen Dingzhu did not remember everything, she got along with Xiao Langyan more naturally, without the uneasiness she felt when she first lost her memory.
Xiao Langyan postponed the date of their emperor's wedding.
He said: "I still want to wait for her to remember that she promised me when she loved me the most. I can't bully her into forgetting that, and then forcefully drag her into marriage. I want her to be willing."
On a midsummer night, with the bright moon in the sky, the lights in Fengyi Palace were bright.
Xiao Langyan watched the ghost doctor finish applying the acupuncture to Shen Dingzhu, and took the pulse again. The ghost doctor nodded thoughtfully: "The blood stasis has dissipated a lot, and my mother's pulse condition has gradually improved. I believe she will be cured in a short time."
It was getting late and the ghost doctor resigned. Xiao Langyan watched Shen Dingzhu take the last bowl of medicine and gently wiped the medicine on the corners of her lips with his hand.
"Go to sleep. When you fall asleep, I will return to Qianyuan Hall."
Shen Dingzhu lay down, his black hair spread on the pillow, his face like white porcelain, charming and charming.
The past few months of nursing have restored her vitality, and her skin is white and rosy, like a newly opened peach.
She watched Xiao Langyan blow out the candles for her, leaving only one night pearl, emitting a gentle light.
After doing all this, Xiao Langyan returned to her couch and sat down.
Looking at his pale blue color that was not resting, Shen Dingzhu reached out and pulled his sleeve.
"Your Majesty, do you...do you want to stay one night?"
Xiao Langyan's thin dark eyes were startled, and ripples surged deep in his eyes.
Since Shen Dingzhu lost her memory, Xiao Langyan couldn't help but notice that she was somewhat resistant to him, so he didn't want to force her to sleep with him.
Everything was considered for her physical recovery.
Even if I just hugged him to sleep, it had been a long time since I had slept with him.
Shen Dingzhu saw Xiao Langyan's thin eyes swaying, like a little flame.
Her face was red and slightly hot, and her voice was soft and coquettish as she said, "There have been too many thunderstorms on summer nights recently. I'm not used to your absence."
Shen Dingzhu remembered that after she returned to the palace, the two of them had hardly slept in separate beds for that long.
As her memory recovered, her feelings for Xiao Langyan seemed to be stronger than before.
Xiao Langyan finally waited for the moment when she let down her guard.
A smile formed on his thin lips, and the frown on his brows finally showed signs of loosening.
Xiao Langyan couldn't wait to put Shen Dingzhu into his arms. He hugged her tightly and said in a low and hoarse voice, "Perhaps this is a test given by God, and it is also for me to make up for my debt to you." , I know that you have been wronged."
He tried to kiss her lips, but only dared to touch them cautiously. Shen Dingzhu did not resist, but lowered his eyelashes shyly like before.
As if he had found a treasure, Xiao Langyan held her little face in his big hands and deepened the hard-won kiss.
Perhaps fate made the two of them feel a little tired and wanted to stop and rest. When they hugged each other, they ignited the fire in each other's bodies.
"Baby, baby..." When the love was deep, he kept rubbing her ears and temples, calling her, Shen Dingzhu felt the warm love he brought, and was sent to the clouds one after another by him.
suddenly.
Xiao Langyan lay on her neck, a stream of hot tears sliding down her slender neck.
She heard the imperceptible pleading in his hoarse voice.
"No matter what, you must never forget me."
