But Chen Jiaxian unexpectedly thought of the business card half soaked in the coffee cup.
A proud person like him would naturally not show his embarrassed side, and she also had many prejudices against him.
So, this time, Chen Jiaxian did not retreat.
She even suppressed the thorn in her words and asked Pan Qiaomu calmly: "Why are you here?"
Pan Qiaomu said: "I pass by here every day."
No wonder he rescued Uncle Jiang. Chen Jiaxian thought to herself.
Yes, it was Uncle Jiang who he saved. But she kept resisting him. She closed her eyes, not looking at the facts on the table, and allowed herself to be blinded by prejudice.
What is she resisting?
Pan Qiaomu asked again: "What are you thinking about when you are looking at the trash can?"
Chen Jiaxian took two steps back and accidentally said what was on her mind: "How do you want to have autonomy?"
She felt a little regretful when she said the words. She knew she was naive, childish, and stupid, so she struggled to restrain her desire to talk. No one should have to bear the burden of her emotional garbage.
Pan Qiaomu said lightly: "I have inquired for you. Among the dozens of interns in your group, your performance is the most outstanding."
Chen Jiaxian's brain shut down for two minutes before she smiled in surprise: "What?! You checked my scores for me?"
Pan Qiaomu complained: "What a student describes." He opened the car door and motioned for Chen Jiaxian to get in the car.
Chen Jiaxian's mind was immersed in the sudden good results, and she got into the passenger seat in a daze. Pan Qiaomu started the car and said, "Don't you want autonomy? When your internship period is over, you can enter Zhuoxiu Talent Interview. When you officially join the job, your autonomy will be much greater than now."
Chen Jiaxian seemed to come to life, and her words increased unconsciously: "I thought it wouldn't go so smoothly."
Pan Qiaomu looked ahead: "Why didn't it go well? How many interns can do as well as you? You are very competitive and you can have more confidence in yourself. We just held a regular project meeting, and the big boss specifically praised him by name. You, say you are flexible and motivated."
Chen Jiaxian asked stupidly: "Which big boss?"
Pan Qiaomu said: "The big boss of Yuecheng Company is Shi Yuan."
Chen Jiaxian was stunned by the sudden happiness. She held her face in her hands to cool down. After another five minutes, she calmed down and then suddenly remembered: "Where are we going?"
Pan Qiaomu glanced at her: "Please have something to drink."
Chen Jiaxian felt that her entire left arm close to Pan Qiaomu was numb. She resisted this strangeness and said with a bit of reluctance: "...is it necessary?"
Pan Qiaomu said: "I put the aboriginal consumption preferences you sorted out in the PPT, and Mr. Shi thought it was very good. You have helped me a lot, and I don't want to owe you anything."
This is very logical.
Chen Jiaxian said "Oh": "What about in two days?"
Pan Qiaomu refused: "No time. I'm busy."
He is really busy. Recently, unfinished buildings of Yongda Group have been hit by thunderstorms everywhere, damaging the reputation of the entire real estate industry. It became increasingly difficult to attract investment, and he had to go out on business trips for seven or eight days in a row.
Chen Jiaxian felt the strangeness in her left arm quietly spread throughout her body. She held down her racing heart and said, "Okay."
…
When Pan Qiaomu said something to drink, he really just meant something to drink.
He strictly abides by the colleague distance between the two people and never brings the distance closer.
There was not a single customer in the coffee shop on the day of the Mid-Autumn Festival. When the two entered the store, the tables were already closed.
Pan Qiaomu asked the boss: "I made an appointment. Are you closed?"
The boss looked over and said, "Waiting for you. However, there is only coffee, not Pacific steak."
Pan Qiaomu said: "Coffee will do."
The boss said: "The bar is reserved for you."
There is a brown wooden bar with a Mid-Autumn Festival moon lantern. The light bulb above my head burned out, and all the lighting in the room relied on this lamp.
The seats at the bar were side by side, so Pan Qiaomu deliberately chose a spot on either side of the moon lamp. After sitting down, he and she were just separated by the moon lamp.
This is a reasonable distance.
After the boss made the coffee, he went back to the back. He was having dinner with his wife and two children.
This is a day for family reunion.
The boss closed the door, but some laughter still came out.
Chen Jiaxian was holding cinnamon coffee and staring at the family reunion poster in a daze.
Pan Qiaomu's handsome face showed no expression and he didn't speak. He bought her a drink, as if he was really just going through a logical process to repay a favor.
The warm aroma of cinnamon coffee wafts out.
Chen Jiaxian couldn't help but turn her head and stare at the moon lantern beside her. Such soft lights, such a happy holiday, and she didn't feel alone.
Because behind this lamp, there is another person.
At this moment, her thoughts were out of control, and the dreams she had had suddenly entered her mind. The body, arms, shirt and polarized buttons she longed for in her dream gradually appeared before her eyes. Cracks appear in the frozen river, and the repressed desire blooms like spring. The mysterious power of the moon pulls the tide in the female body, and finally turns into a red blood stream.
At this moment, Chen Jiaxian suddenly realized what she was dreaming about.
It's her desire.
The moist rivers, the mysterious tides, the menstruation given by nature... are all desires.
Chen Jiaxian tilted her head unconsciously.
Who does her desire point to?
…
She wanted to see Pan Qiaomu.
Then, she looked up from the lamp.
He met Pan Qiaomu's eyes directly.
Chen Jiaxian paused in breathing.
She didn't know whether Pan Qiaomu was looking at the moon or wanted to look across the moon to see her. The red mole at the end of his eye was blurred under the soft light of the moon lamp, and the light amber pupils collided with hers, so bright that they seemed transparent. In the bright brilliance, there is no longer any emotion or alienation, but is mixed with exploration, doubt, and curiosity, merging into desire and becoming his tenderness.
Chen Jiaxian finally realized what was strange about her body.
It's desire.
She resisted the strangeness of her body in order to suppress her desires.
Resistance comes from suppressing yourself and refusing to listen to your own desires.
Desire.
From the first time they met, from the moment they bumped into Pan Qiaomu's back in the longest time, there was already an uncontrollable desire for him.
What she hates is not Pan Qiaomu, but herself who has grown up in obedience and discipline, but desires to pursue desire and happiness.
…
Chen Jiaxian trembled, as if she suddenly found herself pressed under a heavy stone slab. Aches and tremors seeped from the bones.
If she had never been cowardly and submissive, if she had not been tamed and disciplined, if she had never been self-loathing and inferior.
Then she might have realized who she is and what she wants.
…
Pan Qiaomu lowered his eyes as if being burned by fire. After a moment, he raised his eyes again and regained his distance.
"Have you finished drinking?" He motioned her to look at his cup. "When you finish drinking, I will take you back to the dormitory."
Chen Jiaxian lowered her eyes and turned the thick mug: "Can you just thank me with coffee?"
Pan Qiaomu said: "It is more suitable for colleagues to have a cup of coffee."
Chen Jiaxian said nothing.
Pan Qiaomu looked away, and after a moment, he said distantly: "OK, if you need, I can treat you to dinner. You can choose the place."
Chen Jiaxian drank the rest of the coffee and seemed to be thinking about how to speak.
Isn't this enough?
Pan Qiaomu frowned, took a sip of coffee, and asked gracefully: "Or, what do you want."
Chen Jiaxian turned her head and looked at him with shining eyes.
"I want you."
she says.
