Guan Xi and her mother always couldn't talk well.
During the Chinese New Year, Guan Xi returned to her hometown. Guan's mother asked her to take the civil service exam, but she refused face to face.
Guan's mother said: "Stable."
Guan Xi couldn't help but said: "You have been laid off for more than 20 years, and you still believe in stability?"
Guan’s mother said: “It’s different now.”
Guan Xi said: "It's the same now. There is no real stability anywhere. Stability is not what I want to pursue."
Guan's mother said coldly: "Is working in a private company your pursuit?" She took out her mobile phone and showed it to Guan Xi, "This anchor has made 10 million in just two years. You can make 10 million in two years." It’s okay to buy a Panamera for tens of millions, but you’re just getting a dead salary now, so you might as well take the civil service exam.”
Guan Xi is a calm person, but she is easily angered by her mother.
She took a deep breath and suppressed her emotions: "If you want a daughter like that, just accept her yourself. I have something to do."
Guan's mother threw the cup: "You are so decisive, you don't even want your mother."
Guan's mother secretly changed Guan Xi's college entrance examination application from a prestigious school in Beijing to a normal university in this province, just to prepare for graduation.
Fortunately, Guan Xi had outstanding scores in the college entrance examination. The school was unwilling to let her under-report and contacted her. So Guan Xi secretly changed her name back and simply applied to a 985 university farthest away from home. She didn't tell her parents until the results were announced.
Who would have thought that when she left home to go to college, Guan's mother forcefully moved into Guan Xi's undergraduate dormitory. The dormitory is for six people, and I have never heard of anyone being able to live with their mother until graduation.
The mother and daughter were at odds for a long time, until the counselor moved out of the college's rules and came forward to warn Guan's mother, and Guan's mother returned home angrily from the undergraduate dormitory where she had lived for two months.
Guan Xi knew that settling old scores would inevitably lead to a big quarrel, so he simply said: "Can you tell your conscience that I don't usually give you money? If you don't expect me, how can you expect that dead factory to give you a pension?" ."
When it comes to money, Guan's mother remains silent.
In 1999, after Guan's mother was laid off from the chemical factory in Tiexi District, Shenyang City, she has been moving around in various places: Guangdong, Shijiazhuang, Hainan, and Sichuan. She went wherever there was work, but she never held any permanent job.
Life is different from novels. Guan's mother failed to hope for a career and failed to make any money. A grain of sand of the times is like a mountain when it falls on a person's head, and she ends up empty-handed.
Guan's mother was hit hard by unemployment and never went out to look for a job again. She has always had a noble temperament, and in her rough life, she refused to meet her classmates and friends. During her days without leaving home, she always sits in front of the TV.
No matter what is broadcast on TV, Guan's mother will scold her. Of course, she not only criticized the plot, but also used it to make use of the topic. From time to time, a neighbor would tactfully complain: "Xi Xi, spend more time with your mother."
So Guan Xi had to stay at home often with his mother. In the small room, the mother and daughter almost grew up together, and their lives were intertwined with each other.
Guan's mother was full of complaints, and Guan Xi was used to being tough. When Guan Xi was a teenager, she often quarreled with her mother. Many times, even if she regretted the words as soon as she said them, she would not admit her mistakes.
But between mother and daughter, they never apologize, things just pass like that, and they will pretend that nothing happened.
…
Guan Xi's refusal to take the examination was not only an excuse to resist his mother, but also for another reason——
She doesn't believe in stability.
In 1999, Huo Ye was not yet designer Charles, just an ordinary worker's son. Huo Ye's father is a fitter in a steel factory. The two families live close to each other and often play together.
One day, Huo Ye pulled Guan Xi and said excitedly: "Another person died on the train. A woman was holding a child. The woman's panties were blown off by the train. I heard that the child's head was crushed off!" "
In those years, rail accidents occurred from time to time.
In 1999, Guan Xi didn't understand death or the hardships of life. She just thought it was fun. Every time someone died, she would run over to watch the fun. Sometimes she could see blood, sometimes not.
Guan Xi asked Guan Mu to go and see it, but Guan Mu reacted violently, threw down the door curtain and scolded her: "What's so good about this?"
Guan Xi didn't listen, and he and Huo also slipped onto the railway track.
There were many people watching the excitement, and some shook their heads and sighed: "Who is not suffering now? It's better to live than die!"
Guan Xi and Huo didn't understand either and ran far along the railway track. Huo Ye suddenly pointed to the gray gravel under the sleepers and said, "Look, there is blood in the cracks!"
Guan Xi looked up and saw a small blue shoe wedged between the gravel.
Soon, people gathered around and took away their small shoes. The radio in their waists broadcast: "The performance of state-owned enterprises is not good. They need reform, sacrifices, and layoffs. There will be labor pains."
Guan Xi stared at the blue shoes: "What is benefit?"
Huo Ye said: "It can make money and is valuable."
Guan Xi nodded.
…
A few years later, Huo Ye discovered that Guan Xi often rode his bicycle around.
After a city-wide joint entrance examination, Huo also saw Guan Xi’s name and scores on the good news from a well-known tutoring institution. A banner was hung at the door of the tutoring institution: “Celebrate our school student Guan Xi’s victory in the city’s joint entrance exam. 20 people”
Huo Ye was completely surprised: How could Guan Xi have money to go to tutoring?
Guan Xi said lightly: "Oh, I sold points."
In the next few years, Guan Xi's money from selling cents became more and more substantial, and she would regularly put it into her mother's wallet to support the family. But she couldn't say anything, so her mother accepted it silently and didn't say anything.
Guan Xi took out a book and showed Huo Ye the price on it: "I contacted many tutoring institutions, and my points and bids are all here... This one gives the most money."
She sincerely lamented: "There is a huge price difference between the 19th place and the 21st place."
The two squatted on the street, looking at the dilapidated gate of the school for workers' children. After a long time, Guan Xi asked Huo Ye: "Look, it's not like you can't make money by studying. Are you still not going to study?"
Huo Ye scratched his hair, pointed at the notice at the school gate and said, "It's not that I stopped reading. Didn't you see it? I missed too many classes and was expelled."
Guan Xi shook his head honestly: "In a bad school like ours, the expulsion list is too long. I usually don't read it."
Huo Ye said "Oh": "Don't look at it, I'm sorry."
As he spoke, he pretended to pull out a cigarette and smoked it, then turned his head and looked into the distance, hoping that his profile would form an artistic and deep look.
Guan Xi glanced at his protruding cheekbones and brow bones and reminded him: "Ugly."
Huo Ye glared at her.
Guan Xi told the truth: "Dye your hair, otherwise your relationship with Yingjun will end here."
Huo also agreed: "I will dye my hair white from now on."
Guan Xi asked: "You don't want to take the exam at Yuecheng Academy of Fine Arts?"
Huo Ye waved his hand: "Forget it, art exam training is so expensive. I can't afford it. My dad found a class for me. I can dye my hair later."
Guan Xi nodded: "That's right. Let's talk about the future. There will always be a way."
…
When layoffs become a common social phenomenon, resources become extremely scarce and competition becomes extremely fierce, both in exams and in selling scores.
Fortunately, Guan Xi won numerous fierce competitions, received a government-sponsored scholarship, and went on to continue his career.
For her, fiercer competition means greater opportunities. Due to the lack of training in her childhood, she was accustomed to a "self" of high pressure and stimulation.
As for a dull and stable life - she had no luck in experiencing it.
…
Guan Xi drank his fourth cup of coffee today with an expressionless expression and searched for:
Sudden death prevention package
A wide range of health products appear on the page. Guan Xi studied it carefully, and at this moment, a message jumped out, from Chen Jiaxian.
Chen Jiaxian: "Thank you for your advice last night. I benefited a lot." followed by a little rabbit circling emoticon.
