Desire, what is it?
Vague doubts lingered in the faint dream until he was interrupted by the sound of his mother pushing the door open.
20-year-old Chen Jiaxian opened her eyes.
The curtains hadn't been opened yet, so the second bedroom was dark. When her thigh touched something cold, Chen Jiaxian blinked and looked down.
Pink massage stick.
After using it last night, I threw it aside. At this moment, the openness is exposed in the air.
Chen Jiaxian's brain suddenly woke up, and shame flooded her heart like a tide. She immediately kicked the massage stick into the quilt, but accidentally touched the switch key——
The massage stick vibrated.
"Good girl, the alarm on your phone is ringing."
Mother Chen casually picked up the mobile phone beside Chen Jiaxian's pillow.
The phone went silent.
Chen Jiaxian and Chen's mother stared at each other.
The quilt was still shaking, and the sound was urging me to die.
Chen Jiaxian put her hand into the quilt and turned off the massage stick: "The beauty device I used last night."
She didn't know how much Chen's mother had seen, so she tried to hide it: "It's my first day at work. I want to leave a good impression on my colleagues, so I'm making a show of face."
Desire, what is it?
For Chen Jiaxian at this moment, desire is something that needs to be concealed.
Chen's mother diverted her attention and beat her with a rag: "If you don't help me look after the store, you have to run out to get food. You have no conscience."
I do have a sweet shop, which has been open for decades, and the business is pretty good. Chen Jiaxian has been busy in the store since she was a child. After graduating from technical secondary school, she helped her parents stay in the store for two years.
Of course, Chen Jiaxian doesn't get any salary from her own business.
Chen Jiaxian mentioned it several times, but Chen's mother blocked it by saying, "I'll save it for you as a dowry."
Shaking the rag, Mother Chen said: "We are all one family, why do you care about money? Even if your parents are gone, the candy store will belong to Jiahao from now on, how can Jiahao treat you badly? He is your biological brother, you are good to him Point, and he will support you later.”
I manage the store myself, but my younger brother inherits the store.
Of course, wealthy people can also inherit their family’s house property.
Chen Jiaxian remembered that there was only a two-digit balance left on her card and wanted to refute, but in the end she remained silent.
She found a reason: "Don't you always ask me to catch a rich man? I visit the store every day, how can I catch him?"
Mother Chen complained: "Aunt Liu's son in Fangyuan Village, Dongshan, three buildings in his family were demolished! You don't even like it? Master Dongshan, Miss Xiguan, you two are a perfect match!"
Chen Jiaxian thought of the young man's dyed yellow hair and tight-fitting pants and beanie shoes.
Aunt Liu liked herself very much: "You look well-behaved and virtuous." As she spoke, her eyes rolled around her pelvis.
Mother Chen smiled and said, "Jia Xian's cousins all gave birth to sons for the first time."
After hearing this, Aunt Liu smiled even deeper: "Now that the policy is good, you can have three children. It would be good to have both children."
The two mothers chatted happily. The yellow-haired man lowered his head and played mobile games. After a while, he reluctantly said to Chen Jiaxian: "You are okay, but I like thin people. If you lose weight again, I will marry you." you."
marry you.
A marriage certificate is a great gift.
Chen Jiaxian didn't want to quarrel, so she stayed silent.
Mother Chen was still complaining: "You are already 20, so hurry up and make a decision, otherwise..."
Otherwise what.
If aliens attack the earth, do they need to use her marriage certificate to form a defensive wall to block linear particle cannon attacks?
Chen Jiaxian stretched out her hand to hold the massage stick under the quilt, and blurted out: "I want one with abdominal muscles."
Mother Chen was stunned.
Chen Jiaxian was also stunned.
This is probably the boldest thing Chen Jiaxian has said at home in the past 20 years.
"Aren't you ashamed!" Mother Chen lifted up her quilt, "This is outrageous!" She said and slapped her in the face.
Chen Jiaxian was caught off guard and subconsciously raised her hand to block——
He was still holding a massage stick in his hand.
Mother Chen took a breath of cold air.
Chen Jiaxian moved her lips, and Chen's mother looked like a monster in disbelief. Under such eyes, Chen Jiaxian was enveloped from head to toe by a huge and intense sense of shame, and her face began to heat up.
Chen Jiaxian remembered that last week, when she asked Chen's father for her salary, Chen's mother had the same look.
Last month, when she thought the candy store would be left to her, Mother Chen also had the same look.
Last year, when she thought she would get her share of the demolition money, Chen's mother also had the same look.
...When she was very young, she said that she wanted to go to a distant university or travel around the world. Chen's mother also had this look in her eyes.
Desire was accidentally exposed, and Chen Jiaxian felt ashamed.
She wrapped herself in the quilt sheepishly.
Mother Chen didn't fight this time. She grabbed Chen Jiaxian's hand and lowered her voice: "You! Use this, this... bad thing! No one knows, right?"
Chen Jiaxian shook her head: "No one."
Mother Chen took away the vibrator, looked around in the small second bedroom like a thief, and whispered: "This bad thing! I'll help you deal with it! Don't let anyone know, otherwise no one will dare to marry you!"
In Chen's mother's view, "having no one to marry" is a woman's biggest failure. This kind of failure is not only the daughter's, but also the mother's. The fear of failure entwines mother and daughter tightly, becoming allies connected by blood.
Mother Chen slapped Chen Jiaxian on the back with hatred: "You! Aunt Liu's son collects rent for several buildings, but you are better off because you have to go to work and be burdened!"
Chen Jiaxian blushed and murmured: "He asked me to lose weight to 70 pounds, and I said he would do it only if I was burned to ashes."
She is 162cm tall.
Mother Chen taught her: "Ignore him! After you get married, have more sons and work more, and hold on to the man's money bag, and you will have a good life!" Mother Chen curled her lips, "Look at that woman, she is so young. There must be something wrong with people’s love.”
"That woman", Chen Jiaxian knew who it was.
He is a tenant of the Chen family.
When signing the contract, Chen Jiaxian saw her ID card.
Her name is Guan Xi and she is 30 years old.
Chen Jiaxian thought about it and helped Chen's mother put breakfast on the table.
Grandma Jin's small radio upstairs was on, and intermittent Cantonese opera drifted in: "...Sister Huang, the Ministry of Etiquette has chosen one of you to be unfaithful, and two of them are unfavorable. You can enjoy your beauty alone, and I'm afraid it will be difficult to find a mate in the end."
Chen Jiahao sat at the table and sang along: "The flowers of the emperor's daughter are not as beautiful as the willows on the palace walls, but Changping's wisdom is rare."
Chen Jiaxian also sang in a low voice: "When the king has something to do, he will always conspire with the emperor's daughter. You are lucky enough to be able to kowtow in front of your skirt for the third time in your life."
The Chen family lives in Changlefang, Xiguan District. Cheung Lok Fong used to be a gathering place for famous Cantonese opera actors. Local children grew up listening to Cantonese opera and are familiar with it.
Father Chen raised his head from the dining table: "Girls are noisy and not quiet at all. Is that cool?"
Chen Jiaxian shut her mouth tightly and put the bamboo noodles on the table.
The Chen family’s breakfast has been the same for ten years, a bowl of bamboo noodles. Chen Jiaxian sometimes feels plain, but Chen's mother told her that plain breakfast is more healthy.
Chen Jiahao sighed while eating: "That woman came to Changlefang to rent my shabby house. Is she sick?"
Chen Jiaxian listened to Chen Jiahao say "my house" very naturally and said nothing.
Chen Jiahao will not be looked at with strange eyes by Chen's mother. This is his privilege.
Father Chen agreed: "It's just that I'm sick. Changlefang is too old. I said it would be demolished more than ten years ago, but it hasn't been demolished yet. I would say it would be good if it was demolished. Let's live in a new house."
"Don't demolish it!" Mother Chen reacted fiercely, "This is Xiguan! Only rich families lived here in the past. Your mother used to be a Miss Xiguan."
Xiguan was once the economic center of Yuecheng. During the late Qing Dynasty, girls in Xiguan went to school, went to university, studied abroad, wore cheongsam and went to work, were open-minded and avant-garde in their behavior. They were shocking in that era, and they were also coveted and called "Miss Xiguan".
However, Xiguan is now very old.
Chen's mother was indignant: "I lived in the Xiguan House when I was a child! Now I don't want it anymore? Are we patronizing young people and no one cares about us old guys anymore?"
Father Chen sneered in his throat: "What kind of Miss Xiguan are you?"
He has a habit of denying his wife's every word to show his authority.
He pointed upstairs: "Grandma Jin is the real Miss Xiguan. She used to live in Xiguan House. She speaks English, went to foreign schools, wrote articles, and made movies. She is a very beautiful and fashionable person."
Mother Chen curled her lips: "What's the use of doing all this? It's not like you'll never get married, no one will love you, and you'll fail as a woman!"
Cantonese opera floats in from afar.
Mother Chen sighed: "Grandma Jin said she was determined not to move. She is used to being Miss Xiguan and can't go anywhere else."
Father Chen scolded: "Just because people like you oppose it, Changlefang cannot be demolished!"
Chen Jiaxian interjected: "Now Zhuoxiu Group has taken over the demolition work from the government. If it is to be demolished, it will only take two years."
Father Chen glared at her: "Girl, why are you interrupting? Go and eat your food."
Chen Jiahao's ears twitched: "Zhuoxiu Group? Sister, where did the news come from?"
Chen Jiaxian was waiting for this, and she said calmly: "I applied to work on Zhuoxiu Group's real estate project." She was a little proud.
Chen Jiahao stopped his chopsticks: "You? How can such a good company recruit you? And - isn't Zhuoxiu laying off employees? All school recruitment has been canceled this year!"
Layoffs?
Chen Jiaxian's heart sank: "Really?"
Chen Jiahao paused: "Oh, I'm talking about real Zhuoxiu employees who signed contracts with Zhuoxiu Group. It doesn't matter if you are a part-time worker for a project."
really.
The Changlefang project of Zhuoxiu Real Estate is looking for a project secretary with a college degree, and is limited to Yuecheng locals. When Chen Jiaxian was in technical secondary school, she applied for a correspondence college, got a college certificate, and applied for this position as she wished.
The monthly salary is 3,000, and the contract is signed with the project.
Chen Jiahao blurted out: "3000? Are you willing to do it for such a small amount of money? The project will be over in a few years, and you still come back to look after the store! Are you mentally ill?"
Chen's mother was dissatisfied with Chen Jiaxian: "You are mentally ill. I spend so much money on your education and you don't know how to be filial. Your parents are almost exhausted from working in the candy store every day, and you go to work elsewhere. You are not as good as your brother." "
Yeah.
What should she study for, technical secondary school?
Chen Jiahao has never done much housework since she was a child. Instead, she has been helping.
But no matter how much she does, she can't see it. On the contrary, Chen Jiahao can be praised many times for doing it once a month.
Chen Jiaxian was tired.
Father Chen didn't care at all: "What kind of ability does she have? Why should she compare with others? It's just about the same. She will get married after all."
Chen's mother sighed: "Fortunately, it's close to home and has a lot of leisure time. As a girl, it would be great to be a stable administrator. If you can make some money, get married as soon as possible."
Chen Jiahao smiled and said: "Sister, Zhuoxiu Group has a lot of high income, please choose a brother-in-law."
here we go again.
Chen Jiaxian frowned, but she didn't want to argue. So he picked up the bowl silently.
Taking the bowl into her hand, she found that the bowl was bigger today.
This is Chen Jiahao's bowl.
Mother Chen’s and Chen Jiaxian’s bowls are two rounds smaller.
Chen Jiahao took her bowl by mistake and was already eating.
Chen Jiaxian inserted her chopsticks into her noodles and listened to Chen's father sighing: "Master Dongshan, Miss Xiguan. Our Xiguan is demolished, will Yuecheng still be called Yuecheng? How many famous people lived in our Xiguan in the past, Bruce Lee grew up here. Red Line Girl I live in Changlefang. Well, Jiahao, the Cantonese Opera House of Bahe is also here. Sammo Hung knows, right? He studied in Bahe when he was a child."
Chen Jiahao didn't care: "Demolish it, demolish it, no one listens to Cantonese opera anyway. If you want me to see, this place is in tatters, I might as well demolish it and build a shopping mall."
Chen Jiaxian used chopsticks to open the noodles and saw a poached egg underneath.
But this is Chen Jiahao's bowl.
Chen Jiahao didn't take it seriously: "What's so surprising? There are eggs in the noodles every morning."
Chen Jiaxian said, "Really? Is there an egg in the noodles every morning?" She looked at Chen's mother, "Mom, is there an egg in the noodles my brother eats?"
Mother Chen said "hmm" absently.
Chen Jiaxian thought someone would explain, but several people looked as usual.
Chen Jiaxian couldn't help but ask: "Mom, why don't I have one?"
Chen Jiahao said: "If you want to eat, I'll give it to you. Why are you arguing with mom?"
Chen Jiaxian took a deep breath and felt that the circles under her eyes were a little hot. She repeated: "Mom, didn't you say vegetarian noodles are healthy? Isn't our family just short of an egg?"
"Family, when did you become so careless?" Mother Chen put the bowl down heavily, "There are eggs in the kitchen. You can cook them if you want. No hands or feet?"
Chen Jiaxian stood up suddenly and went to the kitchen to boil an egg out of anger.
Now, there are two eggs in her bowl.
Two eggs lay brightly on the noodles, as if the bowl of noodles had grown breasts and turned into a woman.
Great ridicule.
Chen Jiaxian put the egg into her mouth, took a bite silently, put down her chopsticks indifferently, and stood up: "I'm done eating, let's go to work."
Mother Chen raised her voice: "I will make pork ribs for you tonight, your favorite food."
Chen Jiaxian walked out of the narrow dining room and stood still.
She wanted to say: "My father and brother are the ones who like to eat ribs, and I like to eat shrimps."
But she chose to hide her desires.
"Okay, Mom."
