"I understand Mr. Shao's kindness, but I'm used to being undisciplined. I like to be alone and don't want to be restrained by others. Even if I stay with Mr. Shao, I'm afraid it will only cause trouble for him. Let's forget it!"
Shao Xi understood what Sun Poyun was thinking. People like him who were used to wandering in the world really didn't want to be controlled.
It doesn't matter where a person goes alone, as long as he is responsible for himself in what he says and does.
But if he joins the sect of any party, he will be restrained, and he must be measured in his words and actions. After all, at that time, he will not only represent himself.
There are a lot of people like this in the world, who only pursue an unfettered life. They can earn as much as they want based on their own abilities, as long as they have enough for themselves.
Although they have no fixed place to live and their lives are not rich, they have a sense of freedom that others cannot give them.
One aspect of Sun Poyun's martial arts that Shao Xi likes about him, and the other aspect that Shao Xi likes is Sun Poyun's ability to find people and things.
In this business that relies on bounties to survive, in addition to being good at martial arts, the most important skill is to find the person you are looking for in the vast sea of people. Not only does this kind of person have a vicious vision, but everyone has their own unique skills. The ability to inquire about information.
If you don't have this ability, it will be difficult to survive in this industry.
Finding people and objects is a matter that extremely tests one's ability. With a portrait and some fragmentary and fuzzy information, one can accurately determine the range of the people and objects one is looking for. And finding it out is something not everyone can do.
Sun Poyun's ability is exactly what Shao Xi needs most.
Although there is a figure like Lao Wu beside him who is like an encyclopedia of rivers and lakes, there are limitations in the level that Lao Wu is exposed to.
Moreover, Old Wu is already very old, and there are many things that Shao Xi cannot bear to let Old Wu do personally.
In the future, he will have to face more and more difficulties, and the situations he will face will become more and more difficult and dangerous. If everyone relies on Lao Wu, I am afraid that Lao Wu himself will feel powerless.
At this time, Shao Xi needs to add someone like Sun Poyun to his side. He is young and knowledgeable, and his own abilities are very outstanding, especially his ability to gather information is not inferior to that of Lao Wu.
Recruiting such people to your side will definitely be of greater use in the future.
Besides, according to Shao Xi's observation, Sun Poyun's character and temperament are pretty good. From what he observed in the tavern during the day, Sun Poyun is very measured in his actions. Although he is decisive in dealing with things, he is not extremely ruthless. He is a relatively calm and steady person. .
Such people are often calm and calm, have a clear and calm mind, and can make the most correct and accurate judgments when encountering problems.
He is different from Fu Biao. Fu Biao was born in the military and has very strong execution ability. As long as it is assigned by Shao Xi, he will definitely complete it without compromise.
Sun Poyun, on the other hand, has his own ideas, can adapt to the situation and make decisions on his own. He is a figure who can share some of the pressure for Shao Xi.
If he can recruit him to his side, Shao Xi will not have to be meticulous and meticulous when dealing with many things, but can leave it to Sun Poyun to take charge of his own affairs, making him a capable assistant to him.
However, at this time, Sun Poyun had made it clear that he had no intention of surrendering, and Shao Xi could not force himself too much for a while.
Anyway, the journey to Wuhai Kingdom in the Western Regions takes a long time, and there are many opportunities to get along with each other. Shao Xi plans to get in touch with him slowly.
I believe that after being together for a long time, there will always be a way to change his mind. Then maybe he will change his mind and be willing to stay with you.
"Brother Sun must have had a hard time these past few years. He has been wandering around like this, with no fixed place to live. Haven't you ever thought about settling down? Wouldn't it be better to marry a wife and have children and reproduce in the future than it is now?"
When Sun Poyun heard this, he smiled miserably, picked up the wine jar and drank a few sips of wine. His face was already red at this time, and he seemed to be a little drunk.
"Stability? How can there be stability in this world? My parents died in a war when I was young. Now isn't the world still full of strife and wars everywhere? There is no place for me, Sun Poyun, to live in this huge world, so why should I call home? "
After hearing Sun Poyun's words, Shao Xi couldn't help but sigh.
At this time, he also sighed in his heart. After he came to this world, wasn't he just as homeless as Sun Poyun said?
Although he was taken care of by the Tot tribe in his childhood on the grassland, and he could be considered to have a home, this home was never truly his own.
Although the herdsmen on the grassland are not relatives, they are better than relatives, but in the final analysis, they are not their relatives after all.
He knew that he was Shao Xi, but in this world he was Feng Yuyan, but after arriving in this world, he had never experienced the life that Feng Yuyan should have.
He had always been just a wandering man whose family had been wiped out and was burdened with hatred. Otherwise, how could he have returned to the Central Plains with Lao Wu?
Although he has now settled down in Daliang City and can be regarded as a family man, how can all this be so easy?
In the original world, he lost the person he was closest to, but in this world, the only person he was closest to was Lao Wu. His parents who originally belonged to Fengjiazhuang disappeared before he opened his eyes and saw the world. Already left this world first.
So whether in the original world or in this world, where is your true home?
"I understand what Brother Sun said."
"you understand?"
"Yes, I understand! Because my experience is very similar to yours. Brother Sun, don't look at me like this now. In fact, I used to be like you and didn't know where my home was.
"But the difference between me and Brother Sun is that there are people around me who need to be taken care of. I can't indulge myself, because indulging myself means being irresponsible to the people around me.
"When you live in this world, you can't live just for yourself. Although I can't say that I have any righteousness for my family and my country, at least I have to take good care of the people around me. I can be poor and wander around, but I can't Let the people around me endure these hardships like me.
"I feel that although Brother Sun is alone and seems to be at ease, he feels a sense of loss every time he lies alone in bed in the dead of night, right? Who doesn't want to have a home of his own to rely on? Who doesn't want to be able to put himself in his own home? Do you take good care of your loved ones around you?
"But if you want to realize this, you must first have a family. Only with a family can you have relatives, and with relatives can you rely on. The responsibilities you are willing to take may be harder than now, but I believe that Brother Sun at that time also I will feel happier than I do now.”
After saying that, Shao Xi also held the wine jar and took a few sips of wine.
Those words he just said were meant for Sun Poyun, so how could they not be meant for himself?
To be fair, Shao Xi lived a very tiring life. Whether he felt guilty in the original world or suffered a blood feud after arriving in this world, he now has many worries.
But Shao Xi felt that this was the only way to prove that he was still alive. If a person is so numb that he has lost the feeling of heartache, he may be dead in the true sense.
Facing life and the world in front of you, you may live very tired and painfully, but at least that proves that you are still alive.
When you are indifferent to all this, indifferent and numb, what is the difference between being dead and dead?
Shao Xi just wanted to tell Sun Poyun that he must not let his heart die no matter what. Living in this world is doomed to face a lot of pain, disaster and dissatisfaction. If his heart sinks because of this, then that is the true meaning of life. die.
People live not just to take a breath, but to truly experience the joys, sorrows, joys and sorrows of this world.
When a person is dying, if he finds that there is nothing worth remembering in this world, he is actually dead while he is still alive.
If a person has passed away from this world, but is still remembered by many people from generation to generation, then he has never died, but has always been alive.
This is Shao Xi's understanding of life. He hopes that Sun Poyun will no longer wander like a zombie just for survival like he is now.
There should be something more meaningful in his life. As for what is meaningful? Only he himself knows best.
Sun Poyun seemed to understand what Shao Xi was saying, so he fell silent at this time.
These years of wandering alone may seem carefree and happy, but who can understand the feeling of emptiness in my heart?
Do you really just have no place to live? If you think about it carefully, maybe even he himself won't believe that what he really has nowhere to put is his own heart.
No matter where you are, if your heart cannot find a home, you are destined to be a homeless person.
Where is the final destination of Kexin? Is it that I have never looked for it, or is it that I am unwilling to find the place where I can put it, intentionally or unintentionally?
Over the years, Sun Poyun has been reminding himself that he is just a lonely and careless wanderer, but why does he keep reminding himself like this?
It doesn't matter where a person is, what matters is whether he has that concern in his heart. It's not that there are no people in the world who are worthy of his concern, but Sun Poyun has been forcing himself not to have that concern.
Because he still doesn't know what he can give? What can you give? He was afraid of taking on that responsibility, and he never knew whether he had the courage to take on that responsibility.
He has only been responsible for himself since he was a child, but now he doesn't even take care of himself. He really doesn't know if he can take care of others, so he unconsciously resists spiritual closeness to others.
And it was precisely this that made him feel his loneliness even more.
Maybe Mr. Shao in front of me is right. Only when he longs to have a family, will he find the person he wants to take care of, will he give his heart to that person, and will he willingly take on the responsibility. That responsibility will let you know that you are still alive.
