Why bother.
Bai Yu'an's expression became increasingly uncomfortable.
That breath was stuck in my heart, and I couldn't let it out.
A woman shouldn't be like this, she shouldn't just care about her husband and raise children, she should have her own life and her own ideas.
Instead of having one man throughout your life.
Even that man didn't like her and never took her into his heart. /
How could you be so willing?
How could he accept such a fate so calmly and submissively?
The sunspots on the fingertips fell on the chessboard, and a clicking sound resounded in the room, and then it became quiet.
But this is the fate of most women, and she cannot help Wei Hanjin break out of the prison that binds women.
Even if she doesn't marry herself and marries someone else, she may have the same fate.
That's why it feels so uncomfortable.
She can't blame her from above. Women should not be subordinate to their husbands, but should have their own ideas and freedom.
Bai Yu'an looked at Wei Hanjin and asked, "Would you be happy guarding a husband who doesn't love you?"
Wei Hanjin's eyes were filled with water. He looked at Bai Yu'an and said blankly, "Don't you like Hanjin, cousin?"
Bai Yu'an thought for a moment and said, "It's not that I don't like you. You have a gentle personality and beautiful appearance. I can't fault you."
"But I haven't thought about starting a family yet, let alone the love between a man and a woman."
"And if I marry you and leave you alone in Shuyang, then I will be sorry for you and cannot be a good husband."
"I can't let you be filial to my parents for me alone."
"I haven't given you anything, but you have been paying for me."
"You shouldn't be responsible for this. I'm not a good person. You shouldn't live like this."
"I will beg my father, don't worry."
As soon as Bai Yu'an finished speaking, Wei Hanjin covered his face and cried.
A thin choked sound escaped from her fingers: "I have never felt wronged when I married and followed my husband."
"Even if my cousin never comes back, I won't feel aggrieved."
"I just want to give birth to children for my cousin, and become the wife that my cousin is marrying. It would be great to be able to stand by my cousin's side one day in the future."
"I have liked my cousin since I was a child, so I am lucky to be able to marry my cousin."
"If my cousin doesn't want me, I don't know how I can survive."
Bai Yu'an also didn't expect Wei Hanjin to be so persistent.
She hurriedly handed the veil to her, but she never knew how to deal with such a thing, so she thought she could only use the old method.
Standing up and sitting next to Wei Hanjin, Bai Yuan used her sleeves to wipe her tears. Seeing Wei Hanjin blushing and staring at her blankly, Bai Yuan tried her best to keep her face gentle and whispered: "Hanjin, I will tell you now You are not allowed to tell anyone else anything about you.”
The face in front of him was full of moonlight, like the moon shining on the courtyard, and the room was filled with fragrance. Wei Hanjin couldn't help but hold his breath and looked at her infatuatedly.
Bai Yu'an saw Wei Hanjin looking at him, with tears still in his eyes, and his young and jerky face seemed to understand nothing.
Perhaps she only has the three obediences, four virtues and female precepts in her mind, and does not understand the significance of the important matter of in-laws.
Bai Yu'an leaned close to Wei Hanjin's ear and whispered: "Hanjin, it's not that I don't want to marry you, it's just that I have a disease that makes me unable to marry. I've seen imperial doctors in Beijing, but they all said it can't be cured."
"I asked you to marry me, and I undoubtedly harmed you."
"When the time comes when you have no heirs, my father and your family will definitely blame you, so where will you be?"
Wei Hanjin's face turned red and he looked at Bai Yuan without reacting for a moment.
After a long while, she finally said: "Cousin... you..."
Bai Yu'an sighed: "That's why I still don't want women to be around me. Once my vacation is over, I will go back to Beijing. I don't know when I will come back."
"You'd better find someone else to love."
She looked at Wei Hanjin again: "But I can't blame you for this, it's all my fault."
"I just ask you not to tell me, and to save some face for me."
Wei Hanjin even forgot to cry and stood up suddenly, as if he still couldn't accept it.
She shook her head: "Why is this happening..."
As he spoke, he turned around and ran out.
Bai Yu'an stretched out his hand to grab it but failed to catch it. He didn't expect Wei Hanjin to have such a big reaction.
A Tao watched Wei Hanjin rush out and couldn't help but come in and look at Bai Yu'an: "What's wrong with her?"
Bai Yu'an sighed and felt a little helpless. She got up and walked outside to the courtyard. She also felt a little uncomfortable looking at Wei Hanjin's back as she hurried out with her skirt in hand.
She put her hands behind her hands and went outside.
A Tao followed and asked, "Where are you going, Master?"
Bai Yu'an lowered his eyes: "Go see father."
Walking all the way to the door of the study, Bai Yu'an only knocked on the door twice before pushing it open and walking in.
Bai Tongchun, who was sitting behind the table, saw Bai Yu'an coming in and frowned: "If you don't accompany Hanjin at this time, what are you doing here?"
Bai Yu'an said nothing, lifted up her robe, knelt down, and whispered to her father: "My son wants to come and beg his father not to make a marriage arrangement between me and Hanjin."
Bai Tongchun's frown deepened, and his eyes seemed to penetrate Bai Yu'an: "Why is Wei Hanjin not as good as you want?"
"She has been gentle since she was a child. Your mother and I are getting older, and we always need someone to take care of us at home."
"I'm not doing this so that you don't have to worry about anything in court?"
Bai Yu'an met her father's eyes and said firmly: "My son does not like Wei Hanjin, and is this fair to her?"
"If the father forces his son to get engaged, the son will have no choice but to resign and come back. He will just stay in Shuyang and be filial to his father."
As soon as Bai Yu'an finished speaking, there was the sound of Zhentian's palms slapping on the table.
"Son, you are so powerful in court now, how dare you talk to your father like this?"
Bai Yu'an's expression remained unchanged and he said in a low voice: "Since I was a child, I have always obeyed my father in everything. Only this one thing, my son will never agree to it."
Bai Tongchun stood up angrily and walked to Bai Yu'an, pointed at her and said angrily: "You can't agree to this matter."
"It's been several years since you came to Beijing. At least you have left a descendant at home."
"I'm doing this all for your own good, can't you understand?"
"Whoever you like can go to Beijing if you like. The family can't control you, but your mother and I are getting older. Who will take care of us and who will take care of your children?!"
"I see that you have read so many books in vain and your brain is useless."
Bai Yu'an said silently: "It is precisely because I know the reason that I will not agree."
"I can't harm Hanjin."
"We must fulfill our filial piety. When our son resigns from office, he must fulfill his filial piety and not involve other people."
Bai Tongchun was so angry that he almost fainted. He stabilized his body, strode to the wall next to him and took down the whip hanging on the wall. He pointed at Bai Yu'an again and asked tremblingly: "I ask you again, do you think you will marry me?" Marry Wei Hanjin?"
Bai Yu'an glanced at the whip in his father's hand, and his tone remained firm: "I won't marry."
