Only then did Tang Xin realize that she had thought everything wrong before.
It is true that tigers are poisonous and do not eat their seeds, but Shiyu is not a tiger, nor is he a human being. He is just a piece of broken stone without emotions.
She said I knew it, and suddenly felt a little discouraged. She didn't know what else to do, let alone whether the methods she originally thought of were still useful.
She wanted to tell herself: I can do it, try again.
But the whole person couldn't get excited.
For a moment, I felt frustrated, powerless, and aggrieved, but I didn't know who I felt aggrieved for.
Different possibilities flashed through her mind. She could do whatever she wanted to Shi Yu. She could laugh or cry, or act coquettishly or be obsessive or domineering, or continue to seduce. It didn't matter to her, she could do anything, as long as it was useful. , but I felt so depressed that I couldn’t breathe.
Dizziness, dizziness, nausea to the point of vomiting.
Images kept flashing in front of my eyes.
When I first arrived in a foreign country, I had no family or friends and was alone every day.
I was still young at that time, fourteen or fifteen years old, and I missed home and didn’t want to go home.
It was then that I met Liang Yan, who was her neighbor. Like her, he was alone and lived in a large, empty house.
Walking, reading, eating, sleeping, all alone, even talking, there is no second echo.
Liang Yan was ten years older than Tang Xin. He was gentle and quiet, like a friend, a sister, and sometimes a mother.
We have been neighbors for seven or eight years and have hardly seen each other's family members. It seems that they are the only two people in the world and no one cares about them.
No, Liang Yan has a younger brother named Liang Qiao, who occasionally comes to visit her, sometimes staying for a day, sometimes for two days.
Occasionally, Tang Xin would say hello to Liang Qiao and not disturb their family reunion for two days.
Apart from that, most of the time, the two of them spent various New Year holidays together, whether Chinese or Western.
Liang Yan never went home. Tang Xin would go home occasionally. He would stay at home for a few days and then go back to the big house to see Liang Yan next door, eat and talk with her.
Later, Liang Yan became pregnant.
Later Liang Yan cried.
At that time, Liang Yan would always cry and was in poor health. He might not be able to bear the child at all.
At that time, Tang Xin always asked Liang Yan: "Where is the child's father? Why doesn't he come?"
Liang Yan refused to say.
Such a gentle woman who always smiles and looks kind is good to everyone. At this time, she gritted her teeth and persisted, refusing to say a word.
Finally, Tang Xin stopped asking, and one day he heard a name - Shi Yu.
The person who was always crying suddenly smiled. When he looked at her, his eyes seemed to have transcended everything in front of him and transcended time. He went back to many, many years ago. Even his tone of voice when he spoke was like that of a young girl. .
Shi Yu is the most beautiful existence in Liang Yan's narrative, the warmest person in the world, and her childhood neighbor.
Tang Xin sighed, it was great that they were childhood sweethearts.
Then she suddenly remembered that one of the people she knew was named Shi Yu. She said that her acquaintance was not accurate, it was just a one-time relationship, but this side of her was not a gentle and gentle gentleman like jade.
He is domineering and strong. He can't help but be funny even when he is very old. He is very boring.
Tang Xin felt that she and the Shi Yu whom Liang Yan knew were definitely not the same person.
After several confirmations, it was the same person.
What a coincidence, the two of them met in a foreign country across such a long distance, and they actually had a common acquaintance and such a connection.
At this time, the man was outside the door, so close to her and only separated by a door, but Liang Yan was gone, so far away that he could feel the world apart.
In the last moments of her life, Liang Yan was thinking about her children, whom she had no time to meet.
But what about Shi Yu?
He doesn't care at all, he doesn't care about anything.
Tang Xin instantly felt that it was not worth it, nothing was worth it.
Liang Yan wasn't worthy, she wasn't worthy, not even Shi Mo was worthy.
Why did you give birth to him in the first place?
No one in this world wants him.
The person who loved him most was long gone.
