I have insomnia again... Instead of being unable to sleep in vain, let me tell you something...
During the period when I was writing about sword cultivation, at first I was full of enthusiasm and inspiration, but later on I started to become more irritated and anxious. I didn’t think about the basics, adjusted the control rhythm, corrected the deviated details... All of this has changed my original life. It’s completely crowded, and most of the time I close my eyes to see where the plot is going. I don’t dare to click on the comment section when I see it, and my anxiety and uneasiness increase day after day...
I am very slow at typing. Simple updates will take up a large part of my daily life, and social activities are therefore separated from my life. This is especially obvious when I am in school. I feel a heavy sense of loss when I am alone in the dormitory typing... I don’t know when I started to feel a sense of relief after finishing writing, and then thinking about having to continue typing tomorrow, I wished that the night would be longer, and finally it became an eternal insomnia.
Sometimes I wonder why I write. Going back to the beginning, it seems that I just wanted to tell a story that came to my mind. I never thought about signing a contract or anyone would read it. Later, my swordsmanship performance got better and better, and I received more and more expectations and praises. While I felt superficially complacent about such an illusory thing, I began to be pressed tightly at the bottom of the mountain by this mountain...
My body is also the same, or in a bad state. If I stay up late for a long time, my heartbeat will be rapid, and I will have an irritating feeling of dying. If I am stuck for a long time and cannot write, I will be irritable and irritable. In short, I am not very happy ( Except when I click into the comment area with trepidation and find something to praise.)
Having said all this, I have no other ideas. Anyway, let me finish writing it slowly... It’s the Chinese New Year, and there are many things that I can’t get rid of...
The plan at this stage is to finish adding the updates that need to be added first, and the absence records for January will be announced in the book club group (if you want to see it, you can join the book club group), and then fill in the missing updates. There will be no similar activities in the future. Okay, everyone does what you can. As long as you don’t watch pirated copies, that’s the greatest support for me...
Oh, by the way, there will be an update today.
I hope I can fall asleep quickly... It's been a long time since I slept before three o'clock...
Trying to cast an early bed spell ε(*ω)_/:☆
(End of chapter)
