After standing on the corridor for an unknown amount of time, Qin Zhilan turned around stiffly, returned to her room in a daze, and sat motionless on the edge of the bed.
All the past events flashed through my mind like a fleeting glance.
When she was young, her eldest brother loved her so much that he would bring her all kinds of snacks every time he came back from the academy. Although he always said that his daughter's family should be reserved and elegant, he always indulged her in the face of her occasional coquettishness, and never I won't criticize her harshly.
The eldest brother once said that the Taifu House had no real power and his father was mediocre. The family was only supported by his grandfather. If he did not study hard, the Qin family would slowly wither and disappear among the powerful.
Therefore, he must work hard to gain fame and honor his ancestors, so that the Qin family can stand firm.
"If brother can hold up the door, you can live without worries." He once touched her head and said, "Brother can't bear to see my sister relying on others and being looked down upon by others, so my future husband must be He is a very good person and cannot be compromised."
The eldest brother kept talking, but she let her family down.
Qin Zhilan's eyes were filled with mist, and a sad smile appeared at the corner of her mouth. She had always thought that her family was her strongest support, and that she was proud of herself as the granddaughter of the Taifu Mansion. So proud to have such an excellent brother.
As long as her grandfather is here, her mother is here, and her eldest brother is here, she can always live as she pleases.
She is a proud daughter of heaven, and she should have whatever she wants.
So no matter how many rumors there were outside, she could force herself not to care. She tried to convince herself that she was just too good, which was why she attracted so much jealousy and dissatisfaction.
Chu Yunfei was unwilling to give up the position of his wife to her because she was narrow-minded and intolerant. She did not think about Rong Cang. Her status was so low. Although her father had an official position in the court, he could not tolerate others. With no family background at all, he couldn't give Rong Cang much help at all.
She is selfish, occupying the position of the former Princess of War, the current position of Crown Princess, and the future position of Queen. She has no self-awareness at all.
She vowed to make Chu Yunfei regret it one day.
But Chu Yunfei's life was getting better and better, and there was no reason to regret it.
Qin Zhilan felt that Rong Huaishu was not good enough for her, so she planned for him to break off the engagement, but she did not expect that Rong Huaishu would agree to cancel the engagement so easily.
It was her business to break off the engagement, but why didn't Rong Huaishu hesitate at all? Shouldn't she make amends with her?
Does he think it doesn't matter who he marries?
Qin Zhilan once complained about his indifference. She was obviously the one who was engaged to him, but he turned around and married Xie Danshu without leaving her even a chance to regret it.
She thought that she must make Xie Danshu regret it. She wanted Rong Huaishu to see how good she was. But after getting married, Rong Huaishu was like being shackled. He didn't even dare to see her. He kept saying that "a man and a woman give and take." "No kiss" was used as an excuse to avoid her, completely forgetting the fact that they almost became a couple.
And King Jin'an.
What Qin Zhilan hates the most is King Jin'an. King Jin'an has passed his thirtieth year and his children are already teenagers. Does he really think he is willing to marry him?
After traveling thousands of miles to come here, she asked the emperor to take back the imperial edict out of fear of henpecks. Qin Zhilan wanted to sneer, but she sneered, but her eyes couldn't help but turn red. She didn't know if it was grievance, humiliation, or anger?
Even such a man whom she disliked was unwilling to marry her. Unknowingly, she had fallen into a situation where everyone disliked her. That's why the eldest brother felt that she was holding back the Qin family and that she had brought shame to the Qin family. , is it a mistake for her to live?
The eldest brother hopes that she will die suddenly...
Qin Zhilan took a deep breath and said in a calm and dead voice: "You all go out and leave me alone."
"Miss." The two maids looked at each other, both of them a little uneasy, "The eldest young master's words were just drunk and angry, not sincere..."
"Go out." Qin Zhilan half-lyed down on the bed, unwilling to talk to anyone anymore, "I'm in a bad mood and want to be alone for a while."
"yes."
The two maids had no choice but to turn around and walk out, closing the door gently.
Qin Zhilan lay on the bed, and there was no movement for a while, but her eyes were filled with deathly silence and despair.
If it's just an outsider, if it's just an outsider belittling her, slandering her, and not liking her, then that's it.
She could think that she was arrogant and disdainful of being complicit, but now her elder brother hated her, hated her, and wished her to die. How could she put the blame on others?
Did it turn out that eldest brother always liked Xie Danshu?
"What's so good about her?" Qin Zhilan murmured to herself, laughing until tears flowed down her face, "What's so good about her? So good that even my younger sister can't compare to her?"
The more I think about it, the more I feel wronged and the more I think about it, the more painful it becomes.
Qin Zhilan hugged the quilt and cried silently. After venting for a while, she wiped the tears from her face, slowly sat up, and looked up at the high beams.
This time it's not just a show, she's really leaving.
I hope that her death can bring some comfort to the eldest brother, that the Qin family will no longer be humiliated because of her, and that she can be a strong woman for once and let outsiders take a good look at the Qin family.
Qin Zhilan stood up and walked to the cupboard, opened the cupboard, took out some light summer pants, and turned back to the inner room.
Looking for Bai Ling now will only alarm her mother. Anyway, there is no chance to wear these pants in the future, so tie them up and use them as Bai Ling.
"Miss." The maid's respectful voice sounded outside the door, "Aunt Zhang said that the Master Taifu would like you to go to his study. The Madam and the Eldest Young Master are both there."
Qin Zhilan's eyes turned red again. She raised her hand to wipe the corners of her eyes. She turned her head and spoke loudly: "I know, wait for me to change clothes."
"Miss, please come in and serve you."
"No need." Qin Zhilan refused, moved a stool under the beam, and threw several pairs of knotted and tied trousers onto the beam. I don't know whether it was because the material was too slippery or the accuracy was not good, but she threw it three times. success.
Qin Zhilan stepped on the ground with her feet and moved the stool slightly away from the center. This way, she would not have to deliberately kick the stool over when her feet were in the air. If she did not kick the stool over, she would not alert the maids outside.
Only in this way can she successfully die.
Qin Zhilan laughed at herself, feeling that she was still smart and could think so thoughtfully before she died.
When everything was ready, she slowly turned her head and looked at the boudoir where she had lived for seventeen years. There was a feeling of nostalgia in her eyes, but she still stepped on the stool with determination.
After tying the hanging simple rope around her neck, Qin Zhilan gently closed her eyes and said silently: "Mother, my daughter has taken the first step."
Immediately, his feet left the stool and his body dropped naturally. The stool was still intact and did not make any sound.
The moment the feeling of suffocation came, Qin Zhilan opened her eyes wide in pain, kicked her feet wildly, and instinctively wanted to struggle. However, the moment one foot was about to hit the stool, she suddenly retracted her movements, and then slowly closed her eyes. Eyes, bearing the pain of this last moment alone.
The two maids stayed outside the house and heard no movement for a while. They shouted twice against the door, "Miss, have you changed your clothes?"
There was no sound in the room.
The two maids pushed open the door in a hurry. The next moment, they were shocked: "Miss! Miss!"
"Someone is coming! Someone is coming quickly! The young lady committed suicide by hanging herself from the beam again!"
