"That's it..." Xia Xingran seemed to understand something and glanced at Bai Moyan on the bench. Her eyes gradually turned from shock to disappointment, until the light in her eyes, which was as bright as stars, completely dimmed.
She bit her lip and thought for a long time, trying to put on a calm expression and tell a white lie.
"I remembered it wrong. I will go back and change grandma's medicine later, so she won't feel so uncomfortable."
Xia Xingran suppressed the turmoil in her heart, walked back to Bai Moyan, closed her eyes briefly and took a breath.
When she opened her eyes again, she stared straight at Bai Moyan and asked, "Brother Mo Yan, tell me honestly, did the grandma with pancreatic cancer sign the drug trial agreement?"
Bai Moyan's cheerful face suddenly turned sharply, his pupils shrank, and his body swayed slightly.
Xia Xingran felt that at this moment, her whole world was turned upside down.
"Try medicine without the patient's consent. You are using the patient as a free guinea pig. To put it more seriously, you are simply taking human life lightly!"
There seemed to be an unquenchable fire burning in Xia Xingran's heart, burning her conscience and making her suffer so much that her voice was trembling.
"Xiao Ran, I want to let her live. This is the only possible way." Bai Moyan hurriedly defended.
"Then have you asked that grandma? Judging from her physical condition, the new drug not only killed her cancer cells, but also her normal cells. Brother Mo Yan, can't you see how painful she is? The patient's Her life is her own, and she has the right to make her own choice, instead of being reduced to a drug testing tool!"
Xia Xingran's face turned red and her heart was shocked. For the first time in her life, she yelled at Bai Moyan without any grace, and then walked past him.
Bai Moyan looked at Xia Xingran's decisive back, and felt an unprecedented torture in his heart, which made him miserable.
He paced back and forth in front of the bench with his hands on his hips and his head lowered. After a dozen or so back and forth, he suddenly raised his head and immediately ran towards the office.
…
The first thing Xia Xingran did when she entered the surgical ward office was to immediately stop the old lady's new medicine. Zhong Lin, who had just finished lunch, glanced at the computer and immediately held down Xia Xingran's hand.
"Xiaoran, you can't do this." Xia Xingran looked at Zhong Lin in disbelief and trembled: "Uncle Zhong, how can you collude with them?"
Zhong Lin sighed and tilted his head unconsciously: "This is Bai Zhengqian's order. If you stop taking the medicine without permission, you will destroy the process and data. Do you think he will let you go?"
Xiao It’s like this!”
"Xiao Ran, it's been five years. The hospital is no longer what it was when your father was here. If you still want to stay in the hospital, you have to turn a blind eye." Zhong Lin felt helpless, but He had to compromise for the sake of his family's livelihood.
Xia Xingran experienced great pain in her heart, but her eyes became firmer, completely abandoning the worry and anxiety caused by the confrontation with Bai Zhengqian. She pushed away Zhong Lin's hand that was holding her down and pressed the Enter key on the keyboard to submit.
"Uncle Zhong, I'm going to ask the patient for her opinion now. If she doesn't want to use it, I will stop the medicine immediately." She walked out of the office, having built an invisible but solid fortress in her heart. No one could shake her heart.
She looked at the four characters "Heal the wounded and save lives" posted in the corridor, which were written by Xia Qingyi when the hospital was founded. I just felt a sting in my heart, and a blur of mist gradually rose in my eyes.
She walked to the ward with steady steps, and the thoughts in her heart became clearer and clearer: Whether it was her father's medical skills or his ideas, she would do her best to inherit and carry forward them.
The sunshine in mid-spring is steady, the clouds are misty, and the blue sky gradually becomes brighter, as if a thick golden ink is splashed on it.
…
When Xia Xingran approached Grandma Teng's ward, she was vomiting violently again. Grandpa Teng's face was distressed, but there was nothing he could do.
She quickly poured a glass of water for Grandma Teng to rinse her mouth, but as soon as she drank it, Grandma Teng vomited it out again.
Considering Grandma Teng's condition, Xia Xingran only invited Grandpa Teng out.
"Grandpa Teng, let me speak frankly. I have seen grandma's illness and there is no possibility. You have also seen the new targeted drugs, which will only make grandma more painful. If you insist on using it, We will continue, but I hope you will let grandma live her last days well."
Xia Qingyi taught her since she was a child: medicine can cure diseases, and Buddha can save destined people. A person's life must have quality and meaning. If it is just painful to hold on for a breath, it is better to reach bliss as soon as possible.
Grandpa Teng didn't speak. Xia Xingran turned to look at him. His wrinkled face was like ravines, criss-crossing, filled with tears, woven into a network on his face.
"I'm going to go for a walk and think about it. Doctor Xia, thank you." Grandpa Teng covered his face and stood up slowly, walking forward with faltering steps.
He cried silently and walked through wards one after another until he reached the end of the ward and lay down on the railing, hunched over and shaking.
Xia Xingran looked at his back, feeling a huge sense of powerlessness and regret in her heart. Like a dull knife, cutting repeatedly in the heart.
There is the most infatuated person in the world. It is really cruel to give up the life of the person you love most with your own hands.
Grandma Teng's weak call came from the ward. Xia Xingran immediately came to her senses and hurriedly walked in and asked, "Grandma Teng, are you feeling uncomfortable somewhere?"
Grandma Teng smiled kindly and motioned to Xia Xingran to help her open the drawer of the bedside table. Inside was a paper bag containing several pieces of Dorayaki.
"Dr. Xia, actually I know that I have cancer. My old man squandered all his wealth, but in the end he only lost his life and money."
She held the paper bag, which gradually became stained with water stains.
"I like to eat the Dorayaki here the most, especially the bean paste flavor. Over the years, the old man has bought it for me every few days."
Grandma Teng's voice gradually choked up: "After I got sick, I would vomit whatever I ate. I really wanted to take another bite of the dorayaki he bought for me, but unfortunately I couldn't."
Xia Xingran turned her face away, trying hard to suppress her emotions and prevent herself from crying.
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The skin of Grandma Teng's bony hands was already pulled up, but she still held Xia Xingran with all her strength, her tone full of pleading.
Xia Xingran couldn't hold it any longer, put her head on Grandma Teng's hand, and said indistinctly while crying: "Okay, I will convey it for grandma. Grandma, you must be happy and spend the rest of the time with grandpa." day."
When Xia Xingran closed the door, a ray of sunlight happened to shine into the ward, reflecting on Grandma Teng's almost transparent face.
Grandma Teng faced the sunlight, hugging the dorayaki tightly in her arms, her eyebrows gradually softened, and Xia Xingran seemed to see her in her 20s.
Time is always kind to those who have love in their hearts.
…
After explaining it to Grandpa Teng, Grandpa Teng decided to respect Grandma Teng’s wishes. So Xia Xingran finished writing the discharge summary amidst Zhong Lin's constant sighing.
After everything was settled, she didn't want to rest, so she went directly back to the surgical clinic to prepare to start the afternoon consultation early.
As soon as she entered the department door, she saw Bai Moyan leaning at the door of her consulting room, looking like he was waiting for her.
Xia Xingran didn't want to pay attention to him, walked to the table, turned on the computer, and started arranging the order to call the number.
"Xiao Ran, I'm sorry." Bai Moyan finally spoke first. Xia Xingran raised her head and found that one side of his cheek was swollen. If you look closely, there was a clear red slap mark!
"Your father hit you again, didn't he?" Xia Xingran's heart suddenly softened, and she reached out to touch Bai Moyan's face, her expression was both nervous and distressed.
"Someone has to solve this matter. I have already told my father that he will not cause trouble for you." Bai Moyan raised his hand and held Xia Xingran's hand. He was wearing white clothes and black hair, and his eyes were shining with glaze. of light.
"Brother Mo Yan, I heard what Uncle Zhong said. I misunderstood you, and I am the one who should say I'm sorry." Xia Xingran lowered his head, full of self-blame.
Hearing this, a rather successful smile suddenly appeared on Bai Moyan's handsome face.
"In this case, why don't you accompany me to watch the stage play "Pride and Prejudice" after get off work today, as compensation." Bai Moyan took out two tickets from his pocket and waved them in front of Xia Xingran.
"Wow, this is my favorite novel since childhood! Brother Mo Yan, this is not compensation, it is clearly a reward in a different way!" As Bai Moyan expected, Xia Xingran was very surprised.
"That's it, I'll pick you up after get off work and we'll go together after dinner." Bai Moyan rubbed Xia Xingran's soft and fluffy hair, with an indescribable charm in his smile.
He returned to his consulting room, turned on his mobile phone and took a picture of his face, then closed his eyes to rest. The phone screen suddenly lit up when a message came in. Only then did I see that the page was still stuck on web search, and the search bar was filled with bitter tricks.
