Frankly speaking, Meng Yao had thought that her relationship with Xu Yao would be tepid. After all, her personality is too calm, and Xu Yao is obviously not the type to talk sweet words.
But the development of this relationship was a little different than she originally imagined.
It is indeed not intense enough, with a peaceful and gentle undertone, like a slowly flowing stream, but it also has a wonderful reaction.
Meng Yao couldn't accurately describe that feeling. She only knew that it wasn't just texting and calling Xu Yao. Her heart skipped a beat just thinking about this person. From the moment she reunited with Xu Yao, Meng Yao had always felt like her youth. There is no sense of closure.
The summer of five years ago seems to be here to stay and will always be there.
Yunnan has always been known as spring-like all year round, but Beijing has already entered early winter since November.
Meng Yao has weather information for two cities on her mobile phone. Because she has gradually developed the habit of reading weather forecasts every day in a different place, and because the person she likes is in that city, she will unconsciously pay attention to what happened in Beijing when reading news online. s story.
Mid-to-early November is the best time to view ginkgo trees in Beijing. You don’t have to go to any scenic spots, there are lush ones on the roadside.
Xu Yao took a photo for her at noon on a Saturday and said: Look, the autumn in Beijing
The clear blue sky and golden ginkgo in the photo make people feel particularly good, with a warm and hopeful feeling.
Meng Yao knew that he didn't go to work today. She also had no class today and was writing lesson plans in the dormitory. It's too quiet to be alone. The scenery outside the window is very good, the sunshine is warm, and there is a feeling of peace and tranquility in the years. Meng Yao received the landscape picture and suddenly wanted to hear Xu Yao's voice. She wanted to make a voice call, but accidentally clicked on a video call.
Meng Yao looked at her face appearing on the screen and reacted immediately to hang up. However, Xu Yao was faster than her and answered the call in almost a second. Before Meng Yao even pressed the hang up button, he had already seen the message on the phone. On Xu Yao's face, she heard Xu Yao calling her name at the same time.
Meng Yao subconsciously responded. Looking at Xu Yao in the video, he suddenly couldn't bear to hang up.
They have not seen each other since leaving Beijing on National Day.
In fact, it was only a month ago. Meng Yao had no special feelings before. Until the video was connected at this moment, she looked at Xu Yao through the screen. He had just had a haircut two days ago. Today, he was wearing a blue sweater, which was very special. Neat and handsome, Meng Yao realized that one month turned out to be quite a long time.
This feeling of long time came belatedly, but it was very powerful, just like the waves, coming menacingly.
The weather in Beijing is particularly good today, and Xu Yao's eyes seem to be filled with light.
Meng Yao couldn't move his eyes away from him in the video.
During the month they were together, they talked on the phone until very late, saying good morning and night to each other, and sharing many, many things with each other, even if they were trivial, but today was the first time to start a video, and Meng Yao made the mistake of clicking it. .
Even when they confessed their love, they used mobile phones at a distance. They were in different places when they were together, and the rhythm was different from the beginning.
This may be one of the reasons why their relationship seems not passionate enough.
This video was unexpected by Xu Yao. It seems that everyone subconsciously feels that being in a different place will restrict many things, including him, so he is often more cautious and cautious.
In fact, they got together quite quickly. It only took three months from their reunion in Yunnan to being together. However, the progress slowed down after they got together. They were not in a hurry and left enough time for each other to adapt to each step.
After sending the photo to Meng Yao, she made a video call. Xu Yao took it for granted that she wanted to see the scenery.
But he hadn't seen Meng Yao for a long time. Xu Yao looked at the video, lowered his eyes and looked at her carefully, and suddenly said: "Are you tired during this time? You seem to have lost a little weight."
The other party basically knows what they do between them every day.
Meng Yao's workload is actually not as big as Xu Yao's.
"No," she said.
They say the camera will zoom in, but Meng Yao's face in the video is very small. She has a lesson plan spread out in front of her, a pen in her hand, and her wrists are also very thin.
It seemed difficult for her to gain weight. Meng Yao had always been thin in Xu Yao's memory.
Xu Yao was walking, and the background behind him was also changing. Meng Yao remembered that Xu Yao sent a message more than an hour ago telling her that he was going out for lunch. She counted the time in her mind and asked him softly: "Have you finished your lunch? Eat?" What do you get?"
When she asked this question, she relaxed a little, put down her pen, and pushed away the half-written lesson plan.
"I haven't eaten yet. I plan to eat barbecue on the way there." Xu Yao answered her and added, "Zheng Hua is too busy going out."
Meng Yao heard someone next to Xu Yao say "tsk". Soon, another face appeared in the video. It was Zheng Hua who came over. He smiled and greeted Meng Yao: "Hi, Meng Yao."
Meng Yao had already relaxed when he saw Zheng Hua sitting up straight again: "Hi."
She had very little contact with Zheng Hua, so the video was a bit uncomfortable.
Zheng Hua was completely acquainted and said to Meng Yao: "I didn't want to bother you guys on the phone, but who asked your boyfriend to complain about me in front of me?"
The phrase "your boyfriend" was quite magical. Meng Yao couldn't help but smile slightly. Before she could think of how to answer the call, Xu Yao moved the phone away, and Zheng Hua was kicked out of the screen. Xu Yao tilted his phone to one side, and the camera was only focused on him. After Zheng Hua interrupted him, some of the things he originally wanted to say suddenly couldn't be said naturally. With Zheng Hua present, some words seemed inappropriate to say. So Xu Yao turned the camera over and showed Meng Yao the ginkgo tree on the roadside.
The video didn't last long. After watching Ginkgo, he hung up. Before hanging up, Xu Yao specifically said that he would call her after dinner when he got back.
He seemed to be making a pact with her.
Meng Yao said yes.
After hanging up the phone, Xu Yao's voice was no longer in his ears, and his face could not be seen. The surroundings returned to silence. Meng Yao looked at the phone and had to admit that he was a little disappointed.
Zheng Hua was not suitable to be around just now, and Meng Yao didn't have the courage, but during the ten minutes of the video call, she looked at Xu Yao's face, and for many moments, she really wanted to say, "I miss you very much."
Meng Yao suddenly discovered that in the month she and Xu Yao had been together, they had never said this to each other, let alone other quotes that would be said between more intimate lovers.
They have never held hands or hugged each other.
They were in love, but there seemed to be something missing.
It was already past three o'clock in the afternoon when Xu Yao called again. He came back from eating barbecue and was in his room with the door closed and video chatting with Meng Yaotong.
There was no one else around him this time, but what they wanted to say but didn't say in the video at noon still couldn't be said in the afternoon.
It seems that I have missed that point, and nothing will be right if I speak again.
But starting from this day, they reduced their voice calls and switched to daily video calls.
Video feels completely different from voice calls.
Although it is not as good as meeting each other, it is also a comfort for lovers in long-distance places.
Sometimes they turn on the video and look at each other across the screen, and then they suddenly become quiet, say nothing, and just keep looking at each other.
Whenever this happened, Meng Yao would feel it was strange. Although they were not in the same city, and there was a cold screen between them, there was always a lingering feeling when they looked at each other.
That unique heartbeat that only the other person brings proves that they are in love.
Meng Yao thought that watching Xu Yao's videos every day would alleviate his missing, but in fact, every time he looked at Xu Yao's face, listened to his words, chuckled from time to time, or his gentle and focused eyes, Meng Yao's missing became even stronger. And no matter how happy and satisfied the person is during the video, after hanging up the phone, there will be a feeling of emptiness.
Meng Yao knew for the first time that this was how he felt during the love process.
...It's particularly annoying.
But it's as sweet as sugar.
As a good friend, Song Siqi is particularly concerned about Meng Yao's emotional status. Perhaps it was because I knew that Meng Yao had a secret love history that lasted for six or seven years, so I couldn't help but feel distressed. I sincerely hoped that Meng Yao's relationship would have a happy ending and that there would be no more twists and turns in the process.
Meng Yao had nothing to hide from her, but in fact there was nothing to say.
She currently only does two things in her relationship with Xu Yao: sending messages and making phone calls.
Not even a single date.
Song Siqi asked her how she was doing with Xu Yao recently, and she could only reply that it was very good.
After asking several times, Song Siqi got a unified answer. She frowned, thought about it, and asked more deeply: "What's a good way?"
Meng Yao couldn't answer.
There was a question she wanted to ask Song Siqi, so she asked, "How do you and Ji Yu deal with this situation in a different place?"
"How to deal with it?" Song Siqi thought for a while and said, "Generally, he comes to me when he has time off, and I go to his place when I have time. If there is any contradiction, the phone says, if the phone doesn't tell me, buy a ticket and fly there. .”
When Song Siqi said this, he realized the problem.
"Although Ji Yu and I are in different places, the transportation is convenient now, so it is not difficult to go there." Moreover, now that he is working and financially independent, he can afford the transportation and accommodation.
But the situation of Meng Yao and Xu Yao is a bit more special.
Song Siqi was also a little worried for Meng Yao: "You guys...are indeed a little far away. It's quite troublesome for him to come and go, and it's inconvenient."
Meng Yao said nothing.
Song Siqi asked carefully: "There won't be any conflicts between you, right? Or is there something wrong?"
"No." Meng Yao denied it at first, and then said, "I just find it difficult to meet him."
Meeting is a big problem.
Before the relationship was stable, we were in a different place, and we couldn't see each other all the time. Who knows how this relationship will develop in the end despite the distance.
Song Siqi sighed, wanting to say something but being cautious about it.
The ginkgo leaves have fallen off, and the smell of winter is getting stronger.
In December, Meng Yao also put on a thicker coat in Yunnan. It was still a bit cold in the mountains and it snowed in Beijing.
Xu Yao was at work when it first started snowing. He discovered it was snowing after work. He and Meng Yao made a video to show Meng Yao the snowflakes flying in the sky.
Meng Yao hadn't seen snow for a long time. There was no snow at all in the city where she went to college. When Xu Yao held up his phone to show her the snow, she instantly remembered the heavy snowfall in her senior year of high school. She remembered that one evening after her self-study, she was walking downstairs with soft snow under her feet and holding an umbrella. She suddenly caught a glimpse of a familiar figure. She looked up from under the umbrella and saw Xu Yao. She remembered that she looked at Xu Yao. It took a long time until he walked further and further away. I also remember that when classes were suspended due to heavy snowfall, Xu Yao went to work as a volunteer. She wore a mid-length black coat and had a clean temperament. She has kept that photo carefully to this day.
Time is really a magical thing.
In the video, Xu Yao's voice was smiling: "Does it look good?"
Meng Yao felt dazed for a moment, and after a while he adjusted his breathing and said, "It looks good."
"Are you cold?" she asked.
Xu Yao turned the camera over to face himself. He was wearing a black down jacket. The zipper was not pulled up very high. You could clearly see that he was wearing a sweatshirt underneath. Xu Yao said, "Fortunately, my hands are quite warm."
He was walking on his way back from get off work, and there were quite a few people around him. String lights were hung on the trees on the roadside behind him, and it was very atmospheric with the first snowfall.
"Christmas is coming." Xu Yao said.
"It's so lively here."
Meng Yao pulled down the screen and looked at the date. It turned out to be December 19th.
Xu Yao put on his headphones and looked down at the screen. Beijing was brightly lit even at night, and all his emotions had nowhere to hide in the bright environment. Xu Yao exhaled and rarely confided: "I'm so tired these days."
He worked a lot of overtime during this period, and had to stay up late when he got home from unfinished work. Xu Yao was busy making videos during the past few days, and Meng Yao was watching him in the video.
Xu Yao rarely said he was tired. Even in Meng Yao's previous perception, he was the kind of person who was omnipotent and invincible. Although they were together, Meng Yao no longer deified him so much, but Xu Yao said he was tired, and Meng Yao still didn't know how to comfort him.
"Go back and go to bed early tonight." Meng Yao thought for a long time before holding back these words.
She mentally decided not to have a long video chat with Xu Yao tonight and let him rest early.
Xu Yao smiled.
He looked at Meng Yao quietly for a long time, then gradually stopped smiling, but his eyes were deep. After a long time, he suddenly said: "I miss you a little bit, Meng Yao."
