It's not difficult to confess. The key lies in whether you have the courage to face the consequences calmly.
Meng Yao originally thought that she would be as understanding as a drum when she confessed her love. Friends around her who had been in love also said that they were very excited and overwhelmed at that moment. Meng Yao seemed to be different. When she confessed her love, she felt a bit desperate, and she was not thinking about the other person. Will I accept it or not? I will take this step. She even calmed down strangely after the message was successfully sent.
Meng Yao threw the lock screen of her phone at the end of the bed, put on her clothes and went into the bathroom naturally. She washed her hair, took a shower, brushed her teeth, and washed her face. It was already an hour later when she returned to the room after all the steps were completed. She looked at her phone and still didn't have it. Xu Yao's message unconsciously pursed his lower lip, but he didn't send any more messages. He put down his phone and prepared to sleep.
Probably because she woke up early today and was a little tired from walking around the campus and catching the bus, Meng Yao fell asleep very quickly, but she had something on her mind. She didn't sleep well. It was obvious that her phone was not on, but she still noticed it when the pillow vibrated. A premonition arose in my heart. I touched my phone and opened my eyes. It was Xu Yao's voice call.
She subconsciously glanced at the time on the screen, it was past eleven o'clock in the night.
The vibrating voice call made Meng Yao wake up instantly.
She suddenly realized that she had been waiting for such a call subconsciously.
The vibrating sound has been going on for a long time, and it will automatically hang up soon if no one answers. Meng Yao looked at Xu Yao's profile picture and slowly clicked the answer button.
"…Hello."
Maybe he didn't expect that the call would be answered suddenly. Xu Yao was about to hang up without any hope. He paused when he heard the voice. He moved his phone and glanced at the screen to make sure that the call was on. Then he cleared his throat and said : "Meng Yao."
It was warm under the quilt, and the room was very dark without turning on the lights. Meng Yao pulled the quilt up to his chin and responded: "Yes."
"Are you sleeping?" Xu Yao sounded a little sleepy when she heard her low voice.
Meng Yao said: "Wake up."
Xu Yao was stunned for a moment and then realized: "I've disturbed you."
"No."
Xu Yao said: "I went out to eat with Gaoyang Zheng Hua in the evening, and my phone ran out of battery. I just recharged it when I came back."
In other words, he just saw the confession message.
Realizing this, Meng Yao couldn't help but grab the quilt and lift it up. His originally calm heart finally changed and he became a little uneasy.
She waited with bated breath for Xu Yao's reply, but the other end of the phone also fell silent. Meng Yao remained silent for a moment, but he became more and more awake. The waiting time seemed very long, as if a long time had passed. Meng Yao suddenly heard Xu Yao ask: "Are you happy to get home today?"
Meng Yao was stunned for a moment because of the new topic that was completely different from what she had imagined. She didn't know if this was Xu Yao's way of avoiding it, but if she wanted to avoid her confession, this phone call was unnecessary. Meng Yao was a little disappointed and was silent for a while before saying, "Happy."
There was no happiness in her "happy" tone, and her tone was flat. Xu Yao was not sure whether she was telling the truth or not, so he asked, "Really?"
Meng Yao rolled over under the quilt and said without answering, "Why do you ask?"
She really doesn't understand.
On the other end of the phone, Xu Yao paused and said, "I'm afraid you won't be happy."
Probably because of the night, his words were a little soft and had a gentle feeling.
Meng Yao heard something from this sentence. She thought for a while, "Some regrets will be made up for on the other side" were Xu Yao's original words, and he told her when she had a dispute with Song Lan. when. So he thought she was having trouble with her family when she went home?
Meng Yao frowned.
She suddenly discovered that she had indeed liked Xu Yao for many years, but they only had real contact with each other for more than three months. During half of that time, one of them was in Beijing and the other in Yunnan, and they only communicated through mobile phones.
There is a heartbeat, but we don't understand each other deeply.
It takes time to understand this kind of thing, and of course it requires the willingness of both parties to cooperate.
Meng Yao held the phone close to his ear, called Xu Yao's name in a low voice, and said slowly: "I don't have the idea or habit of seeking comfort in another relationship if one relationship fails."
"Besides, although I am not good at starting a relationship, I am not an impulsive person."
Even this seemingly impulsive message of confession has been brewing in my heart for a long time, but it is actually strong enough.
Meng Yao said: "I borrowed the phrase 'some regrets will be made up for on the other side' because I secretly hope that I can get my wish."
"But it's up to you what kind of answer you want to give."
Frank and straightforward words often penetrate the heart the best.
To be honest, this confession was very surprising to Xu Yao.
The timing is also very sudden.
Combined with the sentence "some regrets will be made up for on the other side", Xu Yao's first reaction was that Meng Yao had a conflict with his family after returning home and was unhappy.
But the feeling of being confessed by someone you like is indescribable. No matter how rational you are, you will still feel emotional.
Xu Yao made this call late at night, firstly to confirm Meng Yao's mood, and secondly because he couldn't hold it back.
There was only breathing on the phone, and Meng Yao's tone seemed calm, but he was actually very nervous. Calling is different from sending messages. She was about to say, maybe you should think about it again.
In Meng Yao's view, feelings cannot be taken lightly.
She was sure that Xu Yao had a good impression of her, but she was not sure whether this good feeling could support something.
Meng Yao is not restless. She is not enthusiastic or outgoing enough. She likes to be quiet and enjoy being alone. She may also be boring in the eyes of many people. These qualities cannot be changed in her and she does not want to change. No. I wonder if Xu Yao has ever calmly thought about whether he would accept and like her like this.
Meng Yao doesn't just want to experience the feeling of her dream coming true. Her love must be devoted to her, equal and honest.
She hopes that this relationship will be prudent, sincere, practical, and lasting.
She doesn't want the illusory beauty floating in mid-air.
Before she said what she said, "Don't think about it anymore, please stop thinking about it." Xu Yao said on the phone, "Wait a minute, Meng Yao, my heart is beating a little fast."
He was a little at a loss, and there was a sense of helplessness in his tone that he couldn't control the rhythm of his heartbeat.
But he was very happy and smiled, his tone rising.
The words "My heart beats a little too fast" are particularly lethal when spoken by someone like Xu Yao. Meng Yao's original words were stuck.
Emotions can be transmitted in many ways. Meng Yao seemed to feel Xu Yao's mood. She suddenly didn't know what to say. Her heart was beating very fast. The quilt seemed to wrap her too tightly. Meng Yao's face was very hot. She Turning over, the quilt moved, fresh air penetrated into the quilt, and the hot feeling subsided a little.
She was surprised by Xu Yao's reaction. The appearance of a word like "bucuo" that had nothing to do with Xu Yao at this moment actually gave Meng Yao a sense of pleasure. She smiled very softly.
The two of them felt the same throbbing through the phone.
This phone call lasted for a long time, but for most of the time they were silent in words, but it was not awkward. Even if they didn't speak, the atmosphere was still there. The ambiguous, blushing and heart-pounding atmosphere made people confused but also excited and intoxicated. .
Xu Yao is not the kind of person who shrinks back. He probably does not understand the feeling of "cowardice" by nature, whether it is in study, work or relationships.
At that time, Meng Yao thought that his changing the topic was an avoidance behavior, but she later denied this idea.
Xu Yao would not do such a thing.
He has always been magnanimous, has his own standards of behavior and is full of confidence.
So a moment after saying "Wait a minute, my heart is beating a little fast", he said: "Meng Yao, I don't need you to chase me, so there is no such thing as saying that there is little hope, because as long as you want to hear it, I will give it to you." Your 100% absolute answer. In fact, I think I should be the one to ask you this question." Xu Yao asked, "If I pursue you, is there any hope?"
It turns out that when you confess your love, you really feel like your heart is beating like a drum.
Security is a mysterious thing.
Meng Yao was worried that a simple heartbeat could not support certain things, that she was not passionate enough, and that she was afraid that liking this kind of thing would be fleeting in her. She was very different from the past, no longer so inferior and timid, but some things remained the same. It's in her bones, she can't be completely free and easy in her feelings. But when Xu Yao said words like "100%" and "absolutely" to her, she could feel at ease like never before.
She suddenly felt that there was no need to be afraid or to doubt anything.
Xu Yao is a very determined person, and his heartbeat is not something he can say casually. He will treat anything he is sure of seriously and carefully.
Meng Yao thought that she had liked him for seven years. Xu Yao was the person she had looked up to and pursued. His meaning to her was self-evident. She had her own answer to what kind of person he was.
After chasing someone for a long time, in addition to love, there will also be loyalty.
Or maybe love and loyalty are one.
So, trust him.
Meng Yao told himself.
She gave her sincerity completely and said to Xu Yao seriously: "I have only one answer to your question."
——If I chase you, what hope is there?
--hundred percent
Xu Yao understood what she meant and smiled.
Meng Yao said: "For this same question, our answers should be the same."
Xu Yao smiled and said "hmm".
"So--"
Xu Yao said: "Let's be together, Meng Yao."
This is what she wanted to say, but she was preempted.
Meng Yao paused, didn't mind, smiled, slowly exhaled, and responded solemnly: "Okay, let's be together, Xu Yao."
She hugged the quilt and listened to Xu Yao's breathing on the other end of the phone. Her mood surged like a tide. She couldn't control it, but she was willing to let it go. She looked at the crescent moon hanging in the night sky through the glass window.
The moonlight is so beautiful tonight.
She thought of how many years ago, she always used to look at the moon outside the window before going to bed. It seemed that doing so made her dreams sweeter.
The development of things is always unexpected. The moon, which had seemed so high and far away before, was now so close to her. And the light emanating from the moon has shone from her sensitive and ignorant girlhood to now, accompanying her through countless days and nights, and heading into the future.
"The love of my life is here for you."