The holiday after the college entrance examination is very long.
In the days just after the exam, Meng Yao's state was like a rubber band that had been stretched for a long time and finally loosened its strength, and he became relaxed. She had been staying at home to catch up on her sleep these past few days, as if she wanted to make up for the sleep she had not gotten enough in three years of high school at once. Until the results came out, she only went out twice. One time was to have a break-up meal with the classmates, and the other time was to meet Song Siqi alone.
Song Siqi has become much more relaxed since taking the exam. After taking the exam, she felt that she had passed the test and was very confident that she could study in the city she likes. She also asked Meng Yao concernedly if he had decided where to apply, but Meng Yao did not give a definite answer. He only said that he would wait until the results came out.
Song Siqi nodded and didn't ask any more questions.
During that time, Meng Yao's ears were always filled with the topic of volunteering. Song Lan showed Meng Yao a lot of information about schools that she thought were good, including those in this city and those in neighboring provinces. She hoped that Meng Yao would be willing to volunteer. Choose between these universities.
"You will definitely not be able to get into Qingbei. You majored in liberal arts. There are several top schools that are not suitable for you. These schools are quite suitable. They are famous schools and are relatively safe based on your grades."
Meng Yao didn't know how to respond to this sentence.
Meng Yao glanced at the information collected by Song Lan and said the same thing, wait until the results are out.
The days passed quickly.
On the day the results came out, Song Lan accompanied her to check the scores.
There were so many people checking scores and the network was stuck, so it took a long time for the page to load before it was displayed.
Meng Yao played well, and his total score was two points short of 677. Song Lan was so happy that she quickly called Meng Yuanshan to announce the good news. Before the call was connected, she said to Meng Yao happily: "Don't worry now. You can choose from the schools I showed you, whichever one you like." one."
Meng Yao stared at the computer page, as if in a daze, and said nothing. Song Lan just thought she was so happy that she didn't come back to her senses.
In the end, Song Lan didn't let Meng Yao choose from the schools she initially liked. She told her friends about Meng Yao's scores and followed everyone's suggestions to choose one of the schools they thought was the best and most suitable. He chose the school as his first choice, probably because he was sure that Meng Yao would be admitted, and let Meng Yao fill in the other choices at will.
Without any discussion, Song Lan decided everything for her, and finally informed Meng Yao in a notifying tone, asking her to fill out her application as she had arranged.
Meng Yao might have wanted to say something at that time, but she didn't say anything in the end. She just looked at Song Lan for a long time, and Song Lan was immersed in the happiness she was weaving for herself and didn't realize it.
Song Lan was in a good mood during the days when she was waiting for the admission result, and she was even more expectant than Meng Yao, the client.
But this good mood did not last long. The admission results came out and the school that Meng Yao was admitted to was different from the ones she had expected before. It was even far away.
Meng Yao changed her choice without saying a word, and Song Lan later learned that even with the exception of her first choice, Meng Yao had not filled out the schools she was satisfied with. In other words, Meng Yao never thought about following the path arranged by her from beginning to end.
From Song Lan's point of view, Meng Yao didn't take her as a mother seriously and didn't consider her feelings.
Not surprisingly, Song Lan lost her temper after the admission results came out. He accused Meng Yaoyang of being a treacherous person, saying that he worked very hard for her, asking people, checking information, and wasting a lot of effort but was not appreciated.
This incident alarmed the whole family.
In fact, the school that Meng Yao was admitted to was better than the schools that Song Lan had been satisfied with before. Meng Yuanshan supported Meng Yao to go to higher places, but he did not agree with Meng Yao's approach, saying that she should not discuss it with her family, hide everyone's private change of choice, and waste her mother's hard work.
In response, Meng Yao responded: "I have not changed my aspirations. Those were not my aspirations before."
This sentence angered Song Lan even more, and she slapped Meng Yao in anger.
Get admitted to prestigious schools with high scores.
Things that would make other families happy became a trivial matter in her family.
Meng Yao didn't dodge the slap. Song Lan's force was so strong that she was hit to the side of her head. However, Meng Yao didn't seem to feel any pain. She just turned to look at Song Lan and said with a very calm look and voice: "I have The path I want to take.”
In Song Lan's view, this was tantamount to provocation. She couldn't control her anger and didn't even want to look at Meng Yao. She told Meng Yao to get lost in a cold voice.
Meng Yao also did as she wished. That night I went back to my grandma's house in the countryside.
During this summer vacation, she and Song Lan had been in a stalemate and had no contact with each other. Thinking about it carefully, this was the longest period of time that she and Song Lan had been in a stalemate due to conflicts in many years.
During this period, Meng Yuanshan made several phone calls to Meng Yao, trying to be a peacemaker.
Meng Yao was as stubborn as ever.
She called Meng Yuanshan's father on the phone and said calmly: "I have compromised many times. But I have my own life, and I should be the master of my life, rather than just being arranged."
Meng Yuanshan was speechless for a moment. No one was willing to bow their heads, and the relationship between Meng Yao and Song Lan became a deadlock for a while.
Song Lan was very worried about Meng Yao's behavior this time. When talking to Meng Yuanshan on the phone, she repeatedly mentioned the two quarrels between Meng Yao and her in high school.
The most intense time was when the liberal arts and science classes were separated. Meng Yao also resisted, but she suppressed it.
This time the situation was very similar, except that Meng Yao was smarter and learned to kill first and then show off.
Song Lan felt that these performances meant that Meng Yao's rebellious period was long overdue.
Including her completely different attitude from before.
Meng Yao's personality is not the kind to be noisy, and she is even very bad at quarreling. Song Lan does not speak in a gentle way. Most of the time when mother and daughter have conflicts, Meng Yao is the one who tolerates it, even if she is sometimes criticized by Song Lan. Lan's verbal stabs would never explode, so the way she and Song Lan faced conflicts was always a cold war. But Meng Yao was soft-hearted. She didn't notice Song Lan's hard work. She also had to go to work and take care of her daily life. Whenever she saw Song Lan doing housework, she would always feel that there was something wrong in her heart. Sting, very uncomfortable.
So Meng Yao is always the one who compromises. Whenever she takes the initiative to end the cold war, she and Song Lan will choose to whitewash the peace.
But the conflict was not resolved.
It's just buried deep inside. After accumulating again and again, it finally broke out.
From Song Lan's point of view, Meng Yao only had two fights with her during high school, but Meng Yao himself knew that she had had countless thoughts of resistance and had also committed some small actions, but Song Lan did not put them aside. In eyes.
The most intense one was not what Song Lan thought it was about dividing arts and science classes.
Meng Yao knew from the beginning that Song Lan would not agree to the separation of arts and science classes, but she didn't know where her stubbornness came from at that time, so she wanted to try to fight for it. While expressing her wishes to Song Lan, she knew clearly that result.
The most intense time for Meng Yao was shortly after the first year of high school.
At that time, in order to facilitate schooling, Song Lan and Meng Yao rented a house near Fenghan. It was convenient for Meng Yao to go to school, but the distance to work for Song Lan was much further than before, causing Song Lan to leave for work half an hour earlier than before.
They had just moved here, and Meng Yao's work schedule was changed when he entered high school. Song Lan had to get up early to make breakfast and clean up her own affairs, so she didn't get used to it. Probably because she felt tired, Song Lan was a little upset and agitated during that time.
It happened that Meng Yao did not do well in the exam in the first month of high school. His grades were not ideal compared to before, and he ranked in the middle of the class. Maybe it was the unexpected report card that made Song Lan feel that her efforts were not rewarded. The hard work during that period became particularly unbearable. She couldn't hold back her emotions and told Meng Yao.
Song Lan may not remember it herself. Her tone at that time was very bad, her words were sarcastic, and she habitually told her difficulties, saying that if it weren't for Meng Yao, she wouldn't have to work so hard.
Meng Yao has been kidnapped by her morals not once or twice. Every time I hear it, my heart feels heavy and I can't breathe.
Because of Song Lan's words, she often had the idea that she was a burden. Whenever this happens, she always wants to go back to her grandparents.
Meng Yao's personality is not considered outgoing, and he didn't fully adapt when he first entered Fenghan. He didn't communicate with teachers or classmates. For a month, I have been alone, with a very low sense of existence.
Maybe he had been depressed for a long time that day. Meng Yao looked at Song Lan, who had been complaining and criticizing her, and suddenly said: "No, I'll live on campus."
I don't know if there was something wrong with her tone when she said this or if Song Lan was a sharp person. To Song Lan's ears, these words sounded like Meng Yao was impatiently contradicting her.
But in fact, Meng Yao just felt powerless.
Then, Song Lan's anger shifted from dissatisfaction with her grades and life to Meng Yao's attitude towards her.
Meng Yao rarely argued a few words out loud, but the matter only became more serious.
It was the first day of monthly leave.
That afternoon, Song Lan only cooked dinner for herself and showed complete indifference to Meng Yao. Later that night, Meng Yao put on her cell phone and went out.
In fact, she had no appetite and didn't feel hungry at the time, but she just didn't want to stay at home anymore.
When I got out of the door, I realized that night had fallen, there were colorful lights everywhere, people were coming and going, and there was a lot of noise.
This world is very lively, but she is the only one who is out of place.
Somehow it started to rain that day.
Meng Yao walked aimlessly on the street, thinking about taking shelter from the rain as it got heavier. The page on her phone was empty, without a single message. Meng Yao stood outside the convenience store, looking confused as the raindrops fell and hit the ground. The grievances accumulated in his heart suddenly surged up quickly. She slowly squatted down and buried her head between her arms. No one noticed her through the noisy rain, and she cried repressedly for a long time.
*
The summer vacation that Meng Yao spent at her grandmother's house was quite relaxing and comfortable except for the fact that she had no contact with Song Lan.
In mid-August, she packed up her things and returned home from her grandmother's house because she was about to go to college.
Having graduated from high school, there was no need to rent a house near Fenghan. When Meng Yuanshan came back from vacation, he and Song Lan canceled the rent and moved back to their previous house.
When Meng Yao came back, he stood downstairs in the community, looking up at the high floors, feeling as if he had been away for a long time.
Maybe it was because he was about to leave the city. In the past, Meng Yao always felt depressed when he went home and faced Song Lan, but now he felt very calm inside.
More than a month had passed since the admission results were announced, and Song Lan still hadn't calmed down. When Meng Yao returned home, she just thought it was a puff of air in the house and refused to pay attention.
It wasn't until Meng Yao left for college at the end of the month that Song Lan fully realized the fact that Meng Yao was out of control.
Sometimes people are very strange. She was angry at Meng Yao for being disobedient and hiding from her, but when Meng Yao actually left her for another city, she felt reluctant to leave him.
Even so, Song Lan would not say a soft word. When Meng Yuanshan came home and asked to send Meng Yao to school, she nodded and said, "Okay."
"By the way, let me go and see how charming that school is."
This was Song Lan's concession to the war with Meng Yao that lasted for more than a month, and he took the initiative to step forward.
But in fact, all of them knew that the superficial peace had been shattered, and no one could naturally pretend that nothing had happened in the future.
Accompanied by Meng Yuanshan and Song Lan, Meng Yao carried his luggage and went to the far place he wanted to go, a seaside city.
The day she left, the sun was shining brightly, illuminating the road ahead in her sight, which was smooth and solid.
It seems that every step of the future is full of hope.
