After returning to New York, the rhythm was almost the same as before.
After Sansan started school, Zheng Pianqing began to prepare for the competition. She spent most of her time in the studio creating, but she still went to school to pick up Sansan every day. The same was true for Zhou Yi - Zhou Yi seemed to talk a lot less recently. , was a little cautious when getting along with her. Zheng Pianqing noticed it clearly, but she didn't know why he was like this.
It might be related to the conversation with Zheng Linxu that day, or it might be because he felt guilty after doing something wrong before.
Zheng Pianqian did not pester Zheng Linxu to ask about the content of the chat that day, and Zhou Yi and Zheng Linxu also developed a tacit understanding, and the two never mentioned the matter after that day.
Zheng Pianqing goes to see a counselor every weekend, because she has an open attitude this time, and there are obvious gains every time she goes there. By June, the problems that had troubled her, and the knots that had not been resolved for many years, Seventy percent has been processed.
Zheng Pianqian learned to use a third perspective to look back at her past relationship with Zhou Yi. When she broke away from the "victim" perspective of the relationship, she would have a new understanding of Zhou Yi's past behaviors - - Just as the counselor told her, this is the inevitable result that two people with different emotional needs will face, and Rong Yue is just the trigger.
Zheng Pianqing didn't change her perspective at first and didn't accept this view. But if she didn't accept it, she would never be able to get rid of the victim mentality, and it would be impossible to truly get over that incident.
Zheng Pianqing once asked the counselor in confusion: "Are you trying to prove to me that he is not wrong?"
The counselor replied firmly "NO", "Of course he is wrong, because he is very aware of your emotional needs and insecurities, but he has never tried to really solve it - what we are talking about now is, you You should not punish yourself for the emotional neglect and 'abuse' he has shown you."
"You have to accept calmly that you have had a relationship that did not turn out so satisfactorily. In it, you suffered pain, but also gained happiness. This is just a very small experience in your life. You don't have to forgive him at all, but There is no need to continue to be trapped by him.”
Consultation requires a certain level of understanding, and you must be willing to cooperate and open yourself up when visiting.
Zheng Pianqing thought about these words seriously later and recalled her experiences over the years. She suddenly realized that the consultant was right.
She and Zhou Yi had not seen each other for more than six years. She thought that not seeing each other meant forgetting. In fact, her soul and spirit had been trapped in the past during these years, and her subsequent relationships and dates were all A compulsive repetition.
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Zheng Pianqing has had a very fulfilling few months since she returned from Berlin. She has been in high spirits with daily life, creation, and consultation.
People's emotions and states will be directly reflected in their creations. The work Zheng Pianqing prepared for this competition is an architectural landscape oil painting. The color tone is much brighter than before, visible to the naked eye.
The results of the competition were announced in mid-June. Zheng Pianqian broke through and won the gold medal. The organizer sent her an invitation letter to the awards ceremony.
According to Zheng Pianqing's past style, she would not go to such an occasion in person. In the past, when she participated in the competition, she basically missed the award ceremony. The organizer would send her certificates and medals afterwards.
But this time, Zheng Pianying changed her mind and decided to take Sansan with her.
The day of the award ceremony was June 20th, and Sansan School had just finished its final exams and entered the holidays.
What Zheng Pian Ting prepared for the award ceremony was a very simple white halterneck dress. Her long hair was curled, and her makeup was not too strong, but very delicate.
Sansan's little skirt is the same color as Zheng Pianqing's. When mother and daughter stand together, they are very eye-catching.
The award ceremony was held in the evening. At four o'clock in the afternoon, when Zheng Pianqing and Sansan were preparing to leave, Zhou Yi also came over.
"Dad?" Sansan was surprised to see Zhou Yi appear: "Why are you here?"
"I made ice bread and brought it to you." Zhou Yi handed the bag in his hand to San San and said with a smile, "Let's put it in the refrigerator first."
Sansan took it and ran to the kitchen holding the bag as if holding a little treasure.
As a result, Zheng Pianqing and Zhou Yi were the only two people left in the living room for the time being.
Zhou Yi's eyes turned to Zheng Pianqing. After a while of silence, he took the initiative to praise: "Today's look suits you very well."
Zheng Pianqing nodded.
Zhou Yi: "Are you ready to go?"
Zheng Pianqing: "Yes, right away."
Zhou Yi subconsciously touched his watch and fiddled with it, then casually suggested: "How about I send you there."
Although he looked calm on the surface, only he knew how much mental preparation he had made before saying this.
In the past few months, although the frequency of their meetings has not decreased, Zhou Yi has not "entangled" Zheng Pianqing as before. Although they can talk and get along with each other on a daily basis, the emotions between both parties are very light, just like A divorced couple has the same tasks as raising children together, but has no feelings for each other.
Under this mode, Zheng Pianqian's attitude towards Zhou Yi was acceptable, but Zhou Yi was not sure whether Zheng Pianqian would still be like this when he proposed "going further".
"Do you have time?" When Zhou Yi's nerves were tense, Zheng Pianqing spoke.
Not rejection.
Zhou Yi answered immediately: "Yes, yes."
Zheng Pianqing: "I'm sorry to trouble you."
Her attitude was very good, but her politeness was a little distant, as if she was talking to someone she didn't know very well.
Zhou Yi felt a little uncomfortable. He forced a smile and said, "You don't have to be so polite to me."
Before Zheng Pianqing could respond to this sentence, Sansan had already put away the bread and returned.
Sansan walked up to Zheng Pianqing naturally, took her hand, and said to Zhou Yi: "Dad, mom and I are leaving first. You can come back to us tomorrow."
Zhou Yi: "I'll send you there."
Sansan showed a surprised expression and looked at Zheng Pianqing in disbelief, as if asking her: Is it true?
Zheng Pianqing understood Sansan's meaning and nodded towards her.
Sansan was pleasantly surprised until she got into Zhou Yi's car.
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When she really took this step, Zheng Pianqing discovered that it was actually not that difficult.
It is not difficult to accept Zhou Yi's identity, face up to his relationship with San San, and affirm his love and devotion to San San, and she does not have to kidnap herself morally because of this.
His willingness to pay is his choice, and it is also the way he and Sansan get along. She has no obligation to repay.
In this way, Zheng Pianqing was completely relieved of her psychological burden.
The car stopped in the parking lot.
Zhou Yi turned off the engine and said to the mother and daughter in the back row: "I'll wait for you here. Just come down when it's over."
Sansan nodded.
Zheng Pianqing was silent for a few seconds. After thinking about it, she asked him, "Do you want to go up together?"
