Zhou Yi didn't know what Zheng Lin said. At that time, Zheng Pianqian was almost a blank sheet of paper in front of him. He didn't need to spend too much effort to penetrate her thoughts. When she said "I never thought about it" When she said something like "Marry you", he knew that this was just her excuse to rationalize the relationship. She wanted to look more chic.
If she could really be so chic, she wouldn't have repeatedly had trouble with him over Rongyue - he also knew how to deal with her insecurities and emotions, but he didn't face her needs.
When Zhou Yi thought of this, he began to feel uncomfortable. He had never felt such a strong sense of regret.
He took a few deep breaths, looked at Zheng Lin and said, "Can you tell me about her pregnancy?"
Zheng Linxu: "What do you want to hear?"
Zhou Yi: "She told me that she wanted to abort the child at first, but it had already been three months."
Zheng Linxu said "Yeah", "If her physical condition hadn't allowed it, I would have let her have an abortion."
Zhou Yi: "Didn't you notice something was wrong before? She didn't have pregnancy symptoms?"
Zheng Linxu raised the corner of his mouth mockingly, "Discovered? How?"
"After she came to New York from Hong Kong, she started to suffer from insomnia and loss of appetite. She lost almost 20 pounds in two months and never had her period again." Recalling that time, Zheng Linxu's expression became much more serious.
Zhou Yi had never heard of this before. When Zheng Pianqing told him about pregnancy, she spoke in very general terms.
But he knew that there must be a lot of unspeakable secrets and pain during this period.
"Do you know how we found out she was pregnant?" Zheng Linxu glanced at Zhou Yi coldly, "It was because we had to go to the psychiatric department to prescribe medicine for her."
Zhou Yi's throat was so sore that he couldn't speak. His neck felt as if someone had pinched him. His eyes were dark and he had difficulty breathing.
Zheng Linxu had not thought about telling Zhou Yi these things before, and felt that "condemning" him after so many years would not be effective. But now, telling him is obviously a better choice, "It's because she suddenly lost weight." , so doctors don’t recommend induction of labor because the risk is too high.”
"She doesn't want this child, because it's yours." Zheng Lin said, "Yuemi and I couldn't just watch her risk our lives, so we promised her that we would send the child away as soon as it was born, and she agreed to stay."
Zhou Yi never thought about this episode before. He thought that Zheng Pianqian had always loved Sansan.
Unconsciously, Zhou Yi's hands had been clenched into fists, and his knuckles were almost crushed by his force.
Zheng Pianqian's disgust and hatred for him were deeper than he imagined.
"Then... she couldn't bear it anymore, right?" Zhou Yi didn't know how much effort it took to ask this question.
Zheng Linxu did not give him a direct answer, but said: "When she was pregnant, she committed suicide once and entered the emergency room."
"She would self-abuse from time to time. Many times after prenatal check-ups, she would slap herself. Can you imagine?" Zheng Linxu's mood was relatively stable, but recalling that time, her voice gradually trembled.
That must have been the most difficult time in his life - he watched Zheng Pianqing suffer and torture himself, but there was nothing he could do.
"I wanted to kill you several times." Zheng Linxu looked at Zhou Yi and said this.
Zhou Yi's lips were stretched into a line, his eyes were as red as if they were stained with blood, and tears fell one after another, hitting the table.
What was he doing at that time?
She endured both physical and mental torture and destruction because she left Sansan behind, and he later thought that she had a child with another man, and even ridiculed her for it.
Zheng Linxu is right, he really deserves to die.
"When Sansan was born, the adopter had already been contacted, but Pianying changed her mind temporarily." Zheng Lin said, "After giving birth to the child, her condition worsened again. I listened to the doctor's advice and changed her an environment.”
When Zheng Linxu just talked about the things about Zheng Pianqian's pregnancy, Zhou Yi came up with the reason why she didn't stay with Sansan in the past few years - he also wanted to slap himself now, and he actually ridiculed her because of this matter .
Zhou Yi raised his hand to cover his eyes, recalling all his ridiculous behaviors, and his palms quickly became wet.
Zheng Linxu didn't feel anything special when she saw Zhou Yi crying. Tears of regret were the most meaningless.
"I've told you everything you want to know." Zheng Linxu left these words, stood up and left the terrace.
Zhou Yi sat there without moving. Hearing the footsteps disappear, he put down his hands and looked at the sky opposite.
The sun was about to set, and the afterglow turned the surrounding buildings into gold, but he seemed to have lost the ability to read colors and beauty, and there were only blurry circles and spots in front of his eyes.
——
When Zhou Yi came down from the terrace, Sansan was about to go find him.
"Dad." Seeing Zhou Yi's figure, Sansan immediately called him.
When Zhou Yi came closer, San San realized that Zhou Yi's eyes were extremely red and swollen. She couldn't help but show a worried expression: "What's wrong with your eyes? Have you cried?"
Zheng Pianqing, who was not far away, happened to hear this question and subconsciously glanced in Zhou Yi's direction.
The distance between the two of them was still quite far, at least two meters, but even so, Zheng Pianqing could still clearly see Zhou Yi's red and swollen eyes - although it was not the first time she had seen him cry, this time it seemed that he was crying. I had to exaggerate a few times before.
Zheng Pianqian looked at Zheng Linxu, curious about what they had just talked about.
Zheng Lin has been talking for more than half an hour, but looking at Zhou Yi, he must have just finished crying - what words can make a person like Zhou Yi cry for such a long time?
Sansan was very worried about Zhou Yi and kept asking him what happened, but Zhou Yi did not answer every question as usual. He responded with a few evasive words and left first.
Sansan looked in the direction of the floor-to-ceiling window and pursed his lips.
Zheng Linxu noticed her worry and expressed relief: "He will be fine, don't worry."
Sansan: “But he cried until his eyes were swollen.”
She was curious: "What did you say? Did you scold him?"
Zheng Linxu: "Will you cry if I scold you?"
Thirty-three:"……"
Yes.
She won't cry even after being taught a lesson. Zhou Yi, an adult... can't be so fragile, right?
But why was he crying like that?
——
When Zhou Yi came out of the villa, his ears were ringing a little, and he was in a trance while driving.
Fortunately nothing happened on the way and we finally got home safely.
After returning to the apartment, Zhou Yi walked into the living room barefoot and lay directly on the carpet.
He looked at the ceiling, what Zheng Lin had said echoed in his ears, and those pictures appeared in front of his eyes, and his heart throbbed.
He regretted, was upset, and was sad, but these emotions were of no use.
He could never make amends.
She doesn't need his compensation either.
