And Zheng Pianqing herself doesn't miss that feeling.
Although she can no longer invest in an intimate relationship, she does not feel regretful. In fact, her "love" for Zhou Yi has long been depleted. The past three years have been enough for her to make a decision. ——From now on, she will live alone.
Since you can't be committed, stable, and give the other person the same level of enthusiasm and affection, then don't start.
Zheng Pianqing doesn't want to be the character who hurts others - this is her bottom line.
In fact, after figuring this out, Zheng Pianqing felt a lot more relaxed.
Shortly after Zheng Pianqing and Qin Lie broke up, Zheng Yuemi came to Zurich to visit her.
It had been half a year since the sisters last met, and Zheng Yuemi could clearly feel that Zheng Pianqing's condition was much better than the last time they met.
It can't be said to be lively, but he smiles more than before, and his perception of the outside world is gradually recovering.
For a long time in the past, I couldn't get any emotional response when talking to her, but now I can gradually feel it.
After dinner, Zheng Pianqing and Zheng Yuemi sat on the carpet in the living room and chatted.
Zheng Yuemi didn't know about the breakup of Zheng Pianqing and Qin Lie, so she casually asked a few questions about how the two got along, and then Zheng Pianqing told her the news of the breakup.
Zheng Yuemi didn't ask the reason, but just smiled and said: "It's up to you, the next one will be better."
Zheng Pianqian hugged her knees and said, "Second sister, I probably won't fall in love or get married in the future."
Zheng Yuemi: "It's okay. You don't need to set too many rules for your life. There are so many things in life that should and should not be done. Just do whatever you want. As long as you don't break the law or commit any crime, Linxu and I will support you."
Zheng Pianqing felt warm in her heart because of Zheng Yuemi's words.
When she was relatively young, there was some distance between her and Zheng Yuemi. The relationship really developed in the past few years after she and Zhou Yi broke up.
Zheng Pianqing actually envied Zheng Yuemi's attitude towards relationships. At least in her impression, she had never seen Zheng Yuemi in a state of being "trapped by love" - in the years when Zheng Linxu didn't take over the Zheng family, Zheng Pianqing often saw him because of her relationship with him. My girlfriend was "annoyed" by the quarrel.
But Zheng Yuemi...she didn't seem to have heard that there was a man beside her.
Zheng Pianqing was suddenly curious: "Second sister, have you ever been in love?"
Zheng Yuemi smiled: "Of course."
Zheng Pianqing: "What should a normal relationship be like?"
Zheng Yuemi: "Let's divide it up. Some people like passionate things, and some people like slow and steady water. Just enjoy it."
Zheng Pianqing: "Are you still talking about it now?"
Zheng Yuemi shook her head: "Let's not talk anymore. We've talked enough. It's not interesting to me anymore. Men are not as challenging and fresh as me to complete a new project, and I don't want to waste time on them."
Zheng Pian held her chin up and thought for a long time, "This seems to be the case for me now."
Zheng Yuemi: "Isn't that great? Loving yourself is a lifelong career."
She smiled and hugged Zheng Pianqing, "Have you decided where to study for your master's degree?"
——
After breaking up with Qin Lie, Zheng Pianying devoted herself wholeheartedly to her studies, successfully promoted to the master's department of the school and continued her studies.
During this period, she also picked up the habit of painting and rebuilt a studio in her residence in Zurich.
It's been more than three months since the master's degree started, and it's Christmas vacation again.
During the Christmas holiday this year, Zheng Pianqian met Zheng Jiusi, who was three years old.
her daughter.
It was Zheng Linxu who brought her here, and there was a little girl with her. Zheng Pianqian had heard Zheng Linxu mention her before.
Jiang Mingzhu.
She is Chengguang's sister whom he met when he was in the orphanage. The two of them are like brothers.
Zheng Linxu didn't tell Zheng Pianqing exactly how he met her, but Zheng Linxu had kept her with him for more than a year. She should have often played with Sansan. The two of them got along like a pair of sisters. .
Since Sansan was taken away by Zheng Linxu after she was born, this is the second time Zheng Pianqian has seen her in person.
Although Zheng Linsu had sent her many photos of her children, the photos looked completely different from the ones in person.
Sansan is very lively, with a pair of ponytails, a full forehead, and a pair of naughty and smart eyes. She wears a powder blue suspender skirt, a hairpin of the same color on her head, and a small white bag on her body.
After Zheng Pianqian saw Sansan, she stood there and couldn't say a word for a long time——
It was hard for her to describe the feeling.
This is a life that is connected to her. She was once in her belly, but now she has grown very tall, can talk a lot, can jump around, and has a very lively personality.
But this process has nothing to do with her.
"Dad, who is she?" Sansan blinked curiously when she saw Zheng Pianqing who had been staring at her.
Sansan's voice is very wavy. Although she has lived in New York for a long time, she speaks Mandarin very well without any accent.
At first glance, it seems that he has been carefully taught.
Zheng Linxu glanced at Zheng Pianqing and said to Sansan, "She is your mother."
Sansan seemed to understand. She turned to look at Jiang Mingzhu: "Isn't Zhuzhu the mother?"
Zheng Lin said: "...Zhuzhu is my sister, and this is my mother."
Sansan is young and doesn't have much idea about the role of mother. Jiang Mingzhu has lived with her for more than a year, so she subconsciously thinks that she is her mother.
After listening to Zheng Linxu's explanation, Sansan nodded, and then asked him: "Is mommy daddy's wife?"
Zheng Linxu: "..."
Zheng Pianqing: "..."
The brother and sister had a tacit understanding and were speechless when asked.
It's not that he doesn't want to explain, it's just that he can't explain this matter to a three-year-old child. Zheng Linxu thought for a moment and then changed the subject and reminded Sansan: "Go and hug mom."
"Okay~" Sansan didn't recognize her at all. Although she had just been told that Zheng Pianqing opposite her was her mother, she still smiled and rushed forward to hug her thigh. She raised her head and looked at her eagerly: "Mom ,you are so beutiful."
Zheng Pianqing felt the two small hands holding her thighs, and then listened to her soft voice, her eyes suddenly became wet.
She knelt down and hugged Sansan into her arms, placing her palms against her back.
Zheng Pianqian couldn't say a word, but her actions proved everything.
——
At night, Sansan and Jiang Mingzhu went to bed early.
Although Sansan doesn't recognize life and can chat endlessly with Zheng Pianqian, the habits of life cannot be changed.
When something happens, Sansan will still find Zheng Linxu and Jiang Mingzhu habitually.
For example, when she first felt sleepy, her first reaction was to take Jiang Mingzhu to rest.
Zheng Pianqian felt a little complicated when she recalled this incident, but at the same time she knew very well that she had not taken care of the child for a day, so this situation was completely normal.
When Zheng Pianqing was sitting in the living room in a daze, Zheng Lin came over.
He sat down next to her and saw through her thoughts at a glance: "Don't think nonsense, Sansan likes you very much."
