"Let me tell you, when I was in elementary school, all my grades were A," Ayaka Urano tried to sound naughty and proud, but the way she said it made her feel awkward, "But one day I came back After I got home, I found out that they had lost my cat. They had not consulted me at all. The reason was that I would definitely be able to go to the best junior high school in Kumamoto. The junior high school must work harder and stop wasting time on cats. .”
"I had a big fight with them and went out to look for him along the street for a long time. He was the only friend who was willing to accompany me without getting impatient when I felt tired. But I couldn't find him that day. I haven't seen it since that day..."
From the corner of Chi Feichi's sight, he caught a glimpse of Urano Ayaka with a smile on her face.
"They chased me out. Although they angrily scolded me for being disobedient, they still cared about me, right?" Ayaka Urano had a smile on her face, but her eyes were very empty. "I decided not to forgive them so easily. Then go home and quarrel. I asked them to accompany me to find my cat. After a stalemate for two days, they insisted that they had done nothing wrong and they would not accompany me to find the cat. That’s okay, I can find it myself.”
"I have been looking for it for a long time. One day when I came home from school, my stepfather's colleague came to visit me and said that I was so smart that I would be very good even if I went to the best junior high school in Kumamoto. I suddenly felt very scared because I Although my stepfather is modest, I saw the light in his eyes that he would really ask me like this."
"I thought a lot that night, and I couldn't hold on any longer. I wanted to make a mistake, just a little bit, to let them know that it was hard for me to maintain the good child in their minds. I thought about the child who was not as good as me in anything, her father and Her mother would happily praise her and congratulate her after school activities. I was the only one with nothing, and I was still afraid. Sooner or later, I would let them down because I was unable to meet their requirements. On that day, will I be abandoned by them like a cat... No," Ayaka Urano said in a relaxed tone, "How is it possible? They love me. Thinking about it, I feel that I must give it a try no matter what. , to prove that they loved me, so I acted badly on purpose.”
Chi Feichi took out his right hand and lit a cigarette, becoming a patient listener.
"I didn't get into the junior high school they expected me to go to, and they never gave me a good look," Urano Ayaka was still smiling. "In the first week of junior high school, I took physical education class and changed clothes in the locker room. At that time, I realized that girls should wear vests. I was not prepared, and my mother seemed to have forgotten. Fortunately, the mother of a classmate prepared a spare one for her. She was very nice and lent it to me."
The one time that really broke her was when she was having her first menstrual period, and she was in a hurry and relied on her classmates for help. Her mother didn't prepare anything for her. When she thought about herself that day, she felt like a big, embarrassed fool.
When she went home at night, she specifically mentioned it to her mother. Her mother then told her what to do, but she did not notice the panic and fear in her heart, nor did she comfort her.
Obviously, the mothers of many classmates would explain to them in a gentle voice, smiling and comforting their uneasiness.
She didn't know whether she felt resentment or unwillingness. Later, her mother and stepfather told her that she couldn't associate with children who were holding back, so she got involved in a group of delinquents.
She told her stepfather not to enter her room or peek at her things. The man didn't agree and kept saying that for her sake, she used the money her biological father gave her to rent a secret base outside.
The more angry the two people jumped, the happier she became, as if they were retaliating for the neglect they had received, and also seemed to prove: Look, they care about me.
Urano Ayaka rubbed her face that was stiff with laughter, and stopped smiling, and her voice was very soft, "How could it be like this..."
After she had a little life in her mother's belly, she felt a change. The two people suddenly became indifferent, no longer angry, and no longer asked questions. When she returned home, she felt like a piece of air floating into the house. Occasionally, she listened to the The two of them said something to her sullenly.
But even if she had noticed it, she had never thought that her mother would completely ignore her.
By now, she was really lost.
"I don't know what kind of mood this is, and I can't explain it clearly..." Ayaka Urano turned to look at the man smoking silently beside her, and stretched her hand towards the cigarette box placed next to the man.
"Snapped!"
Chi Feichi slapped Urano Ayaka's hand open.
"it hurts!"
Ayaka Urano retracted her hand and looked at the red back of her hand, almost bursting into tears.
Chi Feichi put the cigarette case into his pocket with his right hand, bit the cigarette butt, and whispered calmly, "If you don't know clearly, you should read more."
Does he understand what it feels like?
I probably understand.
When his parents died in the previous life, and in this life's original consciousness memory, when his parents suddenly left and became cold and indifferent, he only remembered them twice.
After he traveled through time, he had no dreams, but sometimes when he looked back at the memories of his original consciousness, it seemed that there was still a little boy's voice that kept echoing:
'look at me……'
'Look at me, please...'
'Please, look at me...'
He didn't know whether Urano Ayaka had cried or not, but he hadn't.
In the previous life, when he realized that he had lost his parents forever, he did not cry. When the original consciousness was completely desperate, he never cried again.
It felt like a part of my heart had evaporated and become empty, along with the ability to cry.
They are all trying to fill that void and keep themselves busy so they don't have time to feel.
Then get used to it completely.
Even if the misunderstanding with Ike Shinnosuke and Ikekana is resolved, he will feel close to those two people and care about those two people, but he is just not used to contacting those two people to talk about something.
"Can't you comfort me?" Urano Ayaka lowered her head and rubbed the back of her hand, and her mood suddenly improved a lot. "By the way, Lark, the email you sent me before said that Takayama Otome is resentful and is easily betrayed. Aroused ambition... But I think she is very nice. She did not tattoo me for money. She kept explaining the pros and cons to me. Moreover, she seemed to hate her origin and did not want to be associated with a violent group at all. The plan can Continue?"
"Don't just look at people by their superficial appearance," Chi Feichi stared at the road ahead, his hoarse voice without any emotion, "What do you think women are among those violent groups?"
"What?" Urano Ayaka was confused.
Chi Feichi said without any scruples, "Tools, playthings."
The status of women in Japan is very low. Those Yakuza elements still adhere to the ideas of the Edo period and are right-wing extremists. Women there have even less status and can only be treated as vassals of men.
Women in Yakuza leaders appear in movies and TV dramas, and they look very majestic, but in fact, women in violent groups are just tools at the mercy of others. There are very few women who are truly in power. No matter how capable they are, many people within I won't take it lightly.
Just say that Eguchi Noriko, who was assassinated by him before, had her own business, led a group of women to commit evil, and helped save a large amount of money that even the organization was tempted by. However, Eguchi Noriko was just attached to a big boss, not only To help make money, it is common to serve tea and water to a group of people. People can take back the money they save if they want, without any autonomy.
After Noriko Eguchi died, the purpose of the other party's investigation was still to trace the whereabouts of the money and determine whether other gangs wanted to attack them. No one cared about Noriko Eguchi's life or death.
It would be even worse if she became the wife of a certain leader.
Many women must become housewives after marrying a gangster. The house must be tidied and their men must take good care of them. When a group of gangsters gather at home, they must prepare food and drink, lay the dishes, and clean up. Sometimes She also had to help the man's younger brother wash clothes and take care of the daily life of more than ten people. In order not to cause trouble for her husband, she stayed at home except when going out to buy groceries. She didn't even have the space for Eguchi Noriko to move around.
Dealing with the police is also a matter for these women. When something happens to one of their husband's younger brothers, they are the ones who approach the police to inquire about the situation. They are also the ones who are responsible for receiving the police when they come to the home to investigate. After dealing with the situation, they have to call their husband to report the situation.
Those women are not paid, but they are willing to work hard just to make their husbands look good. In those violent groups, the idea of "a wife honoring her husband" is very serious.
If the husband is imprisoned or dies, the woman will have to work on his behalf, but when a new candidate is found, she will lose everything, including the protection provided by her previous husband.
Not to mention some of them nasty.
Among the female members of violent groups, in addition to the wives and daughters of the members, there are also some women in the customs industry who are attached to the violent groups. They are basically tools for men to vent their anger.
Urano Ayaka's doubts just now are not fake. In other words, this girl has never thought about what her future will be like. She just thinks it's cool and wants to plunge into the evil forces in order to anger her mother and stepfather. In the big pit, from being a delinquent to a bosozoku, it is probably not far from joining a violent group.
As the illegitimate daughter of the third generation of the Kyokudōkai, Otome Takayama's status was not much higher than that of the lower class. She followed her mother to wash, cook and serve others since she was a child. Even when the third generation, who was nearly fifty years old, recognized her identity, she failed to become a princess. , instead became a tool for the Sandaime to win over people. That year, the Sandaime had people give her tattoos all over her back and arms. In addition to her status among women being much higher, it also only made her more likely to be targeted by hostile forces. , brought her no benefit at all.
Takayama Otome was very smart. She learned the art of tattooing and worked at it for ten years. After the death of the third generation, Takayama Otome struggled for more than ten years to become a woman in her forties. Then she used the favors accumulated over the years to escape the extreme. Donghui.
Of course, there is a necessary price to pay, and half of the little finger is left.
The intelligence of the investigation cannot be exhaustive, but there are many details that can reveal problems.
Takayama Otome used years of accumulation to break away from the Kyokudōkai. Why didn't she completely cut off her ties with the violent group?
Can it be cut continuously? No, Otome Takayama didn't face much difficulty when she quit. Other groups didn't take her seriously either. They wouldn't bother her at all. They would probably say hello pretending to be polite when they saw her.
The reason for not leaving is because I am addicted to the relationships and status brought by the accumulation of favors. It is because I have lived in that environment since I was a child and my thoughts have been assimilated.
Even though her status is still not that high, at least everyone she meets is polite to her, right?
Even though Takayama Otome understands that those violent groups have always been polite and courteous to people who do not belong to their group, and the courtesy towards her comes from this, she still feels satisfied.
Takayama Otome outwardly expresses her distaste for the life of a violent group, but in fact she hates her experiences of low status and the past of being looked at strangely by ordinary people. At the same time, she cannot completely break away. If she does not suppress it for a long time, her character will easily become paranoid.
Power and status are the destiny of Takayama Otome. Due to the influence she received since childhood, this power and status are only limited to violent groups.
Those who have figured out the destiny gate are very suitable to take advantage of it.
