Chi Feichi thought for a while, "She once had a relative who was dependent on her die. Every time she cried, it was because of that relative. But I think although there is this reason, it is not the main reason. The main reason is that she lost her only one." After relying on and spiritual sustenance, I left the familiar environment again, only to find that the new environment was incompatible with me, and I even felt guilty..."
He has also seriously considered this. When he learned that Miyano Akemi was dead, Haibara Ai did not despair. She thought about resisting. She wanted an explanation. She was escaping from the organization. She never thought about dying. Then At that time, Hui Yuan Ai was still strong.
Therefore, the main reason is not Miyano Akemi.
The reason why every time she cries is about Miyano Akemi, probably because Haibara Ai is thinking - if her sister had not died, no matter what she was like, at least there would be someone who could love her. When she was tired, there was still someone she could talk to, someone who could understand her, but that person was gone, forever...
In fact, it is better to cry for a reason than to be depressed for no reason.
"Feeling of guilt?" Fukuyama Shiaki wondered, "Has she or her family ever made any mistakes? Mistakes that hurt others?"
"Dr. Fushan." Chi Feichi's tone was colder.
"Okay, okay, I won't ask further," Fukuyama Zhiming laughed, "I'm used to it, so should I consider that the cause of the disease is actually the feeling of guilt? She feels that she is a sinner, while others are innocent Flawless, others cannot accept someone like her."
"Well, then she had the idea that there was no place for her in the world, and because of some problems in the group she was originally in, she worried that the people around her would be hurt, so she had to deliberately stay away from others, and she longed to be accepted." Chi Feichi said.
Fukuyama Zhiming was helpless, "The situation you mentioned is a bit complicated. I don't quite understand it. Why does she feel that people around her will be hurt? There is also a sense of self-guilt. She used to..."
"Dr. Fushan." Chi Feichi reminded again.
Fukuyama Zhiming didn't smile this time and sighed, "You can't tell clearly. I can't tell you the exact answer..."
"I tried them all," Chi Feichi said.
Shiaki Fukuyama: "..."
Meow meow meow?
What does it mean?
Chi Feichi talked about his solution.
First of all, it was the death of Miyano Akemi. He enlightened Haibara Ai to try to accept memories and treat them as a part of life.
Then there was the feeling of guilt. He asked Haiyuan Ai to take a look. He was not much better. There were many people in this world who were not pure and innocent.
Later, the issue of shelter can be involved.
He wanted to secretly instill an idea into Haiyuan Ai: The world is so big, and Conan is not the only group of people. There are always people who can accept things that they don't accept. Whether they go to find true kindred spirits or stay here to seek common ground while reserving differences, it doesn't matter. As for having no place to stay.
If that doesn't work, let's make black ones. Delivery delivery is super cool!
And there is also the matter of 'Forest Princess'. Haibara Ai somewhat feels that it can be a destination.
Finally, there is the issue of organization.
Hui Yuan Ai was worried about affecting the people around her.
This cannot be solved for the time being because he has not been able to solve the organization yet.
What's more, it's not necessarily a good thing for him to go alone to solve the organization. He should let Hui Yuan Ai participate and fight monsters together, so that Hui Yuan Ai can be braver and stronger in the future.
However, getting Hui Yuan Ai to participate in this was the most difficult thing in the end, and it required Hui Yuan Ai to have the courage to face it.
When Chi Feichi spoke, he slightly adjusted his words.
Describing the organization as a group of bad students...
"You are a male, different from her. You want her to understand what it means to be brave and brave from other girls. That's okay." Fukuyama Shiaki smiled, and soon his tone became serious again, "But before you I mean, let her contact those people alone, not only because I want her to try to be braver, but because you also discovered the problem, right?"
"Well, I got involved too much," Chi Feichi said.
"Yeah, you got involved too much. You brought her to meet other people to prove that she can be recognized. But when her emotions explode, she may have self-doubt again and feel that it is you who is recognized by people. It's not her. Without you, she is still the same as before, and still has no place to stay." Fukuyama Zhiming paused, "When many people seek help from a psychiatrist or get help, they will regard the doctor as someone who can save them. I want to hold on to the rope tightly, and one thing that psychiatrists must abide by is that they are not allowed to establish any relationship other than consultation with the seekers. This is not unkind, but because patients at this time are too easy to have a good impression of the doctor. If The doctor has some bad intentions and can completely control the patient. Judging from your words and actions, you have no male-female feelings for her, so what about her?"
Chi Feichi thought about it carefully and said, "No, sure, there is dependence, but he probably regards me as a brother or something."
"Okay," Fukuyama Zhiming temporarily believed in Chi Feichi's judgment. Although Chi Feichi had never been in love, he didn't think Chi Feichi could make an accurate judgment, but that could be solved slowly. Now there is a more serious problem, "still There is a problem. Are you a little too hasty when you let her face it alone? Since you were the one who brought her into contact at the beginning, there must be a relaxation stage and take your time. You have to know that if she musters up the courage, It is certainly a good thing to take that step and get the results you and she want, but if she does not get recognition or the expected results, the blow to her will be devastating, and she will probably deny everything before. The situation will also get worse. Alas, it’s a 50-50 chance, you shouldn’t bet on it..."
"What if I didn't gamble?" Chi Feichi asked.
"Did you arrange someone?" Fukuyama Zhiming was confused and reminded, "If she finds out, it will be very bad. She will feel that the past good situations are all deception and illusion, and she will also start to deny everything..."
"I didn't make any arrangements," Chi Feichi turned to look at the sea, "I just believe that that group of people can give her and me the results we want, for sure."
"Are you so confident?" Fukuyama Zhiming was a little surprised. It was really not easy to hear the word 'believe' from Chi Feichi.
"Well," Chi Fei responded late, and then talked about another topic, "Dr. Fushan, in addition to not being allowed to establish a relationship other than consultation with the seeker, there are two other points. He is not allowed to discriminate against the seeker for any reason, and he must abide by confidentiality. in principle."
Shiaki Fukuyama even told Dr. Agasa and the others about his situation before... Come on, explain it to him!
Shiaki Fukuyama: "..."
What can he do?
Chi Feichi had been silently fighting him, resisting treatment, and even had the idea of studying psychology. He simply didn't have to be too perseverant.
With this perseverance, he believed that Chi Feichi's depression was definitely cured.
He was just depressed.
In the last inspection, although Chi Feichi had some minor problems, there were generally no major problems.
He didn't believe that the inspection report was true. Not only did it not comply with the proper psychological change process, but the time perception barrier still existed.
There is definitely something wrong with this kid!
It's just that Chi Fei Chi grew up too fast and was able to hide from the machines and various inspections. He couldn't lock Chi Fei Chi in, and because of some potential dangers of Chi Fei Chi himself, he felt it was necessary to remind Chi Fei Chi. People who will come into contact later.
Once it is discovered that the person seeking help endangers the safety of himself and others, he must take necessary measures or consult with other psychiatrists to prevent accidents. To this end, he can disclose a little bit about his condition, and he also limits the exposure of confidential information to a minimum. He just mentioned it casually about the situation at Chi Feichi's family and Chi Feichi's previous investigation at school.
Logically speaking, if he felt that he was not good enough, he should discuss with Chi Feichi and transfer him to another doctor. However, Chi Feichi's examination report was there, and other doctors could not keep Chi Feichi in hospital for observation.
Moreover, no one wanted to take over the thorn in Chi Feichi's side.
He was also worried.
Qingshan Fourth Hospital is already strong enough, and he is also a veteran doctor there. He thinks that there is probably nothing anyone else can do about the patients who are so difficult to deal with.
He was also a little worried that the inexperienced doctor might be led astray by Chi Feichi.
He came to the United States for exchange and study. Firstly, because of the incident involving Kenzo Masayama, he understood that the Makike Group would not be relieved if he did not leave for a while and said that he would keep it secret until the end. Secondly, because he also wanted to study abroad. It's a good thing if someone pays for your studies.
There is another reason. He wants to come to the United States to study and exchange, and see if he can solve the thorny problem of Chi Feichi.
It's a pity that he couldn't say these words directly, otherwise Chi Feichi would definitely say, 'So Dr. Fukuyama, you think I'm dangerous? ', the trust that was finally built was gone again.
Now that Chi Feichi can talk to him about his original feelings and say so much, he finds it very difficult.
Don't be in a hurry, don't be in a hurry, don't make the same mistakes again...
Shiaki Fukuyama reminded himself to be patient and joked, "Then you won't report me, right?"
"No need." Chi Feichi paused when he saw the seagulls flying in the sky.
Seagulls came down with their chirps and drank from a small basin on the deck.
"Doctor, the results are out."
"Oh?" Fukuyama Zhiming asked quickly, "How is the situation?"
"good news."
…
On the beach, Haiyuan Ai was lying on a beach chair and was startled by a group of people who suddenly appeared from the side.
"Haiyuan, Sister Xiaolan said you are not feeling well, so are you unhappy?" Ayumi asked.
"No, Haiyuan has always been like this. He won't tell us if he feels uncomfortable," Yuantai said speechlessly, "If you feel uncomfortable, you must tell us, otherwise it will be very worrying, okay?"
Hui Yuan Ai was stunned.
Will be worried...
"Maybe it's because Brother Feichi didn't come, so he's unhappy?" Guangyan guessed.
"That guy is like that, he likes to be busy," Conan said with half-moon eyes, "It's better if we can't play."
"Because I really don't understand what's wrong with you," Suzuki Sonoko crossed her arms and said, "We have been discussing for a long time and there is no result, so I just come to ask you directly. The little girl should be more active. Why don't you learn from Brother Fei Chi? …”
Hui Yuan Ai was silent.
The group of people were whispering just now, not because they were disliked because of her poor performance, but... they were worried about her?
"It's okay if you don't want to say it," Mao Lilan smiled and handed an ice cream to Haibara Ai, "I don't think I can leave you here alone to be depressed. How about sitting with you for a while?"
"Let's sit down for a while," Ayumi turned to look at Genta, Mitsuhiko and Conan, "We're tired from playing anyway."
Haiyuan Ai took the ice cream from Mao Lilan, looked down, then looked up at Mao Lilan, "Thank you...Sister Xiaolan."
"You're welcome." Mao Lilan replied with a smile.
…
"Maybe it's because of me that their relationship is much better, but she must understand that she has long been regarded as a companion by those people..."
On the yacht deck, Chi Feichi was still sitting on the beach chair, talking on the phone to Fukuyama Zhiming.
Therefore, even if there are some conflicts of ideas, he still feels that it is really good to have such a group of people in the world.
