The spade was picked up by Shi Yuan and Yang Qiyan together. She had been coming to Shi Yuan's house since she was a puppy. They had lived together for seven years and were no different from relatives.
But that night, Shi Yuan lost Yang Qiyan and Spai Tao at the same time, and the family's only happiness was completely shattered.
The police came to handle the case, and Shi Yuan told the truth. Shi Junmin became a fugitive and was caught not long after.
Shi Yuan didn't have any relatives around him, so he had to live with his grandparents, so he transferred from No. 2 Middle School to No. 6 Middle School.
This memory once haunted Shi Yuan like a nightmare, leaving her unable to sleep peacefully for a long time.
So Shi Yuan had been forgetting consciously, and she never mentioned it to others. She originally thought she didn't remember, but today's events seemed to bring her back to that day.
Shi Yuan also just realized that she still clearly remembered all the details of that day.
Influenced by her original family, Shi Yuan never had expectations for relationships or had any illusions about family.
But she likes dogs very much, because dogs are loyal, and she cherishes this extreme sincerity.
However, because of her guilt towards Spade, she never thought about getting another dog. She was afraid that Spade would think she had forgotten Spade.
The spade is a black dog, so the bleeding is not that obvious, but the diamond's hair is light yellow, and it is particularly obvious when it is stained with blood.
Shi Yuan kept seeing Fang Pian covered in blood in her mind. She ran towards Fang Pian frantically, but Fang Pian seemed to be getting further and further away from her.
There was darkness ahead. Shi Yuan stood there and could only watch Spades and Diamonds walking forward, as if they would disappear in the next second.
Shi Yuan almost collapsed, crying and shouting: "Spade! Diamond! Don't leave!"
"Shi Yuan?" Fang Yuechuan heard Shi Yuan mutter something and kept crying, frowned and tried to wake her up, "Shi Yuan?"
Shi Yuan's tears kept flowing and she kept shouting diamonds and spades.
Fang Yuechuan heard clearly, but he didn't know who Spai Tao was. Shi Yuan never said it.
He patted Shi Yuan gently and called: "Shi Yuan, wake up."
Shi Yuan woke up when she heard the sound in a daze. She was obviously sleeping, but her brain felt very tired, and her face became wet with tears.
Fang Yuechuan turned on the bedside lamp, took out a piece of paper to wipe her tears with the gentle warm light, and asked, "Are you having a nightmare?"
Shi Yuan looked at Fang Yuechuan blankly for a long time, then seemed to have regained consciousness, and asked in a very soft voice: "Where is Fang Pian?"
Fang Yuechuan felt particularly uncomfortable and coaxed in a gentle voice: "Fang Pian is fine. He is being taken care of by the doctor in the hospital."
Shi Yuan suddenly said: "Fang Yuechuan, even those who are nice to me will not end well. Please stay away from me. I beg you."
She said this without any emotion, as if she were extremely calm and sober.
Fang Yuechuan panicked for a moment. His eyes were slightly red, but he smiled and said in a brisk tone: "How could it be possible? Don't think about it. The bad guy has been caught. This kind of thing will never happen again in the future. I promise."
Shi Yuan didn't reply to his words. He looked at the ceiling and said to himself, "Spade died just to protect me. I don't deserve it at all."
Fang Yuechuan took a deep breath calmly, calmed down and asked, "Who is Spades?"
Shi Yuan: "Spade is my first and only dog."
Fang Yuechuan was startled: "..."
Shi Yuan didn't seem to expect Fang Yuechuan's response. She just held it in for a long time and wanted to find someone to talk to about the things that were weighing on her heart.
"It was rumored in school that my dad accidentally killed my mom. In fact, it wasn't just my mom, he also killed Spades," Shi Yuan said to herself, her eyes slowly filling up with tears, "Spade was to protect me. The ones that just died are the same as today’s diamonds.”
Fang Yuechuan finally understood why Shi Yuan was so excited. It turned out that this was her hidden life.
Shi Yuan choked up and said, "It's all because of me. I'm the one who caused them trouble. I'm probably a disaster star. My grandparents had to work hard for me when I was old. They suffered from illness and died one after another in their later years. I didn't enjoy any blessings at all." "
Shi Yuan said, a big tear slipped from the corner of his eye.
She almost grew up in hardship and had no one behind her. She always felt that she should be strong, so she rarely showed her weakness in front of others.
Many people who have been with Shi Yuan say that she is difficult to get along with, that she is very strong, sometimes overly rational, and seems cold, but she can't help it.
No one would save her from the abyss because she told her sufferings. She could only climb up step by step. There was no room for mistakes on this path. For this reason, she could even give up Fang Yuechuan.
Fang Yuechuan raised his hand to wipe the tears from his eyes, held Shi Yuan in his arms, and said over and over again: "No, none of this has anything to do with you. You are just a victim. There is no need to blame yourself for other people's mistakes."
Since the death of Shi Yuan's family, everyone has been curious to find out the root cause, but no one has ever told her that she was also a victim.
As time passed, even Shi Yuan began to reflect on why she hid in the bedroom that day and why she let Spades block her.
If she hadn't done something bad, none of these disasters would have happened.
These self-blame and guilt snowballed like snowballs, weighing heavily on Shi Yuan's shoulders.
She had been carrying it for so long, but now she collapsed instantly because of Fang Yuechuan's words.
Shi Yuan leaned on Fang Yuechuan's shoulder and asked in a trembling voice: "I clearly betrayed you, why are you still so nice to me? Why don't you hate me!"
"Because I love you," Fang Yuechuan said, "Do you know why you are in so much pain? Because you are not bad at all. Only people with a high moral bottom line will find problems in themselves."
Shi Yuan shook his head: "You don't need to comfort me. Almost all the relatives around me who were good to me have completely left in a bad way. When we broke up, maybe God was saving you. What you should do now is bring Fang Fang with you." The film and I have completely dissociated ourselves."
"I don't want it," Fang Yuechuan hugged Shi Yuan tightly and said stubbornly with an imperceptible nasal sound in his voice, "As long as I'm not dead, don't even think about leaving me."
The dark night always makes it easy for people to lose control of their emotions. Shi Yuan may have shed more tears tonight than she has shed in all her adult life combined.
She didn't know how long she cried, but she fell asleep from exhaustion in the end.
Fang Yuechuan's clothes were all wet from Shi Yuan's crying. When he noticed that Shi Yuan was asleep, he got out of bed quietly, changed his clothes, and wiped Shi Yuan's face with a towel.
Shi Yuan fell into a deep sleep, but her eyes and nose were red and swollen, like a delicate porcelain doll about to be broken.
Fang Yuechuan pushed the broken hair on Shi Yuan's forehead behind his ears and stared at Shi Yuan for a long time.
He should have guessed a long time ago that Shi Yuan's character could not have suffered. Her strength and indifference were always just a disguise for her to protect herself.
Shi Yuan is actually a very kind person, but her gentleness never appears on the surface, just like she made Shi Xiyue famous and let Bai Shiyun marry Xun Feng, but she never took the opportunity to seek repayment.
Fang Yuechuan leaned over and kissed Shi Yuan's forehead, murmuring softly: "I told you, I never believe in evil. I will definitely get what I want. No one can make me let go."
