On the way back, Nanzhi and Zhang Yingying slowed down a lot. They treated some women's diseases on the way, and even met someone who was giving birth, and they even had to help deliver the baby.
She was very happy along the way. With a smile on Zhang Yingying's face, she said: "I think what I do is very meaningful. No one cares about women in this world, but as women, as long as we can do something for women , that’s good.”
The sick woman took their medicine and after their treatment, the pain was relieved and she felt better, which was the greatest relief.
But he was not a sensible person every time he met. The two of them were also chased everywhere.
After getting rid of the man, Zhang Yingying laughed loudly and said to Nanzhi: "It's because of the hard life that it's like this."
Zhang Yingying always looks at unreasonable people from a very high level and doesn't care at all.
Nanzhi gave Zhang Yingying a thumbs up, "They say scholars are saints, and people like you, sister, are also saints."
Zhang Yingying just said: "I am not a saint, I just realize my ambitions and ideals through them."
The two of them walked around like this, and when they arrived at a place, they went to a free clinic to check the woman's health. They walked for a year without returning home.
The two girls were tanned, and they also encountered people with malicious intentions on the road, and were beaten by Nanzhi.
The two of them never came home, so the Shen family and the Zhang family sent people to look for them. Why did they never go home?
Especially Zhang Yingying, as she gets older, it's time to get married, otherwise she will become a big girl.
Zhang Yingying's mother almost fainted when she looked at her tomboy-like daughter. She originally thought that she would go back to suffer some hardships, but she ended up enjoying it so much that she didn't even go home.
This time, no matter what, I want to get married.
But Zhang Yingying will never get married. She has just found something she can fight for, something that can calm her restless heart.
Zhang Yingying's mother was so anxious that she cried. She had never seen such a arrogant child, and it was her own child. It was so disappointing.
Zhang Yingying's mother came to Nanzhi and asked Nanzhi to help persuade Zhang Yingying.
Nanzhi:……
How can I persuade you!
Sister Zhang is very happy when she treats people. There are stars and lights in her eyes, shining brightly.
Nanzhi remained silent. Zhang Yingying's mother realized something and asked Nanzhi: "Will your family find a good husband for you?"
Nanzhi:……
no!
Zhang Yingying's mother suddenly realized that maybe this fragrant pearl had brought bad luck to her daughter, so she cut off the contact between Nanzhi and Zhang Yingying.
This made Zhang Yingying very angry. This had nothing to do with the fragrant beads. Even without the fragrant beads, her life would still be like this.
Even if she gets married, she probably won't be happy.
It’s not an estimate, it will definitely not make you happy.
There was a fire in her heart, a fire of pain, burning her all the time, making her desperate and painful.
But the Zhang family would not let Zhang Yingying act like this, so they locked up Zhang Yingying and forced her to get married.
But Zhang Yingying did not give in and went on a hunger strike without eating, threatening to starve herself to death.
Zhang Yingying's father denounced Zhang Yingying as an unfilial person, and Zhang Yingying's mother begged Zhang Yingying to take care of her family members.
The reputation of the Zhang family, your father's official reputation, your grandfather's reputation as a great scholar, and the entire female family members of the Zhang family, as well as the women of the Zhang family, are not able to talk about marriage because of you.
You live in this world not only for yourself. You have parents and a family. You can't be so selfish, and you can't do whatever you want without caring about others.
Zhang Yingying looked at the roof and just said: "I just want to do what I want to do. I live in this world and can't even do what I want to do. So what's the point of living?"
"Am I mine or someone else's? Living is an object."
"Mom, I'm just different from others. Could it be that this world can't tolerate such a little bit of difference in me, so it's so anxious to erase me and make me the same as everyone else?"
Mother hates that iron is not strong enough, "There is nothing wrong with being the same, but if you are different, you have to pay a big price."
Zhang Yingying: "What if I am willing to pay this price?"
Mother: "We can't, we can't pay this price, you are not alone."
It didn't make sense, so Zhang Yingying gave up.
At night, there was a knocking sound on the window, and the sound was very rhythmic, "Sister Zhang, it's me."
Nanzhi climbed over the wall and came in to see Zhang Yingying.
Zhang Yingying didn't eat and felt weak. She got down from the bed, opened the window, and saw Nanzhi smiling, "Why are you here."
Nanzhi took out the warm bun from her arms and handed it to Zhang Yingying, "Sister, eat it, don't go hungry."
How uncomfortable it is to be hungry!
Nanzhi did so much just to fill her stomach, but Sister Zhang was still hungry.
Nanzhi advised: "Sister can't starve to death. After death, there will be nothing. Whatever sister wants to do, there will be nothing she can do after death."
Zhang Yingying hummed and ate a few buns before she felt a little stronger. She said to Nanzhi in despair, "I can't do it. They won't compromise."
The family pressured her with various reasons and righteousness to make her compromise.
She doesn't want to compromise, and her family won't compromise either.
Zhang Yingying said somewhat pessimistically: "I grew up under the protection of my family and enjoyed family life. But when it comes time to repay the family, I have to do what I want to do and go against the family."
"Perhaps the family will let me die with honor for the sake of reputation."
There are many honorable deaths, illness deaths, and silent illness deaths.
When Nanzhi heard what Zhang Yingying said, she didn't know what to do. She thought about it and said, "Then my sister will get married."
Zhang Yingying looked at Nanzhi and said with some sadness: "Now that we are married, I will no longer be Zhang Yingying. I will be so-and-so's wife, and then become so-and-so's mother, so-and-so's wife, and I will not be allowed to treat others."
"Xiangzhu, we can no longer do the things we want to do together. We will drift apart and have no books."
Nanzhi was silent, scratched her head, and then said, "Sister, what should I do? I can't bear to leave my sister."
Zhang Yingying shook her head, "I have no choice. Maybe I didn't stay with my grandfather. I'm like any other woman. When it's time to get married, I get married and be a good wife and mother, supporting my husband and raising my children."
Even Zhang Yingying felt that she was too rebellious and too arrogant. As her mother said, she was a selfish person.
Zhang Yingying gritted her teeth and her eyes were red, "But I just can't give in. I'm very unwilling."
Nanzhi wiped Zhang Yingying's tears, "Sister, don't cry, there will be a way, there will be a way."
