"Now I understand a little bit how you felt at that time. How lonely and painful it was to be alone with no one on my side in the world. So here, you will laugh happily and do what you want. Do it, I know in my heart that I really should bless you silently."
It's not that Shi Yan doesn't understand, but he can't let go.
"I can't let go. Without you, I am nothing. I'm sorry for driving you here. I'm sorry, I will wait for you."
When Shi Yan said this, he didn't want Ying Kexin to open the door to the room or respond.
After waiting for a while, he stood up and walked slowly downstairs.
Ying Kexin could hear the sound of him leaving, so she just turned around and leaned against the door.
the next day.
The sun shone in through the window, and when I woke up, I found that it was already past nine o'clock.
"Knock knock!"
Several knocks on the door.
"it's me."
The voice of the landlord.
Ying Kexin opened the door with confidence.
The landlord had a dinner plate in his hand and a smile on his lips.
"You overslept today, don't go hungry. This is breakfast, it's still hot, so eat it early."
"Thanks."
Ying Kexin took it politely.
"Is that man yesterday your boyfriend? Did you have a fight?"
"no."
"He wanted to spend the night outside yesterday, but it was too cold, so I asked him to go inside out of his own business, and went out early in the morning."
"Where to go?"
"Well, I didn't ask. It's not good. You should have a good rest and don't be too tired."
"Thanks."
Seeing the landlord turn around and go downstairs, Ying Kexin closed the door.
Wake up, what does it have to do with her where he goes?
Although what I said yesterday was sincere, even if it was sincere, it could not relieve the knot in my heart.
For now, I hope that I don’t think about anything, that nothing will be noticed, and that I just live an ordinary life, being alone, and there is nothing wrong with it.
When she walked out of the room, she found that Shi Yan was indeed not downstairs, so she walked out without thinking too much.
As soon as he walked onto the street, he saw Shi Yan leaning against the wall with a cigarette in his mouth, unlit as usual.
He was a smoker, but now that Ying Kexin was pregnant, he began to think about quitting smoking.
"where you go?"
Ying Kexin didn't answer anything and passed directly by him.
Shi Yan didn't ask any more questions, and just kept following her, about ten meters away.
Where to follow? He was a huge burden behind him, and life here turned into a mess within a day.
I came to the cake shop and wanted to buy desserts.
Shi Yan reached out to pay and took the cake she bought.
He had been quiet like a ghost, but suddenly he did this.
"What are you doing?"
Ying Ke asked displeasedly.
"Finally willing to talk to me."
With that said, he handed the cake to Ying Kexin.
Ying Kexin frowned, took the cake, and said, "I want to be alone, don't disturb me."
Knowing that this would be the attitude, Shi Yan would not be angry and just followed Ying Kexin.
Along the way, she stopped and walked, looking here and there.
Finally, when I wanted to go back, I stopped at a fruit stand.
There was nothing in particular that I wanted to eat, but I still picked something simple.
Suddenly, I felt dizzy, and there was darkness in front of my eyes for a moment, and I fell behind me without warning.
Fortunately, Shi Yan was watching her not far away, paying attention to her strangeness, and quickly supported Ying Kexin who was about to fall.
"Is everything okay?"
Shi Yan asked worriedly.
Ying Kexin pushed him away, supported the table of the stall, and shook her head.
"It doesn't seem to be possible, go back."
Ying Kexin bought some fruit without saying anything. Although she didn't say anything, Shi Yan volunteered to take the fruit in her hand and followed her back to the house.
Because it was a sudden interruption, but he didn't want Ying Kexin to be here alone.
It's like when you're buying fruit and you suddenly fall down, and there's no one around you, what should you do?
Therefore, he decided to live here, even if it was just a small living room with no private space and sleeping on the sofa.
In order to avoid inconvenience to the landlord, he gave the landlord a wad of money, enough money for Ying Kexin to live here for a year.
night.
The landlord prepared the meal and brought it to Ying Kexin's room. She didn't even move. After it cooled down, the landlord took it out.
"Are you boyfriend and girlfriend?"
In the living room, the landlord asked.
"Our relationship is complicated, but I like her and want her to stay by my side for the rest of my life."
"Did you make her unhappy?"
"Um."
Their encounter from the beginning was not a bloody one, and it might have been different if he hadn't been so frivolous.
Or, if his grandfather had asked him to return to his old house that day, it might have been even more different.
Or, when he knew that Ying Kexin was in a situation and wanted to escape, it would be different if he could give her a sense of security.
Everything, accumulated together, resulted in the current situation.
Why is it so difficult to like someone and want to be with her?
"I can see that you like Ying Kexin very much."
"I like it very much." Shi Yan nodded. "I have never loved someone so much. I can give up everything for her. As long as I am with her, nothing else matters."
"I'm envious that young lovers like you have such perseverance."
Shi Yan lowered his head, unable to answer.
To be honest, I have no confidence.
It's not certain that he can really change Ying Ke's heart.
But one thing will never change, that is, I like Ying Kexin, and I will never change or give up.
"Ying Kexin, does he like you?"
"Really?"
"She is very concerned. This morning, she asked you where you were going."
"real."
"Come on, I'm optimistic about you."
The landlord raised his fist to cheer him up.
Shi Yan took a deep breath and nodded firmly.
Ying Kexin was alone in the room and never came out or had breakfast until nine o'clock in the evening.
Shi Yan looked at the time and felt that a long time had passed, but in fact it was less than ten minutes.
He finally couldn't help but get up.
I washed the apples and took them upstairs.
It's okay to hug her as if nothing happened.
I want to take care of her closer.
There are all kinds of thoughts in my mind.
He took the washed fruit and came to Ying Kexin's door.
"Knock knock!"
Knocked on the door a few times.
There was no response from inside, but the light was on, so he probably wasn't sleeping.
"It's me, Ying Kexin. You haven't eaten dinner either. If you don't have an appetite, just eat some fruit." After saying this, he waited for a reply, but there was none. There was nothing. "Sorry, I have to come in."
Shi Yan opened the door and as soon as he walked in, he was stunned.
Ying Kexin was lying on the bed in pain, with blood underneath her body, which had stained the white sheets red.
