4:59 am.
The distant city of Dameng.
A woman with double ponytails was lying on a soft big bed, soundly asleep.
There was a happy smile on her lips, as if she was having an unforgettable dream.
As time passed, the smile on her lips gradually disappeared, and even her two thin eyebrows could not help but frown.
It was as if her sweet dream was disappearing, like it was being replaced by some kind of nightmare.
Dream world.
The woman looked at the colorful world around her. The colorful world was constantly fading and gradually turning dark. She began to feel scared and fearful in her heart.
It's this dream again.
Why this dream again?
Last time, she dreamed of this.
She saw her first child.
The child was walking here alone, walking toward the depths of darkness.
She didn't know why she had such nightmares.
Her first child is also named Zhang Fan.
Later, because of some things, the couple abandoned him.
This woman with twin ponytails is none other than Zhang Fan's biological mother.
"It's so cold here."
Although it was a dream world, the temperature here was terrifyingly cold, making her shiver.
This kind of coldness penetrated deep into the bones, and even if she wore clothes, it would not have much effect.
The woman was very scared and tried to look around, trying to find a way to leave.
However, no matter what she did, it was of no avail and she still couldn't leave.
Knowing that she was dreaming, the woman pinched her thighs hard, trying to force herself to wake up in this way.
However, this method is completely ineffective, and it is also impossible to wake up from the dark nightmare.
Gradually, the woman began to become anxious. She forced herself to hold on to her inner fear and had no choice but to continue walking forward.
Maybe, there is a way to get out of here in the darkness ahead.
The woman walked slowly with uneasiness in her heart.
After walking for an unknown amount of time, she suddenly stopped suddenly. Her whole body seemed to be frozen in place, and she no longer dared to move forward.
Just because, directly in front of her, nearly twenty meters away, a young man wearing tattered clothes appeared.
The young man walked forward step by step, walking towards the depths of darkness.
He walked very slowly and staggered, as if there was something wrong with his legs and feet.
After seeing the young man, the woman looked complicated and fell into deep silence.
It's him.
It's him again.
His first child.
She met him in that nightmare last time.
At first, I thought that the other person was my current son, but when I ran over, I realized that it was not the case.
He was the first child he abandoned.
Staring at his back, the woman's expression was extremely complicated and her eyes were a little sour, but this time, she did not run forward.
Yesterday, the other party learned their current address from somewhere and came directly to the door.
This frightened her.
I live a happy life now, my husband has a successful career, and I have a very obedient child.
If the first child comes to recognize them, their happy family will be shattered.
Therefore, she finally made up her mind and expelled him loudly, not daring to recognize him.
At this time, the woman just looked at the other person's lonely and thin back quietly, her fists were clenched tightly, and her body was trembling a little.
If those things hadn't happened back then, maybe their family could still live together happily.
But...everything is gone.
Things have happened, and so many years have passed. Now, talking about these things has no meaning.
Just when the woman's expression was complicated and she was lost in long-lasting memories, the young man in front of her suddenly stumbled and fell directly to the ground.
Seeing the other party fall, the woman's heart suddenly trembled. After hesitating for a few seconds, she slowly loosened her clenched fists.
Perhaps out of a mother's instinct of maternal love for her child, she subconsciously took steps and trotted over.
To her, this was a dream after all.
Meeting each other in a dream shouldn't be a big deal.
The woman got closer and closer to the young man who fell to the ground.
But the strange thing is that every time she gets closer, the young man's body will strangely shrink in size at a speed visible to the naked eye.
It's like growing in reverse, changing from an adult state back to a child.
Ten meters, eight meters, six meters, four meters, one meter, getting closer and closer, and soon came to the young man's side, but before she could reach out to help him, in the next second, the entire dark dream world, Suddenly the world was spinning, the scene changed rapidly, and the appearance changed in the blink of an eye.
When the woman reacted, she found herself in a hospital corridor.
Looking at the surrounding scene, the woman quickly recognized where this was.
This is the hospital where she gave birth to her first child.
At that time, due to a sudden incident, she suffered heavy bleeding at home and was rushed to the hospital for a caesarean section.
Later, she stayed in this hospital for a period of time, so she was no stranger to the surrounding environment.
At this time, the door to the delivery room of the hospital suddenly opened, and a nurse walked out holding a newborn baby.
The nurse came out and started calling loudly for the child's father.
As she shouted, a handsome man in a black coat ran over quickly.
The woman in the hospital corridor was obviously stunned when she saw this handsome man.
Because she recognized who this man was.
He is her husband and the father of her child, Zhang Chuzuo.
Maybe it was because of the dream that Zhang Chuzuo couldn't see any trace of her existence at this time, so he ran straight through her body and went to the nurse.
Zhang Chuzuo looked at his newborn child with excitement on his face and tears of joy in his eyes.
But what the nurse said next knocked him from the top of his happiness to the bottom of the abyss.
The nurse said that because the child was born prematurely, he might have some congenital defects.
Upon hearing this, Zhang Chuzuo was immediately dumbfounded and froze on the spot.
After handing the baby in her arms to Zhang Chuzuo, the nurse turned and left.
Looking at the baby in his arms, Zhang Chuzuo felt very disappointed, and no longer had the slightest bit of excitement and joy.
After a while, his wife was pushed out.
When the woman saw this, her expression became even more complicated. After she gave birth to the child, she had been in a coma and was completely unaware of these things.
She sighed, walked to Zhang Chuzuo, and looked down at the child in his arms.
The child in Zhang Chuzuo's arms was very cute and very small. He didn't even open his eyes.
When the woman saw this, she couldn't help but want to touch it with her hand.
However, before he got really close, the entire dream scene immediately shattered.
A new picture reappeared.
The woman's eyes flashed. When she came to her senses, she found that she had arrived at her home in Xianghua Village.
This home is both strange and familiar.
She hasn't been back here for a long time.
Looking at the decoration of the home, the woman burst into tears, wondering why she dreamed of this place.
Soon a loud and harsh sound caught her attention.
Following the direction from which the sound came, she came to the courtyard and saw the young Zhang Chuzuo and his former self having a fierce quarrel.
And in the corner not far from them, their child was huddled in the corner, crying in fear, trembling all over, and with tears on his face.
Their child was short, pale, and thin, and looked to be no more than three years old.
When the woman saw this scene, her heart trembled.
Seeing the child crying so painfully, with his face turning red, for a moment, she felt a mixture of emotions in her heart, with an indescribable sadness and bitterness.
At that time, her child was in very poor health and had some slight disabilities. In order to treat his disease, the couple ran around and went to the hospital every day to see him.
However, they visited many hospitals in Dujiang City, but could not find a cure. Moreover, their family's savings were almost all used up, and in the end they could not even afford a hundred yuan for travel expenses.
Gradually, the couple started endless quarrels over their children, and they were about to get divorced.
Every time they quarrel, the children will tremble with fear and cry loudly.
At that time, they never considered the children's feelings.
Now it seems that the people who are hurt the most by family disharmony are their own children.
Seeing the child crying, the woman walked forward slowly, wanting to put him in her arms and give him a hug.
But before she could get closer, the dream image was shattered again.
The fragments all over the sky turned into colorful foam and dissipated.
Soon, a new dream image appeared here.
This time, the woman found herself on the streets of Xianghua Village.
She saw her child, not far away, being beaten, kicked, and cursed wantonly by a group of village children.
They are calling their child a cripple and a picked-up wild child.
Seeing this scene, the woman's heart trembled again, and her fists clenched unconsciously, as if she rushed forward to teach these hateful dead children a lesson.
Her child, because he was born prematurely, had some congenital lameness.
The doctor said that this kind of situation can be recovered bit by bit through acquired efforts.
Finally, the woman, unable to suppress her inner anger any longer, rolled up her sleeves and rushed forward.
Although she was dreaming at the moment, she couldn't bear to see her child being scolded and bullied by others.
She walked over with momentum, about to pull away a group of dead children, but the moment her hands came into contact with each other, her body penetrated them directly.
It seems that all the pictures and scenes that exist here are illusions and bubbles, and there is no substantial body.
After it penetrated their bodies, the woman was obviously stunned for a moment.
And when she turned around in a daze, she saw that her child, unable to bear the bullying of these dead children, finally broke out, rushed forward regardless, and struggled with a fat child.
Because she had been weak and sick since she was a child, her child was pushed to the ground by the fat child just by looking at him. At the same time, he called the other children and started punching and kicking him.
The moment I saw this fat kid, the memories that had been buried deep in my mind were awakened.
"It's him?!"
This child made a deep impression on women.
Because, back then, my child was scolded a few times by the fat kid, so at night when my husband and I were not paying attention, we secretly took the rat poison from the corner and ran to the fat kid's house to throw it in. The poison was later discovered by Zhang Chuzuo in time, so he did not make a big mistake.
After a while, the dead children finally stopped their violent behavior and turned around and walked towards home.
Her child was thin and lay on the ground panting for a while before struggling to get up.
At this moment, he was covered in mud, and his face was in a mess. He looked dirty, as if he had rolled in a mud puddle.
Seeing this scene, the woman suddenly showed realization, and then a trace of regret emerged from the depths of her eyes.
Back then, when she was busy cooking, she saw her child coming home covered in mud from outside. She thought she had gone to play in the mud. In addition, she had just had a big quarrel with Zhang Chuzuo, and she was catching up. I was so angry that I didn't think too much and directly reprimanded the child. The more I reprimanded, the more the child cried.
The more he cried, the more irritable she became. Finally, she couldn't hold back her anger and slapped the child.
But after this slap, she regretted it, because she used this slap very hard.
This year, her child was just four years old.
The child who received this slap immediately covered his face and limped out.
At this time, the woman watched the child walking towards home. She did not dare to delay any longer and followed closely.
Sure enough, not long after the child walked into his home, he walked out lamely with red eyes and tears on his face.
He squatted on the steps in front of the door and stared blankly for a long time. It wasn't until someone called his name that he gradually raised his head.
Hearing someone calling the child's name, the woman looked up slightly and saw Zhang Chuyou walking over at some point.
Zhang Chuyou liked his child very much, and would usually save any good things for him to eat.
Zhang Chuyou seemed to see the child's grievance, so he gently comforted him for a while, then took out a box of colorful powdered sugar from his pocket and handed it over.
This colorful powdered sugar is called rainbow popping candy. When you put it in your mouth, it will jump around. It is sour, sweet and very interesting.
After getting the rainbow popping candy, her child stopped crying. She wiped away her tears and poured a handful into her mouth.
Seeing that the child was happy, Zhang Chuyou briefly comforted him and finally left with peace of mind.
When the woman saw the rainbow popping candy in the child's hand, her pupils suddenly shrank and she froze.
Isn't this the same rat poison that her child used to put into the well of the fat child's home?
Could it be...
That year, what he had in his hand was not rat poison, but this so-called popping candy?
If that's the case, wouldn't it mean that everything was misunderstood by them?
It seemed that the woman's guess was confirmed. The next moment, Zhang Chuzuo's angry roar suddenly came from the house. He was shouting that the rat poison he placed in the corner was missing.
Maybe his voice was too loud and full of irritability. He immediately frightened the child squatting on the steps outside the door. He thought his parents were coming to deal with him, so he hurriedly put away the rainbow popping candies and pretended to be a child. He put it into his pocket and limped away into the distance.
Seeing this, the woman looked back in the direction of her home, and then looked at where the child was walking away. After much hesitation, she chose to follow the child.
At this time, Zhang Chuzuo and his former self at home rushed out in a hurry.
Listening to their conversations among themselves, the woman learned some information.
That is, they believe that the rat poison placed in the corner of their home was taken away by their children.
So the two of them looked for traces of the child everywhere like crazy.
After an unknown amount of time, they found their child in front of a house with an open door.
This family is the home of the fat child.
At this moment, in the hands of my child, there is still a box of colorful powder tightly clutched.
Seeing what was in the child's hand, Zhang Chuzuo was so angry that he took off his shoes and slapped the child hard on the face, knocking him to the ground.
Zhang Chuzai cursed angrily and beat the child severely.
The child who was beaten screamed hysterically.
His screams quickly attracted all the surrounding neighbors and villagers.
Seeing Zhang Chuzuo beating his child, everyone hurriedly stepped forward to start a fight, fearing that he would break the child.
But Zhang Chuzuo ignored this, as if he didn't want to be laughed at, so he angrily took the child home.
But my younger self was watching from the side and had no intention of stopping him.
In her opinion, if her child makes such a mistake and doesn't discipline him more, what will happen when he grows up?
The woman watched the child being taken away by Zhang Chuzuo, and the head of her fist clenched again.
Looking down at the rainbow popping candies scattered on the ground, she felt a sharp pain in her heart for some unknown reason, as if she was dripping blood.
It turns out that the truth back then was actually like this.
It turns out that all this was a misunderstanding.
In order to learn more information.
The woman quickened her pace and followed closely.
After a while, she arrived at the door of her house, but she had just stepped into the courtyard.
The whole dream was shattered again.
New dream images resurfaced.
And she happened to walk into it and saw her child.
Her child huddled in the corner of the bedroom, silent and silent, with his head buried deeply.
In the living room, Zhang Chuzuo had another fierce quarrel with his former self.
Zhang Chuzuo was complaining to her about why the child she gave birth to had such a character, which had reached such a heinous level.
Hearing the familiar quarrel, the woman swallowed, moved closer to the closed door, magically passed through, and came to the living room.
Zhang Chuzuo angrily held a box and threw it to the ground.
In just a moment, the colorful powder in the box fell to the ground.
On the ground, two water cups were broken, and some powder remained in the cups.
Looking at the scene in front of her, the woman's expression changed.
This was the scene when the child was poisoned in the eyes of the couple.
But......
How to explain this scene?
Is this the truth? Or is there another hidden agenda?
The women fell silent.
Another half hour passed before Zhang Chuzuo slammed the door and walked out, leaving his former self sitting alone on the chair, dazed and wiping tears.
After a while, the bedroom door opened, and the child walked out lamely and came to his mother. He wanted to explain something, but before he could finish speaking, his former self involuntarily raised his hand again. Slap the kid.
She also slapped her hard, and it made a crisp sound, which was particularly harsh in the living room which was not very spacious.
In fact, even the child's nostrils were slapped with blood.
Maybe her heart was too heavy, or her thoughts were too messy. In the past, she didn't even raise her head, but still lowered her head and wiped her tears.
Her child's eyes were filled with tears. He covered the beaten cheek hard and bit his lower lip. He was stunned to endure it. He silently carefully picked up the broken water glass on the ground and threw it into the trash can piece by piece. , but in the process of throwing it, his finger was cut by the glass fragments, and he didn't know it.
After disposing of the glass fragments on the ground, he bent down to pick up the overturned boxes scattered on the ground, held them in his arms and walked into the bedroom.
As soon as he entered the bedroom, he immediately collapsed on the floor, unable to suppress his grievances any longer, and began to cry silently.
While crying silently, he grabbed the colorful powder from the box and put it in his mouth.
One bite, two, three bites, chewing numbly.
The woman stood in front of the child and stared at it for a long time.
At this moment, she finally completely believed that the so-called poison was also colorful popping candy.
It should have been given by her brother-in-law Zhang Chuzuo.
Seeing this, the picture of the dream was shattered again.
The scene before his eyes suddenly fell apart.
At the same time, a new picture arrived again.
This time, the scene came to Zhang Chuzuo and her before, carrying large and small bags and preparing to leave home.
They quietly left their home where they had lived for many years at around four in the morning, before it was completely dark.
After walking out of the gate, the two of them didn't stop at all, and without any hesitation, they headed straight to the outside of Xianghua Village in the distance.
Their departure did not alarm anyone or attract anyone's attention.
The woman stood outside the door, watching Zhang Chuzuo and his former self gradually go away. Her mood was extremely complicated at this time, and her body was shaking unconsciously.
That year, after discussion, they finally made up their mind to leave home and work hard outside.
They were extremely disappointed in their child.
No matter how hard the two of them tried, he was still so unsatisfied.
He has a vicious heart and poisons others, even poisoning them.
What is the difference between this kind of behavior and that of the devil?
So, they were disappointed, gave up, and felt chilled, so they left.
Once they left, they never came back.
They went to Dameng City for development, started a arduous business, and then worked hard until today.
In the fourth year after arriving in Dameng City, a new child was born.
They named the child exactly the same as the first child.
They are all called Zhang Fan.
The second child has a very good character and moral character. He has known how to be filial to his parents since he was a child. He has no congenital disabilities and is a healthy and normal person.
After he was born, the couple fell in love with him very much.
From then on, they completely gave up the idea of returning to Xianghua Village.
It can be regarded as abandoning the first child in a real sense.
Sometimes, they often think again, obviously the two children are their own flesh and blood, why is there such a big gap?
The woman's eyes gradually became moist, and she looked at the child slumped on the ground, feeling distressed and guilty for the first time.
It turned out that I had misunderstood him all these years.
Perhaps, he was a good boy from beginning to end.
It's just that I have never really believed in him.
He must have had a hard time these years.
Without the company of the two of him, how many hardships and setbacks would he have encountered.
Thinking of all that might have happened over the years, tears slowly flowed from the woman's eyes.
At this moment, she wanted to rush forward, hold the child tightly in her arms, and apologize to him.
