["—Listen, dear, dear, you have to remember."]
【"You are a unique existence."】
["You should remember that you are the leading actor on the stage of your own life and the brightest color in the painting."]
["You should remember that you are a flying chick, a shining star, and a glorious future."]
["Remember, you have the vast sky and sea, you write about miners who died and the bloody truth, you care about food and vegetables, and you see injustice and indignation against worldly affairs in your eyes."]
["You use the pen as a sword, break out of the cocoon, and you can build your own tower."]
["You have to remember that you are never anyone's shadow."]
["You should not become the cornerstone of standardization, there will always be light in your eyes."]
[“—You are always encouraged to be creative.”]
["You [fight to the death], you [God rewards those who work hard], you gradually understand that the slogans you wrote are also warning yourself."]
【"The land deserves to be loved, and the world will always be wonderful."]
["...and you have an unlimited future."]
…
The drizzle like a bead curtain gradually formed a line, laying a heavy rain curtain outside the cave.
It seemed as if the sky was pouring water from all over the world, and the sound of continuous rain gradually drowned everything.
Inside the cave, the blood-red color was vividly dancing.
The shivering girl hugged her body, her head lowered, her whole body curled up, bright colors dancing on her hospital gown.
When she raised her head, the light in her eyes was like a whale about to sink to the bottom.
"Guilty, you say?" she asked.
"Well." Su Mingan said: "It's not a shame to admit that you are ordinary. The same is true for being willing to be ordinary. We should be free to choose our own lifestyle. But... there are always people who will feel guilty for this - Dongxue, When you made this choice not to face it, did you ever regret it in your heart?"
"..." Dongxue tilted her head.
"But, I remember..." she said.
She said and suddenly stood up.
The thin hospital gown clung to her body like pieces of paper, folding up as she stood up. Her wet black hair stuck to her cheek. She clenched her fists, her thin body trembling.
"...Someone once told me this."
She sighed and stared at him with dark eyes.
"... That person said, believe what I believe and love what I love - that person said, I am not sick at all." She said: "Is not wanting to grow up a disease? Yang Xia - in my countless The first time I wanted to jump off the roof, it was you who held me and hugged me tightly... You let me continue to face life. Now, you are telling me again, let me face this world…but I dare not.”
"[Time passes quickly in frustration and disappointment, but you haven't even seen the real life.]" Su Mingan said: "If you don't regret these losses, I will no longer advise you."
Dongxue lowered her eyelids.
On her body, the soaked clothes that she had not changed were shaking with her figure, and the ruby pendant on her chest was also glowing with fire. Her black hair was wet and clinging to her body. Under the large hospital gown, her exposed arms were covered with traces of electric shocks and whippings.
...It was a scar engraved in her skin and flesh, etched in the bottom of her heart.
She trembled slightly, then stepped forward and approached slowly.
…
[During the days of correction, Dongxue thought about committing suicide countless times. 】
[Later, she gradually discovered that a woman named Yang Xia appeared beside her. 】
…
Su Ming'an's eyes wandered slightly, his thoughts were a little stagnant, and he was still thinking about the organization of the next sentence.
—— Then he saw Dongxue suddenly stepped forward and hugged him.
The moisture of the rain hit her face, her skin was covered with water stains, her hair scratched his neck, and the wrinkles in her thin clothes were extremely obvious.
At this time, there was nothing charming in his mind, only absurdity.
He knew that Dongxue loved Yangxia, and only Yangxia.
As a visitor from another world who came to the task halfway and talked nonsense for a long time for the last clue, he should not be the object of her affection.
His mind was still full of all kinds of newly organized words. He had divided these words into various sections of persuasion based on Dongxue's possible reactions. However, he did not expect that the other person did not say a word, but directly hugged him and acted violently. He was caught off guard.
He didn't have any heartbeat feeling of being held, and his thoughts were extremely rational at this time.
——He was thinking about whether Dongxue's favorability would change due to his next behavior.
He was thinking rationally here, but the barrage exploded in an instant:
【Holy shit! Holy shit! Holy shit! 】
[She A went up, so decisive——]
[nmd let him go! He is not your Yang Xia! Climb away——]
[This, this is too much. Are you using your strategy time to be so unscrupulous? Let me do it——】
[Holy shit, am I the only one who envies Su Ming'an? 】
[Damn it, you didn’t forget that Dongxue is a boy, right? 】
[Oops, I suddenly don’t envy you anymore. 】
[Faced with this kind of transgender person... some words are really difficult to say. I don't know how to persuade this kind of person. I feel that pushing away will definitely reduce my favorability...]
[Dongxue is also quite pitiful. She just has a disease... a psychological disease. 】
【……】
Dongxue hugged him and closed her eyes.
Her arms seemed a little clammy, the flames did not dry her clothes, and she was shivering all over from the cold.
Su Mingan quickly thought about his next move, and suddenly felt something was wrong.
The neck where Dongxue pressed against his shoulder seemed to have no Adam's apple.
He also felt that the softness against his body did not look like a male body.
"Yang Xia." She suddenly said softly, her voice trembling, as if she just wanted to ask for affirmation: "You are my creation, do you love me?"
When she asked "Do you love me?", her voice was on the verge of pleading, and every word was trembling violently.
…
[Yang Xia appears next to Dong Xue. 】
[But everyone is saying that Yang Xia is fake - she fell in love with her own illusory creation. 】
[Dongxue doesn’t believe it. 】
[She promised Yang Xia that they must live together forever. 】
[But Dongxue gradually discovered that Yang Xia would only persuade her to become better and mature. She confessed to the other party, but was rejected. 】
[Dongxue is very confused. 】
[——Why does the creation not love the Creator? 】
[——Why can’t her illusory creation do everything she wants? 】
…
"..." Su Mingan did not respond.
He was thinking about some possibility.
Some special clues gradually connected in his mind.
"——But, I don't want to grow up." Her mood suddenly fluctuated violently.
It was as if a tight string had been suddenly broken. She opened her red eyes, her whole body was shaking like a sieve, and her tone was hysterical:
"——If you grow up, if you abandon the past...I, I..."
Dongxue's movements became tighter and tighter.
She held him tightly, as if surrounding the whole world.
Her head was buried in his shoulder, and he could feel the warm touch slowly flowing down, mixing with the wet and cold rain.
"Now, in the future, or in the longer future - I will never meet someone like Yang Xia again!"
She roared in pain.
"——I learned nothing from what she taught me, and I possess nothing from the qualities she possesses!"
"This kind of me, this kind of me..."
She closed her eyes and her body shivered with cold.
She had woken up from her late night dreams countless times and saw her figure standing in the brightest place.
Yang Xia raised his eyes, held up his umbrella, and seemed to stay where he was forever, looking at her.
——She has always been childish and has the sin of "not growing up" and the sin of being reprimanded by her parents.
But that person will always stay where he is, waiting for her. Like a blue whale that sank to the bottom of the sea with her, like a bird holding a branch for her.
——In this world where heterosexuals are not tolerated, she experienced an unspeakable secret love.
Across the long years, through cold and summer, summer and winter.
"She will be glad that she met a completely new you." Su Mingan said.
Dongxue's body trembled suddenly.
It was like a mask with bones being torn apart violently. Her emotions fluctuated greatly. She tightened her fingers and strangled him like a pair of claws.
The secret feelings in her heart had long become a peaceful dead lake in her deepest dream, and could no longer withstand any waves.
When she spoke again, her voice was almost hoarse:
"...Yang Xia." She said, "Stop trying to persuade me to mature."
There was a hint of cold pleading in her voice, as if she was afraid that he would reveal something.
"...Please, Yang Xia." She said, "...let me go."
Su Mingan smiled.
He pushed her away.
As Dongxue's mood changed, the clues in his mind were gradually connecting.
When he gently pushed her away and pulled down her wide collar, he saw the condition of her neck.
Dongxue's skin is not delicate, it can even be said to be rough. There are even pinch marks left on the front of her neck after abuse, like a light red stroke.
He confirmed that she didn't have an Adam's apple.
"But I already understand, Dongxue." His tone changed little by little.
Dongxue's body shook violently.
"Dongxue - am I really a figment of your imagination?" He spoke without stopping, and his tone was as decisive as a razor's edge.
Su Mingan knew that his behavior might be cruel.
But he needed that last piece of clue, needed to clear away all the fog.
...Even if it hurts someone.
But he never had the [room] to choose to let someone go just because he felt sorry for them.
He looked at Dongxue, and the softness in his tone disappeared little by little.
"Dongxue - wake up." He said: "Admit who among us is the imaginary existence."
"Ding dong!"
The long-lost system voice rang in Su Mingan's ears, sounding like fairy music in the rain.
The next second, as if some switch had been triggered, a series of system voices sounded in a queue.
"Ding dong! Ding dong! Ding dong!——"
Like dominoes falling in an instant, the prompts of clues and links are endless.
He gradually cleared away the fog and saw the truth that he had ignored.
Dongxue's words echoed in his mind.
[...I have been looking for Yang Xia, looking for her every night. 】
[But she will grow up, mature, and leave me. 】
[…Why does my creation not love her Creator? 】
…
[Clue 1: Yang Xia’s diary, key clue: Dong Xue, a clue link occurs! 】
[Key clue: Xia Luoyang's words, key clue: Linen's words, a clue link occurs! 】
[Key clue·The missing student No. 30, Key clue·Dong Xue’s words, a clue link occurred! 】
…
[Clue link·Xia Luoyang's words: "Yang Xia, you have walked out of the past, why are you coming back?"]
[Clue link·Fax's words: "I remember you, I saw this you who is pursuing [the past], doctor - make peace with your past self."]
[Clue Link·Nocturnal Objects in the Dark Night: "Why do you have to face reality? You are so surrendered to reality, so "healthy" - why do you want to come back?"]
[Clue link·Disappeared student No. 30:
Yang Xia: Transgender, gay, fantasizes about having a virtual girlfriend who is sent in by her mother for correction. (The current condition is improving, and outstanding students are candidates.)]
…
[Conjecture link: - Dongxue, who is actually a boy, has a female body, while Yang Xia, the fantasy girlfriend who was imagined, has a male body. This is inherently contradictory. 】
[Clue link: "She is the only one without a file, the 30th student who disappeared - who is the one who really does not exist?"]
[Clue link completed, you have formed a guess! 】
[You have formed your final guess, please reveal your final inference. 】
…
Su Mingan watched the clues arranged in a row in front of him, and the blue link lines flashed across his field of vision like lightning.
The firelight shone brightly in the cave, and the girl's tears slowly fell down.
"Dongxue." Su Ming'an said: "——The positions between us have been reversed, Dongxue."
The winter snow is trembling.
As if she suddenly woke up from a hazy dream, her hands were shaking and her hair was trembling with her trembling. Her whole body was shaking violently, as if she was about to freeze in the cold rain.
"Ah ha ha ha ha ha……"
She suddenly started laughing, tears falling as she shook.
The blue and white hospital gown that was one size too big completely wrapped her figure. She hugged herself, curled up together, her fingers exerted great force, and her body was stuck on the ground like a stake.
Her throat was as dry as a desert, but not a drop of water could moisten it. The pain lingering like moisture throughout her body was even more obvious. She was mute, gasping for air, inhaling, laughing, and crying.
Like a suddenly cracked wooden board, she stood there, her long hair sticky, her light-colored clothes soaked, like a sheep that might fall down at any time.
To her, the hanging raindrops seemed heavy.
Su Mingan watched this scene in silence.
The firelight danced in his eyes, and through the jumping colors, he saw the long black shadow behind Dongxue reflected in the light, like a gradually expanding abyss.
The sheep in the rain collapsed before his eyes.
With the sound of heavy rain, she fell like a blue whale before his eyes.
It was all so poignant.
Everything was hopeless.
…
…
[Later Dongxue gradually discovered. 】
[——It turns out that she is the one who was created. 】
[And the true correction has been completed, and the mature and steady personality Yang Xia has walked out of the haze of Baisha. 】
[She has been abandoned in the memory of the past. 】
[...Because this society does not need her who cannot adapt and cannot grow up. 】
…
[Yang Xia, a transgender and homosexual patient, has a fantasy virtual girlfriend. 】
[That girlfriend’s name is Dongxue. 】
…
[She thought it was ridiculous. 】
[The world has never let her go. 】
…
[Perfect clearance progress·Escape line: 90%]
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