"Uh-huh-huh-huh--"
The sake he just drank, along with the other things Kotomine Kirei had eaten before, were vomited on the ground - mixed with sweat, tears, and snot.
--what is that! ?
----what is that! ?
Kotomine Kirei's eyes were filled with panic.
joy.
hapiness.
Pleasure.
That comes from the heart.
There is indeed sadness and shock, but it is completely covered by these three emotions.
Claudia
What was I thinking when you died in front of me?
I'm thinking--
If you must die, it is better for me to kill you.
"vomit--"
It was clear that there was nothing more to spit out, but Kotomine Kirei still couldn't control the feeling.
Why? Why?
What was I thinking when I saw my mentor Tohsaka Tokiomi dying in front of me?
I'm thinking--
What a pity, why wasn't I the one to kill?
"vomit--"
"Get up."
Samura suddenly grabbed Kotomine Kirei and threw him on the sofa.
"How is it? How it feels now."
His eyes seemed to be smiling but not smiling, but Kotomine Kirei felt like there was a light on his back.
Pain, but - mixed with uncontrollable joy.
"Why, Assassin? Why?"
"I want blood on my hands, this kind of thing-"
"It seems that you are aware of it yourself?"
Zuocun shook his head.
"But the world view that you have been indoctrinated seems to make you subconsciously ignore what you really want. Therefore, you are even called a saint in the church because you have no desires or desires."
"Haha, a guy who is actually a devil at heart is hailed as a saint in the Holy Church? Don't you find it funny?"
"funny."
Kotomine Kirei's breathing was a little heavy.
"Accept yourself, Kirei, because this is the real you."
Zuo Cun patted his shoulder from behind.
Kotomine Kirei took a deep breath and closed his eyes, seemingly trying to calm down.
There were still big beads of sweat on his head.
Zuo Cun didn't say anything, just sat back on his sofa and began to think about himself.
After a long time, Kotomine Kirei finally calmed down.
A smile suddenly appeared on the corner of his mouth.
"hehe."
“Hahahahaha————”
"Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!"
He burst out laughing, a huge laugh.
The laughter was loud, wild, even harsh.
He laughed until tears came out.
"This - it's really not funny at all!"
With a hand brushing his face, Kotomine Kirei looked up at the slightly swaying crystal lamp, with ecstasy mixed with struggle on his face.
"How evil, how cruel!"
"So this is what I expected?"
There were fine bloodshot eyes in his eyes, and it was completely unclear what the emotion should be in them.
"Such disillusionment and lamentation—are they actually my pleasure?"
"Such filth, distortion, filth - was he born from the bloodline of Kotomine Rimasa?"
"Impossible, this is absolutely impossible. What is this?"
"Could it be that - Kotomine Rizheng gave birth to me after marrying a dog?"
He was ecstatic beyond belief.
My own happiness - actually comes from the suffering of others! ?
This kind of thing, this kind of thing——
"Kirei."
Suddenly, Zuo Cun's voice interrupted his thoughts.
The smile on Kotomine Kirei's face suddenly stopped in place, and he looked in the direction of Zuomura dully.
There was a bit of danger in Zuocun's eyes, but there was a smile on the corner of his mouth.
"How is it? How it feels now."
"Isn't it a pleasant feeling to realize your true side?"
Kotomine Kirei was not greedy for that feeling of pleasure. He closed his eyes again, swallowed, and regained his composure.
"Samura Anno."
"what is your purpose?"
"You don't know what it means to liberate this me from the false me, right?"
The interest in his eyes became more intense.
Anno Samura is such a fascinating man.
Kotomine Kirei felt like he had fallen in love with this man named Samura Ano.
"Because, only in this way can you and I become true masters and slaves, or friends."
Samura placed a bowl of sake in front of Kotomine Kirei.
"Drink it. Although your stomach is empty now and you will definitely feel uncomfortable if you drink it, I think you need this."
He looked at the bowl of sake in silence.
But Kotomine Kirei——I feel a little sick.
Because there was still dirt from his vomiting on the ground.
"I'd better mop the floor first."
Shaking his head, he chose to maintain his dignity.
"I have no opinion."
Shrugging, Samura took another sip of sake.
Kotomine Kirei's eyes were dark, but there was still a smile on his lips - that was something he couldn't suppress.
After mopping the floor and drinking the wine, Kotomine Kirei huddled on the sofa and stared blankly at the ceiling.
This was the happiest day in his twenty-eight years of life.
Because he realized his true self.
But this was also the most devastating day in his twenty-eight years of life.
His father, Kotomine Rimasa, was an extremely upright man. As the son of Kotomine Rimasa, Kotomine Kirei naturally grew up in a positive environment.
He was always chasing something.
Nothing more than this thing.
It was precisely because of this lack of desire that he became a devout believer.
And it is precisely because of this piety that he is known as the incarnation of a saint in the Holy Church.
He does not consider himself a saint.
He just wants to pursue what he wants to pursue.
Today, he knows.
Then it was shattered.
The thing he has been pursuing all this time - is it actually something like this?
nausea.
dirty.
Unbelievable.
He doesn't even know what the meaning of his life is.
unless--
Take action.
To pursue your own pleasure.
Zuo Cun said so.
There is nothing wrong with pursuing pleasure.
"What, do you want to take action?"
"Want to taste that pleasant sweetness?"
Zuomura noticed something strange about Kotomine Kirei. He looked at the beast released by his own hands and said with a smile.
"You said it wasn't a mistake."
"To yourself indeed."
"But for this era and this society, no."
Zuo Cun's smile disappeared. He took a sip of wine and shook his head slightly.
".Then why are you?"
Kotomine Kirei was a little puzzled.
"Because, if you want to restrain the vicious dog, the most important thing is to let the vicious dog appear first, isn't it?"
Zuocun put down the wine bowl.
"Kirei, you realize your happiness."
"but--"
"You can't allow yourself to be happy this way."
Samura looked at Kotomine Kirei seriously and said.
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