Chapter 1875 Suddenly becoming the eldest sister (1)

"I have been kidnapped all my life, kidnapped by the upbringing of my parents, and kidnapped by my identity as the eldest sister."

"I can't see my parents working so hard and always want to share the burden with them. After all, they gave birth to me. My parents are old, in poor health, and my younger siblings make it hard for me to be cruel and careless. I gradually fell into a moral trap and spent my whole life. It's all self-sacrifice and dedication. Even if I suddenly wake up occasionally, I will be so oppressed by the trivial matters of life that I forget to face them. I can't be cruel at all."

"People around me say that my parents gave birth to me and I will repay them throughout my life."

"My parents said that as the eldest sister, I should take care of my younger siblings. My younger siblings will definitely repay me when they grow up and will not forget me as their elder sister."

"I also showed reluctance at the beginning, but there were many comments from all directions. I was unfilial to my parents, and they raised me in vain. My parents had pitiful faces. I was bound and surrounded by these accusations, and I was slowly transformed by them into the hard-working and uncomplaining person. people."

"When my younger siblings grow up, my parents tell me, as the eldest sister, to take more care of them. They told me the same thing before they died, as if I was born to owe them."

"Looking back at my life, what have I gained?"

"I am too tired from this life."

"In the days before my death, I hated myself for why I couldn't be more cruel. Obviously no one cared about me. They didn't really care about me. They just pretended to be pitiful and used family affection to kidnap me and oppress me. Why didn't I resist? Why couldn't I go away? "

Qian Yan: "If you are in the middle of the game and cannot see the whole picture, you will inevitably be confused and deceived by all the illusions."

The sad expression on the face of the white-haired woman holding the teacup froze and she slowly raised her head, her eyes a little confused. After a while, she lowered her head again and her voice was gentler than before: "I thought you would say that poor people must be hateful. People who would scorn me would think I deserved it or kicking me out would not help my wishes come true.”

Qian Yan took a sip from the teacup and said, "Knowing the truth and still stubbornly wanting to know the truth conflicts with my philosophy, so I will drive them out. If your wish is to let your parents, younger brothers and sisters understand that you are good to you and reunite the family, then come with me." If your ideas conflict, you will be kicked out.”

"This shouldn't be your wish, right?"

The white-haired woman quickly shook her head: "I have been kidnapped for the rest of my life and it is really hopeless to have such a stupid wish again."

"Then why do I spurn you? You are not a god, you are just an ordinary person who was mentally controlled by a group of people and fell into the quagmire unable to struggle out. How many people in this floating world can keep their minds clear at all times? They were all your relatives once. You are so soft-hearted that you don’t want to see them suffer. This is a normal human condition. And they will pretend to be pitiful and brainwash you all the time. No one will remind you that you are so busy that you can’t even eat a hot meal. You can fall asleep as soon as you put it on the pillow. There are so many Time to think. When you come to your senses, a lifetime has passed."

The white-haired woman cried out loudly. Yes, the most lucid time she had was during the two days before her death;

Lying on the hospital bed, looking at the ceiling and recalling her life because she had the most free time these days, she finally figured it out.

But it's too late.

"You can tell me your wish."

(End of chapter)