The memory fragments were put together, and finally pieced together the day she had forgotten, the day that was related to her life and death.
Originally, she shouldn't forget.
Why did An Shuang hide it from her? She entered the Sunrise Game, and she completely forgot about what happened before. Someone implanted the memory of 'voluntarily participating in the test' into her mind, confusing the previous situation.
They returned to the tree house, and the sky was getting brighter.
Shen Tianhuan asked her to go to sleep first, but she refused. On such a cold day, she stood outside the tree house and looked up at the sky.
"What are you looking at?" Shen Tianhuan gave her the animal skin cloak.
"Thanks."
"I'm looking at the sky."
"Sky? Yes, the weather is very good today, it shouldn't snow." Shen Tianhuan said.
Zhang Hanju said, "Have you ever thought about what is behind this sky? Could it be another world?"
Shen Tianhuan chuckled, "It should still be sky outside."
It was also such a good weather day that she got off work very early that day. On the mountain road to the nursing home, she happened to see a group of teenagers from a mountain village going fishing.
She just passed him by, but she stood and looked at him for a long time. He was also the same age back then, and he was as high-spirited and young as them.
The mountain spring reflected her face. Now that she has grown up, her facial features have lost their childishness. Time flies so fast, as if she has never lost anything.
Turn around and continue walking towards the sanatorium.
There were screams of surprise from the teenagers behind her, and one of the children even bumped into her, looking panicked.
Zhang Hanju stopped him, "What happened?"
He was speechless with fear, "Over there, over there..."
Zhang Hanju ran over and saw that the young man who was trapped by high-voltage electricity because of swinging the pole had fainted. The sizzling light was still clinging to him like a ghost through the fishing line. However, he seemed to have lost consciousness, and his arms Turning black, Zhang Hanju suddenly thought of Zhang Ziyang at that second.
She kicked the boy away with a flying kick.
The thread of death hung in the sky. She never thought that the thread would fall on her shoulders. A huge electric current immediately penetrated her body. At that moment, her eyes went dark and she could not see anything.
There were many noisy sounds around her, and she vaguely felt a pair of hands pressing on her heart, and someone calling her name.
But it was too difficult to breathe, and even my eyelids felt as if they were heavily smeared with lead powder, and I couldn't even lift them.
But strangely, her heart became lighter and lighter, and she could fly. She was no longer trapped in the cage of her youth.
Zhang Ziyang saved her, but she lost him forever. As time went by, that kind of self-blame did not fade away, but became heavier and heavier like a sponge that absorbed water. Her heart was full of wounds. Day by day, there is a venom called self-blame and guilt.
She often felt sad and miserable in the dead of night. She could not forgive herself in her life. She did not dare to watch more scenes of a family eating and having fun in a restaurant. She would not even watch movies about family harmony. After spending so many years , she still couldn't heal herself.
She has been living like this since she was fourteen years old.
After Zhang Ziyang left, her mother began to become a little strange. She would often catch her in front of her and ask her repeatedly, "Why is this not the one who died?" Why is it my Ziyang?
Asking day after day, she was completely broken.
Later, the doctor diagnosed her with a mental illness. When she recovered, she would apologize to her from time to time, saying that she shouldn't hit her with things. A scar on Zhang Hanju's forehead was made at that time.
When she was ill, Zhang Hanju was the person she hated the most in the world. She wished she could be quartered and hacked to death.
On the way from a girl to an adult, there are always people who have growing pains, but for her, it was a matter of survival or death.
Maybe she should die, as her mother had said a million times.
But she was worried, afraid, and worried about letting Zhang Ziyang's life down. He had entrusted her life to the shore with his own life, so how could she give up so easily.
The two emotions exerted pressure from both sides, often making her breathless.
When that time comes, she will watch people killing fish and disemboweling them in markets or supermarkets. When she was young, Zhang Ziyang always imitated people killing fish with her, because there was a vegetable market outside her house with a large fish tank. stalls with all kinds of fish. After school, they pass by the vegetable market and stand in front of the fish for a long time.
When a customer comes, the boss will quickly knock the live fish out, or throw it to the ground. After the fish stops moving, he will then scrape the scales of the fish, open the belly and take out the internal organs, then clean the gills, and finally rinse it. Give the blood to the guest.
This fishmonger is the most agile person Zhang Hanju and Zhang Ziyang have ever met. Zhang Ziyang even dreamed of having his own fish shop for a period of time when he was a child.
Once, when she came back from studying at night, it was too dark in the alley. A wild dog came from nowhere and pounced next to Zhang Hanju's bicycle. She was so frightened that she screamed. Zhang Ziyang came to drive away the wild dog and was bitten by the dog. There were bite marks on his calf, and she felt very sad every time she saw the bite mark on him wearing shorts in the summer.
After that, she vowed to protect him, but she didn't do it. That kind of pain was hidden in a corner of her body. She couldn't tell what it felt like. She only felt that her whole body was covered with ice, and she couldn't get warm at all.
The moment the electric current passed through her body, she actually relaxed in the extreme pain, as if she had really saved Zhang Ziyang. Through the gap of time, she had saved him and protected him.
So she never regretted saving that strange boy that day.
Because she not only saved him, but also redeemed herself.
She didn't understand the boundary between life and death, and it wasn't until many years later that she dreamed back countless midnights, and saw that familiar face frozen at the same age in her sleep, that she finally understood that she had lost him after all.
Shen Tianhuan continued to ask, "What happened to that friend of yours?"
"I don't know. She didn't tell me what happened next."
"I guess she has forgiven herself."
"Why?" Zhang Hanju asked him.
"Because on the day she decided to save people, she saved three people, her brother, a strange boy, and herself. Believe me, she will definitely have a new beginning and a new future."
Zhang Hanju sat on the fallen tree trunk in front of the tree house and thought for a long time. This time he realized that the most difficult thing for people is to let themselves go.
She sighed softly, stood up, and breathed hot air into her hands, "Well, you're right."
"Let's go inside, it's cold outside."
She said, "I want to go for a while. You go in first. I'll be back in a while."
"I will accompany you. It would be bad if there were wild beasts."
Zhang Hanju said, "I won't go far."
"You said the same thing last time."
"I really won't go far this time, and the knife is still here with me, look." She shook it twice.
"Okay, you go ahead. After I count to five hundred, if you haven't come back yet, I will go find you."
"Five hundred seconds, isn't it too little? Count to a thousand?"
"Eight hundred seconds," he said.
"Then go in, it's really cold." She pushed him in and gave him the cloak.
The contact screen unfolded smoothly this time.
The other party is Zhong Xingfeng.
He was about to extract her memory code, but Zhang Hanju interrupted him and said bluntly, "I have already remembered it."
Zhong Xingfeng invaded her thoughts, "It seems that you have been through a lot recently."
"Why did you erase my previous memories?"
"Didn't you take a look at the map that Yang Jiajia and Shao Ze found?"
"What other memories did you erase of mine?"
"Remember to look at it next time so you can record it."
"Have I forgotten anything else?" Zhang Hanju knew that although they were talking to each other, he was actually listening, as he always did, "Tell me, what else have I forgotten?"
Zhong Xingfeng didn't speak, but Ye Xuyang's voice came from behind him, "What did you remember?"
"I was shocked and had a cardiac arrest. I could hear what you said at that time."
Ye Xuyang touched his nose and said, "You forgot it yourself, no one will erase your memory."
"I don't believe that I can completely forget the memory of being seriously injured before entering the game. I can't remember it at all. I don't believe that you didn't interfere at all." Zhang Hanju confronted them.
Ye Xuyang's expression changed, "Believe it or not, keep a close eye on Yang Jiajia. The system is unstable now. Please report to the backend at any time."
"Where's An Shuang?" Zhang Hanju asked.
Ye Xuyang said, "No matter how angry you are, remember that it has nothing to do with her. She has done everything for you..."
Zhong Xingfeng had already cut off the contact, "Okay."
"She looked like she was looking for someone to hold her accountable. I was speechless when I saw her. I also wanted to ask An Shuang why you didn't let me tell her everything. She can still retain consciousness now. It's all because of our mercy."
"When we were in contact, her various indexes were declining, which means that when the two worlds are connected, she can't sustain it for long as a bridge. Even if I'm not around next time, you must make a quick decision."
"I don't understand why you all protect her, for fear that she will be broken if she knows the truth."
Zhong Xingfeng opened the multi-screen, "Sunrise Game is not that simple. I want to know what secrets are hidden in it, don't you?"
"I'm not that curious," he said.
"The moment a person loses his curiosity, he is dead."
Ye Xuyang was dissatisfied, "That's nonsense."
