Fairy Xuanyi looked at Han Yun's face, her eyes softened a lot, and with hope in her heart, she was no longer so fierce.
In her heart, everything was Han Yun. She had never thought about what she would do if Han Yun died, or how she would live.
No matter where Han Yun is, as long as she knows that he is still there, it is enough.
She has never faced up to her feelings for Han Yun.
Until just now, she was sitting cross-legged in the room meditating as usual, practicing with a pure heart, when she suddenly received the bad news of Han Yun's death. At that moment, she panicked and became confused.
After many years of self-cultivation, once she failed, she could no longer hold back the waves in her heart. There was only one voice in her heart telling her,
Impossible, impossible.
I can't lose him.
She asked Qi Xiaoyu in a stern tone on the spiritual slip, but in fact her writing hand was shaking.
At that moment, she really wanted to cut Qi Xiaoyu into pieces. If it weren't for her, Han Yun would not have suffered this disaster.
After she forced herself to calm down, she came over immediately to see him.
She kept saying, you need to wake up quickly.
But she was thinking in her heart, if you die, I will not live.
How can I live without you...
She wanted to take Han Yun away because she wanted to bury herself with him.
She is a smart woman. She has long discovered that her friendship with Han Yun does not seem to be as simple as that of master, apprentice, aunt and nephew. There is also a different kind of complex emotion in it.
She knew it all, she knew everything, she just didn't want to admit it.
She is a proud woman. She is unwilling to admit that she has "unreasonable thoughts" about her apprentice, is unwilling to accept this relationship that violates secular ethics, is unwilling to be poked in the spine by others, and is unwilling to share the same feelings with others. They share the same bed and serve the same husband, and they are even less willing to ruin other people's feelings. m..
Even less willing to surrender to myself.
Before there was no hope, what she thought was that if they could not share the same bed in life, then they could share the same hole in death.
But now, there was hope again, and she gradually calmed down, burying that friendship deep in her heart again.
Her love is not humble, only arrogant.
The room became quiet. Qi Xiaoyu sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Fairy Xuanyi's dreamy look. She didn't feel anything was wrong.
In her opinion, Han Yun was brought up by Fairy Xuanyi, and the two have a very deep relationship. It is normal for Fairy Xuanyi to care about Han Yun.
On the contrary, she felt extremely guilty. Because of her, Han Yun was forced to stay at Yumen Pass for three years, was injured by the Peacock King, and was punished by heaven for killing enemies, all because of her.
If Han Yun really can't wake up, let alone Fairy Xuanyi, she won't forgive herself.
Fairy Xuanyi kept holding Han Yun's hand, waiting for his body to regain its temperature and his pulse to resume beating.
In the room, there was only the slight crackling sound of candlesticks burning.
"Actually, I really don't like you."
Fairy Xuanyi suddenly spoke, which startled Qi Xiaoyu, but immediately she lowered her head.
"It's right that you don't like me. After all, it's all because of me that he..."
"But you're actually pretty good."
Fairy Xuanyi interrupted her.
"ah?"
Qi Xiaoyu looked at Fairy Xuanyi in confusion.
Fairy Xuanyi smiled and said softly,
"Actually, I saw that you had feelings for him from the first time I met you in the Land of Demonic Fall. At that time, he was still Qingyu, and you didn't know that he was Han Yun.
I have been observing you along the way. I am a good judge of people. I can tell that you are a kind, sincere and warm-hearted girl. Even though your background is not very good, as long as you are a good person, it will be fine.
I don't like you because you took him away from me. He has never been away from me for such a long time since he was a child.
But he will eventually grow up, marry a wife, have children, and build a family.
Then I have to find him a suitable wife.
After my observations along the way, I think you and he are quite suitable.
You have something that he doesn't have that can fill his void. "
Qi Xiaoyu said doubtfully,
"Ah? What can I have that he doesn't have? He is smart, talented, and strong. He has no tricks left in everything, and he is ruthless in doing things, leaving no consequences. He is such a perfect person, what can I do? What’s better than him?”
"Yes, your kindness and compassion are what he doesn't have."
Fairy Xuanyi smiled and said,
"This child has had no father or mother since he was a child. I am in charge of Yifeng's affairs. There are big and small things happening all the time, and I don't have much time to teach him and protect him.
He is the most insecure person there is.
So later, when he was sixteen years old, he became even more insecure after being assassinated by an assassin from the Demon Cult.
He disguised himself as a useless person and lowered his sense of existence. Even I was deceived, but he was secretly practicing some of Yu Perry's techniques.
He has been pretending like this for three years. He obviously has great strength, but he is willing to be a useless person in front of everyone. He sweeps the floor all day long and is ridiculed and looked down upon by others. He swallows all the bitter pills just so that he can not lead others. People pay attention just to save their lives.
It wasn't until before I went to the Land of Demonic Fall that I caught him in action. He had killed several Demon Cult assassins by himself and was still flying in the sky. He couldn't hide it from me anymore, so he told me the truth.
But even though he was so strong, he still didn't feel safe. After going down the mountain, he had to disguise himself and use Qingyu's fake identity.
Until the end, he couldn't pretend anymore, and had to use the power of Yin Yang Sect to grab the Eight Wonders Pearl, and then he tore off the mask. At that time, he shocked the world. When people learned that he was not a useless person, he was already able to Fighting at the second level, one can be said to be invincible in the world.
I say this just to let you know that his stability and ruthlessness actually come from his insecurity.
The reason why he frequently kills people in his entire family is because he is afraid that others will come back to take revenge on him. He is afraid that if he kills the younger ones, the older ones will take revenge. He is also afraid that if he kills the older ones, the younger ones will grow up again.
Therefore, he simply killed them all to solve the problem and deter the world at the same time. "
Hearing this, Qi Xiaoyu looked at Han Yun distressedly and murmured,
"It turns out that he is so timid and scared, but he has never told me. He has always acted very strong, and I have always regarded him as my support. I have never really cared about his heart. I Damn it."
"That was not what I meant."
Fairy Xuanyi said with a smile,
"What I mean is that Han Yun was too deeply possessed by the devil because he killed too many people. I told him when I separated from you after he came back from the Land of Devil's Fall.
His murderous nature is so strong that he feels that all the troubles in the world can be solved by killing people. Sooner or later, he will become completely possessed. "
